Losing weight and getting healthy this time

Heavenly Father,

Thank You for answering my prayers this morning.  I was so worried and anxious.  I hopefully did not ask amiss.  I have sometimes self-centered prayer.  However, I have another self-centered prayer, but in a good way.  It concerns my health.  I am considered stage 2 super morbid obese, which means that my BMI is super large for my height because of my weight.  I have no idea what I need to do. I ask that You would give me wisdom, healing, and clarity on how to lose weight.  I also ask for a change in my mindset as I let go of my frustrations.  I have my issues, yes, but I believe that they can be overcome.  How, I have no clue.  I have a petition and that is for not only wisdom and clarity, but also guidance in my journal.  The benefits are what I need to drum into my head.  Not only that, but I ask that You would take my anxieties and cares about this particular subject.

May the Lord Jesus give me rest for I have been burdened with this issue.  I have made no plans for a New Years' resolution, but if I were to make one, it would be to be held accountable so that I would be healthier, happier, and live with less guilt.  I also ask for direction in this area.  I weigh over 300 lbs, but I have no idea what I need to do in order to lose weight.  All I know is that I don't wish to gain anymore weight.  My making plans have caused a great burden upon me and I ask that You would take my burdens away, for I have been labored and heavy laden, and I still am.  Without asking amiss, I ask for help in this journey.

I have gotten too complacent and I have gotten to comfortable with my weight despite everything else.  I don't want to get too comfortable, but I am afraid to fail.  Lord, help me to overcome this fear, for I doubt that I will lose this weight.  I fear failure and never losing weight.  I am living my worst fears and I ask that You would help me overcome those fears and those doubts.  I cast them over to You.  I finally ask that You would give me the confidence to keep on going no matter what.  I ask all of this with Thanksgiving and for peace of mind in Jesus' name,
Amen.

Relationship

Lord,

I ask that You would draw me closer to You.  Thank You for Your many blessings and for answered prayers.  My request also is that You would teach me not to pray amiss.  Thank You for guiding me in this manner.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Thank You, O Lord

Lord,

Thank You for answering my prayers.  You have forgiven me.   You have saved me and guided me along the way.  I have become older and also wiser.  Thank You for allowing me to not take stuff for granted.  You put me here for a reason.  Thank You for giving me that reason.  Thank You for whatever purpose You have given me.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

A prayer about sin

Father,

Forgive me.  I am not sure I am happy with myself right now.  I just wish that I could be, but spiritually and emotionally I am feeling down.  I repent of what I have done.  I have made some bad decisions lately.  I need help in overcoming these issues.  Help me, and forgive me, Lord.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

My Christmas Letter/Prayer

Father,

I don't know what to do.  All I ask is that You would forgive me for my lies.  I don't feel good about this.  I ask that You would help me overcome this issue.

Also, I wonder if Jesus appreciated all of the holy celebrations of His birth.  Even though I have my own reasons for celebrating the Lord, is it wrong to do so on a Day in which He probably not born?

I would like to, however, wish Jesus a Happy Birthday.  Thank You for dying on the cross for me and for rising on the third day.  Thank You for Your salvation and Your forgiveness.

In His name I pray, Amen

Prayers about different issues

Father,

I do ask that You would help me see my life and my obsessive thoughts in a different way.  What I ask for is clarity.  I also ask for wisdom, that I may not spend so much of my days worrying and obsessing.

Help me to see that there are those who are in need of help and wisdom this holiday season.  There are people in some parts of the world, where Christmas is not celebrated, have many poor and starving people.  May we in the rich nations not forget them this season.

I wonder how You really feel about Christmas.  It does have pagan origins, so I realize that I have to be separate.  It has also been commercialized, so that could be a love of money comes in.  I have wondered for the past few years what Your word says about Christmas.  Does it honor You or does it betray You?

Forgive me for all of my sins.  I repent of my sins, even in dilemmas where I had no idea what to do. Well, I do have an issue.  I feel like I have made a bad choice and now I don't know what to do. I want to do the right thing by You.  Lord, what do I need to do because there is also no proof that it "exists" or doesn't "exists".  Lord, I ask for clarity and open eyes in this situation and in all similar situations.

I ask for all of these things in the name of Jesus, Amen.

Obsessive thoughts

Father,

I am worried.  I worry that I would have another thought about infidelity and other situations.  I hate that they come not just suddenly, but they arrive altogether.  I ask for strengthened faith for I know that if I have faith, then I will be made whole.  I am still inspired by the woman with the issue of blood.  Her faith was strong and I would like for that to happen too.  May those who cheat receive mercy.  Also, may they go and sin no more.  I thank You and praise You for answering my prayers.

In His name,

Amen

The personal matter I was referring to

Heavenly Father,

I love the idea because of deep down reasons.  I don't wish to come across as somebody who will come across as not someone who cannot afford things.  It isn't an excuse, but I want to come across for myself as someone with the freedom to express my love for others by giving gifts.  The problem is, will that love be reciprocated?  I am bipolar and I wonder if that is the issue as to why I have been spending.  I need to "come down" in terms of my mood swings.  I believe that is the reason for the confusion I just wrote about yesterday.  On one hand, I love to spend.  On the other hand, I want to save.  I have a low income and I also ask for wisdom when it comes to budgeting and also help when it comes to paying my bills.  I have more than one line of credit and I am not sure, but I got greedy and now, I am concerned.  I should be scared.  I ask for Your help and Your healing.  I ask for financial blessing and providence, but I also ask for forgiveness.  I have had anxieties and fears when it comes to this situation.  I don't know what to do and I am truly afraid.  I also ask that You would send someone my way who won't be judgmental or rude.  I know that I need help.  I recall being hospitalized because I had a similar issue.  I don't want to go back.  I want to move forward and have my bills taken care of.  This isn't all.  My income is small and I fear that it may get smaller or become non-existent one day.  I ask for focus and guidance. I am not proud of myself.  In fact, I am ashamed of myself.  Help me, Lord.  I thank You and I praise You, for Your help and for having the answers to this and all other prayers.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Confusion is not a good thing.

Heavenly Father,

I want to enjoy Christmas, but I have gotten myself confused.  I need help paying my bills, yet I am happy with the fact that hopefully things will go well tomorrow.  I don't know what to do.  I ask for clarity and guidance in this situation.  Lord, show me what I need to do, and I thank You for doing so.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

A "Letter" about guilt

Heavenly Father,

I ask for forgiveness of all of my sins.  I feel like I am sinning willfully despite the fact that Jesus is our Advocate.  I just feel like I am also in need of patience. Grant me patience that I may gain wisdom in all things.  I ask You for wisdom and guidance in a personal matter.  I don't know what else to write except I have brought it on myself.  I don't know what else to do.  I feel like I have made things worse because of the holiday season.  I ask for Your help in this personal matter.  I have been anxious about this matter.  It does not help me that I still have anxiety.  I believe that You will answer my prayers.  I just don't know how to get rid of the anxiety.  Most of the time when I ask for this personal matter, I get nervous.  It could be the enemy telling more or trying to convince me that You won't answer my prayer.  Without asking amiss, I ask to submit to You.  I know that he is the father of lies and that he will flee.  I also ask that my mind stayed on thee.  Thank You for giving me peace of mind and I thank You further for increasing my faith.  I also give You thanks for listening to me, for You are greater than my issues, so I give You praise, for You are worthy of it. I just feel guilty of making my personal problems worse and I don't know how to overcome those issues.  That is why I ask You for patience, wisdom, and guidance.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Putting You First

Lord,

I confess.  I feel kind of "dirty" and ashamed at times at some of my behavior over the years.  Forgive me, Lord, of those behaviors.  They include watching movies and television shows that don't honor You.  I need to ask myself if they honor God.  I need to consult You whether or not it could be soaps, sports, movies, or even reality shows.  I avoid most prime time shows not because of You, but because I get scared of the obsessive thoughts and what each show contains.  Forgive me, Father, for my sins.  You want me to be pure in heart, enduring, and obedient.  I don't think it is possible if all I focus on are works of fiction or sports based on what the obsessive thoughts say.  Thoughts will always come, and do they arrive suddenly.  I had to think about that today as I was watching clips and reading up on gossip.  I wish I had the mindset of not caring about the content or if I can tell the difference between what is fiction and what is real.  I don't however, but I would like to change that, Lord.  I ask that You would not only forgive me, but that You would change my mindset.  Change me, Lord.  I cannot follow You if I am stuck on what to watch or read or listen to something.  I thank You for forgiving me of my sins and of hearing my prayers.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Help me become a strong person.

Father,

I am thankful for all that I have.  However, to whom much is given, much is required.  I have no idea what I have done.  Well, I do but I should not have said yes.  Maybe it is because I admit to being a "Yes" person.  I wish I had the courage to say, "no", but I don't.  Lord, grant me the strength to say no.  I desire to respect not just myself, but to be truthful to others.  I don't say no often because I don't wish to hurt anyone.  I wonder if they would feel the same way about me.  I have wondered this for a long time now.  I want me to be an honest person and learn to say no sometimes.  I want to be respected, even if I am not liked.  I want to be helpful and kind, but there are times when I feel like a total doormat.  I don't ask for much, but I wonder if I am being taken advantage of.  I would like to change that.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  I don't know if being a yes person is a sin, but I know that there is a difference between the subject of my prayer and being humble and kind.  Help me to live as Jesus lived.  Jesus was no doormat.  He was angry with money changers who were profiting off of merchandise in the temple.  He also stood up to and admonished the Pharisees.  He also stood up to Satan. He was Brave and was no pushover.  I want to be like Jesus.  Jesus was Perfect, but I am not.  Help me to see that not only is He my Example, but He is God and will be Judge one day.  I am not the strongest or bravest person, but I would like to be.  Thank You for my Savior is a God who was full of strength, wisdom, and character.  Thank You, Jesus for saving me and for forgiving me of all of my sins.

In His name,

Amen

There is nothing good about gossip..

Lord Jesus,

I ask for forgiveness of my sins.  I have been engaging in compulsions.  I want to know the answers to questions that I "seek". I know that they are not easy to overcome.  Jesus, I ask that You would give me the will to not engage in compulsions.  Last night, I have written in my homework assignment on my thoughts.  I have examined my thoughts.  I ask You for Your permission because it glorifies You.  When I think of eternity, I think of forever.  Right now it is temporary.  Open my eyes so that I can see that this world is a world that is temporal.  Therefore, what I am going through is temporary compared to eternity.  It is forever and that will not change,  That should scare the unbeliever and those who claim to be believers, but are not.  I ask for forgiveness for all of my sins and I repent of engaging in gossip or anything similar in any way, shape, or form.  Minutes ago, I have "searched" and performed compulsions on what was a nasty custody battle.  I want nothing to do with gossip but I will pray for those who engage in gossip so that they would repent. I will also pray for those who profit or feed off of gossip for they too need to repent.  There is nothing good about gossip especially with malicious intent.  It is a propagator of falsehood and damaged reputations.  Search me and try me, for Your word says, to abstain from all appearance of evil. Gossip in my opinion qualifies as something that not only appears as having an appearance of evil, but it is evil, whether watching it on TV, reading about it in print or online, or listening to other people talk is wrong.  There is nothing good about gossip, none.  Thank You, Jesus, for opening my eyes and see this.  Like the fight videos I hope to be and remain convicted of this.

In Your name, Jesus,


Amen

Remind me ...

Lord,

I ask that You would remind me of what is most important.  Help me to see who my first Priority should be.  Forgive me of my sins, for I am grateful for much.  I should remain grateful.  I realize that avoidance is not how I should live my life.  I love that I live.  There is so much that I seem to have missed.  The world has passed me by.  I don't want it anymore, but I don't know where else I could bide my time.  I ask that You would change my mindset so that it could be pleasing in Your sight and that all things pertaining to me could be pleasing in Your site.  I ask for a change in me and in my life. I would like to just live life.  Now I don't want to live my life without You.  I want to live my life with You as my first Priority.  I ask that You would remind me to be thankful for who I am in Christ Jesus and for what I have in my life.  Show me how to pull down strongholds and take captive every imagination that exalts itself to the obedience of Jesus Christ.  For the first time, I am free.  I would like to take the time to thank You for this freedom that I have. Freedom that comes from You is what true freedom is about.  I also ask to be reminded of not just those many blesses that I have, and those I will have, but also to be mindful of Who and what are important despite whatever roadblocks are in my way.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

I can do this

Lord,

I thank You for the day I had.  I feel like I can conquer these obsessive thoughts. Some of them are quite scary, but some day, I have to learn how to face them.  Things so far have improved but not fully.  It is easy to venture that I am not 100% yet.  However, it does seem to feel that way.  Remind me to put You first and to be grateful on a regular if not, daily basis.  I admit and ask for forgiveness, that I am not grateful enough.  I also need help in presenting my requests and make petitions that are not amiss.  I am learning not to ask amiss.  You strengthen my faith and have answered my prayers. I thank You.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Personal matter

Heavenly Father,

Thank You for answering my prayers. I have issues on a personal matter and I have no idea how to express myself on this matter.  Teach me how to pray without asking amiss.  Teach me how to pray for this personal and all matters.  I need help and guidance in all personal matters without doubting coming from the enemy and without wrath.  I am not good in dealing with this personal matter and I need Your help.  I also ask for wisdom and clarity on this said matter.  I have been anxious about this personal matter because it is a big matter to me.  I try to say the right words and I try to pray in faith about this issue.  I believe that You are greater than any personal issue I may have but my faith has been shaken in this matter.  I just don't know how to deal with this or how to pray about this.  Show me, Lord, what I need to do without asking amiss.  Your answer will be appreciated for I give thanks in advance for Your answers.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Pure motives and a pure heart

Heavenly Father,

Who am I?  Why am I here?  I wonder about that sometimes.  I also wonder what is Your will for my life.  I have no clue still however.  So, what is my purpose on this planet?  My desire is to live for You, serve You out of love, and to be a pure-hearted Christian with pure motives.  I trust in You, but I don't trust myself or my motives.  Father, forgive me for not always living or thinking with pure motives.  Impure and selfish motives scare me and I thank You that You answer prayers, mine included.  I thank Jesus Christ for making me a new, saved and changed Christian in Him.  I also ask for the wisdom to carry whatever knowledge that I have.  Lord, I am still worried about things.  Lord, I ask for peace of mind since I am not supposed to be anxious, but wise and thankful whenever I pray.  I am ever most thankful.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Prayer of healing

Lord Jesus,

I look forward to Your return.  In the meantime, I ask that You would help me to draw closer to You. There are times when I don't feel very close to You at all.  I sometimes feel a disconnect.  I often don't know what to say or how to say it.  I at times feel like I say the wrong thing.  Perhaps it was past doubt or lack of faith.  I have overcome that.  Jesus, I ask for forgiveness of all of my sins.  I thank You for salvation, forgiveness, and for miracles.  In fact, I ask for a miracle of my own.  I have an issue that has been bothering me for many years.  I am inspired by the story of the woman with the issue of blood.  She touched the hem of your garment and she was made whole.  From the cartoon I have seen she had pressed through the crowd yet You were her only hope.  You healed her and I ask that for healing for myself.  Jesus, heal me of the thoughts and all of my illnesses.  I tire sometimes of taking medications and of having obsessive thoughts.  I too want to be made whole.  That is all I ask. I need Your help.  I need to understand that not only do You heal but that You give hope.  I ask for that hope and I ask for that healing, Jesus.  Heal me like You healed the lady with the issue of blood. I have questions about my thoughts.  I even prayed about them.  Sometimes I felt alone.  Even some of the thoughts and stories I had were disturbing I still have questions but I don't wish to feel like my desire is to feed those thoughts.  As You know, I am not in a relationship.  I have never cheated, nor have I been cheated on.  I guess I will never know why I have those thoughts.  I ask for this in faith just like the woman with the issue of blood, in Jesus' name.  Amen.

Expressing myself

Lord,

There are times when I have difficulty expressing myself to You.  This is one of those times. Give me the words that I need to express to You.  Give me the wisdom to make my requests known.  Most of all, I ask for understanding and to be grateful for all that You have done for me.  I have faith that prayers have already been answered.  No matter what You answer is, I know that You have my best interest at heart.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Hem of Jesus' Garment

Lord,

I ask that You would erase my obsessive thoughts.  I touch the hem of Your garment.  I shall be made whole.  Thank You, Lord.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Putting God and not fiction first

Lord,

Help me to see that I need to put You first in all things.  I admit that I have not always done so; forgive me, Father, for my sins.  I do know that there have been and are some things that I have placed too much priority on television and other things.  I realize and know that these priorities do not honor You.  They are demeaning to me because I have not put You first.  I am sorry for I have been focused on fictional characters and I cannot get over it.  I need help from You.  Most of all, I need healing.  I need You.  I am a bit stressed over this.  Right now I wish to look up information about fictional characters, which in hindsight make no sense.  How do I overcome my compulsions? Help me, Lord.  Give me the wisdom and faith that I need to overcome these compulsions, much less my obsessions.  I thank You that You are greater than these and all of my problems.  I thank You for answering this prayer.

In Jesus' name,  Amen

Remind me

Lord,

Remind me that there are those who are being persecuted for their faith.  I personally have not been persecuted for my faith.  I also don't know anyone who has been persecuted for their faith.  I cannot imagine facing violence because of my faith.  Hebrews 1 is about faith and persecution.  I ask for the faith and strength to withstand any persecution that comes and will come my way.  Remind me that those who are being persecuted are also my brothers and sisters in Christ.  Remind me also that there are those who are persecutors who need to know the Lord and that there are millions around the world who are being deceived.  Remind me to also pray for them and to never forget those who are also being persecuted for their own religious faith, despite the fact that they may be Jews, or Muslims, or animists, or Buddhists.  May they also be led to the Lord and convicted by the Holy Spirit.

I ask this, In Jesus' name,  Amen.

Being thankful and grateful

Lord,

I thank You for answering all of my prayers.  I believe in answered prayers.  I believe that You listen. You know all about what we are going to ask before we even ask.  I take great comfort in knowing that truth.  I feel like a burden has been lifted off of me since I have prayed.  You have done so much for me over the years.  For that, I thank You.  I am forever grateful.  Thank You.

In Your name, Lord,


Amen

Importance of Stewardship

Lord God,

Teach me Your ways.  Help me be a good steward.  Your word say for whom much is given, much is required.  What is required of me?  How much has been given to me?  I have a feeling that I have much work to do on a personal level, but still I don't know the answer.  Lord, what do You have me to do?  I now have a feeling that I have been asking the wrong questions all along.  What was missing?  The truth is, how do I utilize the Holy Spirit and all else that has been given to me?  What are the Parables of the Minas and the Talents about?  Are they about stewardship?  I ask for wisdom and understanding, for I am in need and I have no confidence in my own deeds.  Forgive me of all of my sins.  Thank You for answering this prayer and for giving me peace of mind.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Discernment of truth from falsehood

Lord,

Help me to discern truth from error in this world.  Allow me to not just read the scriptures, but to search them out for myself.  I have an issue with this area and I ask for wisdom for discernment. There is so much falsehood and all that is wrong in the world that it can be easy to be deceived by seducing spirits. I have had this issues for years and I thank You for giving me this wisdom liberally as Your word states.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

I am superior to negative thoughts and low actions.

Lord,

I ask that You would give me a fresh perspective on me.  Who am I as a person and who am I in Christ Jesus?  I don't know all about me as it seems.  Sadly, what I do know about me, physically, I don't like.  I don't like my body with its shorter, heavier body frame.  I see myself as fat and out of shape.  I wondered why I have allowed myself to get to be this fat and out of shape.  I don't like the way I look mostly in the mirror.  I also don't like the way I look in photos, including selfies.  Wow.
I don't just want to like myself.  I want to respect myself.  I need help in loving and respecting myself, no matter if I am over 300 lbs, or at 180-200 lbs. or at 120-130 lbs.  I need help in seeing myself and my life in a positive way.  In just need help with me.  My self worth is somewhat based on a number on a scale and on my measurements.  I sometimes have difficulty being kind to myself and positive thoughts about myself.  Change is hard for me, Lord.  I know it doesn't honor me. I cannot say that it honors You either.  I also ask that You would open my eyes and my ears so that I will gain wisdom from trustworthy council.  I ask that You would open my mind so that I can remember that You see me differently than I see myself.  I want to see myself as beautiful at over 300 lbs. with glasses and polycystic ovarian syndrome.  Confidence is supposed to be a beautiful thing, and I want to be confident.  I ask for forgiveness of my sins and I also ask for understanding that a challenge is an opportunity for change and success, not another opportunity to fail.  I want to be able to learn to do this and take the initiative.  No one else can do this for me.  It took me today and a long list of meds to see that.  I see and have seen that I need to take my health seriously and have a healthy relationship with You, food, myself, and with others.  I thank You that You answer prayer and I thank You that You are greater than all of these above issues.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Those who are in need

Lord,

I thank You for a full stomach.  I have been reminded of all of the people with bellies that are not full.   They are in need of help.  I ask that You would not forget them.  Lord, I ask the answered prayer in this situation.  I cannot imagine not just hunger, but having to live with malnutrition.  Let us be thankful for what we have.  At the same time, let us be mindful of those in need.  It is so sad that some are in such need that they don't know if they will survive the next day.  May I in a rich nation not take food for granted.  I ask that You lend Your ear to those in need.  May I help and serve those who are in need.

In Jesus' name,  Amen.

Bigger crosses to bear and persecution

Heavenly Father,

Help me to see that there are people who have bigger crosses to bear than myself.  Open my eyes so that I will pray and do other things for them daily.  Help me recognized that there are those who are being persecuted whatever their faith are.  There are also many believers who are being persecuted for their faith.  Remind me of this fact, for I realize that I often fail to see that I live in a world that is larger than the world I have been living in.  I have my own fears and cares of this life.  However, I consider myself blessed that I live in a nation where I realize that religious freedom is still being respected.  However, I still live in the same country whose citizens have no idea what it is like to be persecuted for their faith.  Forgive me and help me to see that it could happen here, but I don't wish to think that it is just over there and we should not be concerned.  I personally think that we shouldn't always "not mind our business".  We should care and have a heart for the persecuted and those who are in need.  Lord, cleanse me of my unrighteousness and take care of us as believers.  Protect and guide us.  I thank You that this prayer has been answered.  in Jesus' name,  Amen.

Being grateful and pure

Lord,

I don't wish to hold back.  I need the courage to fact whatever is going on to me.  My desires are to be honest and to be grateful.  Give me a fresh perspective and wisdom.  I need to set things straight and I take full responsibility for my actions.  I have lied and I have been a coward.  Father, I have to first seek Your kingdom and Your righteousness.  I realize that, but what does that mean?  How do I first seek Your kingdom and be pure in heart in motives?  I put trust in You, but I don't trust respect.  I ask for change because that is my desire. I also ask to be forgiven and to be more forgiven.  Those are two things that I ask will be added to me.  I also ask that You would strengthen.  Open my eyes and give me a fresh perspective on my own responsibilities and my issues.  I ask this, and I thank You for answering my prayers.  Thank You for listening to me.  In Jesus' name,  Amen.

Doubts about salvation

Lord,

I realize that I am a forgiven believer, but sometimes it is hard to believe.  How do You feel about me and my situation, especially about the doubts about being saved?  I have prayed to be saved over and over.  I am saved and I know this, but I wonder what testing if I am of the faith means.  What does it also mean to work out my salvation with fear and with trembling?  I have an idea but I don't know what that truly entails.  I thank You for helping me and for saving me.  I praise You and I love You.  Thank You.  In Jesus' name,  Amen

My lack of a social life

Lord,

I am sorry for not always putting You first and making You my first Priority, even in my prayer life.There are times when I don't know what to pray for or how to pray.  Right now, I have thought about getting out more and developing a social life.  I ask for a sense of direction when it comes to this issues.  I am a loner and a private person, but sometimes I need a change.  I don't know how to change.  I ask that You would reveal Yourself to me on this very issue.  I also ask for a change of heart when it comes to this and other issues in my life as I am having issues with OCD and other health issues.  I need a friend and someone to talk to.  In fact, I need true friends who won't judge me and who will always be there for me.  I promise to be a good friend as well.  Teach me Your ways and teach me how to love.  Show me what love is all about.  The truth is, I need to go out more and experience "life" outside of health and mental issues such as OCD.  I would also like to fellowship in a church where the true gospel is preached.  I just don't know how to be truly social as I think that I am "shy" and not assertive.  I admire people who are extroverts and who are assertive.  Give me and teach me how to be assertive, Lord.  I thank You for answering my prayers and I praise You for hearing and for understanding how I feel.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Growing in my relationship with God; overcoming my fear, doubt, and anxiety.

Father,

Teach me how to pray as Jesus died.  I ask for wisdom to learn how to pray.  I have sometimes a disconnect in my relationship with You.  It can be hard to have a relationship if one or two people have that disconnect because of a lack of time spent.  I have had difficulty expressing my feelings unless I am angry with You or whether or not I am in doubt.  I apologize for not always praying in faith.  I ask that You would further increase my faith and take away my anxiety.  I have fears in my life that I need to also overcome.  I admit that I have not been perfected in love.  Forgive me.  Give me understanding what it means to be perfected in love.  I read that You are love, but I don't understand that verse.  I ask that You would help me understand.  I need help to be courageous and strong; I also ask that for strength and courage.  I thank You and I praise You that You are the God who is Greater than all.  I give You thanks.  In Jesus' name, Amen.

Prayer for wisdom and other issues

Lord,

My life is in Your hands.  Jesus is Savior and Lord, I know this.  I have been struggling with anxiety and doubt for many years.  I have not been sure if it is the enemy, doubt, or anxiety.  I was thinking that Jesus has been  tell me for years.  God, give me the wisdom to live right and serve You.  I also ask that You would increase my faith.  I ask for the Holy Spirit to teach me how to truly pray to You without asking amiss.  I realize that my long prayers haven't been answered at times because of those issues.  I repent of my sins and I ask that You would make me wise and faithful.  I also ask for peace of mind, for I have been anxious for a long time.  Show me and tell me who I am.  I feel like You are trying to tell me something, but I don't know how to live for You sometimes.  I know that You will return quickly.  Even so.  Come, Lord Jesus.  May Your grace be with us all.  In Your name, Amen.

God is greater that...

Lord,

My life is in Your hands.  Thank You for helping me to understand what I need to do with what is important to me.  My soul and mind are in Your hands.  My heart is also in Your hands and so is myself.  Help me to see that You are the One who can help me, guide me, and direct me on the path I am in.  Reveal to me what I really need to do.  I thank You for Your revelations.  You have revealed and gave me and guided me much this morning.  You know of my needs.  Help me to see that You are greater than my thoughts.  You are greater than my problems.  You are greater than all.  I thank You, In the name of Jesus,   Amen.

My financial help and troubles...

Heavenly Father,

I am not sure if my Church will help me. They could, but I don't of any programs other than the ones you mentioned. I will read the book of Job. I have prayed for financial help yesterday and I believing that the Lord will help me. My question is how do I acknowledge God when it comes to my finances since I am a spendthrift who wishes to save. I realize that I need help and I prayed for providence. I need immediate help because I have a low income and I need to follow the Lord in my finances. I have no job, though I have been looking for one in the past. My skills need to be updated. I also have no transportation of my own. I have transportation to go to the doctors and nutritionist but I don't have enough money to buy a car, which is a limit to my social life except talking to others online. I need help since I have I feel like I have no such luck. I feel like a failure and I don't know what else to do. I have had the same problems for years and I feel like it is all of my fault. How else do I get about of my financial situation or situations? What would Jesus say about my financial situation? I can afford the monthly payments but it will take at least a few months to a year to pay it off, but I rather pay the bills in full? I don't have much money to give to a church or a charity. I had money before and now I wish I had some. I had felt guilty about spending all of that money which took a year to pay off. I just don't know what to do. I need a miracle. I believe that Jesus is the Lord and Savior who died on the cross for me. I believe that Jesus is greater than all of my financial problems for they are great. I owe at least a substantial about money and I would like to pay for school, pay off my debts, and learning to give, since I love to give to others. I need help. I have the faith that God will help me more than once and I don't know where else to turn.

In the name of Jesus,


Amen

Jesus is Lord

Lord Jesus,

You are Lord. Thank You for saving me and for forgiving and loving me.  I know and see that You are greater than all of my problems.  I also believe that Your word says that greater are You who is in me than the enemy who is in the world.  There are times when mentally I have no clue how to discern between what You are trying to tell me, what the enemy says, and what the OCD says.  Show me how to discern between who is a true believer and what is true or what is not true.  I know and believe that they enemy is the father of lies.  What is the enemy lying about?  I sometimes feel like I am fighting a losing battle.  Am I letting the enemy or the OCD win?  I sometimes don't always know what is going on with me.  I am sorry that I have had such doubts.  I feel like I have showed my true colors and not in a good way.  Forgive me for being so rough on You.  I just told how I felt.  I felt down because I had doubts.  I have wondered why it seems I am forgotten and my prayers aren't answered.

I also ask for peace of mind in these days and times.  Show me what I am doing wrong as far as not always knowing or having a lack of discernment.  I also ask that You would strengthen my faith and that I no longer be doubtful.  I need Your help in overcoming any doubts that I have.  I have been struggling with doubts for a long time and I admitted some things to You and I ask for forgiveness for being so rude during my confession.  Forgive me of all of my sins, Lord.  I confess that I doubted and I have become frustrated with my life.  I realized that I have compared myself to others and that I see the world passing me by.  I know that there is much to work with in my life and that there are things that I need to straighten some things out, like how I feel about myself and about relaxation.  I realize that going on the computer all day long is not that healthy and I would like to be able to do other things, even while I am here.

I am sorry that I have not been grateful and that I ask that You would open my eyes.  I realize that despite everything, I need to be more grateful.  I am starting to understand that I am to count it all joy.  I also know and realize that I do complain too much instead of giving thanks. Forgive me, Jesus, for not always being grateful or thankful for all that I have.  Create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within me according to Psalm 51.  Renew my mind daily and may I not neglect what Your Word says.  May I also change my mindset.  I have a perfectionist all-or-nothing mindset and that has caused me problems.  I also have a negative mindset when it comes to me especially.

I know that I have a need to see the world differently.  My desire is to change, live for You, and to serve You. Teach me Your ways, and continue to be a Friend to me  Thank You for dying for me, taking my place, and being resurrected by the Father.  Lord Jesus, save me.  Save my soul and forgive all of my sins.  I also ask that the OCD will be dealt with and that You would give me peace of mind.  Jesus, give me the total assurance and knowledge and wisdom that You have saved me.  I ask for a change, Lord.  One of the scariest, if not the scariest realities is that one day, not everyone who calls on You will end up going to Heaven, walk the narrow road, and live in the New Jerusalem.  They will end up in Hell and have their part in the Lake of Fire.  I am scared that it will be me and that I am afraid to die.  I confess my sins before You and ask of Your forgiveness.

Speak to my heart, Jesus.  The sad reality is that unless I endure and obedient, I will walk the narrow road, for few will find it. Give me the wisdom and the guidance to walk the narrow road.  I ask for a change, not just in my life, but a change in me and my relationship with You.  There are times when I sometimes feel a disconnect.  I don't wish to come to You only when things go bad.  I want to be faithful and content when things go well.  My desire is to serve You, and live for You.  I confess I have not always made the right choices and that there are times when I feel that I have sinned willfully.  There are even things that I feel and know that I need to make right, but the truth is, I don't know how.  I just don't know what to do.  I also ask for forgiveness for I confess that I have lived in the past and held things against others.  I sometimes feel that I am a false believer and that I ask for assurance that I am truly saved and born again.  I also ask that not only purify my heart but that You would purify my mind and my motives.  Show me what I need to confess and repent of, for I know that I need You.  Change my mindset and change me so that I will endure.

Lord Jesus, I ask that You strengthen my faith and that You would give me the confidence that I know who I am in You.  Lord, I need to learn how to love and how to be loved for  I have issues such as life passing me by and having negative thoughts and feelings that need to change.  I ask that You would help me to change and teach me to truly love, honor, and respect myself and other people.  I thank You that You answer prayers and I thank You answered prayer.  I give You thanks for Your answer to my prayers.

In Your name, Lord Jesus Christ,


Amen

God's forgiveness, guidance, and wisdom

Father,

Thank You for forgiving me.  I apologize if I came across as disrespectful.  I have issues stemming from years back and I would like for things to change. My petition is to help me to overcome and deal with anxiety.  How do I tell You how I feel about things without being disrespectful.  Help me to overcome my doubts and strengthen my faith.  Help me to see that Your Word is faithful and true at all times.  Give me the patience that I so need.  I also ask for the wisdom that I need to live my life. According to the book of James, You give wisdom liberally.  I am in need of the wisdom to carry out the knowledge of Your Word that I have.  My desire and petition is to be a wise person who is a woman of character, integrity, and of course, patience.  I admit that patience is not one of my virtues but I admit that I have gotten more patient over the years though the progress has been slow.  I ask that You would give we guidance so that may be a wise person who lives my life serving You and leading others to Christ.  I thank You for answering this prayer and I ask for all of these things in the name of Jesus Christ.

Amen

Needing the Lord

Lord,

I could use Your help.  I know I ask Your help often, but I realize that life can be depressing.  I am feeling down about things and it is hard to overcome.  Teach me how to pray.  I keep saying words to You.  I need to know if You are there for me.  I need You right now.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Doubting and OCD

Lord,

As You know, I have obsessive compulsive disorder and I am here to say that it has made my doubting worse.  For years I have had doubts about being saved.  I am scared.  I am fearful that I am not saved.  I even had a thought today that I will end up in Hell when I die.  I am fearful sometimes of dying.  There are things that I have not asked for forgiveness for.

I fear that I may also be a racist. I wince whenever I see a picture of an interracial couple.  It is because I have thoughts of what other people think and that is a problem.  I believe that it is a trigger to why I have some of these racist thoughts.  Interracial couplings never bothered me before so why now?  Deep down I have no problem with interracial relationships so why now?  Is there some hidden prejudice or racist thoughts inside of me?  Am I truly a saved free from racist feelings?

Maybe I am saved or I wouldn't have thoughts and doubts about it, and the racism thing.  Whenever I see a white person, sometimes I have racist or prejudiced thoughts, especially if I am going somewhere.  I even repeat prejudiced thoughts. I know that I have a problem with obsessive thoughts as I tend to be obsessed about race and racism. I realize that I am not totally over it and that bothers me.  I really need help with these topics of obsessive thoughts, Lord.

I don't know what else to do, but I am glad that I have confessed these issues to You.  I feel like I have sinned over and over again whenever I have doubts.  I know that it is the doubting disease but I ask to be cured.  I get tired of just managing this disorder and sometimes I have thoughts that bother me greatly and also the images as well.  I realize that they are exaggerated, at times, but there are times when I don't always see that.  I don't like having obsessive compulsive disorder, but at least it has drawn me closer to You.

I thank You that it has drawn me closer to You.  I do believe this and for that, I thank You.  Anything can be a trigger to an obsessive thought, and that has me afraid.  Show me and teach me Your will and Your words.  I want to be connected to You in every way, shape, and form.  Draw me to You.  I ask for a closer walk with You.  I am tired of having these doubts and these thoughts.  I feel like sometimes the reason why things have been the way they have been is because I have these doubts.  I realize that I have issues, and they are deep seated, but I have to see that You are greater.  Help me to see that and help me to live according to Your Word.  Help me to endure, and I thank You for Your leading and Your guidance, which I ask for.  Thank You for answering my prayer tonight.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Bad vibes

Lord,

I don't know if I am off or if something or someone else if off.  I know something is off.  I have been bad vibes lately and those bad vibes won't go away.  Could it be the anxiety or the bipolar?  Or could it be that I have a good reason for having those bad vibes?  Nothing is the same anymore and I wish that things were.  I have been having issues lately and over the years and I wonder if there is something that I have not confessed.  I have had my feelings hurt and mentally I have difficulty getting over it.  I live with this person and we are no longer as close as we used to be and this is bothering me.  I believe that there is a reason for this and I don't know what to do or how to handle this.  Help me to see that life is too short to worry but I am still concerned.  Lord, do a mighty work in me and forgive me for all of my sins.  I want to be that faithful person again.  Lord, help with this situation for I am anxious and fearful about this.  I give it over to You, Lord, for I know that You are the God of miracles, so with You all things are possible.

In Jesus' name,


Amen.

Being grateful

Lord,

Thank You.

In Your name,  Amen

In need of a connection and some clarity

Lord Jesus,

Forgive me of my sins.  Take care of my, Lord, and heal me.  I prayed about this.  I could not take it anymore because I feel a total disconnect from You.  Everything I do is just something that takes place within a cycle.  Sometimes it is hard to explain.  I need help in breaking the cycles, compulsions, and bad habits that have been holding me back to put it mildly.  They have done worse. I had so many plans for myself but I realize that those plans can't come to fruition unless I go ahead and take some action.  I have got to stand up for myself and put You first.  I am so sorry, but I have no idea how or where to begin.  I ask for forgiveness for failure to put You first and to love and respect myself.  I have lied, held back, broken promises, and I just feel like a failure.  I confess that I need You, Lord Jesus.  I need Your help.  My life is stagnant and nothing seems to work out for me. I believe I have a lot to offer and people who are willing to help me.  I take that help and I offer myself to You, Lord.  I ask that You would give me wisdom, guidance, and a sense of direction in my life as You see it.  Lord, I wish that I had seen things this clearly before.  I thank You that You know all things and that You have an answer to this prayer.

In Your name,


Amen

Help me

Lord,

Help me.  Help me find the right words to say or at least the right way to communicate to You. Life has become a chore, even the simplest things.  I ask for Your forgiveness for holding on to this attitude.  Exercise is a chore.  Losing weight is a chore.  Reading is a chore.  Just being happy is a chore.  I feel trapped sometimes.  I do want to change but I don't know how to change.  I know I am in need of set priorities.  I know that I don't always put You as my first Priority and I ask for Your forgiveness.  I admit that I hate a lot about my life and nothing seems to budge no matter how hard I move, push, or just anything.  I have no proverbial idea what I want to be when I grow up.  I am so tired of being frustrated.  I just have too much time on my hands.  Yet there are times when it seems that I don't even have enough time.  I am stressed out despite this by the way.  I want to be free and independent and be able to handle freedom and independence.  I would like to be a person with a changed mindset.  I  feel so weak and ineffectual in my own life, Lord.  I need You right now.  Help me.

In Your name,

I Thank You,  Amen.

Trying to write it all out

Father,

Forgive me.  Help me to see that the person writing to You is an imperfect being with a temporal mindset.  I sometimes have difficulty writing or praying to You because it is as if I have nothing to say sometimes.  I am thankful for my relationship with You. I am writing to tell You that I am in need of focus.  I know something is wrong.  I just fear that it is not worse than even I imagined.  Help me to be kept accountable.  I need the support, friendship, and accountability on this life's journey.  I ask for wisdom to carry me through, for that is also what I am in need of.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Where my head is at?

Lord,

No matter what is going on in my head, help me to keep my mind focused on You.  Lately, it has been a few days worth of struggling with focus and concentration.  I need Your help.  Help me to "get back down to earth" mentally.  I am thankful, that, however all else is well.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Being thankful

Father,

Today has been an okay day.  Thank You that I am still here to express my gratitude.

Amen

Lack of focus

Father,

Please.  Help me.

Mentally it is as if things have gotten worse.  It seems crazy because I am here in the moment. I am just not as focused as I would like to be.  It has been a while now and my prayer is that it doesn't worsen.  I believe it is the bipolar.  It is uncomfortable to have this but I realize that things could be worse.  I do hope however that this is a sign that things aren't getting worse.  Maybe I am making too big a deal out of things.

Sincerely,



Letters to God

Take care of me

Lord,

Take care of me.  Show me how to live right and to serve You all the days of my life.  I know that my life is filled with challenges, but I won't use them as an excuse.  I have done things lately that I wish I could take back.  Father, forgive me of all of my sins.  Help me to take better care of myself.  Teach me Your ways and show me how to walk in them.  I also ask that my motives and my heart will be purified.  I feel a lot better since the revelations that I have had yesterday.  What is it that I am called to do for today?  What do You have for me to do, Lord?  I will do it.


In Jesus' name,


Amen

Honoring the Lord

Lord,

Help me to see and to understand that not everyone who calls on Your name is really a Christian. My prayer is that I am and will not end up being this way now or in the future.  Life is quite short and sometimes I don't realize that.  I often don't see the consequences of my actions as far as eternity. I have been so wrapped up in what is going on how to entertain myself and other things, I don't always take the time to be with You.  I apologize and I desire to change.  Help me not just to change my mindset but to renew my mind.  I don't want to honor You with my lips instead of just honoring You, but I am or have been with this.  I wonder if this is what I have been doing.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  I thank You in advanced for answering my prayer.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

So much to be thankful for

Lord,

I need to be reminded to do the things that I am supposed to do like exercise and dieting.  Today has been a day of revelations.  I thank You for those revelations that I had.  I am okay right now.  I am glad that despite whatever flaws I have, You see me as beautiful.  I wasn't sure about what Kierra Sheard's song was about until it was explained to me.  It now makes sense.  Everything seems to make sense.  I felt really guilty about things.  I guess in life one has to make small changes.  What is little is actually big.  Help me to keep that in mind.  I have much to be grateful for.  Thank You, Lord, that I get bored all day.  I am on a computer that I really depend on.  I thank You that I have people, including my mother, who care about me and who love me.  I feel that I have much to offer in this world.  I guess that is the reason I am on this planet.  My prayers have been answered and I thank You for those prayers being answered.  It finally dawned on me that the answers were really to work on myself by loving and respecting myself.  I would like to know it took so long for me to discover that fact.  The answers were right under my nose.  I have to admit that things will be harder because I have made them harder.  I will keep on going and I will keep on learning.  I have learned so much about myself in these past 24 hours, and for that, I am ever grateful to You.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Diabetic self-care

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank You for answering my prayers.  I know I wrote a long prayer pouring my heart out.  It was honest and heartfelt.  I want to make changes when it comes to my health. Minutes ago, I was scared. I realize that I have a lot to be concerned about.  I realize that unhealthy eating does contribute to my fear.  I am a diabetic and my feet were burning.  Help me let that sink in.  I don't want to wait until things get worse for it to sink in.  It is hard for me to get it at times and that is what is bothering me. I need help in this matter.  I also ask for wisdom and guidance in this matter as well.  I don't want to have anything worse happen to me than what has happened tonight.  Right now, I am concerned about my eyes.  I am near-sighted and I don't want to suffer from glaucoma or blindness.  I am afraid that my health will be in decline if I don't eat better and exercise.  I am worried sometimes that things would worsen.  I need You; show me what more I need to do other than healthy eating, exercise, and taking pills all day.  It would be nice if I don't have to take so much medication.  I sometimes feel like I am hitting a brick wall.   I brought this on myself, so I know that I can do it as You show me how.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Weight, holiness, and self image

Lord,

Even so, come, Lord Jesus.  I live in a sinful, dying world that does not care about me, much less anyone else.  Help me to keep that in mind daily.  I get fearful and anxious when I try to put my mind into something, such as living holy and losing weight.  Regardless,  I realize that I need to not stress out so much on my weight.  I do have an issue with body image and I do focus more on my appearance than on being healthy and living a healthy lifestyle.  I now know what living a healthy lifestyle entails.  I am scared.  I lose losing weight is a big undertaking as I want to lose exactly 125 pounds.  I sometimes feel guilty about allowing myself to become a 300+ pound woman.  I have become more self-conscious than ever.  How do I recognize what You and Your word says with my weight struggles and being self-conscious about my body?  I am not ashamed to be fat, but I would like to know about living a healthy lifestyle due to having PCOS.  I do not wish or want to use PCOS as an excuse, but it is a condition that I have.  I am relieved that I was diagnosed as such.  I can do something about it, and now I know where to begin.  I have made so many mistakes with my weight that I became anxious and frustrated.  I would like to change that even if it takes a long time.

However, I am careful of what I say, think, or write because of my fear and anxiety.  Maybe I have approached things all wrong.  I jump into something only to falter or give up.  I don't want to live this way anymore.  I don't want to live.  I am anxious and frustrated because my weight goes up and down.  Part of this is because I give up on myself and I am lazy and just don't care.  I rather eat chocolate bars than eat an orange or broccoli sometimes.  In other words, healthy foods tend to at times be an acquired taste.  I am still anxious and scared as I write this and I have no idea how to overcome fear and anxiety.  I just want to change all of this because it seems that I am at the end of my rope.  I love the taste of food because it represents fun, party, and I enjoy the taste of food.  I realize that unhealthy food doesn't love me back anymore.  My desire and need is to see food in a healthy way.  Lord, I know Your word says that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"  Tonight, I ask for help and wisdom so that I can overcome my fear and anxiety.  I leave them in Your hands.  I need strength and help in this time because I want to be set free from them.  Help me to see my situation as You and Your Word see it.  I have prayed for years and years about this and I just no longer know how to overcome all of these things so that I can be healthy and reach my goals.

I have PCOS which may have been a cause of my having to deal with diabetes, high blood pressure, AND high cholesterol.  Right now, I am doing better and I think I am doing a better job of managing my diabetes.  My other real problem is that the consequences of unhealthy eating habits, poor body image, and a lack of exercise is that I have a hard time allowing things to sink in.  I don't really want to wait another few years in order to finally "get it".  That is what is going on.  I admit that I want for things to sink in immediately so that I can lose the weight and keep it off.  I want to have a better self image so that I want to be less self-conscious.  I often feel like I am too dumb to know what I am doing despite the fact that I have been given good advice.  The truth is, I have no idea how to follow even the simplest advice.  Sadly, I tend to make what is easy hard.  It was like this in college and it is like this now.  I have been advised to keep it simple.  That to me seems so easy, but it is hard.  I realize that I need a change of mindset so that it will finally sink in.  Help me and remind me to take better care of and have more respect for myself.

I don't want to diet and exercise, but I want to live a healthy lifestyle.  I am inspired to exercise and keep moving forward.  I don't feel so great about not exercising because of the motivation that I have to walk or do other exercises.  I wish that exercise doesn't have to be a chore.  Instead I want to know how to see exercise as not a chore.  Mentally I know the benefits of exercise but I admit to not taking the time to actually do it.  I just wish I could keep it simple.  I can not stay away from exercise and eating a large quantity of food and call it living a healthy lifestyle.  Help me to see, Father, that I am worth it, and have always been.  Help me to see that I sometimes have an unhealthy view of my body and of what is beautiful.  You see me as beautiful no matter if I see mostly "flaws".  Remind me. Father, that I can overcome any and everything if I leave things in Your hands.  I ask for forgiveness of my sins.  Make me a new creation in Jesus Christ and I ask You to further strengthen my faith and to remove all of those things that are stumbling blocks.  I wish change could be easy.  I wish I could ask You to make things easier, but is that something that You can answer?  Help me to allow advice to sink in.  I ask for a renewal of my mindset.

Thank You for answering my prayers and I ask for peace of mind.

In Jesus' name,   Amen.

Wanting God to know me

Lord,

One day You will either say, "Enter into the Joy" or "I never knew You".  I want to obviously live my life so that I will end up with You saying, "Enter into the Joy.."  Sadly very few will make it.  Very people will end up entering into the joy of the Lord.  The truth is, my hope is to be one of those people.  I realize that I have not lived as if I have a future with You lately.  I ask for forgiveness of those sins.  I feel as though I have honored You with my lips, but nothing else.  Help me to check and see if I am truly of the faith.  I ask for guidance and forgiveness.  I have forgiven and let go.  You have forgiven me and loved me so.  I shall follow Your example and do the same thing.  My petition is that I am set free in the world and I will receive wisdom so that I can live for You and serve soon I thank You for hearing my petition and for Your forgiveness.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

I feel like a failure at times

Lord,

Sadly I have given You such little time.  I could have at least said "Thank You" but I have not done any of those things.  I have wondered why things are crazy at times.  I have made some poor choices lately and I don't know how to overcome those sins.  I am sorry that I have ever committed those sins. I have struggled with those sins for a long time.  I need and want to be a fully changed person, but I have no idea what to do or say.  I keep on falling.  I believe that You pick me up at times.  Why do I have doubts?  Why do I keep on falling?  I feel like I have failed the both of us.  I am also sorry for my failures.  I have literally sinned against You maybe even willfully.  That is wonder why I have doubts about being saved.  It could also be the OCD.  I also admit that I take You and being forgiven for granted.  I ask for change.  I ask for a change in motivation and drive.  I have stopped doing things I have done.  I ask for a miracle.  I want to know who I am and to live as if I am in Christ Jesus.  I am sorry that I have taken You for granted.  I know that You love me, but why?  I don't just slip up.  I mess up.  I want to be a different person, one who makes sound decisions.  I feel like a failure as a Christian.  Nothing seems to work out for me and I want to change that, but I don't know how.  I need help, Lord.  I need You right now, Lord.  I call on You for help and for guidance.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

I need You

Father,

Forgive me. I am falling and failing.  I need Your help in that area.  I am doing things that I have no business doing what I have done.  Help me to repent of my sins.  I am struggling in those areas and for one, I have no excuse for what I did.  Forgive me and help me to overcome my wrongs.

In Your name,


Amen

Forgiveness

Lord Jesus,

Forgive me for whenever I say and think things I ought not to.  Thank You for Your love and forgiveness.  Help me to understand forgiveness and how to forgive.  It is sad that there are people who won't forgive.  There are people who have done or had some horrible things done to them who have forgiven.  I realize that my views can at times be a bit short-sighted.  You called on us to forgive for we have been forgiven by You.  My hope is that I have not taken advantage of Your forgiveness. Thank You for saving me and dying on the cross for me.  You are the God of love and forgiveness.
Thank You.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Lamar Odom's condition

Lord,

Thank You.  Lamar Odom is getting out of his coma as it seems slowly.  At least his eyes are opening, which is a good sign.  Thank You.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Lamar Odom

Lord,

I am saddened by what is going on with Lamar Odom.  This is a sad story that I hope won't turn into a tragedy.  I pray that he will recover fully and that he will be drug-free.  I am one of those well wishers and I hope that he will recover.  Lord, may You do a mighty work in this young man's life.

In Your name, Jesus,

Amen

Being dependent on the Lord

Lord,

I am happy that I am writing to You.  I ask that You would draw me closer to You.  I cannot make it as a Christian without You.  I am sorry to have realized how shallow my faith seems to be.  I am glad that I am okay.  I have learned a valuable lesson.  Reading a book, particularly Your word, is really beneficial in more ways than one.  Doing what is necessary is doing what is good for me.  It also took yesterday to realize that too.  I am tired right now but the one thing is, I am alive and truly okay.  I thank You for everything and I ask You to forgive me of all of my sins.  Help me to differentiate between what is real and what is not and also, help me to differentiate what to really pray about and what not to put as my first priority.  I realize that prioritizing my life is something that I should have done earlier.  For now on, I am finally at peace.  Thank You for everything.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

The right words

Lord Jesus,

Help me.  I need Your help.  Help me to pray.  Help me to find the right words.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Thanks and praise

Lord,

What are the goals that You have for me?  I also ask that You would increase my faith.  I realize that my faith hasn't been strong, and I am sorry for this, but my faith has gotten stronger right now.  You know all of my deeds and all of my needs.  I thank You for saving me and for forgiving me.  You have listened to me and You have heard my prayers.  I believe that with all of my heart.  I give You my thanks and my praise.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

I confess that I am dishonest.

Lord,

I am a liar.  I am so sorry for lying.  I hope that I have never tried You or ever lied to You.  I wonder if I have reaped what I have sewn.  I realize that I am also a coward.  I am afraid that something bad will happen to me.  That is the problem.  I am always afraid.  How do I overcome fear and lying? I know that liars will one day have their part in the Lake of Fire.  I ask for forgiveness for lying.  I want to live holy as You are holy.  I feel bad about lying period.  I have told You that I have lied this morning.  I have told a lie about my health, but I am fine.  I come to You.  I come to the cross. Cleanse me from my sin.  Forgive me, O Lord, for all of my sins.  I confess my lying to You and I repent of all of my sins including.  Help me to overcome the sins that I have struggled with.  Help me, Lord.   I thank You for hearing me and for all else that You have done for me.  Thank You.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

How my day was

Father,

I thank You that today was a good day.  I have felt better today than I have in a long time.  I know that taking action is the order of the day.  Complaining is not the answer, not even in prayer.  I finally realize that just giving it all to You is what is the answer is.  Thank You.  You are worthy of praise and thanks.


Sincerely,


Letters to God

Thankfully Yours

Heavenly Father,

I thank You.  You have answered my prayers.  Today was a decent day because I realize that I can take action and that You do love me.  I can learn to respect and love myself.  It took long enough but it is not too late.  I was concerned about that.  I realize that all I had to do is to take action, even if it is the simplest action.  Thank You.  Thank You.  I give You the highest praise for You are worthy and deserving.  All I had to do was to tell You what was hard for me to tell You.  I like certain things about my life but not all of it.  The problem was me and only me.  I spend so much time on the computer that I have neglected other things and slowed down on accomplishing tasks.  My internet usage is not healthy and I don't know what to do about it since I have place my whole life on the computer.  I am not sure or not if I am addicted to the internet but I find it to be a safe place in the midst of troubling obsessive thoughts.  They were a shield.  They were a way to keep me busy when there was so much else to do around here and elsewhere.  I am no longer overwhelmed and I give You all praise.  I am so sorry for my lack of faith and I thank You for forgiving me of all of my sins.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Order my steps

Lord,

I ask that You would order my steps.  Today is a day of where do I begin.  I have been lazy today.  I am tired of my life.  Lord, just help me.  I wish all of this was over.  Help me.

Sincerely,



Letters to God

In need of peace

Lord,

I cannot take the anxieties anymore.  I cannot take the obsessive thoughts and the fears anymore. What is wrong with me?  Why do I allow these things to happen?  I have urges that I don't want.  I often feel alone because I don't know anyone in my immediate family who has these issues.  It was like that when I was first diagnosed.  It was quite difficult for me.  My prayer to You is that I don't have these same issues for the rest of my days and that I don't have to react to them.  I have such great insight into these thoughts so why do I still have them?  I also have these images in my mind that just won't go away.  They are often scary sometimes.  Maybe I should leave some books and the fiction alone.  My life has gotten shorter and my world has gotten smaller.  I hate having the avoidance issue and I don't know how to deal with it.  Forgive me of my sins.  Draw me back to You. Help me to grow and to focus on You.  Help me to see that there are bigger issues and more important things than what seems to be important in the moment.  Lord, give me peace of mind and give me spiritual rest for I am overwhelmed.  Thank You for Your peace and Your focus and Your rest.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Gift of life

Lord Jesus,

Give me strength.  Help me to overcome my fears.  I have come to realize that except for a couple of things, they really are anxieties.  I am no longer afraid.  Thank You for helping me to see the light.  I also thank You that I am alive and well.  I feel like for myself I have a purpose.  I don't know all of the answers but little by little You have been guiding me along the way.  Thank You for giving me life through my mother.  Thank You.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Help and remind me

Heavenly Father,

Help me to not be so lazy and neglectful.  I admit that I have been.  I am sorry.  I am in need of daily reminders to do what I am supposed to do.  Reminders help keep me going..  I have to do so much it seems. The truth is, I am so overwhelmed.  Lord, I ask that You would take away my burdens.  I lift them up to You.  Thank You for taking away those burdens.  I know that You are greater than those burdens.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Neglecting my praying

Heavenly Father,

I miss praying and communicating to You.  I ask for forgiveness of my sins.  I am sorry that I often postpone or neglect my prayer time with You. Again, I am sorry.  I have been neglectful for a while now.  I don't want to complain to You every time I pray.  This time, I say, thank You.  Thank You for Your forgiveness and for the many blessings You have given to me.  Thank You that I have a purpose.  Thank You for Your will for my life.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

My own soul and my own life

Lord,

So I was watching this movie called "Sunday Morning Rapture" and it got me to thinking about my own soul and my own life.  How do I examine myself to see if I am of the faith?  How do I not worry and be so anxious all of the time?  What does it also mean to work out our salvation with fear and with trembling? I know for now that at the end of the movie, those who were left behind were wailing and crying, realizing their fate.  I realize that there will be many who will be like the people in the church in that movie.  I don't want to be left behind.  I do realize that I have not always done Your will.  Lord, I am afraid that I won't be ready. I have finally realized that there is much work to be done.  You have given all of us a job to do and much is required of us.  Unfortunately, I am failing and I have failed to do so, Lord.  Forgive me of this and all of my sins.  The truth is, how do I do what is required of me?  I know that I am supposed to do Your will, but I have no clue what Your will is.  I don't want to be saved just because I want to go to Heaven, but to also love, cherish, and serve You.  I remember once I had no real knowledge of You back in the day.  I also recall believing in You and being saved from that moment on.  I didn't always act like a saved person and I have done things that I know were and still are wrong.  Lord, forgive me of those sins.  I want to be a changed person.  I want to be a new person in Christ.  I want to be a saved, obedient believer in the Lord Jesus Christ who is enduring and remained faithful to You.  I ask for these things, because I want my life to be a story of a person who lived according to Your will because of obedience.

Thank You for answering this, and every other prayer.  In Jesus' name,  Amen.

Patience as a virtue

God,

Thank You for answering my prayers.  I thank You that You give wisdom liberally.  I finally understand what it is like to be patient.  Now I ask You to be not only wise, but also patient.  Though I have grown more patient over the years, it has never been my strong suit.  Teach me Your will and Your ways, including how to build character.  Thank You for Your salvation and I ask for forgiveness of all of my sins.  Thank You.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Being wise

Heavenly Father,

I ask You for not just forgiveness, but also for wisdom, or rather more wisdom.  It is good that I have the knowledge, but I have no clue what I need to do with it.  That is what has been overwhelming me for years. I wish I could say that I have made a mountain out of a molehill, but my issues are real.  My issues are big. Also, my issue are quite serious.  I keep asking myself a lot of questions that I don't have a definite answer to.  I know for myself, the answer is to keep it simple.  However, I am not You, and I have heard over the years that You are greater than my problems.  I ask that You would solve the problems that I have been having when it comes to my health and life in general.  Specifically I need a plan for my life and my purpose for living.  So far, the only goal that I have is to live life, meet new people, be independent for at least a while from the internet, and also to be healthy.  I have been living and doing unhealthy things.  I need support. Doing things on my own have made things hard.  I know that I am a private person, but the truth is, no person is an island.  I want to be held accountable.  I want to have true friends, even if it is one.  I want to have those things and live that life.  However, what is Your standard and Your goal for me?  All I know to do is to call on You.  I believe that You will answer this prayer.

I thank You for not just answering my prayer, but for hearing me in the first place.

In Your name,

Amen

Wonderment and struggle

Jesus,

I ask for Your forgiveness for all of my sins.  I have spent so much time struggling that I admit that I don't take the time to take action.  Even if I do, it ends up overwhelming me.  That is the problem.  I need to take a break.  I could take a break from reality but I don't always live in reality.  I am not addicted to going online but I realize for a while that I have spent too much time online and not time living in the "real world".  I live and have lived in a "fantasy world" where I am rich, famous, and have "real life" problems.  The irony is obvious.  Reality is something that not even I can escape from in the fantasy world.

I have become not a godly person but a well-meaning "stick in the mud".  I need to get out more.  I live in a safe world and because of that, I have no real idea of how to live in the real world.  I feel saddened that there are things that I could do and I would like to do, but I don't know how to do so or just gave up on doing it.  Lord, I ask for guidance and wisdom.  I have all the knowledge in the world, but now I finally realize that I am an example of the more one learns the less one knows.  I feel for that reason, I am alone in the world lacking in wisdom.  I need guidance and that is why I ask for those things.  I have become isolated and I have become complacent, if not too complacent.  I feel it is that I like the privacy that comes with isolation but even that becomes depressing at times.

I have prayed about it often over the years.  I do need to get out more.  I do pray a lot about it in some form or fashion.  Is it true that God helps those who help themselves?  Nowhere in the Bible have I found that.  Maybe the helping themselves is about faith.  I guess because I have had struggles with a lack of faith and doubt that things have not improved.  Things have not changed.  I would love for things to change.  I wonder now if the reason why things have changed is because I have not changed.  For years I felt like the world has passed me by.  It has been over a decade since that has happened.

I think that maybe if it is biblical, I need to do more to help myself.  If that is the case, then I need to touch the hem of Your garment, Lord.  I feel like I have wasted my life, and that I haven't accomplished anything in the last ten years.  My only goal is to be independent.  I now wonder what was and is Your goal.  I have no clue what Your will for my life.  Why Lord, am I here?  If Judgement was tonight, then what would I have accomplished?  All I know is that I won't have to be judged in the Great White Throne.  Thank You for giving me the insight that I so needed to write this prayer or rather, "letter".

In Your name, Jesus, Amen.

How I am doing today

Lord,

I feel great, except for the pain that I am suffering.  I feel like I am blowing up and gaining weight.  I don't know how true that is.  I am just bloated I think.  I just ate so maybe that is why.  I wake up with pain.  I don't know if it is weight gain, diabetes, or the "arthritis".  I admit that I have not taken charge of my health.  I would like to do that, but where do I begin?  I also ask for healing.  I need healing.  I really exercise can help as well.  Jesus, I ask this, and I thank You.

In Your name,


Amen

Prayer about anxiety

Lord,

I realize that fear is about anxiety.  I have not been anxious in a while.  However, I am anxious and I don't know what else to do other than pray about it.  Give me the peace of mind I so need right now. I prayed about the source of my anxiety.  I am now concerned about what will happen to me.  It is as if something will end up darkening my doorstep.  I hate having this anxiety looming over me. However, I am telling You the truth.  Show me how to overcome it.  I leave it in Your hands, and I thank You for answering this prayer.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Prayer of repentance

Father,

Forgive me of all of my sins, for I have sinned against You only.  I want to change because I need to change.  I am a sinner in need of forgiveness.  Have mercy on me, Lord.  I am not innocent.  I am guilty of a lot of things.  I feel less anxious today.  I am at a point where I believe I can breathe better. I thank You that You have saved me and made me one of Yours.  Thank You for Your forgiveness this day.  I am writing to repent of my sins because I want to be a new creation in Jesus Christ.

In His name,

Amen

A lesson in unwavering faith

Lord,

Help me to forgive and not to lose hope in this world.  Remind me that there is always hope with You.  This world is temporary and I need help in realizing that You are watching over us in this temporary world.  Eternal means forever.  It is amazing that Your love, grace, and mercy are available to those here now, but will also remain forever.  Thank You for removing all doubt and unbelief.  I am sorry that I ever doubted You.  You gave me a word about the fact that Your Word is true and that I have no reason to doubt You in the first place.  You have also helped me with my unbelief.  Forgive me for all of my sins.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Lord, Help Me

Lord Jesus,

I am sorry for this, but You want for all of us to be honest.  Help me with my unbelief.  I doubt that my prayers will be answered for that doubt alone.  I wish I wasn't so doubtful.  I know and take responsibility for my actions as I am admittedly someone who is in need of help.  Forgive me and I ask also for an increase in my faith.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Thank You, O Lord.

Father,

Maybe being nervous is a good thing.  I have confidence that You have listened to me.  Thank You for listening to me.  Thank You for answering my prayers.  You have heard my cry.  I receive this gift and all that You have given me.  Again, I thank You.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

I have some questions.

Jesus,

In Your name,

Thank You for saving me.  You have loved me since creation.  It took me a while to learn that You took part in creation.  After all, You and the Father are One.  You have given me the assurance of my salvation.  I wonder why You think I am so beautiful.  I am afraid of posting pictures up online.  Why do I do this to myself?  I don't think they are degrading.  No way.  I just feel like revealing too much of myself.  I just realize that I have a negative sense of who I am.  I feel like that others see me as a person who is hideous.  I have issues and they have all have an effect on me.  I don't want to wish anymore.  That is the problem.  I wish too much and don't do enough.  There is a song out that says that You love my flaws and that I am beautiful because of them.  I don't understand that verse.  Help me to  understand.  I ask You in this case for wisdom, for I lack it.  I don't know how I look outside of a reflection, and I always thought that it is scary.  How come we cannot see ourselves without a mirror or a selfie?  I feel that You have a purpose for doing so and I didn't mean to question You, but that question has driven me "crazy" from time to time.  I may be the OCD or the bipolar, but whatever it is, it can be annoying.  I know that there are more important things in the world that I need to consider, but those are questions that keep popping up from time to time.  Father, I ask that You would tell me why.  I ask for an answer since You are the only One who can do so.  I lift up my hands and I give You thanks.  I praise You, Lord.  Thank You.

Healing what ails me

Lord,

Am I truly saved?  Am or have I been saved though faith?  I often lack faith at times and now I have no idea.  This scares me the most because eternity depends on whether one is truly saved or not.  I have had some fears today.  I want to have nothing to do with what ails me.  Too bad for me, fear and anxiety are what ails me.  I ask for healing and to overcome those fears that I have.  I thank You for healing me and strengthening me.

In Your name,


Amen

I need wisdom

Lord,

Teach me Your ways.  Sometimes my prayers get jumbled or I stumble my words.  I am a person who is in constant need of help.  However, the style of prayer matter less than the heart of the person who is saying the prayer.  I ask for the wisdom to live as Your Word says.  I ask for guidance to be obedience.  Help me listen.  I talk a lot but I have only a small clue with how to listen.  I ask for the leading of the Holy Spirit in this matter.  I, Lord, give You thanks.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Being wise and compassionate

Lord,

I think that I need to think about law school.  It is something that has been on my mind.  I now wonder if I were to have a good reason to go to law school.  I have limited skills, another degree, and a spotty job history.  I haven't had a steady job in years and I want to improve that.  I have options but I don't know where to go or who exactly to see.  I have no real transportation of my own and that is also a limit that I have.  I need help with opening those doors, and wisdom to carry out what I need to do.

Father, I ask for forgiveness of my sins.  I saw a man lifting up a small homeless sign this morning and I only saw that word, "homeless".  I realize that it was a way to avoid to be obligated to help a man who I did not know.  The guilt did not fall away.  In fact, it should not.  It is so sad that I did that and I regret it.  I can be judgmental and selfish, and today and other days, have taught me that.  Lord, I want to change that, but I don't know how.  Forgive me for this sin and have mercy upon me, Lord.
I am sorry that I have done this or better yet, have not.  I did not show the kind of compassion a Christian is supposed to show and I know that I can be forgiven, but I also ask for mercy.  I feel really bad for what I have done.  I am supposed to be kind and charitable.  My actions say otherwise.

Thank you, Lord, for answering this prayer.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Depression and law school

Lord,

Lift the depression off of me.  I cannot make a mistake or just correct my mistakes.  I feel trapped.  I hate it.  I have been treated like a child by people who I have thoughts about them not liking me.  I just feel like moving out, but I have no money and not enough credit.  I would like to do things that I have given up on.  Going to law school is one of those things.  I want to stay on the path of going to law school.  My goal is to study and take the LSAT.  However, I cannot take it because I have no money.  My desire is to go and money is holding me back.  I need a stipend, a scholarship, and a grant.  I think that law school is expensive, but a loan won't cut it, unless it is from a private source.
I have no idea what I need to do.  All I want to do is to go to law school.  I am a desperate person and my hope is that I have prayed according to Your will.  Give me the wisdom that I need to go to law school.  I am worried that things will never improve and that I will remain depressed.  Lord Jesus, help me.  I need to get out of this situation because the depression might worsen.  I just leave it in Your hands.

Thank You,

Amen

Taking charge of my health

Lord,

Help me to take charge of my health. I have had difficulty with doing such.  I am a binge eater and I know that I need help.  The problem is, well the real problem is, I expect others to help me while I have great difficulty doing it myself.  It has been a mere struggle.  It is a lot of pressure because I wish to lose weight and keep it off.  My worst fears have come true.  My goals are to exercise, eat healthy, and keep the weight off.  That has been a goal for a while now, but I wasn't sure what I should do and what my exact goals are.  I ask that You would guide me and take away my anxiety, especially when it comes to this issue.  I appreciate and give You thanks for the issue that You have given me.  I ask for wisdom for I have knowledge that I wouldn't know what to do with.  Thank You for that wisdom, Lord.  Thank You for strengthening my faith and encouraging me.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Law School

Lord,

Now I feel like I am reconsidering my option to go to law school.  I don't have the qualifications or the job history to go to law school.  Right now, I have no clue why I wanted to go.  I feel so discouraged.  I want to do more than get out of the house.  I have no clue what I want to be, though I am a grown up.  I thought that it would be a good idea but now I am not so sure.  Lord, give me the guidance that I so need.  I do want to go back to school.  Now I have no idea what I want to do.  I am discouraged also because I don't trust myself.  I ask for encouragement and guidance.  Now I also need a sense of direction in my life.  Your help will be greatly appreciated as it always have been.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

I thank You, and I'm sorry..

Father,

I thank You for answering my prayers.  You have healed me and given me hope in this world.  Not only that, but You have also given me a sense of direction in my life.  Thank You.  I put my trust in You, something I should have done before.  I am sorry.  I apologize and I ask for Your forgiveness. Everything I said in my prayer was true.  Everything that I am writing in my prayer is also true. Thank You from the bottom of my heart.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

My goals in life and what is needed to start over, so to speak.

Lord,

Thank You for the gift and love of music.  I recall being a flute player when I was a child.  I was decent, but since then, I never got to play it much again.  I wish that I could still play.  Nowadays, there isn't much I can do.  I can barely make a mistake.  I have nothing to do it seems.  My days are the same, like groundhog day sort of speak.

 I want to go back to graduate school to study law, business, or some other major.  I know that I have much to offer.  I am not so sure what to do with myself, but I know that at my age, there is so much I want to do.  I know that it won't be easy, but I know I can do it.  I have had jobs, but limited experience, I admit.  I want to expand and have a career.  I tried to be a teacher, a chef, and a business, but I have either failed or given up.  The real issue is I don't have the money or a way to go.  I don't know where to go or what to do.  I want to do more than just clean house and stay isolated all day.  I want to network, go to church and fellowship with other believers, and lots of other things.  I haven't worked on or have done these things within the last ten years or so.

Because of You, I have learned to deal with anxiety.  I know that I have a limited income and a skill set that needs updating, but I know that I can do well given the chance.  I realize that I haven't laid much groundwork, but I will do that.  I am a person who still doesn't know exactly what she wants to be when she grows up.  I feel like at my age, I am still young, but I have felt like for years the world has passed me by since I have not gone to school.  I want and ask for, doors to be opened to me.  I believe that whenever I prayed this afternoon, You have listened.  I ask for advice and guidance as well.  I know that I need a resume and marketable skills.  There is a lot that I don't know, and I realize that I need a plan.  Lord, what should I do?  I ask for wisdom also in this matter, and I thank You for Your wisdom, guidance, and continued since of direction in my life. Thank You and continue to give You thanks and praise for answering my prayer or rather, prayers.

In Jesus' name, I pray, Amen.