Monday, September 30, 2013

I can conquer fears

Dear God,

I thank You for another day.  Today is my birthday and I am very happy about this day.  I feel like that because of You, I have learned about conquering and facing my fears.  That is a great gift for me and I thank You.  You have answered my prayers.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Conquerer..

Dear God,

Thank You.  I needed help and still do need help conquering my fears.  I cast my fears upon You.  Thank You for caring for me.  It is hard living with fear and anxiety, but at least You are there.  I know that I couldn't have made it without You.  Thank You.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Saturday, September 28, 2013

My family

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank You for Your salvation.  Thank You for giving me that assurance.  There are relatives who don't know You.  They are either deceived by false religion or I am not sure if they are saved by their conduct.  I know I am not one to pass ungodly judgment, but I want them to be saved.  Save them, Lord Jesus.  Give them the assurance of their salvation and of Your salvation.  Let them know that not only did Jesus died for them, but also conquered Hell and the grave for them.  Also, let them know that life is too short not to be saved and live for You.  May they serve You for their rest their lives and may their names be written in the Lamb's Book of Life.  Thank You for saving them.

In Jesus' Name,

Amen

Friday, September 27, 2013

Facing

Dear God,

Help me to face my fears.  Help me to face disappointments.  I guess all of us have our fears and disappointments, but this one is a doozy.  I am feeling bummed about something that happened today.  My ride passed me by and then she said that she could take me but I would be late.  So, what did I do?  I had to cancel my appointment.  I was ready to go, too.  I am feeling bummed.  If only I had done something differently.  Help me to face uncertainties as well.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Facing my fears

Dear God,

I was listening to a sermon about fear.  Help me to face my fears.  It seems that I fear everything.  I don't know how to face my fears.  I feel alone in this.  I ask for Your wisdom in all of this.  I need Your strength to overcome those fears.

I got this idea from a post written on a website and I got to thinking about it.  I need to face my fears instead of run away from them.  Should I write about them and expose them? What should I do?

It would be nice to overcome my fears and just move forward with living life.  I would be the wiser and stronger for it.  I can only imagine living a fearless life.  I am not sure about facing my fears however.

They seem so large and so varied.  Help me, Lord to face those fears and to overcome them.  I am not to supposed to live life full of fear but full of hope.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Help me to see...

Dear Lord,

Help me to see what beauty is all about.  I want to be a beautiful person inside and out, or so it seems.  Inner beauty I have learned is far more important than outer beauty.  Outer beauty is subjective while inner beauty is not.  It is fixed.  Inner beauty is about a person's heart and their character.  I have been told that I have a beautiful personality and I am a nice person.  Yet others see me as ugly or don't really talk about how I look.

It is hard to see myself as beautiful sometimes as my self-esteem is low.  Help me to see myself as beautiful on the outside as well as the inside.  I never really thought of myself deep down as beautiful.  If someone were to tell me that, then I would have a hard time believing that.  I am overweight, short, and wear glasses because I am nearsighted.  That is what I see as well as the huge stomach that I have.

It is frustrating to be me sometimes.  I want to lose weight.  I diet and exercise yet I am still doing something wrong.  Okay, I need to learn to eat better than I have been.  I need to be mindful.  I pray for a direction of my paths, guidance, and wisdom.  Help me to be wise to the world and how I see people.  I am fighting a battle that I sometimes believe I could win.  Help me to see myself in a more positive light.  May I resist the devil and he will flee from me.  Help me to be a confident woman who stands on her own two feet.  Help me to see that I too am smart, beautiful, and not just someone who has to hide or feel sorry for herself.

I want to be humble and kind yet gracious and not a pushover.  Give me the courage to say no sometimes.  I need wisdom, guidance, and direction in my life.  God, help me, and thank You.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Fun

Dear God,

I have just finished exercising or rather dancing.  That was fun.  I need to have fun more often.  I am so serious because of how I see life.  Sometimes I take some things way too seriously and other times I have learned that maybe I don't take things seriously enough.  I wished that I had looked at life differently and maybe just maybe life would just be easier. 

I guess all I can do is learn from my mistakes and grow.  I am not sure, but I believe that I have grown up a lot over the last few years.  I have You to thank.  That is what I am most certain of.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Monday, September 23, 2013

Questions to ask

Dear God,

Is it okay that I think outside the box when it comes to even You and your creation?  I wonder this because there are so many things that I don't know.  I guess I have this in common with other believers, and non-believers.  We all have questions that we all would like to ask, but I wonder if fear has something to do with not asking those questions.  Or is it that asking questions have a lot to do with a lack of faith?  Maybe I should learn to ask more questions as maybe I need to think outside the box more.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Becoming an overcomer

Dear God,

I have problems exhibiting self-control and also have problems overcoming some issues.  I wish I could overcome these things.  I don't have that power, but You do.  I thank You for that.  Forgive me of my sins; help me to overcome those things that are troubling me.  For when I am weak then I am strong.  Show yourself strong, O Lord.  I need Your help.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Saturday, September 21, 2013

My journey

Dear God,

Thank You for Your Word.  I wasn't sure about a few things, but I realize that what I am going through is a spiritual battle.  However, there are times when I am not confident that I am going to win.  I feel helpless and weak to do anything because I am lost and I don't know what to do.  I have finally realized how wrong this line of thinking is.  Thank You for Your truth.

Your word is most certainly a lamp to my feet.  I love Your word.  I am saddened that I don't take the time to even read a verse on some days, much less entire chapters.  Show me how to apply Your word to my daily life.  Give me strength in times of battle.  May I always be alert, for I trust in You.

Your word says for when I am weak, then I am strong.  I didn't realize this at all.  Now, I do.  You have given me so much hope and a believer needs to be hopeful, especially in these times.  Right now, I am trying not to overeat but it is hard to do when I have spent years struggling, overeating, and binging.

Today I am having a rough battle about the obsession with the actor that I have.  You know who he is and I have spent a lot of my time and my mind over him.  I am not proud of that and I am not patient.  I hate that it has taken a long time to overcome.  I realize that with You, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

I need Your strength and Your wisdom to make it through the day.  This actor and these obsessive thoughts have been hard to overcome.  Managing these thoughts can be difficult. Reading about the thoughts that I have can be difficult for me.  I felt like giving up sometimes.  How do I approach these thoughts?  In other words, what do I need to do when a thought arises?

These are things that I deal with on a daily basis.  I admit that I cannot take them anymore.  When if they come back like they always do?  How should I handle them?  Should I let the thoughts pass?  What should I do?  Help me, Lord.  It will be and is greatly appreciated.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Friday, September 20, 2013

Journey

Dear Heavenly Father,

I spent much of the day dealing with health and fitness.  I was feeling loopy today, so I drank some green tea.  I love spending time with You and writing You daily.  Even though I try to write You daily.  There are things that I need to do like read the Bible and pray more.  Forgive me for my sins and cleanse me for my unrighteousness.

I am sorry for my wrongs.  I am not proud of those wrongs that I committed.  I would like to overcome the fear of failure.  I realize that I have accountability, wisdom, and knowledge on my side.  But most importantly, I have You on my side.  I am referring to my weighty issues.

I felt like giving up, but all I had to do was follow a diet and exercise routine.  What made it so difficult was eating in moderation.  I fear not eating in moderation because I have difficulty trying to follow through something for a long time.  But I have found myself to be consistent yet made quite a few mistakes on my journey.  I would like to learn from my mistakes.  Help me not only to learn my mistakes, but to be realistic and consistent.

I have been listening to the advice my counselor gave and it was valuable.  I am learning so much from her and from my counseling sessions.  I have learned that it is about accomplishing the fact that I can actually do something, that I am not powerless or helpless.  I have lost a good amount of weight thus far and it makes me smile that I have lost the weight.  I cast my cares and concerns over to You.  Give me wisdom when it comes to my weight loss journey.

I am at a weight loss plateau that I would like to get out of.  I am learning about this plateau and I had to switch up my routine.  I hope to lose those few pounds very soon.  Guide me into whatever Your plan is for my life and for my health and I thank You for doing so.

In Jesus'  name,

Amen

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Growing up

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank You for the day I had.  I feel more relief than anything.  I have had my thoughts but I realize that there are times when I have to learn to do things myself and stand on my own two feet.  Help me to see that I am just as good as anybody else.  As You well know, I have become more self-conscious about my weight and about my appearance than ever before.  I hate conflict, yelling and screaming, rejection, and disapproval.  That is a reason why my self-esteem is low.  Now that I have identified the reasons, help me to overcome those fears as I cast all of my cares to You.  I need help in this area and I have struggled with this for years like I have struggled with my weight.  I hope that it doesn't put too much pressure on me like my weight did.  I am easily stressed yet You are there for me.  If You are there for me, then why am I stressed?  Help me.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

My-self

Dear God,

I have been having self-esteem issues most of my life. I have no idea how to change that, but You do.  Give me the grace that I need to help in time of need.  This is a need.l  I have been self-conscious about my weight for a while now and I wish I could change it.  I don't know what to do.  Help me, Lord.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Thank You, Lord

Dear Lord,

Thank You.  I am grateful for all that You have done for me.  I praise You and I love You.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Monday, September 16, 2013

My housing situation

Dear God,

I need help.  I want to listen to your voice audibly.  As You know, I am not a good listener.  I am concerned that I may not be one of Your sheep and that I won't know that the voice is Yours.  I need wisdom to do what I need to do to make sure my credit is solid and that my debts are paid off.  My income is low and I have no job.  I don't know where to begin.  I want and need to move out for my piece of mind and sanity.  I wish I could go and just pack up but that is not realistic.  Help me to find a realistic solution to this situation.  I want to move in to the house across the street.  I would like to find a place of my own.  I am praying for a financial breakthrough.  I need more than $100,000 to put up the money for the house plus other expenses.  I have been told that it would be unrealistic considering my expenses correlating with both my credit and my low income.  I am hopeful however these limits have helped me see this realistically.  I know that with You all things are possible but I need to be realistic.  How can I get the financial help I need to purchase this house with what little I have?  It is almost impossible.  It will be hard to buy a house this way.  I cannot afford to pay a loan back without having to sell the house later on.  Then not to mention all of those taxes.  What should I do?  Where should I go?  Should I look into alternatives?

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Acts 8:38

Dear God,

Acts 8:38 is such an amazing verse and amazing story. Phillip baptized an Ethiopian eunuch, but I what I wonder if that if You want me to be baptized.  I know that I have been baptized, but do You want me to be baptized again?  Would You like for me to preach and baptize others?  What is Your will for me, for my life?  Thank You for such an amazing verse and story.  What is Your calling for me?  I ask that You would fill me with Your Holy Spirit.  May He also teach me what lessons I have to learn starting from today.  I am not sure what You are speaking to me about with Acts 8:38, so I ask You to show me how to apply Your word, especially this verse, to my daily life.  I thank You for doing so.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Clarity

Dear God,

Thank You for giving me the clarity that I need.  There is so much I want to do with my life.  I give You thanks and I give You praise for You are worthy of thanks and praise.  You know my plans before I even ask of them.  May thy will be done.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Friday, September 13, 2013

Moving

Dear Lord,

Give me guidance and direction.  Guide me with Your Eye.  I would like to move.  I need a house of my own or at least an apartment to rent.  I believe that I can make it on my own.  I feel like I am trapped by circumstances.   You know what they are.  I ask that You would open doors for me so that I can move.  I need peace in my life and I need to be independent.  I want to show myself, You, and others that I can take care of myself.  I have reservations about this of course.  I would like to move as soon as possible.  Take care of me, Lord, wherever I am.  If You don't want me to move or even think about moving, then I won't move.  If You do want me to move, then show me what I need to do in order to make that happen.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Listening to God

Dear Heavenly Father,

I want to listen to You.  I realize that I am not the best listener.  I admire believers who take time to just listen to Your voice.  I guess there are millions of ways You speak to us but I am not sure how You speak to my mind.  I guess You speak to my mind or to my heart or in my dreams.  I as a sheep should recognize Your voice but sometimes when I get distracted, it is hard to pay attention.  I want to speak and communicate with You like You are a Friend, but that may not be the best advice.  I am not supposed to fear friends and answer to them one day.  Lord, teach me your ways, guide me, and direct my paths.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

I am listening

Dear God,

What is Your plan for my life?  What purpose do You have for my life?  Why am I here?  I feel like sometimes I have no identity of my own.  However, You created us all with an identity.  Is it in your plan for me to go back to school?  Or to start my own business?  Or to have a family?  I feel like life has passed me by and I feel so alone at times because of it.  Loneliness is such a horrible feeling to have.  It can be quite depressing.  I am listening.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Thankfulness

Dear Lord,

I am doing pretty well so far.  I have my daily struggles and because of You, I can do anything through Christ who gives me strength.  I am doing well right now because of You.  I am a happier person and for that, I thank You.

I wish that I could say that all is perfect, but I know that with You, all things are possible.  I cannot stress that enough. 

Thank You,

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Monday, September 9, 2013

Denial of myself

Dear God,

This kind of denial is good.  Help me to daily deny myself.  I want to take up my cross daily.  I ask that You would peel off every layer.  I am a person who has been burdened with the things of this life.  It took me yesterday to realize that I have yet to truly deny myself.  I have held back a lot of things and I have taken hold of a lot of things.  Take them, Lord.  Forgive me and cleanse me from unrighteousness.  My desire is to be a new creation in Christ and to continue to have my mind renewed. 

I want to know what it is like to be a Christian.  Give me the assurance that I am truly saved and not lost.  I feel that it has been another burden of mine.  I am not always sure if I am saved or lost.  I don't want to feel that prayer saves, that only You save.  I just have this feeling that I am not saved because I have an issue with doubt.  I doubt that I am saved and I doubt that I am on my way to Heaven because I have doubts.  I am asking that You would remove those doubts and that You would forgive me of those doubts.  I want to live for You and serve You all the days of my life.

 I am mindful that what is going on in this world won't be an easy life, but I also know that I have a huge responsibility on my shoulders because of my faith.  Help me to also be mindful of other believers who have lost homes, freedom, and even their lives.  This may be me soon enough, I don't know, but I am thankful that I live in a nation where there is still religious freedom.  For this reason, I shall use this freedom to serve You, and tell others about You.

Help me to deny myself daily.  Use me, Lord, to do Your will. 

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Sunday, September 8, 2013

Use me, Lord

Dear God,

Thank You for saving me and for forgiving me.  Help me with my lack of faith whenever things go wrong.  I get numb emotionally and depressed.  It isn't a good feeling to have.  I am not the happiest of people and I would like to be joyful.  How do I become joyful in the midst of trials?  I don't even know half the time what the trials are.  How do I escape when I don't know what to escape from?  I am ever mindful of those who have been persecuted, who suffer sickness, and go out to the world and preach the gospel.  My life is quite dull and I don't know how to fix it.  I feel like a mindless drone who is completely clueless on how to live her life and to deal with problems.  I have no idea how to conduct my affairs.  I need guidance and a sense of direction in my life.  I could use all of the help I can get right now.  Help me.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Saturday, September 7, 2013

My contract for weight loss

Dear God,
Today is the first day of my contract that I don't plan or wish to break.  I want to do well and just eat healthy and lose weight.  I want to lose weight because I need to lose weight.  Help me to be mindful of others who have issues with food.  There are so many who don't have the most loving relationship with food as I do.  Help me to remember what will happen once I lose the weight and why I wish to lose weight in the first place.  I believe that this contract will be of great help to me. 

I even exercised today for a few minutes.  It felt great to do so.  I never thought I could do it because of my mother's views.  However I was wrong.  It felt great.  I feel like I have lost a few inches just walking.  I am very happy with myself.

Forgive me for not being honest with myself and with others.  I wish that I could have been honest yesterday.  I would like to walk a mile in my own shoes while at the same time walk a mile in others. Thank You for all that You have done for me.  I will continually and I will ask for Your guidance and Your wisdom.  I want to lose this extra weight for You and for myself.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Friday, September 6, 2013

Growing pains

I am doing better today though I still have pains.  Tomorrow I will exercise and view exercise as fun and not as a chore.  Help me with my mindset.  Help me to overcome fear.  Remove all stumbling blocks that will cause me to fail.  Prove Ryedeena right, Lord.  Help me.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Thursday, September 5, 2013

My back is okay for now

Dear God,

I have been feeling better as of late.  I have been waiting for my prescription to arrive in the mail today.  It has yet to arrive so I should expect it tomorrow.  I have a lot of information at my disposal yet I have shown little improvement compared to what I want to do.  As You know, I have PCOS.  I want to be healed from that and from diabetes.  PCOS has done me no good though I have to admit that I have learned a lot about my health.  I take my health very seriously but right now I don't know where to begin.  Show me where to begin?  Help me to lose weight.  Heal me, Jesus. 

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

My back

Dear God,

I finally know what is wrong with my back.  It is a degenerative age related condition.  I have to lose weight and I will keep it off.  I need to be more patient and more caring when it comes to my health.  Help me to lose weight and not to be obsessed with food.  Teach me how to lose weight, eat in moderation, and give me the patience to lose the weight that I need to lose.  I need, want, and desire to lose weight.  Help me, Lord.  Help me to overcome my fears and my doubts.  I cast my cares upon You and I thank You that You care for me.  I am burdened with the cares of this life and I have grown weary.  Give me the guidance that I need to be healthy, and to eat healthy, for I admit that I have not done a great job of taking of myself.  I would like to begin.  Show me where to begin.

Thank You,

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Psalm 121

I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
    where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
    the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip—
    he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel
    will neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord watches over you—
    the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
    nor the moon by night.
The Lord will keep you from all harm—
    he will watch over your life;
the Lord will watch over your coming and going
    both now and forevermore.

Monday, September 2, 2013

Help me

Dear God,
I have a lot on my plate and a lot on my mind.  Help me. 

In Jesus' name,
Amen

Simple prayer

Dear Heavenly Father,

Please.  Help me to do what is hard.  Help me not to worry.  Help me not to fret.  God, help me.

In Jesus' name,

Amen