Heavenly Father,
I love the idea because of deep down reasons. I don't wish to come across as somebody who will come across as not someone who cannot afford things. It isn't an excuse, but I want to come across for myself as someone with the freedom to express my love for others by giving gifts. The problem is, will that love be reciprocated? I am bipolar and I wonder if that is the issue as to why I have been spending. I need to "come down" in terms of my mood swings. I believe that is the reason for the confusion I just wrote about yesterday. On one hand, I love to spend. On the other hand, I want to save. I have a low income and I also ask for wisdom when it comes to budgeting and also help when it comes to paying my bills. I have more than one line of credit and I am not sure, but I got greedy and now, I am concerned. I should be scared. I ask for Your help and Your healing. I ask for financial blessing and providence, but I also ask for forgiveness. I have had anxieties and fears when it comes to this situation. I don't know what to do and I am truly afraid. I also ask that You would send someone my way who won't be judgmental or rude. I know that I need help. I recall being hospitalized because I had a similar issue. I don't want to go back. I want to move forward and have my bills taken care of. This isn't all. My income is small and I fear that it may get smaller or become non-existent one day. I ask for focus and guidance. I am not proud of myself. In fact, I am ashamed of myself. Help me, Lord. I thank You and I praise You, for Your help and for having the answers to this and all other prayers.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
I love the idea because of deep down reasons. I don't wish to come across as somebody who will come across as not someone who cannot afford things. It isn't an excuse, but I want to come across for myself as someone with the freedom to express my love for others by giving gifts. The problem is, will that love be reciprocated? I am bipolar and I wonder if that is the issue as to why I have been spending. I need to "come down" in terms of my mood swings. I believe that is the reason for the confusion I just wrote about yesterday. On one hand, I love to spend. On the other hand, I want to save. I have a low income and I also ask for wisdom when it comes to budgeting and also help when it comes to paying my bills. I have more than one line of credit and I am not sure, but I got greedy and now, I am concerned. I should be scared. I ask for Your help and Your healing. I ask for financial blessing and providence, but I also ask for forgiveness. I have had anxieties and fears when it comes to this situation. I don't know what to do and I am truly afraid. I also ask that You would send someone my way who won't be judgmental or rude. I know that I need help. I recall being hospitalized because I had a similar issue. I don't want to go back. I want to move forward and have my bills taken care of. This isn't all. My income is small and I fear that it may get smaller or become non-existent one day. I ask for focus and guidance. I am not proud of myself. In fact, I am ashamed of myself. Help me, Lord. I thank You and I praise You, for Your help and for having the answers to this and all other prayers.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
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