Thursday, August 29, 2013

Draw a blank

I feel like a failure.  I surrender my depression and give You total control over my situation.  In fact, I give You total control over my life.

Thank you for all that You have done for me.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

I am drawing a blank

Dear God,

I wish I knew what to say.  This is one of those moments that I have no clue what I am going to write to You.  I need guidance in my praying.  I hope that my musing today reaches multitudes of people.  I want to show the world the truth of the gospel and what You have done for me.  There are so many lies out there.  I could use a dose of the truth right now and I ask for the Holy Spirit to deliver the Truth to me.  Thank You for doing so, Lord.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Changes that I need, want, and desire

Dear Heavenly Father,

Show me how to apply all that I have learned and all I have at my disposal to my daily life.  I feel guilty because of my failure to do so.  The answer was right in front of my face.  Change me and my mindset.  I need to get up and do something about it.  I often concern myself with my weight yet I haven't done a whole lot to change it.

I meant to write about my revelations yesterday but I feel asleep.  Help me to stay mentally grounded and mindful.  Renew my mind continually so that I may and thus will, be transformed by the renewal of my mind.  Show me also how to apply Your word to my daily life.

I always want to do the right thing.  However, I end up making mistakes and more mistakes, and even more mistakes.  I allow the mistakes to sometimes sidetrack me.  I allow them from keeping my goals whatever they may be.  Set the goals for me that I need in order to lose whatever weight I need, want, and desire to lose.

I know that I always mention my weight because it is one of a few things that I am overly concerned with.  I have taken my health for granted.  My health is very important to me.  I feel like sometimes my health is getting worse.  I don't want to be tired and frustrated every day of my life.  Show me that as a human I am flawed yet I know I can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengthens me.  I ask for continued strength from the Lord.

Forgive me for my sins and my failures.  I want, need, and desire to change and do better.  I realize that I cannot go back and change things, but the present really is a gift.  Thank You, Lord, for opening my eyes.  May Your eyes guide me continually.  I put all of my trust in You.

In Jesus' Name,


Amen

Sunday, August 25, 2013

Out of a depression

Dear Lord,

Thank You for I was depressed.  I was tired and frustrated.  I do wonder if frustration shows a lack of faith or is it part of a believer's life.  I also wonder if I brought it on myself.  Either way, I want and need to change. 

I was depressed because of stress.  I don't always handle stress well.  I just feel like I want to give up sometimes and today was no exception.  I wasn't nervous or anything like I am now, but I was troubled.  I didn't show it.

I knew something was wrong and You brought me our of that.  For that alone, I thank You.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Saturday, August 24, 2013

A change in me

Dear God,

I had a rough day mentally.  A long sleep has done little to quell my obsessive thoughts.  I have wondered why I have these particular thoughts.  I wonder if I didn't have these thoughts would I care so much about what is going on.  Why don't I obsess about cars, jewelry, or money?  They would seem so much easier than infidelity.  I wonder why this happens. 

I have not changed much.  I have made progress, but I haven't changed.  Maybe that is the problem.  I don't apply what I have learned to my life.  I haven't read Your Word in a while and for that, I ask for Your forgiveness.  I ask, in fact, for forgiveness of all of my sins.  I feel like a weak-willed person just waiting for someone to rescue me.

It isn't going to happen, is there?  It isn't going to happen.  I wonder and still do wonder what others mean when You only help those who help themselves.  Have I not helped myself?  It seems contradictory to what Your Word says, but is it?  People have wrong beliefs about a lot of things.

I need help with my life.  I often talk about Jesus' soon return, yet I haven't made myself ready.  Or have I?  I need to do more with myself.  The problem is, I don't know what I am doing.  I ask for strength, courage, wisdom, and guidance.  If anything else, that is what I need.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Friday, August 23, 2013

Jesus is all by Fred Hammond


Dear God,

Thank You.  You are my everything.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Struggling with Sin

Dear God,

I have a problem with a specific sin.  I do wonder if I could conquer sin would my other prayers be answered.  I am not sure if it is a willing sin, but I do have a problem.  It isn't a sin that I am proud of.  Well, no sin is something to be proud of.  But I am even afraid to name that sin it is so bad to me.  I have prayed about it for a number of years.  I have issues with other people, including myself.  I have low self-esteem, I am often fearful , I am thin-skinned, and I lack self-control.  I realize that those are the roots of my sin issue from this particular issue to my weight.  It is hard to ask but I need help in overcoming these things so that the sin that I am concerned about can be overcome.  I just feel that I am a weak-willed individual who needs to learn to stand on her own two feet and not care what the world thinks.  I just don't know what to do.  Help me.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Time spent

Dear God,

Thank You for answering my prayers.  I enjoy the times that we spend together.  I prayed about the issues that I have been having such as financial blessings, my weight and my diet, and overcoming fear.  I am a relatively thin-skinned person who does not take criticism well.  I think I do, but I don't.  Give me the strength and the wisdom to overcome fear and worry.  I do care what others think and I want to take my power back.

I feel that if a person cares what others think, it makes them vulnerable.  It also gives the other person power.  I have to take my power back, Lord.  I just have to.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Freedom to be myself

Dear God,

Give me the courage to be myself.  Last night I have made some bad decisions and for that, I am truly sorry. Today, I realize that You have forgiven me of those bad decisions.

I just chopped off most of my hair.  Now I have to wait for it to grow.  I may need a stylist to shape my hair up.  I never did that before so this is quite exciting.  I look forward to being free.  I don't have to use a lot of products for one thing.  I am not sure I know what to do but I am looking for inspiration.

I ask that You would continually renew my mind so that I may be transformed by the renewal of said mind.  I have been doing well today yet I still feel like I am in a manic state.  My back was hurting and has been every time I get out of bed.  I wish that I knew why that is the case.

Jesus, I ask for Your healing.  I believe that nothing is an accident though there may be coincidences.  Who knows, but only You know?

Sincerely,


Letters to God


Monday, August 19, 2013

Mania

Dear God,

I am on top of the world it seems.  There are times that I am not sure if I am really bipolar.  I have spent so much time with obsessive thoughts that I don't take the time to recognize if I am bipolar.  I hope that all will be well.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  Cleanse me from my unrighteousness.  I am sorry for what I have done.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Change my mindset

Dear God,

Thank You for the opportunity to pray to You.  It seems silly to say this, but I am having a great day today. I have learned that life is a series of choices.  I have chosen to get over the whole obsession with Mickey Rourke and move on.  I am not going to "deal with it" any longer.  I know that crushes and obsessions take a while to get over.  I am over it.  I wasn't going to take it anymore.

Life is too short to focus on things that are mundane.  Mickey Rourke is a good actor, but I don't know the man.  I will never get to meet him or anything like that.  But my Mickey Rourke thing is just an obsession and nothing more.  I have learned a lot though.  I have learned that I will have to be patient.  They will not go overnight.  They don't bother me or wake me up anymore.

I am mindful about things now.  I am mindful of the world around me.  There are so many people who are in need who I need to be mindful of.  Compassion is something that I have felt I lacked.  I have been so wrapped up in my problems that I fail to see the world around me.

I have become less grateful as a result.  There is so much that I am grateful for.  My mindset needed to be changed.  I give You all of the praise for changing me and for changing my mindset.  Continually renew my mind daily, Lord.

Thy will be done.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Saturday, August 17, 2013

In relation to food

Dear Heavenly Father,

I love sharing with others my views.  I feel better after sharing those things.  I feel like a million bucks right now.  I am well at rest.

Thank You for everything You have done for me.  I really appreciate all that You have done.  I don't feel like I should be obsessed with every little detail.  It was getting on my nerves.

I began to grow tired.  Losing weight is a difficult journey.  I have been on that journey for over 9 months now and I have hit a rough patch.  I realize that exercising more, moving around more, and eating better are the key.  Why do I have to make it hard?  My counselor said to keep it simple, so that is what I am going to do.

There is no rocket science or quick fixes to losing weight.  I am blessed with what I have.  I have the food to eat, the motivation to lose weight, and the spirituality and strength to carry through.  There are many who do not know You.  There are others who have given up on losing weight and feel guilty about doing so.  There are many more who weigh over 300 lbs who are unable to move around because of pain.  Help me to be mindful of people who are also in need of food.  May I pray for them, be mindful of them, and help those who are in need.

There are many people, especially children, who go to bed hungry.  Many children especially will die because they don't have any nutritious food to eat.  I live in a country where many of us are getting too fat because we are eating improperly.  There are others who have a hate/hate relationship with food because they are afraid of getting fat.  It is sad because there are many here who worry about obese people, and that is understandable.  There are many who are overweight and obese who suffer from health problems and the person is who overweight and obese needs help.  But there are so many others who suffer from a lack of nutrition and disease because they don't have any food to eat.

Lord, may we as believers feed the hungry and clothed the naked.  May we not just be mindful of those who are less fortunate.  May I see myself as a creation of Yours and that I see myself as a temple of Yours from what I eat to what I watch and see.  May I also have a love/love relationship with food.  May I learn to love food and may food love me back.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Friday, August 16, 2013

I feel like I have the wrong ideas because I forgot about the right ones.

Dear Heavenly Father,

I do have a wrong view of food.  I am not trying to lose weight anymore.  I am going to just lose weight.  I have formulated my own plan.  I have been struggling long enough.  I have been stressed out for a while now and I cannot take it anymore.

I feel like a hamster in a wheel.  It is the same problems and the same cycles over and over and over again.  Not only do I need my mind renewed, I need to be transformed.  I need to change.  All I have to do is to keep it simple like I did in the past.

I started my own plan and my own goals.  I want to weigh 200 lbs and to keep it off.  I realize that it will take a while, but it will be worth it.  I am now using myfitnesspal which may be a problem in itself.  I have started my plan today.

As I am writing to You, I feel nervous about this.  Help me to relax and not stress out about this.  Why do I want to lose weight?  Do I really want to lose weight?  What do I want out of You?  I do need to lose weight and my desire is to lose weight and to keep it off.  I need to keep things and put things into perspective.  I need to learn to stand on my own two feet.  I want to lose weight.  I just don't have a motivation, but I have the motivation.

Help me.  I need You right now in all of this.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Food

Dear God,

I finally realized that today, I have a wrong view of food.  I ask that You would change that view so that I can not only lose weight, but eat healthier.  I have been eating too much lately and I have a love relationship with food.

Sometimes I let my struggle control me and that is not a good thing.  I need help in that area for I lack self-control.  Teach me how to exhibit self-control in every area of my life.  It seems like a small request, but I assure You that it is not.

I want to lose 20 lbs but I still am struggling.  I am still am lost.  Maybe my focus is all wrong period.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Wonderment

Dear God,

I have wondered about asking You questions about a lot of things, but sometimes I forget to ask.  I feel that I wonder if it is okay to ask.  I am not You since I am a flawed sinner who has committed sins and made her share of mistakes.

One of my mistakes is one about my weight.  I want to lose 20lbs for now.  I want to lose weight and keep it off, but I don't know how to keep from struggling to lose weight.  Right now, that is what I am going through.  I have more than enough time to figure it out, but I don't want to figure it out.  I want to just do it.  Please help me.  I don't know what I am doing.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Weighty issues coming to light

Dear God,

There is so much that was on my mind that I really want to say, but there are times when I forget what to say.  Maybe I should write down all of my prayers.

My concerns involve my own life.  I need to renew my thinking about well, everything.  I need to lose 20.6 lbs, though I wish to lose an extra 82.4 lbs.  I wish to start off small for the moment.  I want to lose 5 of the first of 20.6 lbs.  I know I am being exact but the issues are a lack of self-control, a lack of patience, and my mindset.

I ask for a renewal of my mind that I may be transformed.  I also ask for an exhibition of both patience and self-control.  I hate to continue to act like someone who doesn't know You.  I want to know You by actually living for You.  I know that right living is required.

I don't mean to sound arrogant, but I am just thankful and blessed to be one of Yours.  I am sorry for my sins.  Forgive me, Lord. 

Right now, I don't know what I should be doing.  I cannot afford Weight watchers and I wish to save what little money I have left for Christmas and the rest of the year for other things.  I find myself frustrated trying to lose weight.  I wish to lose weight slowly and steadily.  Ideally, that is the way that it is supposed to be.  However, I am admitting to You that I want to lose weight fast enough to where I can see and feel results.

The problem is the binge eating at night and thus, the lack of self-control.  I don't know what to do.  Show me what to do, Lord.  Give me wisdom and guidance.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Monday, August 12, 2013

Matters of the heart, soul, and body

Dear God,

There isn't much I need to say, but why complain when I can be thankful?  I have more than enough reason to be thankful.  I have listed those reasons however.  Help me to continuing to be minded of those who are less fortunate.  It is so sad that many others are ungrateful.

I need to converse about my weight.  I haven't done a great job of taking my weight or rather my diet seriously.  I am overweight and I am diabetic.  I cannot eat the way I once did and it doesn't do my waistline any good.

I need support from You and from other people.  Where else do I get my support from?  I don't have much of a social life except for the internet and I am not sure if the people on myfitnesspal can be helpful.  I want to lose more than 70 lbs and get off of my medication.

I want to live right by You, serve You, and treat my body like it is a temple.  I do well to lose almost 30 lbs.  I am thankful for the weight that I have lost.  I can breathe easier.  I can actually walk at certain speeds.  I can catch up and I can run some.  I have more stamina yet I am still in pain and I still have health problems.

I don't know where to begin as far as diet goes.  I know I need to lose weight.  I need help, Lord.  Give me the guidance I need so that I can lose weight and keep it off.  Your help is and will be, greatly appreciated.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Mickey Rourke obsession

Dear God,

Mickey Rourke is my obsession.  I think that he has been abused as a child and that child abuse had made him damaged.  I pray that he overcomes what has happened to him.  I admire the fact that he has survived that and that he is a good actor who has a love for dogs.  I however am more of a cat person.  Anyways, my crush is more of a lust obsession and it just feels so wrong.  I need to treat it like an obsessive thought.  I just wish I could deal with an obsession and removing myself the way I removed myself from Darren Neal.  I had the biggest crush on him, or so I thought.  His feelings were not mutual since he has or had a girlfriend.  I just felt like I will never find true love sometimes and that I will always have a crush on some guy who will never meet me or love me back.  It is as if I am the one who is all wrong for the guy.  I have had this problem for many years.

 I am not married and needless to say, I am a virgin.  I realize that that isn't something that I have been telling no one.  I am a virgin who is almost 39 with no kids.  How sad is that?  Maybe it isn't so sad after all.  I guess that is why I have all of these crushes until my adulthood.  They are safer.  Too bad the oobsessive thoughts are not.  I am just unleashing because You will understand.  As a matter of fact, You knew what I have been dealing with and what I am thinking at the moment.  Forgive me for allowing my obsession with Mickey Rourke take over my prayer time with You.  Maybe if I expose myself and Mickey Rourke to You, then I can let this obsession go.  I thank You that it has gotten weaker.  I would like to no longer feed those thoughts with facebook pages, twitter feeds, putting up pics, endless searches, watching videos, and anything else that feeds the obsession.  I have taken steps to overcome the obsession but it seems as if I am more annoyed than bothered by this.  Should I be more bothered than I am?  Is is idolatry that I am committing?  God, open my eyes and allow me to plead the blood of Jesus Christ over my obsession with Mickey Rourke.  Open doors for me that no man can close.  Take care of me and allow me to meditate and "obsess" about Something or Someone else.  Help me to see that I don't have to spend my day obsessing over Mickey, his friends, or his ex-wife.  I realize that I don't really know any of these people except by name and their work.  I will never meet them as far as I know.  But no manner of reasoning is going to solve those issues.  How do I end this?  Help me, Lord.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Saturday, August 10, 2013

Obsessions

Dear God,

You are worthy of praise.  It is amazing what You have done for me.  I want to be real.  I want to be made whole.  I want to live in the real world instead of a fantasy world.  It is irritating me and so is my obsession.  I feel much, much better about my obsession.  I guess it means that I will have to be patient and let the thoughts about my obsession pass.  He was beautiful as a young man and now that he is older he is rather interesting.  That is really all I know about him.  I have never met him and I never will get to meet him.  I would be nervous and all giddy.  I realize that I have an obsession and I ask You for Your forgiveness.  I have spent more time within my mind than I have with You.  Help me to change, Lord.  I want and need to change, but for You and for me.  Take care of me and heal my mind.  I need You, Lord.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Friday, August 9, 2013

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Being thankful

Dear God,

Thank You for waking me up this morning.  I do believe that things do work out by You for those who love You.  I do love You.  My desire is to love You fully...with all of my heart, soul, mind, and strength.

Love is something that should not be cliched.  It is not jealous or unkind as Your word says.  I would like some love in my life, but I have that for You are Love.  So it means that You are not jealous or unkind.

You are the opposite of what is going on in the world.  I don't like what is going on in the world.  Help me to focus on You but not to ignore what is going wrong with the world.  There is so much pain and misery caused by the prince of the air and by sins.  I "thanked" Adam and Eve for their being deceived.  That is not a nice thing to say especially since Jesus died on the cross for our sins and rose again on the third day.

Jesus, I thank You for doing so.  In Your name, Amen.

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Groundhog day?

Dear God,

Today was as uneventful as any other day.  I am tired of living the same day over and over again. But in life we all have choices to make.  I have to learn to see things differently.  There are books to read, subjects to study, and things to muse about.  I like to daydream and live in a fantasy world.  Maybe the fantasy world is not a good thing.  I am almost a middle aged woman, yet I have the emotional skills and the social skills of someone younger.

I don't go out much and when I do, I get tired and want to go home.  I am like an impatient, petulant child who has behaved herself.  I wait patiently for my ride to arrive.  I feel like I am just out of options at the moment.

Could it be the fantasy world and the cocoon that I have lived in?  Could it be insecurity?  Could it be a lack of transportation?  Could it be about my weight and the subconscious self-consciousness that I have and have had for many years?  I have no idea what it could be.  Anyways, it could be anything or it could be all of the above.

I would like to change my mindset and my thought life.  I also like to change my fantasy world.  My obsession has been kicked up a notch and now I feel guilty.  I am not sure what I should do.  Should I close my account?  Should I no longer go online?  What should I do?  This actor hasn't ruined my life but I wonder if what is going on is a form of idolatry or just living in a fantasy world.  Is my fantasy world an example of idolatry?

These are things that I need help in.  I need to change and I need for my circumstances to change.  I realize that I have been wanting to change for the wrong reasons.  Because of that, maybe I don't have to change at all.  I have found myself caring what others think and have to feel like I have to start MY life over again.  It is as if there are many things that I have to start all over again.

Right now, I have been binge eating and drinking juice, two things that are not healthy for me.  I need healing from my thought life, and for everything else.  Teach me how to think for myself and to stand on my own two feet.  I feel like almost no one respects or cares about me, especially in this house.  I sometimes feel trapped and desperate here.  I don't know what to do.  Help me, Lord.  Help me.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Male v Female dynamic

Dear God,

I just wanted to know why I am obsessed with the male and female dynamic?  Why am I obsessed and have compulsions about cheating?  It really makes no sense to me.  I wish sometimes that I can think on other things.  It seems really silly but I wonder if could obsess over cars, money, or getting thinner.  Realistically, however, it would be a bad thing.  Obsessing over anything would make life difficult for me.  Being fearful and having obsessive thoughts is torturous.  I hate the torture and the seeming addiction that I have to know everything.

I have strong views on things and sometimes those things bother me.  I wonder sometimes if they are my own convictions and opinions.  I sometimes wonder if they are really the thoughts.  I do believe that they can be a mix of my own convictions and what the thoughts say to me.  For instance, I have my own views on a woman posing nude.  My views are I guess it depends on the situation.  If a woman poses nude for artistic reasons, then I don't see anything wrong with it.  However, if a woman poses nude for a men's magazine, then the thoughts say that I should question her morality.

I do think that there is a double standard because a woman's character and morals are questioned.  I think this is wrong.  I personally feel that she has the conscious choice to pose nude.  However, a woman's nude body should be for her husband and her husband only.  I see it from a Christian point of view.  Posing nude or even half naked for a mens magazine can lead to problems such as stigma, double standards, and exposing married men to commit adultery in his heart.  I cannot say that she is demeaning herself, but there is an issue of having the stigma that she lacks decency and morality and yet that is not fair.  A man looking at a nude or half nude woman in a mens magazine could be objectifying her and hopefully, when a woman decides to pose, she should take that into account.  On the other hand, men can be objectified as well, if we are to look at this from that point of view.  There are women who look unto a man in the sex industry or who poses without his shirt on as a sex object.  There are some women who are lecherous, simple, and lack morality and decency as well.  Why isn't she criticized for looking at a man in that way?

I guess what I am trying to say is that I wonder if my way of thinking about this is wrong.  Is it sinful to have obsessive thoughts about this because it is not a Christian way of thinking?  What should be my thoughts on the sex industry and on posing nude?  How should I pray for men and women who either pose nude or in the sex industry? Is it an issue of lacking in dignity and morals?  Or is it something else?  I think the issue with me is me.  I am not in the sex industry and I have never posed nude.  Why should the opinions of others matter to me?  Why do I care what others think?  What is wrong with me?  Why is my mind so screwed up?  Why can't I think on things and be transformed by the renewing of my mind and forming my own opinions?  Those are things that I need to have answered.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, August 5, 2013

How much easier...or harder?

Dear God,

Why do I have to make things harder on myself?  I wish I knew why.  I ask that You would continually renew my mind.  Sin brings a person down because it is so deceptive.  I have made bad choices today and for that, I ask of Your forgiveness.  Thank You for Your love and forgiveness.  Thank You for caring for me even when I couldn't make a sound decision or take care of myself.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Sunday, August 4, 2013

Spending Time and Thanking God

Dear God,

I enjoy the time we spend together.  I admit that I need to spend more time with You.  I really enjoy being honest with You, thus I can be honest with myself and everyone else.

There is so much that is wrong with the world that I am ready to leave.  But first, I realize that I have to examine myself to see if I myself am of the faith.  I have been having doubts for years and I wonder if I am truly born again.

I ask that You would help me to renew my mind.  My mind seems to have been renewed and continually being renewed.  There has been so much improvement.  I don't worry as much about my thoughts anymore.  I do have my fears and my cares however.

I turn them over to Your care and I release unto Your care those who sin willfully.  There are many who sin willfully and there are others who have no idea who they truly are in the spiritual sense.  Both of them are a sad way to live.  I agree with this because I feel like I have sinned willfully and I have  had doubts with who I am.  I felt so alone and so desperate and afraid as a result.  I fear You, I love You, and I have the utmost respect for You.

Thank you,

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Struggling and salvation

Dear God,

I find myself doing things that I should not be doing.  I am a sinner for if I say that I have no sin in me, then I am lying.  I refuse to lie, to You and to anyone else.

I was a liar and an adulteress.  I have done things that I am not proud of.  You have forgiven me of those things and for those things, I thank You.  I wish that I could thank You enough for all that You have done for me.

I am struggling with binge eating and just plain eating more than I need to.  I want to lose weight and keep it off.  How do I overcome this struggle with binge eating and overnight eating.  I don't want to continue.  I have only a few calories left to eat tomorrow and now I am not proud of that.  I may have to go over the 2000 calorie limit, not that want to.

How do I overcome my sins?  I want to be an overcomer more than anything except to be one of Your children.  Thank You for saving me.  I realize that I have to sacrifice much and it could cost me my life.  But there is a greater reward in eternity.  I not only want that for me, but also for my loved ones.

I pray that they will come to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ.  I ask that You would fill them with Your Holy Spirit.  Forgive them of their sins.  May they all surrender their lives and their souls over to You and to Your care.  I pray this, in the name of Jesus, for them.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Friday, August 2, 2013

Thankful, thankful

Dear God,

I am surprised that I have eaten below the calorie limit and also that I have lost weight.  I am thankful for answering my prayers.  You have been good to me because You are good.  Thank You. 

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Thursday, August 1, 2013

I feel very well and I thank God for that

Father,

I feel well.  I really do.  I finally know what it is like to not have an obsessive thought for a day...almost.  I still need healing because I perform compulsions, which are harder.  I have been watching tv about a woman who is having a baby by her husband's friend.  I hope the divorce doesn't get nasty.  I think it is wrong what she and the other man are doing.  I believe in morality, but I will pray for them.  I think that we live in a time where morality seems to be relative, and that is not a good thing.  I am saddened by the state of the world and I need to be out there and pray more.  Forgive me for not always doing so.  Help me to look outside of myself and see the condition of the world.  Help me to see what is really going on, and not just with obsessive thoughts.  I have been focusing so much on my own needs and my own problems  Lord, I ask that You would open my eyes.  I don't wish to be blinded and too focused on the world, but I want to look unto Jesus and serve You while  I am still in the world.  I have to realize that I am in the world, but not of the world and that I need to focus on that.  Help me to think on things of You, things that are honest, pure, true, just, lovely, and of good report.

Sincerely,


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