Friday, September 30, 2016

Prayer for my cat

Lord,

I ask tonight for healing and help when it comes to my cat.  He has been vomiting several times over the past 48 hours.  I realize that I am no doctor, but You are.  I thank You that by Your stripes, even animals are healed.  I ask for Your healing of my cat as I cannot afford a vet for now.  I  don't know what I can do, but You can.  I gives You the praise that with You all are possible.

Thank You, Lord.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Thursday, September 29, 2016

Getting Ready

Lord,

My hope is to be ready to meet You in the air.  Life is too short not to be ready.  My other hope is that I am one of Yours.  I am saddened that I have not always prepared myself.  I have much to learn and I am not finished with whatever it is You have to do.  I realize that I have not made much progress in my life.  I want to start making progress, but I don't know where to begin.  I realize that also I need to be found ready.  What do I need to do in order to be ready?  I thank You for Your answer.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Prayer for our prospective leaders and for the United States

Lord,

I pray for the salvation and repentance of all of the candidates, from the President and the Vice President to the local leaders.  I am a bit unsure who I will vote for for President of the United States. My guess is that the whole world is watching.  I ask and pray that You will grant me wisdom when it comes to this matter.  Who should I vote for?  I realize that we are to pray for those in positions of authority.  The reason is that we may in peace in the land.  My prayer is also that we do live in peace. We haven't had that peace.  Too much violence and pain is going on right now and I hope that for once despite the strong opinions and raw feelings, that our country will come together.  I pray this in Jesus' name, Amen.

Monday, September 26, 2016

Election/Debate concerns

Lord,

I am concerned.  Maybe I shouldn't watch the debate.  I have a feeling that Hilary Clinton will become the next President.  Why really?  I don't know.  I am not so sure what a Donald Trump Presidency will bring.  I shudder to think.  Honest.  I just have no trust or faith in either candidate. I will pray for them however.  Show me and teach me how to love those who are not trustworthy or have shown themselves lacking Presidential character.  I just don't see either of them having those qualities. If I sound ungodly, then I am truly sorry.  Forgive me, Father.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Sunday, September 25, 2016

I think it is time

Lord,

I need to be a superwoman.  I want to move.  My eyes have been opened yesterday.  I don't want to end it all.  I want to move.  I don't have any money to which I want to move, but I just want to move. It is time for me to go.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Friday, September 23, 2016

Gives me strength

Lord,

I thank You that I can do all thanks through You who strengthen me.  I pray for that very strength tonight.  I also ask for clarity when it comes to personal matters.  I have difficulty acting on those personal matters, including just going out and doing something.  I want to explore, walk, run, drive, or however I wish to be free.  I want to live, move, and just be free.  If I had one wish, it would be to do just that.  I have stumbling blocks that are in my way and I cannot see past them.  I need Your help.  I am frustrated, Lord.  I have begun to grow weary.  I realize that there are people who are praying for more important things.  I agree with those things in Your name and pray that whatever he, she, or they are praying for will have their needs met.  Some are in need of healing, others are unrepentant sinners who ask for salvation, and some need just to make ends meet.  I ask that You would remind me of what is going on in the world.  Physically, I feel a weight of guilt because I know that others have worse things going on in the world than I do.  I feel guilty because I think I am too phony.  I feel guilty because I am not strong enough, or wise enough.  I have so much guilt over so much.  I feel powerless myself, but I can only imagine that others feel much worse.  I am thankful for all that I take for granted.  Forgive me of my sins.  I realize that everyday of my life, I have the power.  I can do all things through You who strengthen me.  Thank You.

In Your name,


Amen

Thursday, September 22, 2016

A relationship with the Lord

Father,

Your words says, "“‘These people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. They worship me in vain: their teachings are merely human rules."  Are my prayers in vain?  My hope is that I have not done so.  My other hope is that I have not asked amiss.  My relationship with You is honest and real, I hope.  Help me to understand what it is like to develop a relationship with You. I must have not taken the time to be real with You.  I wish to show depth, honesty, and no vanity.  I fear that my praying is shallow and vain.  I haven't gotten to the heart of what has been going on with me. I ask for forgiveness, Lord, and I thank You for Your forgiveness.  I want to have a meaningful relationship with You.  I ask that You would give me the assurance of Your salvation.  You are Savior, the Son of God, and the only way to the Father.  Jesus, I ask that You would save me, for I believe also that the Father rose You from the dead.  Thank You for dying on the cross for me and for taking my place.

In Your name, Jesus,


Amen

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Progression of me

Father,

Forgive me for being so cold.  Because of this coldness I ask that You would forgive me of this said coldness.  I also ask that You would help me overcome why I felt cold.  I am ashamed of what I have done.  I do not and will not take pride in what I have done.  I feel like I am stagnant.  I have not made progress, not at least the progress that I wish to make.  I realize that I could do more, but what more can I do?  I ask that You would do a mighty work in my life and remove all of these stumbling blocks. Help me to make the progress that I should make.  Maybe I have allowed the lack of progress to become a permanent issue.  Lord, fill me with Your Holy Spirit.  Give me wisdom and understanding when it comes to how I should conduct myself and how to be thankful.  I also ask that You would show me how to make said progress.  Lord, where do I begin?

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, September 19, 2016

An interesting day

Lord,

Today is a day of contrasts.  For one minute, I am a saved person with a world of possibilities.  The next moment, I feel like that still powerless, helpless woman who needs to escape.  I realize that You have given me Someone who teaches, who convicts, and who guides.  I ask for wisdom, for I am in need.  I keep on asking and seeking, but have I knocked?  Have I tried?  Yes, but I don't know if I can overcome those obstacles that are in my way.  What should or would I need to do?  I ask this in Jesus name, Amen.

Saturday, September 17, 2016

Giving You my All

Lord,

I can watch all of the rapture movies, TV shows, and secular movies in the world and it has me coming to this realization: Only You save.  I ask for the Holy Spirit for answers on holiness in my life. Right now, I have the WNBA on my television.  There is a movie that is on the television called, "Silver Linings Playbook".  One of the characters in the film has a cheating wife, which is upsetting to me.  I also noticed that it does involve the use of curse words in the film.  Today, I realize or at least, I thought, that I can overcome it.  Avoidance didn't work.  Trying to be religious or use religion did not work.  I also admit that maybe I didn't have enough faith for prayer to work.  Nothing seems to work.  I admit that I don't always spend my time wisely.  I spend a lot of time watching TV, movies, and listen to music.  I guess it isn't so bad in itself.  I know that there are others who don't seem to be as confused like I am when it comes to this issue.  Father, show me exactly where I am going wrong.  Put the end to the confusion and help me to make the right decision, but for You, not for me.  I just cannot take it anymore.  I ask that You will allow and that I will allow not just for common sense, but to let Your Word prevail in this situation.

I recall, it hasn't always been like this.  I have had issues about this just under a decade ago. Everything when it comes to my health has come upon me suddenly.  I am still dealing with these health issues today.  I just have difficulty dealing with this issue.  I am supposed to be a Christian yet I am so wrapped up in the things of the world.  I need help.  I need wisdom.  I need guidance.  I need direction, so I ask for You to point me in the right direction.  I also ask for the wisdom to make me wise beyond my years.  I find myself praying and wanting to lead others to Christ.  I ask for guidance for I am lost.  I ask for help because I am in need of You.  Lord, I ask that You would fill me with Your Holy Spirit.

Forgive me for all of my sins. I  give You my situation.  It to me, is rather large.  I wonder how large or small the issue truly is to You.  However, I realize that the point is, You are hearing me.  You saved me, Lord.  You listen to me, and You love me.  I want to change and I desire to change.  My eating habits need a change, for when it comes to my health, I want to lose weight.  When it comes to exercise, I am basically in need of patience.  With exercise, there is this urgency to exercise and eat healthy.  It is as if because I have failed on both counts many times for many years, I just want to catch up.

I have had so much impatience, guilt, and wrong thinking, and I don't know how to overcome it. Show me and teach me Your ways.  I doubt that I can be useful to others if I don't know what to do when it comes to myself.  I just want to drown out any noises that either disturb me or make me anxious.  I have many a topic of anxiety.  I admit that my prayers are urgent, so I ask that You would grant me patience.  I am anxious and I live in anxiety, worry, fear, and sometimes doubt, so I ask that You would grant me clarity. and strength.  Help me to live in anything but anxiety, worry, fear, and doubt.  Help me and show me how to live in faith and strength.  I ask this in the name of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior,

Amen

Friday, September 16, 2016

Deep in my heart, I am thankful

Heavenly Father,

I believe that Jesus is Your Son and that You, Jesus, died on the cross for me.  I didn't really understand a lot of things yet, but forgiveness is something that I had forgotten then remembered, then forgotten why Jesus said to forgive those who have persecuted Him.  I recall that on the Gospel on the Mount in Matthew 5, and also in Luke 6, one of those things that You mentioned was to pray for those who persecute us.  As a Christian I find it interesting and sad that I have forgotten that in relation to Your crucifixion.  When You said to forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing, You are practicing what You preach, Lord.  I am saddened that You, Jesus, was so badly mistreated through a humiliating, horrific death.  I do thank You, for taking my place.  I am so saddened that I fail to see what the crucifixion and Your death on the cross truly meant.  I apologize for seemingly not understanding what was truly going on deep in my heart during the most loving act You did for undeserving men, and women.  I thank You for I am an undeserving woman.  I am a liar. To tell You the truth, I never thought that I would lie at all.  I was an honest person at one time as far as know.  I repent of lying, for I know it is a grievous sin just like all of the others.  I am sorry, and I want to change.  My desire is to be a more trustworthy, honest person.  I have allowed my fear, worry, and anxiety override my telling the truth and I ask that You would help me to change.  I am and feel guilty for all of the lies I have ever told and promises that I failed to keep.  Help me, Lord.  Thank You for dying on the cross for me and taking my place.  You gave me a second chance at life and I am forever in Your debt for You have paid mine and all others.  Thank You, Lord, In Your name, Jesus,

Amen

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Giving of thanks

Lord,

Thank You for giving me hope.  Thank You for giving me peace of mind.  Thank You for allowing me to have a relationship with You.  Thank You for the miracles of salvation and of life.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Thank You for forgiving me

Lord,

I am thinking about the lyrics from Hillsong.  I do indeed give You my heart and also my soul.  You alone are the only True God.  Thank You, for You are a Jealous God.  Now I understand what that means.  Forgive me of all of my sins; cleanse me from my unrighteousness.  I am like all others, are sinners.  I confess my sins for You.  I repent of those sins.  Help me and forgive me.  Thank You for answering this prayer.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Monday, September 12, 2016

A Relationship

Lord,

For the past few days, all I could be was thankful.  Well, thank You.  My desire is to continue to be thankful and less selfish.  I love You and I enjoy our talks and our letters together.  I guess that it is what a real relationship with You is about.  I have become more honest because of You.  I have also become more wise.  Thank You.  You have been there for me all along.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Sunday, September 11, 2016

Thank You,

Father,

I thank You that I have become faithful and I have not become one who has become judgmental and hypocritical.  You have convicted me.  I realize that even if one cheats with just one man, no matter the circumstances, You love and forgive.  They are to repent of their sins, just as I am to repent of my own.  I have engaged in avoidance, which has made my world smaller.  I have not put You first in my life.  I have not made You my first Priority.  I found myself being entertained and being anything but free.  I felt like I was not free from medical and other problems.  Lord, I thank You for healing me, lifting my burdens, and for loving me.  You have made me free and I now cast my cares upon You. I finally know what it means to have an actual relationship with You.  Thank You.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Saturday, September 10, 2016

Being thankful

Father,

I thank You.  Thank You for waking me up this morning.  I am alive and I have learned a few lessons along the way this past week.  Thank You for the people in my life.  I became less apprehensive over the past few days.  I thank You for this.  I have prayed about learning to be thankful and I am grateful. Thank You for opening my eyes a few days ago.  I admit that I have struggled with just being myself and praying only when I need something.  You are here for me for You are everywhere.  No matter where I am at, You know what I'm feeling and know what I am in need of.  Thank You for the Holy Spirit has convicted of what I have been taking things for granted.  I need You and will learn of You. Thank You.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Friday, August 5, 2016

The Holy Spirit's conviction

Father,

My desire is not just for Your return, but to be martyred for Christ.  I had doubts about being martyred.  To my great shame, I was afraid.  What if I became afraid?  Then I was reminded of Peter, who rejected Your Son three times.  Peter was in shame for his fear.  It was so sad that Peter denied Him.  Jesus however, forgave Him.  My prayer is that You would forgive me for my fear as well.  I ask for the power of the Holy Spirit to strengthen me and to convict me in times of trouble and fear. I also ask for the wisdom to understand what will happen in the future and for what is going on now.

In Jesus' name,

I thank You,  Amen

Thursday, August 4, 2016

Having ocd

Father,

Help me to deal with fear, whether it is of the unknown or the known.  I hate uncertainty.  I wish that I was more certain about things but I am haven't been sure if it is the ocd or just a personal trait.  It is as if I have allowed the ocd to take over what I need to do.  It is the one that gives me direction to do things.  I have a hard time realizing that fiction is fiction.  It does seem to reflect badly on me. I want to change, with Your help, of course.  It is appreciated and I thank You for doing so.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Wednesday, August 3, 2016

Growing relationship

Lord,

It is as if my relationship with You has grown.  I am so thankful and my thing is to be more thankful and more grateful more and more as time passes.  I do thank You that You saved me and forgiven me. You have cleansed me from my unrighteousness.  I thank You for the new day that I am living.  I also feel renewed from the break that I have had in creating blog pages.  It has been hard at times to...like right now.  I have the words in my mind, but I have difficulty expressing myself.  That is what I have been trying to say, or rather write.  I have been expressing myself in prayer, thanks, and through communication with others.  Thank You for giving me wise counsel and just for wisdom in general.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Jesus is the Blessing

Father,

Right now, I am listening to music about a blessing in the storm.  I know that it is about You and only You.  I can relate to the truth that You are the Blessing.  You have done much for me and I thank You.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

God SHALL and He HAS.

Father,

I thank You that You have supplied all of my needs.  You have listened to me and I thank You.  I have learned much from my prayers, though I have not and will not take any credit.  There are no secrets with You, only answers.  You have answered my prayers because You promised that You shall answer my prayers as long as they are prayers that are not amiss in motive.  Thank You for improving my prayer life.  Thank You that I finally understand about living on Your own timing.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Monday, July 18, 2016

Being thankful and grateful

Father,

I realize that talking to You is about honesty.  I can be honest with You, because You are the Lord. You love me, for You are Love.  Thank You for loving me, a person from the human race.  None of us are good, not one.  I am asking for forgiveness for not always being grateful.  I ask that You would also give me a fresh perspective on basically everything.  I have a lot to be grateful for, but I often ask not amiss.  I also ask for open eyes, for I know that there are those who are truly in need.  There are many who are even thankful for what they do have.  I have heard the words about needing shoes, yet there was a man with no feet.  I believe it was more or less a song about those who have crosses to bear.  Sometimes I feel like a selfish person because I am unable to see my pain.  I feel guilt about that.  My desire is to be more thankful and more grateful, for I have much to be thankful and grateful for.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Sunday, July 10, 2016

Acceptance has been a challenge

Heavenly Father,

I am starting to understand about acceptance.  It does not come easy.  However, I can say that You do answer prayer and the challenge to acceptance has gotten easier.  I received comments online about acceptance.  Needless to say that accepting that I have obsessive thoughts can still be bothersome but at least it has been easier to let the thoughts pass.  I thank You that I can find acceptance and not just a cure.  Having obsessive thoughts have been about having to no longer fight those thoughts. However, overcoming compulsions and asking for reassurance have been even more difficult.  I wish they weren't.  I tried before, but I wish that I could just stop them.  I ask for help in time of need, for I am in need.  Thank You for Your answer.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Thursday, July 7, 2016

OCD Acceptance

Lord,

I know that acceptance is something that is quite difficult for me, if not impossible.  I am asking that You would help me find acceptance with having what I have.  It was easy when I found out I had bipolar disorder and also pcos.  How come I cannot do this with ocd?  I now wonder as I am typing this if acceptance is even a part of Your plan.  Maybe there isn't a plan but there is something that I need to know what to do.  Maybe I don't have to do anything but ask to be made free and to be whole. I guess that is because with the other two conditions, they are issues that I can face head on.  OCD on the other hand is scary.  I am afraid that because the thoughts are so worrisome and so in my face that I will never overcome them.  Some things have been comforting to me such as mindfulness and acceptance.  I am mindful that things may or may not be as they seem.  However, I have no clue how to be set free using acceptance.  When if I end up free from infidelity and scrupulosity only to have obsessive thoughts about something else?  I am thankful however to have survived many years having this.  Give me grace to help in time of need. Lord, I need help and I ask You for this help.

Thankfully,

In the name of Jesus,

Amen

Wednesday, July 6, 2016

Grant, forgive, strengthen, and making me wise

Heavenly Father,

Thank You for granting patience and for giving me great advice and leaning.  Forgive me of my sins and may You fill me with the Holy Spirit.  I also ask that You would further strengthen my faith. Teach me Your ways and show me what Your will is when it comes to every area of my life. Yesterday, You have shown and revealed to me what I needed to be revealed.  I also ask today, for clarity and wisdom.  Help me to pray to You from my heart and not just words of pleas that will more than likely turn You off.  I am here.  I arrive as I am.  Thank You for giving me this revelation.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

God's grace, healing, and timing

Dear Heavenly Father,

I am sorry that I have not taken much time to actually spend it with You.  I realize that prayer, reading, and studying Your Word is essential to growing my faith.  I ask that You would instill those values that will make me obedient to You.  I sometimes have a hard time expressing myself, which is why some of my blog posts tend to be out there to putting it mildly.  For instance, that last sentence is a classic example.  I sometimes wish I could communicate better than I do.  I talk fast, change subjects often, and get tongue tied.  I get too many words crossed to the point when I get my letters wrong or say the wrong words at the time.  I wish sometimes I could change that.  I don't know why, but like with my obsessive thoughts, I guess I will never truly know.  However, as I am writing this, maybe I do have the answer.  I prayed that I could be healed and freed from illness, but it hasn't happened yet.  Why?  I admit that at one time it would have been considered blasphemous to ask You why, but I just don't know.  Is it to draw me closer to You, for I don't know why else why I am not healed of my illnesses?  I find myself inspired by the woman with the issue of blood, whose faith made her whole.  She had to suffer through a lot.  I can only imagine what she went through with little to no success.  However, I now realize that she did things her way instead of Yours.  Was that the message You were trying to send me all along?  I wish it took a while to get to that point sooner, but as I am writing this, it becomes clearer now.  I finally see that what I thought was my issues is truly about Your timing and Your grace.  Thank You for revealing those things to me and thank You for Your forgiveness and for Your healing.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, July 4, 2016

My life

Father,

Thank you, for my life is in Your hands.

In Your name,  Lord,

Amen

Friday, July 1, 2016

My thanks to the Trinity

Jesus,

Thank You for answering my prayers.  Heavenly Father, thank You for listening to me and hearing my prayers.  Holy Spirit, I thank You for Your conviction and Your guidance.  I know that You are the Trinity, three in one.  I thank You for all, God.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Thursday, June 30, 2016

Thank You, Lord Jesus

Lord Jesus,

You have saved me and have given me the assurance of salvation.  There are a lot I don't know about You.  I need to know more about You, since You are Savior, Lord, Deliverer, and Judge.  Thank You for the gift of the Holy Spirit.  Fill me with the Holy Spirit, who has convicted me of my sins.  I am not totally righteousness as I have not always lived holy.  I have struggled with sins, so I still do have sin in me.  I will not sin willfully for that is a horrible thing to do, since You are an all-consuming Fire.  You are the only One who can and will cast people into Hell.  Having said that, help me to not be afraid of what other people can do to me.  It doesn't help that I am an anxious person.  I am often fearful and nervous.  I have been burdened and heavy laden, so I ask for strength, peace, wisdom, and rest..  I also ask for comfort from the Comforter and remembering to focus on You, whatever is going on in the world.

In Your name,


Amen

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

God's view of seeing myself as beautiful

Father,

I often fail to see myself as a beautiful creation of Yours.  Help me not just to define real beauty, but to allow myself to be made over not just physically, but spiritually.  Forgive me, Father, for having such a negative attitude that is sinful, whether it is about me or about someone else.  I have not been appreciative and that is sad.  I cannot go back and change things, but I can change who I am and what I want to be.  Rather, it should be whoever who You want and created me to see.  I also ask that You would help me to see that not I was made an image as written in the Psalms.  I realize that I am a person who is fearfully and wonderfully made.  I now realize that I really have no clue what that actually means.  I have tried to apply this verse to me, and how I myself relate.  I also ask for forgiveness, healing, and cleansing, for I repent of all of my sins.  I also am in need of wisdom and understanding, for I am in need of these things.  More than anything right now, not only do I want to be Your child, but to also see myself as one as well.  This is a petition that I pray about with thanksgiving and without anxiety.  Therefore, I thank You in advance for answering this prayer, for I believe that You do liberally give wisdom.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Monday, June 27, 2016

Healthy relationships

Lord,

I thank You that a change in mindset is good.  However, how do I know what to change?  I realize that the answer is a relationship, a healthy relationship with You, and also myself and others.  I need support, but I have come to realize that the Answer to my issues is in being patient and following Your word.  I thank You also for guiding me always through the power of the Holy Spirit.  I am thankful for answering my prayers in advance.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Sunday, June 26, 2016

God's Love Letter for you


Lord,

Thank You for Your love for me.  Thank You for Your help, love, and the fact that You are hopeful.  I love You, too, Lord.  I want to be perfected, changed, always repenting.  My desire is to be ready for Your return.  May I not forget who I am in Jesus Christ.  May I take time for You by prayer and Bible reading.  Again, Lord, I thank You of Your love for me.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Saturday, June 25, 2016

Thank You

Lord,

Thank You.  I trust You.  I don't want to be lukewarm.  I want to be on fire for You.  I want to live for You and die for You.  I thank You.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, June 20, 2016

Thank You letter

Father,

I thank You for helping me to follow Your word.  I have and am learning not to be anxious.  I however should have addressed my anxiety.  I guess I should have addressed it to the best of my ability.  However, I feel like I didn't get the handle on my anxiety that I should have.  Thank You for helping me.  I believe and know that You are the answer to my prayers because  of all that You have done.  I enjoy the talks that we have.  I would like to hear from You and hear from You more often. Thank You for forgiving me, loving me, hearing me, and taking care of me.  I appreciate it.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Sunday, June 19, 2016

Listening to each other

Lord,

Jesus has saved me, and I thank You for His salvation and His forgiveness.  I have learned about prayer today.  We are not to be anxious, but have a peace of mind and being thankful.  Being faithful is also something that I need to grant my petition.  I thank You in advance for answering all of my prayers.  Last night was a miracle, for I found myself disturbed by what I saw.  It was to the point of frightening.  Thank You, for it went away.  I have found myself and saw myself in the most degrading ways.  I have realized that I am special, and special to You alone.  Thank You for all that You have done for me, for I realize that You are truly there for me.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Friday, June 17, 2016

A prayer of holiness

Lord,

I want a passion for You.  Help me to put You first.  Help me to make You my number one Priority in life.  Forgive me, for I realize that I have not always put You first.  I ask that You would show me what I need to do.  Help me to be holy in the way I think, in the way I watch and entertain myself.  I spend a lot of time with entertainment.  Help me, Lord not just to live holy.  Help me to become holy. Holiness is required for all believer.  I have not lived holy and have not done holy things.  May I see, touch, and think what is holy.  I realize that I have not always had holy thoughts and committed holy deeds.  Lord, forgive me for all of my sins.  Cleanse me from all of my unrighteousness.  I also ask that You would fill me with Your Holy Spirit.  My desire is to live for You, serve You, and love You with all of my soul, mind, and strength.  May I be still to hear Your voice.  Help me be patient and teach me kindness.  I want to be a person of good moral character as You have me to be.  Help me to be hopeful so that I would develop the fruits of the Holy Spirit.  Thank You for lending Your ear to me.  Thank You for guiding me with Your Eye.  Thank You for giving me a liberal dose of wisdom.  I say this in the name of Jesus Christ.  Amen.

Thursday, June 16, 2016

Being a new mom

Dear God,

I would like to be a parent.  I even thought about adopting a child.  I am not sure I have the patience to take care of a child.  I can only imagine being nervous.  I would be afraid to drop him or her if they were babies.  I wonder how would I have disciplined my kid or kids. Right now, I can only imagine being a parent.  I would be a single mom who would have to give all of my time, all of my love, and basically all of my funds.  I ask that You would give me the wisdom to take care of a child and to not put myself first.  Help me to be patient and loving.  I wish that parenting came with an instruction work, but it does not.  I wonder if a child or children would be in the cards for me.  Is it Lord?  Is it? I ask that You will answer me in this situation and I thank You for doing so.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, June 13, 2016

Prayer about films that I have watched

Lord,

I have gotten inspired by watching a movie as of late.  Most movies are that good as far as in actual inspiration in my opinion.  I usually don't spend a lot of afternoons watching more than one film at a time.  I have finally decided to go ahead and watch "War Room" and "Home".  I personally liked the fact that they were both clean and wholesome films.  Kids can watch them and so can adults.  As an adult with OCD, I feel so much better in that I can look unto You, despite my condition.  I am so glad that I chose to watch these movies.  I was even more glad that I will finally get to reflect about something, anything that isn't a complaint or woe is me about my weight.  Father, I believe that there are no accidents with You and for this, I thank You.  You are worthy of praise.

In Jesus' name,  Amen

Sunday, June 12, 2016

How I should feel about others, including myself

Lord,

I thank You.  Help me to be ready for Your return.  I truly don't know what it will be, but I hope that I will live a holy enough life to serve You and to live holy for You and for You alone whenever You return.  I know for a fact, You will return.  My prayers go to the families of all of the loved ones who lost their lives this weekend.  I love all of creation even through my struggle.  Help me to see what all of us are all about.  I have struggled about this because I just don't like some people.  There is no one who I hate thankfully, but there are just some people who irk me.  Lord, is not liking some people wrong?  Is others not liking me wrong?  I don't like this aspect of me.  Out of curiosity, I know that You loved the Pharisees and Scribes, but did you like them or dislike them as people?  Or did You dislike their deeds but loved them anyway?  I have no one that I truly dislike but there are people who I don't believe are good people. What should I do to change my attitude about others?  How can I not care what other people think?  Why does or should it matter to me?  I don't want to feel negatively about myself, but the truth is, I do?  Do negative feelings I have against some people reflect or are they reflections of who I am?  I don't like being or feeling this way.  I want and need to change towards other people and changes toward myself.  Lord, what should I do?  Where should I begin?

In Your name,


Amen

Friday, June 10, 2016

Prayer to find love

Father,

You have searched me, and you know me. You hear my thoughts, you know my needs and breathe your life into my dreams.

So I know that you understand my longing to find love. I know that you will lead me to meet someone special to walk with. I know you want to give me the desires of my heart. You are a loving Father, I can share my every hope, every feeling and every dream with you.
I pray that I would meet someone soon who I can love, someone who I can have a close relationship with, marry, and share my life with.

Thank you Father,

Amen.

Thursday, June 9, 2016

Look back and being grateful

Lord Jesus,

I pray that I will be ready,  Make me wise and help me to be ready for Your return.  I will be among the ones who will be Judged, for I am not immune.  I was born and thus will be judged.  Your are the Holy and Judge.  Thank You for Your salvation and Your forgiveness.  My hope is that I will be judged along with those who have sacrificed and lived for and served You.  My life has been an interesting one to say the least.  Now that I look back, I didn't realize how interesting I actually was, and still is.  Thank You, for I have become more dependent on You.  Thank You, for I am and have become mature.  I also admit that I do complain too much.  I am thankfully Yours.  I give You thanks. My desires are to stay one of Your and to become more grateful.  I realize that being grateful is not a strong trait of mine.  For that, I am truly sorry.  I need to look around and thank You every chance I get.  So, I say, "Thank You".

In Your name, Amen.

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Giving thanks for a relationship with God

Lord,

I would like for You to know me.  I want You to know me.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  I admit that I am afraid that I don't You the way You know me.  You not knowing me scares me.  It would be my fault.  I would like to live my life because You know me.  I ask for a relationship with You.  You are the most High and I want to thank You for dying on the cross for me.  I know that You are the Son of God and the Father rose You from the dead.  I thank You for saving me.  Thank You for loving me. Thank You for Your forgiveness.  Thank You for giving me peace of mind and I thank You for the gift of salvation.  I ask that You would fill me with the Holy Spirit, and I thank You for doing so.  Thank You for giving me the assurance that I am Your sheep.  Again, I thank You for saving me.

In the name of Jesus Christ,  Amen

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Forgiveness and holiness

Lord,

Thank You for saving me. I ask for forgiveness and cleansing of unrighteousness.  I thank You for saving me.  I ask for myself to be and live holy.  Holiness is something that is important to me.  You have been so good to me, no matter what situation I am in.  I am okay now.  Exercise I now realize has been beneficial to me.  It is as if the thoughts are leaving me.  I hope that this will continue. Thank You for Your forgiveness.  Thank You for answering my prayers.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Monday, June 6, 2016

Much Thanks to the Lord

Jesus,

Thank You for saving me.  Thank You for hearing and answering my prayers.  Thank You for loving me and for giving me the assurance that I am saved.  I also thank You that I am Yours.  I thank You for convicting me, for with You, there are no accidents.  I came to You because I know that You, O Son of God, that You are Lord and the Son of God.  Thank You for taking away my anxiety and thank You for being my Lord and Savior.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Sunday, June 5, 2016

Knocking on God's door

Father,

My desire for now is that I will not give up. I will keep on knocking.  I need help.  I need clarity.  I need wisdom.  Help me to continue to be patient.  Most of all, I need You.  Thank You for allowing me and giving me the opportunity to present my request to You.

In Jesus' Name,

Amen

Saturday, June 4, 2016

In need of clarity

Lord,

I ask that You would give me clarity.  I ask for this.  I have sinned.  I have not talked to You in a while.  Okay, I have.  I have just talked to You.  Without asking amiss, I give You my anxiety.  Losing weight is hard.  I can do it and I will do it.  That is all I can say for myself.  Thank You for always listening to me and I thank You most of all for saving me, and for loving me.

In Your name,  Jesus,

Amen

Friday, May 6, 2016

Giving my all to the Lord

Lord,

I thank You for giving me wisdom and guidance.  I am tired of struggling,and making plans.  By the way, what does Your word say about my struggle to lose weight?  I am inspired to lose the weight and keeping it off.  I ask for a change in my priorities and a change in my mindset.  I ask You for Your help, Lord.  I am tired of the struggle.  My weight goes up and down.  I take full responsibility for all of my actions.  I am no longer of failing.  I guess failure goes with the territory.  I just want to lose weight.  Mentally, it seems easy.  However, actually trying to do so has been hard.,  Lord, I know that there are others who are in need.  Others are being persecuted because of race, color, and faith.

Remind me of those who have and are without.  Help me to be grateful for all that I have.  Forgive me for not always thinking about and showing not enough for my fellow man or woman.  How can I say that I am a Christian when I first about having doubts.  I sometimes wonder if Jesus does heal. I do wonder why You sometimes You don't help me or heal me.  I have been inspired by the woman with the issue of blood.  Help me when it comes to my faith; increase my faith and understanding.


Give me wisdom when it comes to Your world.  Remind me that the world is greater than my problems.  However, I am to give You all of me.  Make me a wise person when it comes to what I and everyone needs.  I thank You and I praise You for all You have done for me.

In Jesus' Name,


Amen

Thursday, May 5, 2016

Spending sprees

Lord,

I don't know why I have gotten this rush from spending money.  I do love to give, but I cannot take the fact that I don't know what is going on with me.  Lord, help me to overcome this anxiety that I had.  Help me to see people, including myself, and the world who we all are.  I know that we are sinners who are in need of a Savior, for the Savior is good.  We are without Him, not true.  I wish to be made perfect in love..  Help me, for I just have this rush and I fail to see why I sometimes do the things I do.

Lord, I thank You for Your answer,

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

Pouring my heart out

Heavenly Father,

I ask for Your forgiveness.  I am a sinner who will always be need of You.  I love You and I want to thank You.  Help me to see myself the way You see me.  It took me long enough to get to this point, however.  I want to start making You my first Priority.  I also want to start learning and not taking anything for granted.  I want to be different.  I want to be better.  I want to be myself, how You created me.  I have been so anxious, worried, and fearful for so long it is as if I have lost pieces along this journey of life.  I don't know anyone who can relate to what I am going through.  Can Jesus and I relate to one another in that sense?  Jesus paid the price for our sins.  I also have been having doubts for years about being saved.  I ask for salvation.  I want to be saved by the Lord Jesus Christ.  Prayers aren't incantations I know, but that is how I seem to pray.  It is hard to talk to You sometimes much less other people.  I may actually have issues with communicating to other people.  I seem to have lost sight with who I am and who You have created me to be.  I want to know what and where I need to begin in this journey.  I feel trapped and alone.  It is as if I am afraid and the fear and anxiety held me back.  You know all of my needs and for that, I am thankful.  I seek You first, Your Kingdom, and Your righteousness.  Jesus, what must I do to be saved?  What must I do for my whole household to be saved?  Your answers and Your loving kindness are greatly appreciated.  Thank You, Lord.

In Your name, Jesus,

Amen

Sunday, May 1, 2016

How I am doing right now

Lord,

Take away all of my fears and anxieties.  Oh yeah, I ask that You also take away my worries. Right now, I feel so overwhelmed.  There was a time when I felt overwhelmed, even about what I need to do to be healthy.  Being overwhelmed is the reason why I have been struggling to lose weight.  I do want to be healthy, but I have others reasons to want to lose weight.  I am more motivated than ever to lose weight.  How do I overcome being overwhelmed?  I need help in this area.

Thank You for Your forgiveness and help in this area.

In Jesus' name, Amen.

Saturday, April 30, 2016

Die to self

Lord,

Teach me Your ways.  I will die to self and take up my cross.  I thank You for saving me.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Friday, April 29, 2016

Wishing to, but sometimes give up

Father,

Show me what I need to do.  Maybe I do overthink things, or at least that is my tendency to.  I realize that I don't understand why I do that, but I have an idea why.  I want to change but I don't know how. I tend to lose interest quickly and I give up.  I don't know how to change.  Everything and everyday is a struggle.  I  have the knowledge and the know how.  It is just putting it all together that is the hard part.  I am scared, Lord.  I don't know how to overcome fear and anxiety.  I just don't know what to do.  That is why I ask for Your help.

Sincerely,


Letters to God.

Thursday, April 28, 2016

Being someone saved and anew

Lord,

I thank You for saving me.  I thank You that I am a new creation is Jesus Christ.  I am sorry for all of my wrongs.  I realize that I really need to lay off of the internet for a while.  It is time for me to have a social life and for things to actually change over the years. Help me to see that there are things more important such as persecution, hunger, or every other level of evil going on in the world.  I repent of my sins.  Give me a clean and pure heart.  Help me to die to self, for I now understand what that means.  Give me the strength to endure.  I ask this in Jesus' name.  Amen

Monday, April 25, 2016

Decision to take action

Lord,

I have decided to take action, but I need to know what to do.  I ask for the guidance to further take action and the direction to go towards my goal, or rather goals.  I have many goals such as obsessive thoughts, dieting, and overall weight loss.  I am overwhelmed and have been in the past.  I need Your help.  Where I begin?  I personally would like to start life over.  I believe that being overwhelmed has to do with impatience and anxiety.  Help me to overcome these things.  I ask that You would give me the strength to do just that.  Help me to do what seems impossible, at least to me.  I have done what is hard before.  I can do it again.  Lord, help me to make even the small goals more realistic.  I need the clarity that I so ask so that I have overcome being overwhelmed easily.  That is what I wished I had said.

I pray this in the name of Jesus Christ,

I thank You.

Amen.

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Miraculous opening

Lord,

I need help.  I know that I need to change.  The truth is I need to, but do I want to?  Yes, I do now.  I have doubts about my reasoning.  I admit that I have made little to no progress.  I am here to write that I could use a miracle here.  My mind is stuck on one thing but I can't or won't budge.  I need to be taught new tricks. I need to help myself,  I realize that I am looking at what is hard and what it insurmountable.  The odds are great.  I have prayed about this often.  I am seeing other people for counsel.  Lord, I would like to go out more and I feel confused and lonely.  I don't like this feeling. I don't like the groundhog day life.  I am ready to do other things and meet new people.  No matter what my options are, I still feel weak and powerless.  Lord, where do I start?  How do I gain control finally?

In Jesus' name,


Letters to God

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

Do I really? I have doubts.

Lord,

I would like a change in my life.  I would like a change in me. As I am writing You, I have to realize that I may not be truly born again.  I have asked Jesus to come into my heart, but I am not sure even after nearly two decades, if I am a true Christian.  How can I be a witness if I am not a true Christian? Right now, what if I have doubts about being born again due a doubt about my faith about the Crucifixion and the fact that You rose Him from the Jesus?  Now, I have wondered if even though one is saved by faith.  I thank You that You overcame the flesh, the enemy, and the world.  Have I been saved by faith?  I am scared that I will be hearing that You never knew me for I am not a true believer.  I am a bit torn.  Would only the so-called religious, saved or not, have these thoughts? I recall Jesus told the disciples about the Holy Spirit.  I realize that true believers in Christ will have problems and will be persecuted.  I cannot imagine living in a nation where I have virtually no right to live in some people's eyes because of my beliefs.  I just have my doubts.  If I have doubts for whatever reason, then how come is it sometimes I don't know all that You have tried to convict me? I ask for the assurance of my salvation, if that is even biblical.  Have I been saved and truly grafted into the faith?  Only You have the answer.  I am asking for that answer.  I have been anxious for a long time now whether it is about salvation or someone or something else.  Anxiety is a serious issue that I have.  How do I become saved?  What must I do to be saved?  I thank You for Your answer.


Sincerely,


Letters to God

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Direction and answers needed

Father,

I am learning.  I put You and make You as my first Priority.  I confess that I do procrastinate and that is a problem.  I have these options, but I also am in need of guidance.  Should I do a follow up of the kind of help I need?  The real reasons I procrastinate are the failure aspect, and also, I feel as if I am controlled.  I feel I have to ask permission to get help.  I have waited too long to try to and get help. It is as if no matter what, I have no control over my life.  I admit that I have no made any progress.  My life has not changed.  I have changed however.  I need Your help in this matter.  Help me to make the right decisions.  Where should I do?  What should I do?  Who else should I talk to?  I really do appreciate the help and the advice I have been given.  I also have tried, or rather, have not been proactive.  I will not make any excuses.  My desire is to change my life.  Looking at my autobiographies, I want and need change.  It has been my desire.  I ask not only for guidance, but for clarity and for direction.  I ask for growth in my faith and I feel as if I have people counting on me. I don't want to feel that way.  However, I feel like I am.  I am waiting for this and that and I don't like it.  My fate seems to be in other people's hands.  That is how feel.  What do I need to do because I feel like I am being anything but free in my mindset?  In other words, I want to speak out and I want to do what is okay by me.  I just am in such need right now, but I have my doubts.  How do I overcome these doubts?  Lord, I am in need of You.  Lord, I am in need of my guidance.

Thank You, and continue to give You thanks.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Monday, April 18, 2016

Dealing with and overcoming procrastination

Lord, I wish to pour my heart out to You.  It is about being a procrastinator.   Why am I like this?  I would like to and I need to change.  I have discussed my being fear and anxious, I guess.  It was a nice beautiful prayer in which I poured out my whole heart.  Sometimes, I believe that I will never do what I am supposed to do.  What I am supposed to do is exercise and eat healthy.  I would like to know if I can do that.  My biggest fear is to lose weight by just diet or just exercise.  I would like to do both. I seem to have no idea how, even if it is the simplest thing to do.  I wish I were to do and follow directions for diet and healthy eating.  I have taken too much of my medication, where I ended up feeling groggy.  I have been out of it since all afternoon.  I need Your guidance,  I ask for help.  I don't know what else to say or what else to do.  I have dealt with procrastination for a long time when it comes to exercise.  I am more ready to lose weight and to take care of myself now more than ever before.  I ask for clarity.  Why do I procrastinating?  I have trouble taking action, even if it is for the long haul.  What do I need to make the right decision?  Your help is needed and appreciated.  Thank You that with You, all things are possible.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Taking action prayer

Lord,

Thank You, for it has been a while since I talked to You about taking action.  I have wondered if I have taken any action.,  The problem is, taking an action can even be scary.  God, show me what I need to do.  I have little to no support.  I ask for an opening as far as opportunity,  Lord, I thank You for opening doors for me.  Take care, in Jesus' name, Amen.

Saturday, April 16, 2016

What would Jesus say or do about my weight and other health issues?

Lord Jesus,

Help me.  I know I need to lose weight.  I have read devotionals, lessons, and Bible verses.  I admit that I have not read Your entire Bible.  I wish I had taken the time to read and study Your Word.  Help me to deny myself and take up my cross.  I realize that You are the center of my life.  Lord, I make You the center of my life.  I have focused so much on my health that I often don't take the time to put You in it.  You are not my co-pilot, for You have died on the cross for me.  You didn't just become my Partner, You are My Lord.  You will judge all of us.  I realize that I did not put You first in all things.  I repent of all of those things.  It is wrong or unfair of me to not ask You for guidance.  I could use wisdom to perform those things that I could have done all along, which is diet and exercise.  I have made losing weight so difficult for me.  I don't know how to ask, but I need Your guidance, for You guide me with Your eye, which is what I ask for.

What does Your Word say about my weight issues and how I feel about myself?  I surrender my fears and doubts over to You.  Teach me Your ways in all matters, including the issues of health and weight loss.  I want to stay healthy, something I haven't been in years.  I have felt bad about myself because of my physical appearance and my health issues. I have a mindset that does not reflect godliness.  I admit that I think that I am unattractive and lazy. I want to be perfect or perfectionist.  My weight has been an issue for a long time because of how I feel about myself and how others see me.  I want and need to lose weight.  I also want to obey and serve You.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  Forgive me for not always allowing You to guide me and to put You first in my life.  You are my first Priority because I have to answer about how I have lived my life in every area.  Cleanse me of all of my sins and my unrighteousness.  Help me deny myself and to put You first.

I am afraid that I will fail and that I will falter.  I am still afraid that I will never lose weight and be healthy.  I have the skills and I finally know how to use them.  This is true, plus I want to feel the way You feel about me.  That is why I ask for Your help.  I don't really want to spend my days struggling without You in my life.  I have been miserable for most of my life.  I have my views on losing weight, but I wished I have taken the time to use that knowledge on myself.  I need to actually care.  The reasons why I have engaged in heavy eaten is not about sabotaging but about not caring.  I have taken my health for granted as I have taken life for granted.  Help me to change my mindset so that I can renew my mind.  I am afraid that I will fail and I need help in overcoming that. I am not confident because of my perfectionist mindset.  Help me to overcome fear and doubt.  I look at myself in the mirror and my own pictures and shadows.  The truth is, I don't like what I see.  I want to change, but for me and You.  I have been even more self-conscious over the years.

I know that poor eating habits play a role, but I don't wish to have my condition be used as an excuse. I have no idea how to change.  Your word has given me encouragement for Your word, and those verses speak of holiness.  I would like to know what are Your thoughts about me taking care of myself.  I have grown tired of doing and being and acting the same.  I have been unhappy with not only my health and my appearance, but also how I live out my days.  I want to do more than just focus so much on my physical appearance and poor eating habits.  I want to focus and live for You as a Christian.  I also ask for the Holy Spirit for conviction and for guidance.  I am in need of that.  This has been the deepest conversation that I have had about this issue.  Jesus, help me to be made perfected in love.  While I would like to eat healthy and exercise everyday, it is hard to do.  Losing weight has been hard for me for the long haul.  I want to finally learn from my mistakes and not get caught up in the attitudes of the world.  The truth is, I have no idea what I am doing.  I am scared.  Help me overcome this fear and even this anxiety.  I don't want to falter or make a mistake.  It seems to me that I become more than inspired by others, but it seems much easier for them to lose weight and be healthy.  I would like to know how to make small changes.  I would like to know what I am actually doing without the fear and anxiety taking over.

Lord, I know I need to lose weight, but as it seems, I have allowed this issue to become obsessive at times.  I just cannot take it anymore.  I have heard the phrase and song, "Jesus, Take the Wheel.".  I know what it means, but is it totally biblical?  Whatever the scripture says, I ask for the wisdom to know what Your Word says is true and what is non-biblical and false.  It is so frustrating to know that there were things that came upon me at one time, including a nearly 60 pound weight gain.  If only I were thinner than I am now, what will happen.  Would it change my mindset?  Will I become a much better, and happier, person?  I would like to live my life not caring what others think  I ask that You would help me live and breathe holiness, despite everything.  Help me to not feel bad because of fearing disappointment, or because I am procrastinating because I fear failure.  How do I overcome this?  I no longer want to have the mindset that I have.  That is why I ask for the things that I ask You.  I ask that  You would become the Lord of every area of my life.  Forgive me for all of my sins, including my fears for allowing them to take over.  Your word says to be anxious for nothing.  The problem is, I have a hard time dealing with anxiety.  Most of all I need You.

Help me to be thankful, thoughtful, and not get caught up in the things of this world, which is what has been a part of my life.  It right now, seems like this prayer is based on an obsession, which is worrying me.  Jesus, it seems as if my life is just one obsession or another.  I surrender every detail of my life over to You.  Help me to overcome these obsessions and this anxiety by giving me piece of mind.  Thank You for allowing me to present my request and my hope is that You have not only lent Your Ear, that You would convict me and guide me every step of the way.  I tire of living the same day over and over again.  I want to start anew.  Thank You for Your love, and for Your forgiveness.  I pray this in Your name, Amen.

Friday, April 15, 2016

Expanding my social network

Father,

Forgive me for all of my sins.  There have been times when I feel frustrated and alone.  Sometimes I even wonder why my prayers don't get answered.  I wonder, too, if it is my fault.  I just don't know or understand why they aren't answered.  I guess You want me to dig deeper.  Digging deeper in oneself is not easy and it hasn't always been for me.  I don't always know what to do or even how to ask.  I have so many needs and requests to present to You.  I sometimes wonder why if I am saying or doing all of the right things.  I just wish I knew.  Lord, sometimes, I believe that Your ways and thoughts and higher than mine.  I ask for clarity.  I need direction in my life.  You have convicted me to do something.  Take some action.  Do something for myself.  The problem is, I just don't know where to begin.  I ask You for guidance as well.  Lord, what do I need to do?  I have learned to be envious and lonely at not being able to relate to other people.  Looking back at my life, I realize that all I needed was someone I can get close to.  Now, I find myself feeling like the world has passed me by.  I have not grown with the rest of the world.  I have grown complacent.  I needed to realize that the friend or friends have to be true.  I have felt so guilty about not always being able and social towards others. I have social skills though these days, they seem to be lacking.  It is as if I have not grown.  I have nowhere to go or no one else to turn to, but I do have options now.  My question is, should I take those opportunities that have been given to me?  I have prayed about those opportunities, but how will I get there.  How will get anywhere?  I sometimes have resigned myself to where I am and what I am doing.  I need some change in my life.  How do I overcome the mindset that I do have about my social life?  I know that I need to change me.  I also know that I have no idea how to change.  I would like to write to You about other things, and not just my weight or OCD.  I would like to have someone who is a person of integrity to talk to.  I would love to chat about pertinent things.  I would like to date and have a family.  I would like to be independent and stand on my own two feet.  I thank You for giving me the opportunity to express this request in writing.  Thank You.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Being convicted

Lord,

Thank You for convicting me.  I need help.  I have spent years satisfying the flesh and I don't know how to overcome it.  I know that I need to lose weight and keep it off.  The problem is, I have no idea how to take the action You need me to take.  I am concerned because I don't know where to begin and also because I procrastinate too much.  I have no idea how to overcome my fears.  Well, I give You my all, including my fears.  I casts all of those cares over to You.  I repent of all of my sins.  I have tried on my own to overcome whatever issues I need to overcome.  I don't wish to make a vow or wish to make a promise because I fail to keep them and follow them.  I know it is because of fear. How do I be made in perfect love since I have fears.  I don't know how to overcome them, but You can.  I surrender this issue over to You.  I thank You that You love me and that You care for me.  I believe that there are no accidents with You.  I have been online all day, so I know that I need to lay off the internet.  My heart was not in it anymore.  I didn't know what to do.  I ask You that You would show me what I need to do and where I begin.  Give me the wisdom and guidance to live for You and serve You.  How do I stop procrastinating and just starting to move forward?  Over the years I have liked my life as it is, but I realize now that I got too comfortable.  Teach me Your ways, O Lord. Give me the clarity that I so need continually as You have before.  You have convicted me before.  I am asking for continued clarity and I also ask for You direction in my life.  I would like to thank You for answering my prayer.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Monday, April 11, 2016

Not to ask amiss

Lord,

I am not sure where I am really going in this world.  I no longer feel like the world has passed me by. I give You all credit and all praise for doing such for me.  I have to see that there are things that I need to and supposed to do.  The problem is, I don't know what to do and where to go.  I have received so much help that I feel bad about not knowing what help I am supposed to take.  None of it has sunk in except for the fact that I have made little progress, especially when it comes to losing weight.  I now feel like maybe unleashing would be a good thing.  Teach me how to pray without asking amiss.  I had trouble with finding the right words to say.  Maybe I should not focus on the words, but to focus on You.  I ask for forgiveness of my sins and I thank You in advance for answering this and all other prayers.

I realize that I am putting too much pressure on myself.  I am listening to a song about stress and wanting to live for You.  Living like and being a believer hasn't always been easy however.  It is worth it.  I wouldn't have it any other way.  I thank You for saving me and for convicting me daily. I am not perfected but I thank You for peace of mind.  Forgive me for all of my sins including the sin of gluttony.  I really can't explain in detail why I engage in such mindless eating.  I ask that You would help me with my weight, which I am concerned about.  I am worried that I will never lose the weight nor keep it off.  I am over 300 pounds and have health problems.  I have been told that I need to take my health more seriously and they are right.  I need to be held accountable for how I take care of myself.  Help me to see myself for who I really am and what I need to do.

What seems small or big to me is even larger to You.  It took me a while to actually allow that to sink in.  I need some change period, including when it comes to my spiritual, mental, emotional, and physical health. I get out of control and I don't know how to stop.  Lord, give me wisdom and control of my habits.  Give me and guide my understanding of what is most important in life.  I realize that I may be asking amiss and I am truly sorry.  I realize also that my prayers can be selfish.  Without asking amiss, I ask for forgiveness of sins, peace of mind, wisdom, and accountability.  I live in a world that is larger than myself and I ask that You would help me to see that my view of myself, You, and the world could be what is holding me back.  Life is about more than food and drink.  Forgive me, Father, for I have been living as if I had little faith especially in You.  I ask for conviction from the Holy Spirit, for I thank You, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, for giving me peace of mind and again, for forgiveness.

I have grown tired of the same thing over and over again.  I would like to be able and strong enough to make different, and better choices as You show me how.  I ask that You would show me how. I realize that I am not of this world despite my living in it.  Help me to die to self daily, for I realize that I have not done so.  I also ask for wise counsel from You and for those who have wisdom.  Bless those who give counsel without providing ungodly counsel and an ungodly attitude in mind.  I have lived according to the flesh and I ask for forgiveness.  I repent of my sins.  I also ask that You would teach me that there are things that are more important to You than a change in my physical self, but also a change in my emotions, health, understanding, and spiritual matters.  Help me to see this world, and I give You thanks for thus far answering my prayers.  I give You praise for giving me clarity on things that are most important to me.

Sunday, April 10, 2016

Today, I have been feeling frustrated because I had no idea what to say to God.

Lord,

I am not sure where I am really going in this world.  I no longer feel like the world has passed me by. I give You all credit and all praise for doing such for me.  I have to see that there are things that I need to and supposed to do.  The problem is, I don't know what to do and where to go.  I have received so much help that I feel bad about not knowing what help I am supposed to take.  None of it has sunk in except for the fact that I have made little progress, especially when it comes to losing weight.  I now feel like maybe unleashing would be a good thing.  Teach me how to pray without asking amiss.  I had trouble with finding the right words to say.  Maybe I should not focus on the words, but to focus on You.  I ask for forgiveness of my sins and I thank You in advance for answering this and all other prayers.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Saturday, April 9, 2016

Taking action

Lord,

Show me how to step out of comfort zone.  I want to make progress.  I don't want to wait until it is too late to do anything about it.  Forgive me of all of my sins; cleanse me from my unrighteousness. Give me not just the will but the strength and motivation to do so.  Father, help me.  I thank You in advance for answering my prayer.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Thursday, April 7, 2016

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

God's Grandeur by Gerard Manley Hopkins

God's Grandeur
by Gerard Manley Hopkins

The world is charged with the grandeur of God.
It will flame out, like shining from shook foil;
It gathers to a greatness, like the ooze of oil
Crushed. Why do men then now not reck his rod?
Generations have trod, have trod, have trod;
And all is seared with trade; bleared, smeared with toil;
And wears man's smudge shares man's smell: the soil
Is bare now, nor can foot feel, being shod.

And for all this, nature is never spent;
There lives the dearest freshness deep down things;
And though the last lights off the black West went
Oh, morning, at the brown brink eastward, springs --
Because the Holy Ghost over the bent
World broods with warm breast with ah! bright wings.

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Lent His ear

Lord,

Thank You.  All I ask is that You lend Your ear to me.  Thank you, for you have answered.

In Jesus name,


Amen

Monday, April 4, 2016

I know about the need at least.

Jesus,

I have gone and done too much.  Help me to draw on my experiences so that I could write to You. You know of my life and You know that I want to change, but I am overwhelmed and give up too easily.  I just don't know how to go about it other than to forget the advice I have been given.  I need Your help, Lord.  I ask You for assistance in this manner and I thank You in advance for You have lent an ear to my represent.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Sunday, April 3, 2016

Psalm 25

  To you, O Lord, I lift up my soul.
2 O my God, in you I  ptrust;
qlet me not be put to shame;
rlet not my enemies exult over me.
3 Indeed, snone who wait for you shall be put to shame;
they shall be ashamed who are twantonly utreacherous.
4 vMake me to know your ways, O Lord;
teach me your paths.
5 Lead me in your wtruth and teach me,
for you are the God of my salvation;
for you I wait all the day long.
6 Remember your xmercy, O Lord, and your steadfast love,
yfor they have been from of old.
7 Remember not zthe sins of my youth or my transgressions;
according to your asteadfast love remember me,
for the sake of your goodness, O Lord!
8 bGood and upright is the Lord;
therefore he cinstructs sinners in the way.
9 He leads the humble in what is right,
and teaches the humble his way.
10 All the paths of the Lord are dsteadfast love and faithfulness,
for those who keep his covenant and his testimonies.
11 For your ename's sake, O Lord,
pardon my guilt, for it is fgreat.
12 Who is the man who fears the Lord?
Him cwill he instruct in the way that he should choose.
13 His soul shall gabide in well-being,
and his hoffspring ishall inherit the land.
14 jThe friendship2 of the Lord is for those who fear him,
and he makes known to them his covenant.
15 My keyes are ever toward the Lord,
for he will lpluck my feet out of the net.
16 mTurn to me and be gracious to me,
for I am lonely and afflicted.
17 The troubles of my heart are enlarged;
bring me out of my distresses.
18 nConsider my affliction and my trouble,
and forgive all my sins.
19 Consider how many are my foes,
and with what violent hatred they hate me.
20 Oh, guard my soul, and deliver me!
oLet me not be put to shame, for I take refuge in you.
21 May integrity and uprightness preserve me,
for I wait for you.
22 pRedeem Israel, O God,
out of all his troubles.

Father, I thank You for this prayer.  Not only does it inspire great comfort, it is a prayer for the heartfelt.  I thank You again.

Amen

Saturday, April 2, 2016

Questions about a change for a change

Dear Heavenly Father,

How do I overcome guilt from the past and my obsessive thoughts?  I guess this is an obsessive thought.  I realize that my obsessive thoughts won't go away overnight.  Sometimes, I get tired and I hate OCD.  Meanwhile there are times when OCD has drawn me closer to You.  Help me.  I ask that You would give me the wisdom to overcome not just the OCD, but change my mindset and obsessive ways of thinking.  There are times when I am not sure if I obsess about weight or because of certain factors, my weight is obviously an issue.  It is one of a few issues that I can present to You.  I also ask that You would give me guidance and direction when it comes to my health and my overall way of living.  Thank You for answering my prayers.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Friday, April 1, 2016

Walking on eggshells

Lord,

Help me to see that only I am in need of change.  Whatever the reason for what I do, or not do, I realize that I need to change. I have grown to live on eggshells and I find it annoying.  I do wonder if speaking up for myself would work.  Lord, show me what I need to do to live with someone who I can be myself or make even the slightest mistake on.  I just want to be free to be myself.  Lord, help me.  I thank You for Your answer, and forgiveness.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Thursday, March 31, 2016

My discovery and help needed

Father,

I have recently discovered that I am just obsessed and feel like I can do nothing about it.  I tire of things taking forever to figure out.  I also tire of not knowing what to do.  I need help.  I ask that You would help me not just deal with, but overcome my obsession with food, infidelity, and other things. I would like to be healed.  I have asked Jesus to heal me but I still have the same issues.  I have been paying attention to the fact that I tire of being so "perfect" and having all-or-nothing thinking.  I don't wish to be morally gray.  I just don't wish to feel bad about making a mistake.

I don't want to start over.  My health is something that really is important.  I know that I have done things that are the opposite of that, but You and taking care of myself are my first priorities.  I love everyone, especially my family and cat, too.  I have know idea what I am doing when it comes to my weight.  It is as if I am too tired or too lazy to do the right thing.  It is true that I feel this way, but deep down I am afraid of failure.  It has been like this for a while now and I want to change.  I ask not just for forgiveness of sins, but also for guidance.

Where should I do?  I have been alone and I don't want to be alone or rather, go at it alone.  It is like a puzzle I have trying to piece together even though I know of have an idea mentally. Why am I truly like this?  I fear that I will never change my way of thinking or doing things.  I tire of struggle.  I just don't trust myself anymore.  It is not I, but Jesus Christ, and I ask Him for healing and for continued forgiveness and guidance.  Help me be wise.  Show me how to use wisdom in this situation.  I thank You in advance for Your answer.

In Jesus' Name

Amen

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Prayer of thanks for God's forgiveness

Heavenly Father,

Thank You for Your forgiveness.  Jesus, I know that You forgive sins.  Your word says so.  Thank You.  As far as the east is from the west, so have my sins been forgiveness.  Thank You.  I miss writing here.  It has been a while and I just got tired.  I am no longer tired.  I feel energized.  Thank You for You worthy of thanks and praise.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, February 8, 2016

Identity of my own

Jesus,

I look unto You for salvation.  I am scared.  I don't know who I am in Christ.  I can pray all I want and read the Bible as much as I can.  I still have no idea what to do or say.  It was as if I really didn't mean it.  I have had this problem for a long time and I am asking for an answer from You.  I need help, Lord.  I wish I could just say with confidence that I am not lost.  I ask that I will be assured that I am saved and not lost.  I don't like feeling this way.  It isn't based on what I watch on tv or what I see in movies.  I have no real dilemmas about nor does it usually wake me up.  However, it is based on reality so I know that I have an issue.  I wonder if I were not saved would I have this problem.  I also wonder if I had faith to begin with.  If I did why do I keep asking for You to save me and give me the assurance of my salvation.  I am not assured of my salvation.  I strongly believe that Your word is true.  All things were created by the Lord through You, Lord.

I may have said it wrong and I apologize.  I hate my sins because I don't revel in them.  I know that I am not perfected, but I often focus not just on being perfected, but I also focus on a ticket to Heaven.  I don't want to focus on salvation being a ticket to Heaven.  Yes, I want to go to Heaven, no doubt.  I do want to spend time with You, but I want to be assured that I am the real deal because I was saved by the True God and that is You.  I have been reading Your word online.  Where does repentance fit into salvation? Where does baptism also fall into salvation?  Where can I find information on things that are true and things that are not written in Your word?  I admit that I have a lot to learn, but I also want to know for myself.  I don't want to be deceived anymore than I don't want to have any mind of my own.  You created us all to have our own opinions and to stand on our two feet.  Lord, I need help in that area as well.  My main problem to all of this is a lack of identity.  Who am I in Christ Jesus?  Who am I, period?

I ask this in Your name,


Amen

Sunday, February 7, 2016

Putting things in proper perspective

Lord Jesus,

Help me to put things in proper perspective.  I mean this in all things.  Lord, You have been good to me.  I look unto You for salvation.  I often focus on the right words when it comes to being saved.  It is as if I pray words hoping that I will get saved.  I am scared that I don't have enough faith in You.  It is maddening that I don't know if I am truly saved or if I am lost.  Am I saved?  Lord, did You save me?  How do I become saved?  Help me, Jesus.  I thank You in advanced for answering my prayer.

In Your name,


Amen

Saturday, February 6, 2016

God's blessings

Lord Jesus,

Thank You for saving me.  You have bestowed many blessings upon me.  Forgive me for taking those blessings for granted.  Forgive me for all of my sins.

In Your name,


Amen

Friday, February 5, 2016

The proper focus

Lord,

Teach me Your ways.  Forgive me of my sins.  The fact that I am overweight is something that has taken its toll, and not just physically.  It has not been easy being an overweight person.  It hurts to be made fun of and teased.  It doesn't help that I am the object of ridicule when it comes to boys.  I never had a date so I had no idea what it is like to be kissed much less married.  One day, I would like to be married and have kids.  I know that my biological clock is ticking but maybe adoption would be a good option.  I have so many ideas for myself but I never get around to finishing them.  Help me to focus on myself first.  Help me to see that with You, everything will fall into place.  I thank You in advance for listening to me and for answering this prayer.


Sincerely,


Letters to God

Thursday, February 4, 2016

OCD prayer

Lord,

I thank You, for I am feeling better.  I just couldn't take it anymore.  The truth is, I don't like OCD.  I don't like the obsessive thoughts nor do I like the compulsion.  I have gotten used to them however. Help me to accept the fact that I have them.  I am so sad because of the guilt that I feel.  I find it strange to have thoughts about things that have nothing to do with me.  OCD can latch on to anything.  I really wish to just accept these thoughts but I just don't know how.  Show me, Lord. I want to cope with having them, to embrace them.  It hasn't been easy and I realize that I have got to not allow them to overtake me.  Help me to see that You are the Lord and that greater than all that is in the world.  Thank You in advance for answering this prayer as I ask for forgiveness of all of my sins.  Again, I thank You.


In Jesus' name,

Amen

Sunday, January 31, 2016

Help me, Lord...

Father,

Those are the things I cannot take anymore.  I don't care anymore.  I want to be uncertain.  I don't want to know the whole story.  Lord, I ask that You would take away these compulsions.  I hate these compulsions.  I just don't know what to do except to seek You.  I am in need of both wise counsel and healing.  I need Your help, Lord.  I need immediate help.  I also ask for peace of mind.  If I don't get to touch anything then I would be happy.  If I don't perform a compulsion, then I would be happy.  I have tried to stop and for a while it worked, but I just don't know how to overcome them in the long term.  I tire of of the obsessive compulsive disorder cycle.  I ask for the cycle to be broken.  I ask for forgiveness of my sins.  I thank You in advance for answering this prayer.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Saturday, January 30, 2016

Sleep patterns

Lord,

I thank You for this day.  I had to do something about it and I thank You that with Your help, it has been done, I was just plain exhausted.  All I wanted to do was sleep but I don't like to sleep but for so long in a 24 hour span.  Sometimes I am awake for only 9-10 hours, which upsets me.  I admit that I sleep too much.  Sadly, sleep has been one of my past times when I could be doing something else. I cannot and will not excuse my behavior.  Today since I have woke up, I wasn't tired at all today.  I look forward to living the rest of my day moving forward with my night, however, and thinking forward.  I thank You in advance for answering this prayer.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Thursday, January 28, 2016

Repentance prayer

Lord,

Thank You.  My fears have been calmed.  Right now, mentally, I am at peace.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  I repent of all of them.  I ask for help and guidance when it comes to true repentance.  Make me wise when it comes to repentance.  I know that I have sins that I need to and will confess.  Thank You for Your love, Your salvation, and Your forgiveness.  Thank You.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Negative v Positive Thinking

Lord,

I have been living my life according to my black and white thinking.  Lord, I confess that I am still afraid.  I still feel like that I will never change.  I also believe that I have put other things first before You and for that, I repent.  I apologize for doing that.  I have overeaten for years.  I have seen things according to the flesh.  I don't know what You and Your words, say.  Forgive me for being so naive, but I have a hard time getting over those years.  I have been living those fears for years and I feel as if I will go back to where I have started over.  I want to lose 80 pounds and keep it off, so at least I have a goal in mind this time.  I still feel burdened by this.  I ask for forgiveness.  I make You my God, Lord.  I put my focus on You in all things.  I trust You.  I surrender my cares over to You.  I thank You for everything.


In Jesus' name,


Amen

Sunday, January 24, 2016

I have no desire

Lord,

How come I don't have that moment?  Where is the spark?  I need to lose weight.  I am over 300-lb., which would make me super morbidly obese because of my height.  My question is am I losing weight for the wrong reasons?  Am I really doing this for me?  I have every reason to lose weight.  I broke a chair or two.  I have been teased and made fun of.  I fell down the stairs twice.  I feel like a person who is broken.  I hate the way that I look.  I don't see the beauty in myself.  I am fat, short, boring, and just not attractive enough.  I would be considered one of those fat people who have a pretty face but I need to lose weight.  There are just times when I feel so unattractive and so ugly. I fear that others will make fun of me, reject me, or laugh at me.  I know my weight is a problem, but I am not sure if my weight is such an issue because my heart just isn't in it.  I have no desire no matter how much I try to change.  I have this mindset that is unable to change.  I feel guilty about gaining weight.  I am comfortable because I am complacent.  I need to exercise, but I rather not.  I wish I could do those things, but I feel tired.  I have made no progress.  I have struggled and struggled and struggled.  My desire is to have a desire.  I just don't and that is not a good thing.  I just don't know what to do.  I just cannot wait anymore.  I just cannot wait any longer.  I want to be more than just a number on a scale.  My goal is to have a goal.  I just have no true desire and that scares me.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Saturday, January 23, 2016

In need of a social life

Lord Jesus,

May I ask that I won't ask amiss. I need your help.  I need a social life, even though I am no social butterfly.  I have no job and no transportation of my own.  I ask for open doors so that my social network will expand.  I also ask for guidance and for forgiveness of all of my sins.  I need to learn to stand up for myself and to deal with other people.  I don't just want You to change my situation.  I want You to produce a change in me.  My desire is to also do what You have called me to do, whatever that is.  I have no idea what it is.  Therefore, I ask for a sense of direction in my life.  I sometimes have no idea what I should or rather, need to do.  So that is why I ask of You for help and for guidance.  Give me wisdom liberally so that I will answer whatever I am called to answer just in case someone asks me about You, Lord Jesus.  I give You thanks, O Lord.  Thank You further for the opportunity to present my request to You.

In Your name, Jesus


Amen

Friday, January 22, 2016

A Fresh Perspective

Dear Jesus,

Thank You for giving me a fresh perspective.  It was the perspective that I needed.  Help me to see things more clearly.  It is not just about my weight issues, but my entire life period.  The Bible explains the consequences of laziness, sloth, and gluttony.  I am guilty of all of those things.  Forgive me, Jesus, for those and all of my sins.  I ask that You would fill me with the Holy Spirit and give me further wisdom on that fresh perspective.  I realize that I need help with what is hard.  So I ask that You would help me to do what was hard like overcoming laziness, sloth, and gluttony.  Jesus, I ask for guidance in this area.  I feel like a hamster spinning a wheel.  I believe in health and fitness.  I just hope that I have not made them my God.  I ask that You will see that You are my God and that I am make You my first priority.  Again, I thank You for that fresh perspective that I so need.  I give You praise, in Your name,  Amen.

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Taking action

Lord,

Thank You for giving me wisdom and for answering my prayer.  There are times when I need to "come back to earth".  I am not blaming bipolar or anything like that, but there are those times when I go overboard and eat or do other things that I know are not good for me.  Teach me Your ways when it comes to those issues.  I need to take my health more seriously for example.  I realize that my health could further worsen if I don't change.  I need Your help in realizing this whenever I eat or drink.  I have a more realistic view than ever before.  I don't wish to be warned and not take action. Father, I need to change.  I ask that You would show me how.  I am worried that I will never change and that things will stay as normal.  I ask for guidance so that I can take action when it comes to my health and other matters such as getting out more.  I know that, but I wonder how should I go about doing things.  I cannot and know not where to begin.  I ask that You would guide me and give me direction.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  Thank You for answering this prayer.


In Jesus' name,


Amen