Thursday, February 27, 2014

God is not a distant God, but...

Dear Lord,

Thank You for saving me and for helping me.  I am glad that You are here for me.  There are times when I feel so alone.  There are also times when I feel like You are not there.  I realize that I need to have faith, to fight the good fight.  I am not to always trust my feelings but I put my trust in You.  Sometimes, I confess, I feel that You are far off, or far away.  I realize that with faith, You are not a distant God, but one who is Personal, Omniscient, and Omnipotent.  Today, I did not spend as much time as I should have and I am sorry.  I have all of the time in the world yet I didn't spend much time.  I shudder to think what that may entail.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Jesus is the Answer

Dear God,

Thank You for saving me.  I am glad that You are greater than all of my problems.  I have been overwhelmed with my weighty matters and You have always been there for me.  There are times when I felt so alone.  I even had doubts about You.  I am sorry that I ever doubted You.  Forgive me, Lord.
You are the answer to all of life's problems and for that I thank You.

Sincerely,

Letters to God


Tuesday, February 25, 2014

I need changing

Dear God,

Today has been a rather solemn day.  I am not depressed or anything like that.  However, I feel like life in general is just plain dull.  I need to remind myself that others go through worse.  There are those who are martyred for their faith.  I wonder if they complain about their lot or if it is just their fate because they are believers in Christ.  We are to pray for one another, for they are my brethren.  I tend to forget them because I am too selfish and too self-centered.  It is so wrong and I ask for Your forgiveness.  I also tend to be judgmental.  If someone else had those qualities, I would not want to hang out with them.  I don't always like myself.  It is not a judgment or self-esteem things.  It is a character flaw thing.  How do I follow Jesus when I have such flaws?  I need to change and I need Your help in changing me.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, February 24, 2014

Uneasy

Dear God,

Something is troubling me.  I am not sure what it is, but I am troubled.  The truth is, I am not supposed to be troubled.  I am supposed to be of great courage, which I don't have.  I am however feeling uneasy, which is the trouble.  Help me, Lord.  Help me.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Sunday, February 23, 2014

My weighty issues

Dear God,

Yesterday I was writing and copy and pasting about how I felt about a woman's infidelity.  The truth is, I have been cheating for a long time.  I am an overweight diabetic who doesn't wish to be an overweight diabetic in the near future.  I am sick and tired doesn't help me.  However, I want, need, and desire to change.  I have been overwhelmed with wanting to lose weight which makes it worse.  Losing weight is hard and I wonder if Weight Watchers is for me.  I have been given so much support and so much information that I cannot process it all in my head.  I need help.  I need for show to show me what I need to do.  Please.

  I could use some wisdom right about now.  I have gained weight over the years and I have a desire to lose weight, but my fear is that I will never lose it.  I fear that my future will be of a very large woman who will have a much harder time losing weight.  I am already self-conscious of my weight and my self-esteem is low.

 I am not sure what I need to do.  All I know to do is that I need help.  I am in an urgent stage to lose weight and maybe that urgency is my problem.  I want to start off slow, and make changes.  I want to follow the plan and even count points.  I guess I need to find the root of the problem.  Maybe I am approaching things all wrong.  Lord, help me.  I give You my problems.  I believe that You are greater than my lack of patience, my urgency, and whatever else is ailing me.  I ask for rest and I will learn of You, for I am burdened with the cares of this life.  Help me to see what is most important.  Help me to keep it simple.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Saturday, February 22, 2014

Letter to God about a woman't infidelity

Dear God,

I have had thoughts about infidelity for many years.  I am a judgmental person.  I don't see how a woman can cheat on a good man.  I felt bad about that because my thoughts are unrealistic.  Deep down inside, I see myself as a judgmental individual who is adhering to a double standard of sorts.  I find myself curious, yet I find myself angry.  It is upsetting to hear about, read, or see an adulterous woman.  It is interesting since Gomer in the Bible was an adulterous woman who her husband truly loved.  I don't even know if she ever truly loved him.  She may have loved him at one time, but I will never know.  That isn't the point in my opinion.  Gomer committed adultery and prostitution, yet her husband still loved her.  I can only imagine the pain that Hosea went through.

That is the problem.  I can only imagine.  I am isolated yet I feel isolated from the real world.  I want to see an adulterous woman hurt the way she hurt her "loved" one.  I felt that the adulterous woman was a bigger fool than an adulterous man.  The truth is, I have seemed to hate the deeds and dislike adulterous women for I don't think that they have morals.  But that is also what the thoughts say.  Why do I feel that way?  Will I ever truly know?  Are these only theories or is it based on what I think is the truth?  The problem is, all I have are questions, scenarios, and uncertainties.  I would why a woman would cheat.  I wondered how many she also slept with and what happened to her.  Was she rewarded for it with alimony payments from the scorned husband?  Did she lose everything?  Was she killed?  I have written stories about adulterous women and they have been graphic and exaggerated.  I have felt better since I have written about them, yet I was afraid of reading them.  Hopefully, I will feel better about how I feel about women and infidelity.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Friday, February 21, 2014

In need of wisdom

Dear Lord,

I am feeling better than I have yesterday.  The problem is, I have no idea how to face my fears.  I need Your help.  Remind me that You are faithful and always present.  Sometimes I fail to realize that my journey is really a relationship with You.  I ask for forgiveness of all sin including failure to see things eternally.  I often see things in the natural while failing to see what is eternal.  I have little to no clue on how to set my mind on eternal things instead of just temporary things.  This world will pass away and You will come quickly.  In the meantime, I need Your wisdom on how I am to live my life and handle my affairs.  Yesterday, I wrote on my fears.  I cast all of my cares, fears, and anxieties over to You.  I need help in those areas, I admit.  I would like to be a believer whose mind is stayed on You, meditating on Your word day and night.  Thank You for giving me the opportunity to daily writing these letters to You.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Thursday, February 20, 2014

I am in fear

Dear God,

I fear not being saved, though that is understanding.  I also fear everything.  I don't know if it is a phobia or not, but I am scared of everything and everyone.  I hate uncertainties.  Today has been a good day, except for this.  I worry too much and now I am anxious.  Help me to overcome these things.  I feel as if You are not there for me.  I need immediate assistance for fear has been my god.  Whom shall I fear?  I fear all because I am scared that something bad will happen to me.  I hate confrontation.  I hate uncertainty like I mentioned earlier.  I need You right now, Lord.  I need help.

Sincerely,


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Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Frustration

Dear God,

I am so frustrated.  I am thankful that You don't hear just long prayers.  I admit that they have been long at times, but I felt so doubtful about You answering my prayers.  I feel alone at times and I do make bad choices every once in a while.  I wonder if I should quit.  My eating habits have not improved.  It seems to me that they have gotten worse.  Maybe they have been exposed and I need to change.  I just don't know how.  What do I need to do?  I just need help.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Overcoming a Sin

Dear Heavenly Father,

I may be wrong in this, but I believe that sin is conceived in the mind.  I believe that sin's wages are death.  I do believe that I have committed a sin.  It is based on a past sin.  That is why it is so hard to overcome.

Give me the strength and motivation to exercise, lose weight, and overcome this sin in my life.  Sometimes I wonder if I was to ask the right things, then my prayers would be answered.  Oftentimes, I believe that I have doubts that You would ask certain prayers of mine because I have doubts about my prayers being answered.

You have thankfully erased those doubts.  I would like to be set free from this sin that is hard to overcome.  Cleanse and renew my mind.  Restore and forgive me of all of my sins.  I repent of my evil, sinful ways.  I am sorry for what I have done.  None of us are good, not one of us.  Jesus, however made me a saint through His shed blood and I became a saint who can conquer whatever is ailing me at the moment.  What is ailing me is my sin.

I plead Jesus' blood over my mindset and over that sin.  I ask for mental purity.  I guess I can ask for this because I am here to say that I want to live a pure, righteous life.  In my mind, living a holy, righteous life is my daily goal.  You are there for me even if I fall short.  I feel like everytime I fall, however, I have fallen short and have disappointed You.

Lord, I need a change in my mindset.

Sincerely,


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Monday, February 17, 2014

Motivation and energy

Dear Heavenly Father,

Today has been pretty decent.  I would like to know how to spend my time exercising instead of napping.  I do sleep a lot.  I have other goals in mind and I would like to keep to those goals.  I have gained almost all of my weight back.  I have had issues for a long time and I know You know about my struggles in advance.  God, all I ask is that You would help me.  I am investing in this and I don't wish for it to go down the drain.  I don't want to waste time or waste my investment on doing just anything.  I want to be able to improve.  It seems easy but things don't come easy for me.  Help me.  Continue to motivate me and give me the will and energy to lose weight.  I thank You for doing so.

Sincerely,


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Sunday, February 16, 2014

Help with conquering anxiety and fear

Lord,

I cannot believe that I am praying about this.  I am asking You to help me allow to experience my anxiety.  It is getting in the way of living.  I have been fearful and anxious for so long, that I forgot what it is like to actually experience things.  I have been safe and comfortable.  Last made I was incredibly uncomfortable when I tried to sleep.  Little did I know that what was bothering me no longer bothers me.  Thank You for answering my prayers.  I really do appreciate it.  Help me to overcome low self-esteem and fear issues.  I need help facing my fears, but I don't know what I need to do.  Give me the strength and wisdom to overcome my fears, whatever they are.  I feel so great right now.  I am here to express my gratitude.  I am free so far.  I have some idea about encountering things that I fear, including triggers to new and maybe even scarier obsessive thoughts.  I don't wish to avoid things anymore.  I rather just live life to the fullest.  Help me with this.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Saturday, February 15, 2014

Thank You, Jesus

Dear Heavenly Father,

What has just happened I hope to never take for granted ever again.  Thank You for everything.  Thank You...I have no words to describe how thankful I am.  There are issues that I have learned or am learning to deal with that I feel can be overcome.  I think that I can make it, without all of the fears.  I felt like the weight of the world was on my shoulders.  I don't feel that way now and I hope that I don't feel that way anytime soon.  Thank You, Jesus.

Sincerely,


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Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Application is difficult

Dear God,

Even though my diet is bad, I have done a better job today of logging in and not eating as much as I did. Applying myself is hard.  Why?  I don't know.  What do I have to be afraid of?  I wish applying myself was so much easier.  I guess I need to be more patient.  I have not been pain free today.  I have had ankle pain so that affected my walking and stomach pain, so it may have been nausea or bad foods.  I also had a moment today where I admit to spending too much on food and not enough on what I really want and need. I wonder how much money I could save if I were spend less money.  I need wisdom and guidance in those areas.  I also need healing,  Lord.  I want to overcome my fears, but I don't know how.  I need further help, Lord.  Thank You in advance for doing these things for me.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, February 10, 2014

Important issues such as trafficking.

Dear God,

You are my love song.  I didn't understand that at first, but that song is so comforting and so relaxing.  It is supposed to speak to my heart but spoke to my mind instead.  I believe that love songs are not only about love, but the joy of love.  It uplifts and speaks to those who wish to be inspired.  I don't normally go this deep whenever I listen to a song, but I am assuming that is what the song means.

I realize that I am in need of help.  I don't want to get frustrated.  I want to learn and to grow.  I don't think I am neither learning nor growing.  My spiritual life seems to be up and down and my health while improved, I am afraid will be compromised by a continually bad diet.  Give me the strength and motivation to lose weight and keep it off.  I realize that I needed to have my own reasons to lose weight and I saw what could be my future and I didn't want any part of that.  Help me to keep things simpler by applying what I have "learned" to my current diet and lack of exercise routine.  I feel like giving up sometimes, but I am going to move on.  I want to learn what to eat, how to deal with food triggers, when to eat, and how to eat.  Lord, give me the guidance as only You can, to do what I would like to do because of my health and other matters.

I was listening to the radio about children in India being a part of the human trafficking trade.  That is just so awful.  I wonder if it is too much to say this, but I wonder if that what is what like for my ancestors, being trafficked into a strange world where the peoples usually did not look like them, talk or even think like them. I personally cannot imagine what it was like for those who were sold as sex slaves or just slaves period.  In the US, slavery of nearly an entire race is not an issue, but enslavement of men, women, and children are still being victimized by human trafficking.  Lord, what can I do to help?  Everytime I read or hear about this, it seems like I could do more and that You would intervene somehow.  I wish that no one was being trafficked or sold.  Lord, forgive those who benefit and take part in the trafficking of others for they will have their "reward" or "punishment".  Help and save those, Jesus, who are being trafficked.  May their cries not be unheard.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Sunday, February 9, 2014

Today was even better than yesterday

Dear God,

Thank You.  I am tired yes, but I am not down.  All is well on the home front.  I am not down because I realize that I take things too personally.  I have held some things so close to home that I sometimes forget that Jesus was the Brunt of evil in the world.  I turn those things that threaten to swallow me up in the world and I surrender that to You..

I am listening to a song about You being a love song.  My passion for You is great, but because of me, obviously, there is something lacking.  I feel alone at times and at other times there is a spiritual desert.  I wish I knew exactly what it is.  How much help would reading a Bible be?  Studying?  Listening to music?
I need to not allow myself to get caught up in the things of the world.  Sometimes I do and it makes my mind a bit frazzled at times.

Help me to relax at least this once, Lord.  I didn't realize that I had so many issues yet so few problems.  I love waxing poetic like I just did, but it is not about me.  I wish I could just be a fan or just someone who didn't spend much of the day going online and looking at pictures or reading gossip about whatever star is on my mind.  Change me, Lord, into the person that You want me to be.  I don't want or need to be what You want me to be.  Guide me and help me to live a holy and righteous life.  I ask for the Holy Spirit for conviction and guidance.

Thank You.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Saturday, February 8, 2014

Tired and down

Dear God,

I am doing okay, yet I am down and I am tired.  I turn those things over to You.  How come it seems things just don't come easy for me?  I wish that they did.  I want to lose weight but I don't know how to apply the simplest weight loss principles to my daily life.  Help me, Lord, to do the same thing with Your word.  I am okay now since I have typed this to You.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Friday, February 7, 2014

Exercise

Dear God,

Thank You for another day.  I am not a fan of exercise because I am nervous about not "keeping things simple".  I just feel like unleashing.  I need Your help.  I give You my nervousness and my anxiety.  Help me to realize that exercise isn't just a great option.  It is the only option.  I have failed before because I stopped.  I feel like starting over, but I don't know how.  I want to exercise starting tomorrow.  I know I am out of shape, but I also know that I can be too sore.  Today, I did a lot of work and I became tired.  I realized today that I need to be in shape.  Help me to see that I can get over this fear and anxiety and that I will "get to work" so to speak.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Thursday, February 6, 2014

Things to remember

Dear Heavenly Father,

I pray that I won't forget to put You as my top Priority.  I am in need of remembrance because I wish to do a lot of things.  I come unto You for I am overwhelmed.  Help me to see things one at a time.This week has been eye opening for me.  I realize that I have to live for You and serve You and put You first, then my life wouldn't be so overwhelming.  I serve a greater purpose than what I even thought.  I didn't realize what was in my heart until I talked to You about what was in my heart.  Thank You for revealing what was in my heart.  May I not forget anything that You have spoken to me.  Also, may I not forget to put You on the top of my list each and everyday.

In Jesus' Name,


Amen

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Putting God as the first priority

Dear Lord,

I was going through the motions and eating and living mindlessly or so it seems.  I need a set plan and to prioritize my life and myself.  I know to put you first and that You are my first priority.  Help me to put You first instead of hunger or supposed hunger.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  Help me to plan my life, including my memories and my meditation.  I concentrate on usually the wrong things.  Bring peace to my mind and to my innermost being.  Thank You that with You, all of these things are possible.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Applications to my life

Dear Lord,

Show me how to apply my written goals and affirmations, and Your word to my daily life.  Also help me to not give up.  I have my doubts about quite a few things and I turn those doubts over to You.  I hope that I have prayed about those doubts today.  I would like to change.  I want to change, but for You.  Help me to live a life that fully glorifies You.  There are things that I am weaning myself from.  I love listening to music and entertaining myself, but there are things that I am no longer interested in.  I wonder if it has something to do with You telling me that I have been too comfortable.  To me, being comfortable is like living the same day over and over again without change and with safety.  How do I change that?  Help me and give me guidance on how to live out my days.  Thank You for doing so.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Monday, February 3, 2014

Embracing and Acceptance

Lord,

Help me to embrace the fact that I have a crush on MR.  The whole thing makes me feel uncomfortable.  I don't know if I should feel uncomfortable but the truth is, I do.  I realize that I spend more time on entertainment than prayer and reading Your word.  I would like to know how not to spend so much time on doing that.  I have prayed about if tv or music glorifies You.  The truth is, I am not sure.  All I know is that I am not sure if I am glorify You by the way I am living.  Help me to not be comfortable in the state that I am in.  I am in a state of safety.  I wish to do more with my day and with my life.  My crush on MR makes me nervous.  Quite a few things make me nervous.  I just am an anxious person.  Lord, I ask for peace of mind and a dose of the truth from You.  I could use some truth right about now.  I just don't know what I am really doing on this planet.  I am supposed to be living in Your word, but I am safe, but not always comfortable.  That is how I am feeling right now.  I need Your wisdom and guidance in this manner of my crush with MR.  Should I cancel my facebook account?  Should I just embrace it?  Should I be more accepting?  Help me, Lord, to examine myself.  I need to do more with my time that is educational, spiritual, and productive.  This I know.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Sunday, February 2, 2014

Getting out of my comfort zone

 Dear God,


I have gotten too comfortable in the state that I am in.  Lord, help me to get out of my comfort zone.  I also ask for wisdom and guidance in all things.  I surrender my life over to You.  Thank you, Lord.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Saturday, February 1, 2014

I have gotten too comfortable

Dear God,

Thank You.  I ask that You would teach me Your ways so that I can be a changed person.  I finally realize that I have not changed because of fear.  After all, I have to realize that as a believer, I have to walk in faith.  I admit that that hasn't always been the case with me.  I have been living in fear of the unknown.  That may actually be  my greatest fear.  I need Your help in overcoming this fear.  I need to know the truth about things. I am by nature a curious person.  Uncertainty is I guess a part of everyone's life and I haven't gotten used to it.  Now it is time to get used to it.  I need You for wisdom and guidance in this manner.  Change me.  I am in need of change.  I have gotten too comfortable in my fears.  I am filled with fears.  I need help in being an over comer.  I am supposed to be one who overcame the world, but it seems so hard.  Why is that, Lord?  Why is that?

Sincerely,


Letters to God