Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Being thankful

Dear God,

I thank You.  This day has been a little dull and I don't like dull and boring days.  I realize that I rather have dull and boring days sometimes.  I try not to let my mind get the best of me.  I overcame my idolatry with my crush/obsession at least for today.  I am sorry that I let it get the best of me yesterday.

Images and thoughts keep coming back.  I wonder sometimes why I have those thoughts, even about crushes and obsessions.  I feel like I have degraded myself long enough with these crushes and obsessions.  Sometimes I wish I could truly fall in love, get married, and have a family.

I want to live a normal life.  I am 38 years old and sometimes I feel like I have nothing to show for it.  I do realize that I need to be grateful.  There are people who don't get to live, period.  My issues are so minor compared to what many others go through.  I have a computer and other things that I take for granted.  I just am so grateful that I get a chance to walk daily because there are some people who cannot walk.  There are others who have no feet and no legs.

I have a home to go to each and every day.  There are those who have no home, much less a family.  I have food to eat daily and I can calculate the amount of calories and carbs I eat per day.  There are people who die of malnutrition because they have less than enough or rather, no food to eat.

I am just thankful.  Help me to be mindful of those who are in need.  Help me to be mindful of those who are less fortunate than I.  I have You and others who love and respect me.  I am sorry for not always be thankful for what I have.  I rather have the dull, boring, groundhog days that I have than other days.  I am prayerful and I can find something to do.

I thank You, Lord, that I am alive and that I have made it through another day.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Thoughts and healing

Dear God,

I still have these thoughts and the mechanism won't go away.  I have a chemical imbalance in my brain and I wish these thoughts would go away.  I wish I never had these thoughts.

I had thoughts about infidelity committed by wives.  Why I never had these thoughts committed by husbands, I will never know.  I believe that a woman like a man should be faithful and respectful to her husband.  I don't like it when women step out on their husbands, especially if they are good, faithful, caring men.  It is disgusting.  It shows a lack of love, loyalty, and lack of character.  I have such strong views on this and I guess that is why I have these thoughts about cheating.  I realize how hypocritical they are because deep down, I have once believed that men are the main cheaters against women and that is all I remember seeing on mass media and reading about.  So with the shortage of good men, why the women who cheat?  That doesn't make sense to me. 

I now believe that men and women who cheat are people who need Jesus.  What they are doing is wrong.  They know what they are doing is wrong.  I don't know how adulterers truly feel about their spouses, but they are disrespecting them, their selves, and their marriages.  It is a selfish, dishonest, and a cowardly act.  I know why You, Lord, are against infidelity.  I believe that it is why I have those thoughts about infidelity.

I think it is high time that they be exposed.  I also ask for healing from these thoughts.  I don't wish to feel that way anymore.  I want for adulterers to find Jesus Christ.  It is a sin, yes, but You died, Jesus, for adulterers and adulteresses.  I don't want to know if a person cheated or not.  I don't want to know if a cheater gets hurt because of their cheating.  I am tired of the obsessions and the compulsions.  I want the uncertainty.  No one should get harmed or killed because of infidelity.  It is not worth it.  Forgive me, Lord Jesus, for the sin of infidelity against You that I have committed with the world.  Heal me, Lord Jesus, of this sickness that I have.  I want to just move on and move forward.  I want to be healed and made whole.  I thank You for healing me.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Monday, July 29, 2013

Good day

Dear God,

Today was a good day.  I love that phrase and I love that song.  But since it is not music that glorifies you, maybe I shouldn't.

I feel very good about this.  I have learned to apply your word to my life.  I have also learned to apply my meal plan to my grocery list.  I wish I could make promises to You, but I am not good at making promises to You.  I feel like a liar whenever I say I will never do it again.  Forgive me of all of my sins.

Cleanse me of my unrighteous deeds.  Make me a new creation in Christ.  Thank You for saving me.  I hope that I will live a life that glorifies You.  I wish and want to live for You and serve You all the days of my life.  I don't trust myself, but I put my trust in You.

I ask that I continue to be transformed by the renewing of my mind.  Sometimes I feel like I live in an alternate universe.  I don't always pay attention to what is around me sometimes, or at least that is how I feel.  Thank You for always putting things in perspective for me.  You are wonderful and majestic.  I praise You, O Lord;  I praise You.

Thank You,

Sincerly,

Letters to God

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Okay is how I am feeling

Dear God,

I am doing okay.  I am a bit distracted however.  I often get frazzled and concerned about what is going on in the world.  I admit that I am in my own little world, however.  I also admit that I get myself so concerned with the things of the world that I lose sight of the big picture sometimes.

These past few days have been about a renewal of my mind and it has been a miracle.  I believe that little miracles happen everyday, but this miracle was huge.  I was stressed out and lost.  Now as I am writing this,  I am no longer stressed out.

I am not frazzled or fed up.  In fact, I am at peace.  And that makes me smile.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Saturday, July 27, 2013

Stress and anxiety

Dear Heavenly Father,

I thank You for saving me.  I thank You for loving me.  I thank You for light bulb moments.  Your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven.

I ask that You would direct my paths, for I acknowledge You in all of my ways.  I feel so much better about myself.  I had to let the thoughts pass and deal with the anxiety that I have been dealing with.  I have also have been dealing with stress.

I have been stressed out about my weight.  I weighed over 300 lbs and I lost about 30 lbs.  I feel great about that, though I realize that it was a source of stress because I lost weight so slowly.  I feel like things are possible.  Thank You for making all things possible for I didn't think that weight loss after a period of nine months and staying on this course for nine months would be possible.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Friday, July 26, 2013

My journey

Dear God,

I am thankful for everything that You have done for me.  My mindset has changed and I am more than motivated to lose weight.  I have polycystic ovarian syndrome which makes it harder to lose weight than normal.  I am concerned about being diabetic because I am a diabetic.  I have been diabetic for nearly five years now.  It has gotten easier to manage but at first it was embarassing to take the diabetic supplies  home with me.  I have been warned so to speak about being diabetic.  I was overweight but I thought that I was healthy.  I was much healthier back then because I weighed a lot less.  I gained a lot of weight over the years leaving me feeling guilty and self-conscious about my weight, my health, and my appearance.  My self esteem is not high yet I am a happier and wiser person than I have ever been since.  I owe it all to You.  My mind is clear and I look forward to continuing my journey.  Life is so precious yet so short.  I hope and plan to not take it for granted.  Diabetes is a serious condition and I have taken it for granted.  I am serious about diabetes now more than ever.  I don't want any complications from diabetes.  I want to be free from diabetes.  Lord, heal me and set me free.  Guide me and give me wisdom for I acknowledge You in all my ways.  I ask for wisdom and for the direction of my paths. 

Thank You,

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Thursday, July 25, 2013

Acknowledge

Dear God,

I acknowledge You in all of my ways.  I ask that You would direct my paths and that You would give me guidance in all that I do.  We all need guidance at some point in our lives.  My guidance is right now.  I had plans that did not come to fruition for whatever reason.  What is your plan for my life?  Guide me to that plan.  Help me to continually renew my mind on a daily basis.  I want to be transformed by the renewing of my mind as it is written in Your Word, O Lord.  Yesterday, you have provided a miracle for me and for that, I thank You.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

They Will Be done

Dear God,

Thank You.  My mind is clear today.  I surrender everything and every part of me to You.  I leave everything to Your care.  May Your will be done.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

What to say

Dear Lord,

There are times when I feel like I have nothing important to say even to You.  I admit that I spend a lot of time complaining, but I certainly don't mean to.  It is just that I get...who am I kidding?  I just need to make enough time.  I wish that I could say that I am a good Christian who spends hours and hours with You.  But the truth is I am not.  Forgive me, Father.  I am not.  Will I ever be good enough?  I doubt it.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Monday, July 22, 2013

Change

Dear Heavenly Father,

I need to change.  The problem is that I am stressed out and that I don't know how to do any de-stressing.  I just feel like I am going crazy sometimes.  I have gained weight, which I didn't want.  In fact, what I was fearing has happened and that is not a good place to be in.  I want to know how to eat healthy, live healthy, and be healthy.  Being healthy means being whole to me.  Correct me if I am wrong though.  I have allowed myself to become distracted and now it seems that I am here to say that life is short.  My life could end tomorrow and I feel like it would be a wasted life.  I am a young woman who is often tired, sluggish, and fatigued.  I have become tired of the way that I am living.  I hope that things will improve for me, but maybe that is my problem.  I complain too much.  My mindset is flawed.  I would love to change that, but I don't know how.  Where do I begin?

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Standing strong

Father,

I thank You for today.  I do not think that I should surrender.  I am still vulnerable, but with You, I can stand strong and win.  I have allowed myself to be distracted by the things of this world.  I am sorry for that, Lord.  Help me to focus on You and Your goals and Your will for me.  I have told You that there is so much I want to do and accomplish.  I cannot do that if I am distracted.  Forgive me, Father, for I am a sinner in need of guidance.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Saturday, July 20, 2013

Tired

Father,

I surrender.  I cannot take it anymore.  Help me to do what is hard.  I don't know what to do.  Help me.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Friday, July 19, 2013

My weight and stress

Dear Heavenly Father,

When it comes to my weight, what do I really want?  I honestly don't know what I want.  I know what I need, but I am confused.  I need to lose weight but I don't have the energy or the know how.  I am just tired.  I wish I knew where this whole frustration with my weight began.  I need a major change in my mindset but putting that mindset into plan is very hard.  Help me to apply what I have learned to my daily life.  Help me to see myself as You see them.  Give me the wisdom and the energy I need to lose weight.  I have all of these things that stress me out and I feel like giving up.  I don't want to give up, but I don't want to give in either.  My world centers around me and I often feel guilty about that.  I feel like I have so much negativity I just cannot handle it.  I hate it.  I am just tired and I don't know how to change it.  I want to present my body as a living sacrifice, to nurture it and to take care of it.  I need to renew my mind.  I know that, but I don't know how to do that either.  Show me how to renew my mind and where to begin taking care of myself.  I am frustrated with myself.  I can't stop eating and my exercise routine is just that: a routine.  I feel like giving up, though that is not what I want.  I need help.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Prayer of thanks and praise

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank You for saving me.  Thank You for clemency.  I did not deserve it, but You are gracious, loving, and merciful.  Your love and Your forgiveness are things that I will always love about You.  I would like to be an example to others in this world because You are my Example.  You are my Role Model.  You are perfect in every way because of all that You have done.  Thank You for giving me peace in the midst of a storm.  With You all things are possible.  Thank You for cleaning me up and for removing strongholds in my life.  There is so much that I would like to thank You for that I am not sure that I could repay You back fully.  You are worthy of the praise and worship You receive from Your children on a daily basis.  Thank You for everything.  Thank You.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Fasting

Dear God,

I am writing because I am fasting this morning.  I am praying for myself, my family, and for this nation.  Let us all be salt and light.  Let us as believers be beacons of light.  I am happy to serve You and honor You in all of my ways.  I fully acknowledge You in all of my ways.  I worship and praise You today.  Thank You, Lord.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Obsession with an actor

Dear God,

So far, all is well.  I feel like there is something that I need to do.  I am still having to deal with the obsession with this actor.  I want the images of this actor erased from my mind.  I am bipolar with OCD symptoms.  I can allow it to get too far which is what I don't want.  I am saddened that I am even afraid to mention his name even though I have no need to fear.  He has done nothing to me.  I am trying to move on which isn't easy.  I am committing idolatry and I am so sorry.  I repent of my sins and I want more than anything to move on and move forward.  This actor is quite talented yes, but he is a human, a sinful human being just like the rest of us.  He is in need of You, Lord, and I prayed for him.


I realize that it doesn't matter when it happened, why it is happening, and who he is.
My obsession is just that...an obsession.  I want to get rid of this obsession.  Take this off of my mind.  I want to move forward and do things that are good for me.  I want to learn things.  I want to expand my social circle.  There is so much that I don't want to do.  Where do I begin?  Guide me, Lord with Your eye.  Help me to see that there is so much for me to do and that I have so much to offer.  Open doors for me so that I can serve You better.

This obsession with this actor is a sign that there is something missing in my life.  I am missing a social life.  I don't have any transportation so I cannot just go and come as I play.  That has been an issue of mine for a while now.  I need help in this area and I know that You are bigger than all of my issues.  Lord, I ask that You do a mighty work in my life.  Where do I begin?  I need to tear down strongholds which means that I have to end this idolatrous fascination with this man.  He is an image and another human and that is how I have to see it.  It would be hard, but at the same time, with a little work, it will be easier.  I am thankful that with You, all things are possible.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Changes and needs

Dear God,

My weight issues are far from over.  I am thankful for the journey and for the weight loss.  I realize that it will be a hard and long journey but I promise to be patient.  Losing weight is a slow and steady process and I plan on losing 10 pounds for the time being.  I have lost a few pounds and that makes me smile.  I realize that I need to look at the positives and affirm myself more.  I also realize that my exercise needs to be more intense.  I keep thinking that I need to exercise more and I did do some exercising today.  It does need to be more intense because I need to lose weight.  I was frustrated about the slow weight loss.  I thought that I was under a plateau but I was wrong.  Thank You for giving me some clarity.  I needed that.  I am doing well.  I also realize that it may take a year, two years, even longer.  That is something that I will have to deal with.  I am looking forward to it.  I still have my fears but with You I know that I can overcome them.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, July 15, 2013

Continuation

Dear God,

I feel pretty good today.  Help me to continually deal with stress.  I have been going through a lot today.  Help me to overcome the fears in my life, for they are many.  Thank You furthermore that You are bigger than all of my problems.  I put my trust in You, Lord.  My faith hasn't been strong as of late and I needed Your help, and I still do.  Fear has ruled me all of my life, but I realize that I can overcome fear.  Give me the strength that I need to make it through the day and I thank You for doing so.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Sunday, July 14, 2013

Stress

Dear God,

Thank You for waking me up.  Help me to deal with stress today.  Every day I realize, including tomorrow, has its own sufficient evil thereof.  I have trouble dealing with stress.  Show me how to deal with stress.  Help me gain my soul and to die to myself daily.  Help me to die to myself today.  Give me peace of mind, O Lord.  Thank You for giving me that peace.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Fears

Dear Heavenly Father,

I have had to deal with fears all of my life.  Show me how Your perfect love casts out fear.  I am tormented with fear.  I have a fear of just about everything from spiders to something bad happening to someone.  I wish that I could overcome it.  I would like to overcome fear and face those fears.  I am supposedly an overcomer but I am not a strong person.  Help me to overcome my fears.  I need You right now.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Obsession

Dear God,

I have been obsessed with this man for months.  I even posted pictures of him on my blogs.  I cannot take it anymore.  He has even in my dreams and have woken me up.  I see images of him at times.  It seems harmless enough, but I have had enough.  I feel like I should be going crazy but I have larger issues that I need to address.  Lord, help me.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Friday, July 12, 2013

Weighty

Hello, Lord,

Help me in my weight loss journey.  I am in need of You for all things, including my weight.  I acknowledge You in this way and in all of my ways.  I turn the situation over to You.  I want to be a healthy person.  Thank You.

Sincerely,
Letters to God

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Weighty issue

Hello, Lord,

Thank You that I am awake this morning.  I ask that You will give me guidance this day.  My weight is at a plateau and I would like to get out of that plateau.  You have taken away the frustrations that I have about my weight and for that, I am ever grateful.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Footprints

Lord,

Thank You for taking total control over my life.  I really appreciate it.  You have been there for me for a long time, if not all of my life.  I did not realize it until today and I am sorry for that.  Thank you for those "footprints" in the sand.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Monday, July 8, 2013

Control over to God

Father,

I give You complete and total control over my life.  Help me, Lord.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Needs, wants, and desires

Dear Heavenly Father,

What do I want?  What do I need?  What are my desires?  The truth is, I don't know what I really want.  I just think I do.  I am just being honest about that.  I don't know what I need.  I don't have any real desires that I wish to express and that is so sad.  There are things that I need to change but is that the same thing?  I wish that I knew so that I can focus on more important things.  What do I want?  What do I need?  What are my desires?  Lord, help me to focus on things that I need, want, and desire in my life.  Help me to be a salt and light to others so that I could be a blessing.  Give me an opportunity to improve myself and to change what needs to be changing.  Help me to look deep inside myself so that I would know those needs, wants, and desires.  Why did I seem to bury those things?  Why, Lord, why?

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Saturday, July 6, 2013

Forgiveness

Heavenly Father,

Thank You for this day.  I apologize for all that I have done wrong.  I am sorry.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  You are gracious, kind, and merciful.  Thank You.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Friday, July 5, 2013

Freedom

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank You for giving me the opportunity to live another day.  I am very thankful for that and for other things.  Yesterday was a good day for me.  I hope to learn more about the freedom that Christians have as a citizen of Heaven compared to being citizens of a world.  Many of my ancestors probably knew more about true freedom than those who were free.  They were hoping for freedom not just on earth, but for a home in Heaven.  Help me to see that no matter where we are in life that Jesus Christ provided all of us, slave and free, true freedom.  May I provide that message to others today.  May I be a beacon of light to others today.

In Jesus' Name,

Amen

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Independence

Dear Heavenly Father,

May I not get caught up in the things of the world such as the festivities of today.  I am an American, but that is only temporary.  I am a citizen of Heaven and that is the most important thing.  Show me and guide me into what true Independence is all about.

Thank You for answering my prayer.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

People

Dear God,

Help me to love myself and everyone, including my enemies.  I do wonder who my enemies are because I have no idea since I don't have a social life.  I guess it is people who oppose Christians and my overall views.  We are to pray for even the worst of people, those that spitefully use us and hurt us.

I sometimes have difficulty understanding a lot of things in Your word.  That is because I admit that I have failed to apply Your word to my daily life.  Help me to do so, Lord and give me the wisdom that I need so that I can effectively serve You for that day.  I feel that I am in need to do other things and meet new people.

You know, I don't have much of a social life.  I don't go out as much as I once did.  I haven't been in college in a long time and during that long time I have yet to socialize.  I have pretty much isolated myself from the rest of the world because of these obsessive thoughts that I had.  I have no love life to speak of and furthermore, I have no way to get to places that I want and need to go.

Open up opportunities so that I can develop that social life.  I admit that I need to go to church more and meet new people.  I am a shy person and I would like to know how You can use me to help others be lead to Christ for instance.  Even if they are my enemies You died for them.  Thank You for Your care and Your concern and most of all, Your love for me.

Sincerely,
Letters to God

Monday, July 1, 2013

Need supplied

Jesus,

Thank You for saving me and for forgiving me of all of my sins.  You know of all of my needs before I even ask of them.  My needs I know have been and will be met.  Thank You.  Your Word says that there is no benefit to worrying or anxiety.  I had anxiety about a specified issue and I was obsessed with trying to doing the right thing.  Thank You for giving me the piece of mind that I certainly needed. 

In Your name,
Amen