Repentance and guidance

Dear God,

Have I done anything lately that I have not repented of?  How has my life been unpleasing to You?  I wondered what I need to do.  I need to know this.  I ask for the guidance of the Holy Spirit.  Thank You for giving me this guidance.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Thank You, Lord, for a good day

Heavenly Father,

Today was a good day.  Forgive me, however, for my sins.  I am pleased with myself, but I couldn't have done that without You.  I praise You because You are worthy of praise.

Thank You.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Psalm 51

Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions.
² Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin.
³ For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me.
⁴ Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.
⁵ Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.
⁶ Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.
⁷ Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
⁸ Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice.
⁹ Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities.
¹⁰ Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.
¹¹ Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.
¹² Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.
¹³ Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.
¹⁴ Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness.
¹⁵ O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise.
¹⁶ For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering.
¹⁷ The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.
¹⁸ Do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion: build thou the walls of Jerusalem.
¹⁹ Then shalt thou be pleased with the sacrifices of righteousness, with burnt offering and whole burnt offering: then shall they offer bullocks upon thine altar.

God's Kindness

Dear God,

Thank You for the day that I had.  You are so good to me.  You also have been good to me.  Thank You for Your goodness and kindness.

Sincerely,

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Stable life

Dear God,

I wasn't sure what to write You today.  However, I have to write that I am sorry that I forgot to write to You yesterday.  I meant to, however.  Today has been a good day.  I am glad that I am no longer hiding or holding things in.  My obsessions usually get out of hand.  I wonder why I couldn't be just infatuated or be a fan.  Why does my mind have to go too far?  I feel like I am going to lose it.  Life is more stable than it has been and for that, I give You the credit.  Thank You.

Sincerely,

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Gratefulness

Dear God,

Thank You for being the God of provision.  I look back at my life and I see that my needs have been met because of You.  Thank You.  I am forever indebted unto You all the days of my life.  You have done more for me than I can repay.  I want to say thank You.

Sincerely,

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Grateful

Dear God,

Thank You.  I am happy that I have spent time with You today.  I realize that spending time with You spells spiritual growth.  Thank You for helping me to discern between what is good and what is bad.  You have given me the assurance of salvation.  Thank You for saving me.  You know my heart and mind and I thank You for knowing me and everything about me.  You are so good to me and I thank You for that.  I am just grateful. 

Sincerely,


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Tired

Dear Heavenly Father,

I had my appointment today.  Even after my nap I am still tired.  I cannot find anything to muse about or even to think about at the moment.  I am okay but I need You to help me to re-evaluate my life.  What do I need to do?  How do I talk to You about this?  I often ask these questions because I pray words that I don't seem to mean.  At least that is how it seems. Maybe I need to be less complaining and more positive and grateful in my prayers.  Lord, teach me how to pray.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Lacking

Dear God,

Life is decent.  However, I wonder how decent life is.  My obsession is weakening which is good.  However,  I need Your help.  You see,  I need a social life.  I need help with overcoming my obsessions and staying strong while I am still in the world.  My obsessions signify a need for a social life and that is one thing I lack.  What else do I lack? I lack a sense of self-worth and an identity.  How do I go about overcoming this lack of self-worth and identity?  I have no clue who I really am.  Where in this world do I stand out?

I need help in wondering where I am headed and how I am living my life.  I have not exercised myself physically and spiritually as of late and I would like to begin.  I have to just go ahead and do so.  I have gotten lazy over the past 2 weeks and I was doing well.  I don't wish to go back as I have lost a few pounds.  However, I hope to lose a few more to get to a certain point.  I plan to lose a few pounds and fewer calories at a time.

I have focused so much on the things of the world I believe.  I rarely if ever focused on You.  I am sorry for my lack of focus.  I need to fellowship more often and to worship and share Your love and Your life with others.  I have not been as diligent as I should as well.  Where do I begin?

How do I surrender all of this over to You?  How I have been living and what I have been doing have not been pleasing or respectful to You.  Father, forgive me.

Sincerely,


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Spend time with God

Dear God,

Forgive me for not taking the time to speak with You this morning.  I am supposed to spend some quality time praying to You and studying Your word.  For this, I am sorry.  I want to thank You for saving me and for Your grace. 

Sincerely,


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Time with God

Dear God,

I am so sorry that I sometimes get caught up in the world.  I have been caught up in gossip and things of this world mainly because of my obsessions.  My mind does tend to wonder and I am mindless at times of the consequences of my actions.  I often make too much small talk with You, Lord.  I ask that You would forgive me of all of my sins.  This weekend I have been cold towards You as far as spiritually and for that, I am truly sorry.  I was wrong.

I have been led by the Spirit of God that there was something that I should have done differently.  I don't remember what it was but it was about spending time with You.  I have all the time in the world so how do I overcome my obsessions?  How do I pray without ceasing?  Should I go on ahead and schedule my time with You?

I ask that You would lead me into these answers.  I have to realize that my obsessions are just that: obsessions.  No matter how benign they seem, they are troublesome and in the end, produce no good results.  Forgive me, Lord.

Sincerely,


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Psalm 150

Praise the Lord.

Praise God in his sanctuary;
    praise him in his mighty heavens.
² Praise him for his acts of power;
    praise him for his surpassing greatness.
³ Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet,
    praise him with the harp and lyre,
⁴ praise him with timbrel and dancing,
    praise him with the strings and pipe,
⁵ praise him with the clash of cymbals,
    praise him with resounding cymbals.

⁶ Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.

Praise the Lord.

Obsession for today

Dear God,

I have read some things about my obsession that aren't very nice.  The truth is, I will never get to know him.  I have not met him.  In fact, he was practically all I think about today.  I thought about him for all of the wrong reasons.  He is only a man, so why does my mind work the way it does?  I will never know, but You know.  You are Omniscient and Omnipresent.  You know my heart and my thoughts.  I wonder if my thoughts are sinful as far as them being obsessive thoughts.  I feel confused because one minute I enjoy having them because they are a distraction.  Then the next minute, I feel like I am doing something so wrong.  Help me to see this situation as You see it and if there anything that I need to repent of, forgive me.

Sincerely,

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Struggling

Dear Lord,

I am struggling with sin in my life and I do not know how to overcome it.  Forgive me of my sins including these that I am struggling with.  I have tried on my own to stop.  However, I was wrong to not to turn to You.  I need Your help in overcoming my sins and to go on about Your business so to speak.  Father, help me.

In Jesus' name,
Amen

Total control

Dear Lord,

Thank You for waking me up this morning.  Help me to be mindful and focused on the day ahead.  I give You complete and total control over my eating and weight loss habits.  I thank You that with You, all things are possible.  You are bigger than any problem that I face and for that I appreciate it.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Everything

Dear Lord,

I thank You for everything You have done for me.  I realize that I need to take my health more seriously by relaxing and putting the plan in motion.  How I simplify it, I need Your guidance.  I gained more than 8 pounds and I am not proud, but I feel motivated.  I would feel sad about it but strangely enough, I don't.

Mickey Rourke has become less of a focus though he is still on my mind.  It is going to take time for my obsession to go away.  I realize that.  All I need to do is to be patient.  He is a good actor, but he is certainly not You.  He is a flawed human being who needs You for His salvation just like the rest of us.  I ask and pray that he does not reject that.

I ask that You will renew my mind and that You will change me from the inside.  I am a different person now because of You and for that, I am thankful.

Sincerely,


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Sunday the 13th

Dear God,

Mickey Rourke has become much less of a focus than he has been in a while.  I committed idolatry and for that I am sorry.  I was bummed out and a little depressed this past week.  I am so sorry for all of my sins.  Forgive me, Lord.

Thank You for all that You have done for me.  My mind is clear and I am no longer depressed.  I give You complete and total control.  I want to be healthier and happier.  I want to be certain and not have my mind clouded by doubts.

Help me overcome those doubts for there are quite a few.  I have doubted my salvation for years and it has been hard.  I need to also talk to my counselor about this.  I have made some wise decisions, yet following through has been hard.

I admit that none of us humans can afford to procrastinate, but many of us do.  I am one of these people and I would like to change that.  Renew my mind and change my mindset.  I need help in that area.  Following through has mentally been easy but putting it into practice is what is hard.

I have noticed certain things about me this past week that I need to learn for the rest of my life.  I don't wish to jinx myself by my words and by my thoughts and I feel like I tend to do that.  I want to be real and to be honest without jinxing myself.  Help me and instill confidence in me, Lord.  I need those things and I believe that help is on the way and in great supply.  Help me to be wise and knowledgeable enough to do what You call me to do.

I believe that once I call on You, You will answer my prayers in a way that I will not understand.  I am glad that You have answered.  I do expect a miracle in my life.  I am afraid that I will do badly and that I will fail.  I want to keep moving forward and not give up.  I have felt like giving up this past week.  But because of You, I have not.  I am on my way back.

I have an appointment tomorrow to see a nutritionist and maybe with the questions that I have I wonder how many calories I should eat per day.  Maybe I should give her or whoever the motivations sheet.  I am tired of the confusion and all of the craziness called my life.  You are the Calm in the midst of the storm.  Thank You.

Sincerely,

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Thank You

Dear God,

Thank You.

Sincerely,

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Temperance

Dear God,

I need You, Lord.  I need You.  By the way, what does temperance mean?  Is it about being meek?  How do I become temperate, if that is even a word?  I had this word in my head and I believe that it is You speaking to me.  Thank You for Your word.  I will follow You.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

A prayer for help

Dear God,

Help me.

Sincerely,

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Help me, for I am lacking in self-control

Lord,

What has happened to me?  I know that there is something wrong with me.  I hate it and I am not proud of what I have done.  I have these obsessions that could end up driving me crazy and I am binge eating.  I need help with self-control, which is what I am lacking in.

Forgive me, Lord, for the sins of lust, gluttony, idolatry, and lacking of self-control.  I know that self-control is a fruit of the Spirit and I am struggling to exhibiting the fruits of the Spirit.  I feel unproductive in that manner.

My conduct I admit is not godly and I want it to stop.  I am struggling and I am alone.  I admit that I isolate myself a lot.  I am afraid of the reaction of others and what they think of me.  How do I stop binging?  How do I get over my obsessions?  How do I stop committing lustful acts and have lustful thoughts that are unseemly and ungodly?

Help me, Lord.

Sincerely,

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My issue with binging

Dear God,

I am feeling a little bit down.  I am embarrassed by my actions today.  I not only have an eating problem.  I binged.  It isn't cool, cute, or funny.  It is just embarrassing to say the least.
I am afraid to log in because I still care what people think.  I still crave unhealthy foods and even healthier foods.  I don't know if I could stop on my very own.  Help me.

Sincerely,


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More on Mickey Rourke

Dear God,

Yesterday I wrote about Mickey Rourke and his ex-wife Carre Otis.  My "feelings" toward her are not true feelings but what the obsession says I should feel.  It is wrong and for that, I apologize to You and to myself.

I also wrote about Mickey and I wonder if it is time for me to tell someone else, like my mother.  I just want to know how to go about doing so.  I have an obsession with Mickey Rourke that just won't go away, even in my dreams.

I have tried to let it go, but to no avail.  Help me in this matter, Lord.  I feel like a failure for not working hard enough or for not resisting temptation enough.  I am confused in my feelings about him.  One minute I hate having this obsession.  And the next minute, I just love it because it takes time away from any other obsessive thought that I may have.

I am just a wreck.  Does my obsession with Mickey Rourke take time away from You?  Is it idolatry if I am obsessed?  I no longer have a crush on Mickey Rourke, but it is an obsession.  I feel like I am going crazy and my obsession is taking me places where I don't want to go.

I feel like I want to be friends with him.  I am even obsessed with one of his other friends and co-stars, especially from the Expendables.  It has become one of my favorite movies.  I just love that movie, but I believe that maybe I shouldn't watch it too much.  Mickey is just a gorgeous and sexy man to me, depending on what he is wearing or not wearing.  Oops.

How do I overcome this lust with Mickey Rourke?  I have a habit of being obsessed and stalking men I find attractive.  I wish I had a real relationship with someone I can call my own.  However, how do I strike up a conversation with someone when I have no place to go?  I feel lonely sometimes and I admit that I do need someone to talk to.

Forgive me for my sins.  I have been struggling with lust for quite some time now and I need help.  I have been in a struggle to stop, but I always give in.  I need Your strength to overcome temptation.  What should I do and how should I go about it?  I need Your help, obvious help for my obsession.  I have been obsessed with others for years and I am concerned that I will have another one I have a hard time controlling.  I wish that it was easy, but it is not.  Help me to be wise and stand strong in this.  Maybe I am approaching it all wrong.  However, I need guidance in my life.  I pray for guidance. 

Guide me with Your eye, Lord.  Help me to see Mickey as You see him.  Mickey is not You at all and I hope that I don't see him as such.  However, I do have lustful thoughts about him and I would like to know what it would be like to sleep with someone.  I am a virgin after all.  How do I begin a new chapter in my life?  I want to be healthier, happier, and whole.  Lord, guide me in that direction.  Thy will be done.

Sincerely,

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MR and CO

Dear God,

Thank You.  I have been having obsessive thoughts with Mickey Rourke and his ex-wife Carre Otis.  You see, Carre wrote a book about her life which chronicles even her marriage to Mickey Rourke.  I  have read about those two and even I find the time suspect.  I don't wish to end up not liking her because of a book she wrote.  I don't know her nor have I met her.  I'm sure she is a nice person since I haven't read the book and I don't know her.  The truth is, the OCD wants me to not like her because of what I read from other people and because I am a "fan" of Mickey Rourke.

Mickey Rourke was gorgeous back in the day.  It is sad that he had so much surgery that he looks so different.  It is as if he is two different people.  I even have lustful thoughts about him.  I wonder what it would be like to be a friend or girlfriend of his.  Notice I never said wife.  If he was as bad as Carre said he was, then I am glad to have never have the thoughts about him.  I wish the thoughts and obsession about him would go away.  I am putting these thoughts in proper perspective.

I am obsessed with this man to the point where I am doing searches of him and his pics.  I even liked some of his pics and pages on Facebook. I really don't like that I am doing this.  I always give in to temptation, the temptation to do the things that I know not to do and to do the things that don't make any sense.  It seems as if I am obsessed and no longer have an adult crush on him.  It seemed harmless at first but I realize that it isn't.

Maybe I was being shallow.  Mickey isn't conventionally good-looking but he seems to have qualities that appeals to me, not to mention that he is fit.  He is a good actor and I like his voice.  Now if only I can see him for who he is and what he is like.  I will pray for Mickey and Carre.  I am not sure but I think that Mickey is Catholic and Carre is Buddhist.  Anyways, I don't know what kind of people they really are.  I watched at least four of his movies in the past few months and I would obsess if I miss a movie with him in it. 

He was so cute in Diner.  He was sexy in "Iron Man 2".  He was cool in the Expendables as I loved his voice.  I am exposing myself to You this way because You already know and because I want to see what these thoughts are all about.  I need to relax my mind for I know that with a mind that is not calm, the thoughts are given more power to lack some better words.  Father, help me see life past these thoughts.  I pray that Carre and Mickey both find you, Lord, and that they receive You as Savior and Lord.  Carre came a long way and so did Mickey and they should thank You for their blessings, not whoever Catholics and Buddhists give credit to.

Help me to see things  and people as they really are.  I don't wish to explain, justify, or whatever what I should not do to rationalize my thoughts.  Heal me of those thoughts and may my obsessions no longer bother me.  I don't wish to just manage my thoughts anymore, for they can be annoying like a swarm of flies.  They used to sting like a swarm of bees, but I am learning to understand and see how silly they are.  Help me to see them as they really are, images, and flawed human beings, warts and all.  Carre was a drug addict and Mickey is a plastic surgery addict who smokes like a chimney. 

There is a part of me that is attracted to him and a part of me that feels sorry for him.  Help me to see them as You see them.  Thank You for all that You have done for me and I ask You for forgiveness, Lord as I have committed idolatry and lust and selfishness.  Thank You for taking care of me.  Help me to focus on You and the things of God, especially during times of weakness.  Show Yourself strong during those times, especially during those times, Lord.

In Jesus' Name,

Amen

Social life and weighty issues...again

Dear God,

I need a social life.  I admit that I need to go out more.  I have no transportation of my very own.  I would like to chat with other people.  It will be difficult to do.  I am shy and sheltered as You know.  I would like to carry on a conversation with other people. I have obsessive thoughts that could be triggered by carrying on a conversation with others.  I wouldn't know what to talk about. 

I need to lose some weight.  I don't know how much I want to lose, or rather weigh exactly.  I give You total and complete control over my exercise and eating habits.  I am exercising yet I sometimes worry if I am physically able to even walk because of my swollen ankle.  I am asking that You would heal my back and my ankle.

My stomach is in the way of  being more flexible, so I do not know if I should only target ab exercises or if I should target my body.  I would like to actually meet someone who is an actual personal trainer, but how can I afford a trainer?  I would like to lose weight and keep it off.  It is frustrating being on a weight loss plateau.  How do I change up my routine?

I need wisdom and guidance.  I need help.  I ask You for these things.  I thank You for giving me wisdom, guidance, and help.  My health depends on it.  My very life and limbs depend on it.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Help me, Lord

Dear God,

Thank You for waking me up this morning.  I feel like giving up on my diet.  My eating habits are poor and I have yet to eat in moderation.  It does me no good if I try to eat in moderation without being mindful.

Help me to be mindful of what I eat.  I need help.  If I can conquer fears and cast them over to You, then I can get help with that.  I am sorry that I forgot to write a letter to You yesterday.

I am overweight with low self esteem.  Help me to work on that, too, Lord.

Sincerely,

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Racism

Dear God,

Really?  Why can't we all just get along?  Racism is a sin, plain and simple.  How come people not always see race in everything?  Sure racism, prejudice, and bigotry exist.  But I wonder how much racism really is in the world.  It is not a place of love yet it is a place where love does exist.  It is sad that while there is segregation and violence in our churches, others are being blown up and believers are getting killed.

Why can't the Word of God be preached?  Who am I to judge?  I think that I can judge this situation.  I ask all of these questions because of the incident with the bikers and the Asian guy some of them beat up.  Black people have been marginalized long enough and white people are being hurt because of the actions of their ancestors and those who are truly hateful and racist.

I will pray for those in the churches around the world and those who are truly hateful and racist.  I have known people who are prejudiced and racist and many of them are not loving people.  They are often hypocritical and narrow-minded.  It is a shame that there are people who have those issues.; and I thought I had those issues.

I confess I am sheltered.  I admire people who do well for You and serve You.  It seems that they have their spiritual stuff together.  They are flawed humans, too, but they seem to be more
spiritual too.  Race and color are things they don't see the distinctions and differences the way others see people.  There is sadly so much racism and prejudice in our churches that the rest of the world puts us to shame. 

Maybe I should go into the mission field, at least in this country.  What is Your plan for my life?  What skills do I have?  How do I use those skills?  How do You want for me to serve You?  Help me and give me wisdom, Lord.  I thank You for doing so.

In Jesus' name,

Amen