Distractions

Dear God,

I am anxious at the moment, I guess.  I feel better than I did when I was anxious a long time ago.  I was watching television which vexes me.  In fact, movies begin to vex me too.  My entertainment choices have been changed over the years.  I used to watch wrestling all of the time, now I no longer watch it.  I have just lost interest.  I have grown out of it.  It has been a few weeks since I started watching it. 

I spent a lot of time entertaining myself when I could have done other things.  I wish I had taken the time to spend more time with You.  I wish I could just grow spiritually.  I feel like I haven't grown spiritually or figuratively.  It is as if I feel like I have to start life all over again.  I have difficulty concentrating sometimes and that hasn't helped much  so I wonder how patient You are with me whenever I am distracted when I pray to You.

I allow music and television to distract me.  In fact, anything can be a distraction or better yet, a trigger to an obsessive thought.  I am vulnerable to attacks, whether from the enemy or from an obsessive thought and there are times when I don't feel like fighting.  I ask You for the strength to keep on fighting, to be patient, and to grow spiritually. 

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Morning

Dear God,

Thank You for waking me up this morning.  I know it is early in the morning, but it doesn't matter.  I thank You anyway.  Show me how to apply your word to my daily life.  I want to learn more things and explore more places.  There are things I need to do in this world but I don't know where to begin.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  I believe that You are Lord and Savior.  You have been so good to me.  You are the Way, the Truth, and the Life.  Bless You, O Lord.

Sincerely,
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Strength to stay awake

Dear God,

Thank You for the strength that You have given me.  You have carried me far today.  I am thankful for that.  You have been of great help to me today as I was a ball of energy today.  Well, that is, compared to other days where I sleep for hours during the day and for hours on end at night.  How do I learn how to sleep for the required amount of time per night?  What do I need to do?  I know that there is a relationship between sleep and my weight.  I do wonder if that is also a reason why I am losing weight slowly.  I realize that I have a long way to go.  Maybe I should track down my strengths and weaknesses and how to solve my weaknesses, or rather problem areas.  Thank You, God, for giving me that light bulb moment.

Sincerely,

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Sufficient evil

Dear God,

Give me the strength that I need to make it through the day, especially tomorrow.  I know that each day has its own sufficient evil however.  I just hope to make it out safe and that I will be patient enough to wait.  I hope that all will be well tomorrow for me and that nothing bad will happen.  I know that each day has its own evil as I mentioned but I realize that even today has had its own evil.  I am thankful that I didn't have to deal with any major obsessive or manic episodes.  I guess it was because I was very busy.  The food was good and I feel taller today.  I am on my fourth day of knowing exactly how to eat and what to eat.  I only hope that my doctor gets to see whatever hard work I have done.  My grocery list however is too long and I wish to spend only a certain amount of money per month but I always end up spending more.  I need help with spending less and sticking to that budget.  Food has gotten more expensive and eating processed foods is not good for me.  I need guidance in this matter and wisdom on how to handle what life will throw at me tomorrow.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Choices

Dear God,

Help me.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  I know that I have done wrong.  I am struggling right now.  I know that life is about choices but as human beings, we constantly make the wrong choices and I am no immune.  With your grace, we can be forgiven of our sins.  Thank You for dying on the cross for Me and that the Father rose You from the dead.  Thank You for Your mercy and thank You for the assurance that I am one of yours.  I feel like giving up at times but because of You I am still here.  I am a sinner and I am in need of You right now and at all times.  I don't trust myself, but I put my trust in You and acknowledge You in all things.  I ask that You would forgive me and direct my paths.  Thank You for answering this prayer.

In Jesus' Name,

Amen

Difficulty

Lord,

We should all be thankful.  I wish that I could have spent more time with You.  It is so hard sometimes to know what to say.  I know that You are Lord and Savior, but I wish I knew how to pray to You.  I have trouble applying some words including Your words to my life.  I ask You for the wisdom to apply Your word to my daily life.  Help me to live according to the Your word.  Help me to walk in the way that You shall choose for me.  I need to spend more time with You.  Help me to count it all joy when various trials come.  I also have trouble understanding that, as well.

In Jesus' name

Amen.

Spending enough time with God

Dear Heavenly Father,

I am sorry that I have not spent time with You lately.  I wish I could turn back and spend time with You.  I have allowed myself to be distracted by the things of this world.  I am sorry.  Forgive me for my sins. 

I have taken my time for granted.  Life is too short for that.  Life is also too short for taking pot shots at people and for being unkind and rather rude to others.  But I should not care about others, or should I?

I realize that there are people who are mean and nasty.  They need prayer and I will pray for them to resolve their differences and move on.  That is what I need to do.  I have an issue and it involves something petty.  I have not moved on and now I am afraid. 

I have allowed fear to take over.  The fear is not paralyzing but it could be.  I am scared so much of the time now.  I can't even walk in my own home unless there are eggshells there.  I cannot take this fear anymore.

Help me to renew my unsound mind.  How do I develop a mind that is sound?  I wonder if it is more difficult being that I am bipolar.  It is a lot of work having this disorder with the mood swings, the sometimes sleepless nights, and the obsessive thoughts.  I am very vulnerable to attacks and to fears that I have.  Anything can be a trigger to an obsessive thoughts.  As a result, my world is getting smaller.  Help me to make the first move to overcome this vulnerability.  I am surprised at the way that I have managed to avoid so much yet thrived at the same time. 

As You already well know, I hate avoidance.  I am not using the right motivation to just decide on my entertainment choices.  I realize that I spend too much time entertaining myself and not enough time with You.  I am also sorry for that.  Help me to spend my days living for You and serving You and not myself.  Help me to cast out all vain imaginations and to pull down strongholds.  How do I go about doing that?  Where do I begin?  How do I start doing those things?

In Jesus' Name,
Amen

Fame and celebrity

Dear God,

How much stock do we really put into celebrity and being famous?  This is just an interesting question that I know has its answer.  I believe that we as Americans put way too much stock in celebrity and being famous.  The problem is, too many people are famous for all of the wrong reasons.  Some people are worth more dead than they were alive.  Others seem to feel that they have to be famous in reality in order to feel better about themselves.  I admit that I could be wrong about that and that I could be generalizing here.  I have a crush or rather an obsession on a famous person, so I guess I am no better than anyone else.  Everyone supposedly either wants their fifteen minutes of fame, or already has had their 15 minutes of fame. 

We live in a culture of celebrity.  Their lives and deaths are on the mouths of everyone.  They are often featured on the front page.  The reason why fame exists is to provide an escape from reality.  The celebs are rich but they don't live glamorous lives.  Many of them are damaged, ungodly people who need prayer.  Many don't take the time to realize that they are too sinners who are in need of a Savior. I don't mean to say that fame in itself is bad, especially if one worked hard to become the best at what they do, whether they sing or dance or act.  But that is a balanced view of celebrity I guess.  I can live without worshiping or spending my time hating on a celebrity as well.

 That is when things become unbalanced.  I wonder if I committed such idolatry.  Have I wasted my life with idolatrous behavior?  Have I spent too much time with fame or wondering what it will be like to be famous?  How much do I need to know about the reality of celebrity?  Have I spent too much time obsessing about tv, movies, books, and the internet?  I believe that I do need to spend more time with you and less time obsessing about the famous person.  I have difficulty with having obsessive thoughts about the person in question and about anything dealing with fame.  I don't want to be famous per se, but I wonder what it will like to be famous in fantasy.  I have become unbalanced in my view of celebrity and fame. 

Help me to have a balanced view of fame.  I bind and cast down all vain imaginations about fame and about mass media.  I repent of all of my sins, including lustful, adulterous thoughts, obsessions, and  sinful fantasies, and idolatry.  Forgive me, Lord for not spending enough time with You.  Help me to see that I can be an over comer and help me to be obsessed or have a crush with You and your word.  May I search and read and study the Scriptures daily.  I will pray daily.  I won't lie.  I won't steal.  I won't make any vows or false promises.  Nor will I live an unbalanced, ungodly life.  I will have to answer for those things.  Thank You for saving me and for answering my prayer.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Pain and suffering

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank you for healing.  You are the Great Physician and the Great Healer.  I cannot deal with pain, but pain and suffering are a part of life.  I might as well deal with it.  It has made me stronger and wiser.  Those are the benefits to pain.  I don't like pain and suffering.  Who does?  I don't like seeing others who are suffering.  Who does?  I have a conscience and I am filled with love for my fellow man, and woman.  One day, I will realize that we don't have to live with pain and suffering.  There will be no more racism, or disease, or anguish.  We don't have to deal with that anymore.  You have provided that Way and His name is Jesus.  For that I am ever thankful.

Sincerely,

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How to see myself and the world at large

Lord,

I have grown tired.  I am burdened with the cares of this life...my life.  I am tired.  I have grown tired.  I come to You and I acknowledge You in all of my ways.  I turn everything over to You.  I come to You for I am labored and heavy-laden.  I ask that You would give me rest.  I take Your yoke upon You and learn of You.  I ask that You would continually guide me in all my of my affairs and that You would lighten my burdens.

I have many burdens.  I am here to unleash.  I am tired of thoughts of the past.  I have not really dealt with the thoughts of the past.  I have gotten my feelings hurt.  I don't think people care what they say to me.  I don't think my words are just as effective as others.  I know now that this has been the case for some people and some situations.

I am tired of these and other obsessive thoughts about this.  I got into arguments and fights with others and needless to say, I am not a strong person.  I wish to be more assertive instead of being so passive-aggressive and so fearful of confrontation.  I am just not a confrontational person and I am afraid that something bad will happen to me.

All of this has lowered my self-esteem.  I almost cried this morning because I reacted like a thin-skinned person.  I don't know what to do about it except to turn them and to surrender my life over to your control.  I pray for the strength to stand up for myself and not allow myself to feel like I have to care what the world thinks.  It has held me back over the years and it is holding me back.

I am tired for this is a burden to me.  I am no longer waiting for an apology.  The big issue is the guilt that I feel for not standing up for myself.  I was a wimpy person and I hated myself for it.  I have hated myself in other ways for years.  I admit that I do have low self-esteem and I have been taken advantage of and bullied.  I never got over my past and now I am thin-skinned and fearful.

I just can't take it anymore.  I feel that my past, my mindset, my self-esteem, and my fears have held me back and have made me fearful of confrontation and my past failures.  I have felt like a failure for years.  Now I realize that I cannot change the past at all, but I wish I could.  I want to feel better about myself.  I am fearfully and wonderfully made according to Your word, but I have a hard time believing that sometimes.  Help me to see myself and my situation as You see me and my situation or rather, my situations. 

I have wondered how beautiful I truly am physically.  I have been called names and rejected and judged.  I have been used and hurt.  I just cannot take these bullying and abusive thoughts anymore.  I am here to say that I am also tired of the negative self-talk.  I am just tired.  I really, really want to change.  I don't know how, but You do.  Where do I begin?  How do I see myself as a beautiful person? How do I learn to love and respect myself?  Where do I begin, O Lord?  Where do I begin?

In Jesus' name,

Amen.

Burdened

Heavenly Father,

I turn things over to You.  I am thankful that we are in a relationship.  I love You and I am in a relationship with You because of what You have done for me.  I am here to write to You because I would like to spend even more time with You.  I cannot take my life anymore.  I want to leave this world and just give up.  I feel like giving up right now.  I give you total and complete control over my life and my affairs.

I have allowed the littlest things to get to me.  I cannot take it anymore.  Everything that I ever done under my power has failed.  I have no peace of mind and I ask for peace of mind.  I am burdened and I come to You.  I feel so overwhelmed and so frazzled right now.

I just cannot take it anymore.  I hate things the way they are.  My health is not great.  I am dealing with obsessive thoughts all the time.  I just have a lot of things that I wish to do, want to do, and need to do.  There is so much on my plate psychologically.  How do I begin to take things one at a time?  Where do I begin?  Lord, where do I begin?

Give me rest.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Asking for forgiveness

Father,

Forgive me for I have sinned against You and You alone.  I have been a procrastinator and I haven't always been honest with myself and with others.  I may not consider myself a pathological liar, but I have issues and baggage that I need to address.  The real issue is that I care too much what others think and I am always afraid.  I need to learn how to stand on my own two feet and be honest.  I turn the situation over to do.  Show me what I need to do.  How do I deal with the baggage in my life?

In Jesus' Name,

Amen

Cursing

Dear God,

Today was a good day.  I am sorry for not always being careful with the words that I use.  I don't like the idea of cursing.  It is classless and can be hurtful.  I find it crass especially that someone would use the f-word.  That is just a nasty word and that I wish it never existed in the English language.  I just hate cursing.  It is just plain disrespectful.  The mouth often if not always says a lot or rather, everything, about a person's overall character.

I am not saying that just because someone curses that they are automatically bad people, but I think cursing is not a good thing.  Some people curse in anger and frustration.  Other people do it because of what their lyrics say and others do it to express themselves, even at the expense of others.  It is so sad that some people feel that they have to curse.  The worst kind of cursing is when one takes your name in vain.  That is just disrespectful and just plain wrong.  Hopefully, I have never blasphemed you or even had a negative thought about You.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  Set a watch over my mouth, O Lord.  Set a watch over my mouth and may the doors of my lips be clean. 

I love wholesome things and wholesome people.  Wholesome people in my view are loving, classy, kind, and don't feel that one has to curse in order to express themselves.  Cursing is just a horrible thing to do.  I don't know exactly why some people feel the need to curse.  It isn't cute when a child does it and it isn't funny when an adult does it either.  Father, I ask that you would guard my heart, mouth, ears, and eyes.  May I shut my eyes and ears to what is vile.  May I speak when necessarily with salt and light. May my heart be pure in all things.

Sincerely,
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Looking at myself from the inside and outside

Dear God,

Thank You for the peace of mind that You have given me today.  I needed to relax, but I also needed to be truthful to myself as well.  I really don't want to get over my crush/obsession.  I do, however, wonder if having a crush or an obsession is a sin.  Does it constitute idolatry or is it much ado about nothing? 

I wonder about these things because I have a crush on a movie actor.  He is an older man and I think that he is a sexy guy though not conventionally handsome.  He isn't a horrible looking guy per se, but he is way too old for me.  I like his voice and his talent most of all.  His looks are secondary, though when he was young he was very good looking.

I don't think that I am a shallow person, but when I see someone like myself, I become self-conscious.  I am self-conscious about my appearance and I project that unto others.  As You can see, I don't fit a certain standard of beauty.  I am short and overweight with a decent face.  I am thankful that You believe that I am beautiful and that is the most important thing.  I want to look like a curvy, yet healthy woman.

I have a larger frame which means that I will never be thin.  But it is time I be realistic.  In order for me to change, I would have to take a long, hard, and sometimes painful look at myself.  I was hoping if You could make that dose of reality a less painful however, though I have a feeling that change would require at least a little pain.

I feel that I have changed a lot, and I am glad.  I realize that I am a work in progress.  It is so much better than saying that I have a long way to go.  I find myself thinking and writing about a lot of things and while they have help, I have learned that action is what counts.  Help me to see that.  I want to see others just as beautiful as You see me.  I am thankful that it does not matter what a person looks like to You.  I am also thankful that looks are subjective and that beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Sincerely,
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Encouragement

Dear God,

I can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengthens me.  Thank You for encouraging me.  I really needed that encouragement and I still do.

I am in a great mood and I was wondering if I need to change my calorie intake.  I have struggled to eat a small amount of calories whenever I tried to lose weight.  I am going to be okay with your help and encouragement.  I feel that the best advice is the easiest advice.

I wish I knew why it took me so long to figure it all out.  I do believe that more water and smaller portions are the key.  Plus exercise and moving around helps.  I am a diabetic with PCOS and it has not always been easy.

Help me to do what is hard, which is to eat smaller portions and exercise.  I have learned that doing what is hard is the answer to many of life's issues.  I had to do a lot of hard things such as facing my obsessive thoughts and losing weight. 

I guess I will always have things that frustrate me, but I can gladly say that I am no longer overwhelmed.  There are times when I wished I had learned this earlier, but it is too late.  I am glad to be here so that I can learn from those things that I have failed to do.  Now I know what I should be doing.  It hasn't been easy, but it has been worth it.

Sincerely,
Letters to God

More, More, More

Dear God,

One of my favorite songs is "More, More, More" by Joann Rosario. I have a question. What does it mean to want more of You? Does it mean necesarily to ask for the Holy Spirit for His guidance? I honestly do not know what it means. I feel silly for asking You this. I do want more of You. I want to know You even more.

Thank You for saving me. You are my Lord and Savior. I repent of my sins for I have felt that I am not ready for Your return, but I wonder if that is about doubt or reality. I am a sinner and I need You always. I am dependent and have become more dependent on You.

It seems like I am rambling on, but I want to know You more. I ask You for wisdom, guidance, and direction. That is something that I had doubts about. It feels like sometimes that I have not gotten wiser and I am still stuck in the same place. I feel so alone and overwhelmed.

I have finally learned that the key to no longer being overwhelmed is my no longer taking control because I end up losing control. I give You total and complete control over every detail of my life and my affairs. The thoughts I have overwhelmed me. I have been in need to lose weight, but need must be coupled with want in this case. My desire is to lose weight. The truth is, not only do I need to lose weight, I want to lose weight.

I am the kind of person who seemingly expects things to be hard. It is great when things are so easy, but challenging myself can be a big frustration. Losing weight is a big challenge but I know the results are well worth it. I realize that I had to change my mindset in order for things to be manageable. I needed to change. I have also come to realize that in order to change, I had to make changes. Be proactive. I had to relax and take my time.

I had to be realistic about things. I was overwhelmed. I was in dire need of relaxation. I am glad that I am feeling better about things. I realize that tomorrow has its own sufficient evil thereof. All I had to do was take my time and live life day by day. I had to learn from my mistakes, which are many. I do wish I had learned them earlier, but I cannot go back. I am glad that all is well so far. 

Sincerely,
Letters to God

Letter of praise and thanks

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank You for saving me and giving me the assurance of salvation.  I love You and I worship.  I respect You and Honor You.  You are worthy of praise.  Thank You for all that You have done for me.  I wish I could return the favor.  I realize that I never can truly return that favor because of what Jesus has done for all of us, and for me.  For that alone, I am ever thankful.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Obsessive thoughts are frustrating

Dear Heavenly Father,

I feel weak.  I wish I have never read the lyrics to that song, listened to that song, watched that movie,or read that book.  Nothing seems real or joyous anymore.  This is why I hate avoidance.  I want to live for You and serve You, Lord. 

Having these obsessive thoughts is very hard at times.  I am drawn to the things I know that I should not be drawn to, but there are times when I give in.  I can't take these thoughts anymore.  I hate having obsessive thoughts.

I am just frustrated and I don't know how to get rid of them.  I want to get rid of them myself, but that would leave You out, and that is not fair.  I need You, Lord. 

Take them away.  Do what You will.  Why do I have these thoughts?  What is the meaning of these thoughts?  What significance do they have?  What happens in the grand scheme of things?

What will happen in the grand scheme of things?  Will the thoughts dissipate?  Will they disappear?  Why do I have these thoughts?  I hate having them.  I need something to occupy my mind with.  Nothing seems to matter anymore, and that is making me sad.

Help me, Lord.  Help me.

Sincerely,
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Guidance

Dear God,

I am glad to be writing You today.  Thank You for waking me up this morning.  Give me the guidance that I need to lose weight.  I need guidance in every area of my life.  I need the wisdom to carry that guidance through so that I can gain knowledge.  Help me use that knowledge so that I will in turn gain even further wisdom.  There is such a link between wisdom and knowledge that I didn't realize it.  I realize that though they are linked, they are not the same.  One can have knowledge and not be wise.  I would rather be wise.  Wisdom will carry a person very very far. 

I have been having health issues as You well know.  Help me to deal with these health issues.  Help me, Lord.  Help me.  I surrender it all to Your control.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Health issues

Dear Lord,

I am still struggling with weight issues.  I am trying so hard to lose weight, but I am struggling.  I have people praying to You for me in intercession about my issues.  Bless them, O Lord.  Bless them.  I know it seems that I am a selfish person, but I am a person who is concerned about my health, fitness, and overall well-being.  All of us should be concerned about that. 

Help me to be mindful about those who are less fortunate and pray and intercede on their behalf.  There are those who are paralyzed, without families, and without incomes at this time.  Heal them, save them, and provide for them.  You are the Great Physician, the Great Provider, and most of all, Lord and Savior.  Thank You, Lord Jesus.

I am obsessed with losing weight and I wish to overcome my obsession with calorie counting and trying to find out how many calories I should eat per day.  I am trying so hard yet I am still struggling as I have mentioned earlier.  I have information at my disposal and I have health providers who are helping me, but I don't know what to do with advice.  I need wisdom and guidance in this matter.

I don't know what I need to do.  I want to lose almost 70 more pounds and I am grateful that I have lost the weight that I have lost.  Maybe the problem is that I am too concerned with losing too slowly.  It has been almost 8 months since I started losing weight and I lose weight on average about a pound a month.  To me, that is not good enough, but I have to see the good in that since I am going in the right direction.  That is good. 

I ask that You would open my eyes so that I can get a different and thus, better and more positive perspective on losing weight.  Maybe I should eat less or eat more.  I just am confused, scared to gain weight, and I am feeling overwhelmed with all of this.  I am just overwhelmed.

Help me, O Lord.  Help me.

Sincerely,
Letters to God

Weighty confessions

Dear God,

I am afraid of gaining weight.  Everytime I stay at a certain weight, I end up gaining even more weight than I ever had before.  It happened in college, and it happened in college again, and it has happened just a few years ago.  I am still trying to lose weight and lately it has been a struggle.  I have made some bad choices lately and I don't know how to stop. 

I am eating like crazy later in the day instead of eating early or eating snacks.  That has been my weakness.  I don't feel like giving up but I do feel like a failure...three days in a row.  I have eaten on average 2500-3000 calories per day.  I have all of the healthy food and all of the information at my disposal but I don't know how to utilize that information or eat healthy.

I need wisdom and guidance in this matter.  I have PCOS, am a diabetic, and I am clinically obese.  I have self esteem and self-control issues as well.  I feel horrible about that.  I wish I could change that.  All I can do is to surrender my health issues, my diet, and all of my cares and concerns over to You. 

I leave everything in Your hands and everything over to Your care.  There isn't anything more that I can do about it.  I have tried everything else.  I am obsessed with trying to find the right amount of calories for me, the right exercise, and the right amount of carbs.  Maybe I should start over.  What is Your will for me?  What do You think?  What does Your word say about my particular situation?

Sincerely,
Letters to God

Weighty issues

Dear God,

I am at a weight plateau but I am afraid of thinking outside the box and going more intense.  The reason why is because I am not sure I am physically able to do more intense exercise.  I want to but I have little mobility not because of my weight but because I need to motivate myself.  I am a procrastinator as You well know, so I need to change that.

Show me how to change that procrastination part of me.  I want to lose weight and it is my desire to lose weight.  I feel like I am stuck at my weight, though I don't want to be.  It is very frustrating.  I know You want me to take good care of myself and to be healthy, but I do not know where to begin.  I have no idea what I am doing.

I need Your help and Your guidance.  I need a sense of direction in this matter.  I give You total control over my eating habits, my calorie intake, and my exercise regimen, or lack thereof.  I need help, Lord.  I have a lot of weight to lose.

I have PCOS as You know and it can be difficult to manage.  I wish I was cured of this, especially the diabetes.  I take a lot of meds for a young person and I would like to have my medication scaled back or at least get off of the medication.  I have weighty matters.  I have issues such as a lack of self control and anxiety.  I don't how to deal with those issues and I need Your help.

I need wisdom, guidance, and a sense of direction.  What should I do?  Where should I begin?  I need immediate advice.

Sincerely,
Letters to God

Thank you, Lord.

Dear God,

Thank You for a blessed day.  You are Wonderful.  I give You thanks and praise today for it has been a good day.

Sincerely,
Letters to God

Repentance and thanks

Dear Heavenly Father,
I am sorry for the wrongs that I have done in my life.  I am a sinner who has been saved by grace.  I thank You for saving me by the way.  You didn't have to do what You did to sacrifice Your life.  I am thankful that You died on the cross for me.  I repent of all of my sins and I look unto You.  Repentance I know is a daily thing because I am not perfect.  I hope to be perfected and continue to live holy, serving You, blessing You, and praising You.  Show me and teach me Your ways.  Give me wisdom and guidance.  I need a greater understanding and a greater sense of direction in my life.  You are the Only One who has all of the answers.

Sincerely,
Letters to God

My thoughts

Dear God,

I am writing You today because I need to know about my thoughts.  It sounds silly but I am worried about myself.  I would like to know what are Your thoughts on infidelity?  Where in Your Word can I find out about adultery?  Anything can be a trigger to an obsessive thought specifically about the male and female dynamic.  I cannot take it anymore.  I am just frustrated with false evidence that appears real.  The thoughts seem so real to me yet I know that they are not based on reality. The characters are fictional mostly yet it seems like I am drawn to them yet I have little interest in knowing them. 

It seems wrong but I don't care what others do yet as a Christian I should be concerned about the welfare of the people of this world.  The world will pass away as Your word says, but Your words never will.  I must take comfort and endure.  Infidelity is wrong and is a sin I know because of the lack of loyalty and respect and the damage it causes.  What can I do to distract myself?  How can I overcome these thoughts?  What must I do to keep from using avoidance as a coping mechanism?  What do I need to do, Lord?  What do I need to do?

Sincerely,
Letters to God