Thursday, December 31, 2015

Losing weight and getting healthy this time

Heavenly Father,

Thank You for answering my prayers this morning.  I was so worried and anxious.  I hopefully did not ask amiss.  I have sometimes self-centered prayer.  However, I have another self-centered prayer, but in a good way.  It concerns my health.  I am considered stage 2 super morbid obese, which means that my BMI is super large for my height because of my weight.  I have no idea what I need to do. I ask that You would give me wisdom, healing, and clarity on how to lose weight.  I also ask for a change in my mindset as I let go of my frustrations.  I have my issues, yes, but I believe that they can be overcome.  How, I have no clue.  I have a petition and that is for not only wisdom and clarity, but also guidance in my journal.  The benefits are what I need to drum into my head.  Not only that, but I ask that You would take my anxieties and cares about this particular subject.

May the Lord Jesus give me rest for I have been burdened with this issue.  I have made no plans for a New Years' resolution, but if I were to make one, it would be to be held accountable so that I would be healthier, happier, and live with less guilt.  I also ask for direction in this area.  I weigh over 300 lbs, but I have no idea what I need to do in order to lose weight.  All I know is that I don't wish to gain anymore weight.  My making plans have caused a great burden upon me and I ask that You would take my burdens away, for I have been labored and heavy laden, and I still am.  Without asking amiss, I ask for help in this journey.

I have gotten too complacent and I have gotten to comfortable with my weight despite everything else.  I don't want to get too comfortable, but I am afraid to fail.  Lord, help me to overcome this fear, for I doubt that I will lose this weight.  I fear failure and never losing weight.  I am living my worst fears and I ask that You would help me overcome those fears and those doubts.  I cast them over to You.  I finally ask that You would give me the confidence to keep on going no matter what.  I ask all of this with Thanksgiving and for peace of mind in Jesus' name,
Amen.

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Relationship

Lord,

I ask that You would draw me closer to You.  Thank You for Your many blessings and for answered prayers.  My request also is that You would teach me not to pray amiss.  Thank You for guiding me in this manner.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Sunday, December 27, 2015

Thank You, O Lord

Lord,

Thank You for answering my prayers.  You have forgiven me.   You have saved me and guided me along the way.  I have become older and also wiser.  Thank You for allowing me to not take stuff for granted.  You put me here for a reason.  Thank You for giving me that reason.  Thank You for whatever purpose You have given me.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Saturday, December 26, 2015

A prayer about sin

Father,

Forgive me.  I am not sure I am happy with myself right now.  I just wish that I could be, but spiritually and emotionally I am feeling down.  I repent of what I have done.  I have made some bad decisions lately.  I need help in overcoming these issues.  Help me, and forgive me, Lord.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Friday, December 25, 2015

My Christmas Letter/Prayer

Father,

I don't know what to do.  All I ask is that You would forgive me for my lies.  I don't feel good about this.  I ask that You would help me overcome this issue.

Also, I wonder if Jesus appreciated all of the holy celebrations of His birth.  Even though I have my own reasons for celebrating the Lord, is it wrong to do so on a Day in which He probably not born?

I would like to, however, wish Jesus a Happy Birthday.  Thank You for dying on the cross for me and for rising on the third day.  Thank You for Your salvation and Your forgiveness.

In His name I pray, Amen

Thursday, December 24, 2015

Prayers about different issues

Father,

I do ask that You would help me see my life and my obsessive thoughts in a different way.  What I ask for is clarity.  I also ask for wisdom, that I may not spend so much of my days worrying and obsessing.

Help me to see that there are those who are in need of help and wisdom this holiday season.  There are people in some parts of the world, where Christmas is not celebrated, have many poor and starving people.  May we in the rich nations not forget them this season.

I wonder how You really feel about Christmas.  It does have pagan origins, so I realize that I have to be separate.  It has also been commercialized, so that could be a love of money comes in.  I have wondered for the past few years what Your word says about Christmas.  Does it honor You or does it betray You?

Forgive me for all of my sins.  I repent of my sins, even in dilemmas where I had no idea what to do. Well, I do have an issue.  I feel like I have made a bad choice and now I don't know what to do. I want to do the right thing by You.  Lord, what do I need to do because there is also no proof that it "exists" or doesn't "exists".  Lord, I ask for clarity and open eyes in this situation and in all similar situations.

I ask for all of these things in the name of Jesus, Amen.

Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Obsessive thoughts

Father,

I am worried.  I worry that I would have another thought about infidelity and other situations.  I hate that they come not just suddenly, but they arrive altogether.  I ask for strengthened faith for I know that if I have faith, then I will be made whole.  I am still inspired by the woman with the issue of blood.  Her faith was strong and I would like for that to happen too.  May those who cheat receive mercy.  Also, may they go and sin no more.  I thank You and praise You for answering my prayers.

In His name,

Amen

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

The personal matter I was referring to

Heavenly Father,

I love the idea because of deep down reasons.  I don't wish to come across as somebody who will come across as not someone who cannot afford things.  It isn't an excuse, but I want to come across for myself as someone with the freedom to express my love for others by giving gifts.  The problem is, will that love be reciprocated?  I am bipolar and I wonder if that is the issue as to why I have been spending.  I need to "come down" in terms of my mood swings.  I believe that is the reason for the confusion I just wrote about yesterday.  On one hand, I love to spend.  On the other hand, I want to save.  I have a low income and I also ask for wisdom when it comes to budgeting and also help when it comes to paying my bills.  I have more than one line of credit and I am not sure, but I got greedy and now, I am concerned.  I should be scared.  I ask for Your help and Your healing.  I ask for financial blessing and providence, but I also ask for forgiveness.  I have had anxieties and fears when it comes to this situation.  I don't know what to do and I am truly afraid.  I also ask that You would send someone my way who won't be judgmental or rude.  I know that I need help.  I recall being hospitalized because I had a similar issue.  I don't want to go back.  I want to move forward and have my bills taken care of.  This isn't all.  My income is small and I fear that it may get smaller or become non-existent one day.  I ask for focus and guidance. I am not proud of myself.  In fact, I am ashamed of myself.  Help me, Lord.  I thank You and I praise You, for Your help and for having the answers to this and all other prayers.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Monday, December 21, 2015

Confusion is not a good thing.

Heavenly Father,

I want to enjoy Christmas, but I have gotten myself confused.  I need help paying my bills, yet I am happy with the fact that hopefully things will go well tomorrow.  I don't know what to do.  I ask for clarity and guidance in this situation.  Lord, show me what I need to do, and I thank You for doing so.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Saturday, December 19, 2015

A "Letter" about guilt

Heavenly Father,

I ask for forgiveness of all of my sins.  I feel like I am sinning willfully despite the fact that Jesus is our Advocate.  I just feel like I am also in need of patience. Grant me patience that I may gain wisdom in all things.  I ask You for wisdom and guidance in a personal matter.  I don't know what else to write except I have brought it on myself.  I don't know what else to do.  I feel like I have made things worse because of the holiday season.  I ask for Your help in this personal matter.  I have been anxious about this matter.  It does not help me that I still have anxiety.  I believe that You will answer my prayers.  I just don't know how to get rid of the anxiety.  Most of the time when I ask for this personal matter, I get nervous.  It could be the enemy telling more or trying to convince me that You won't answer my prayer.  Without asking amiss, I ask to submit to You.  I know that he is the father of lies and that he will flee.  I also ask that my mind stayed on thee.  Thank You for giving me peace of mind and I thank You further for increasing my faith.  I also give You thanks for listening to me, for You are greater than my issues, so I give You praise, for You are worthy of it. I just feel guilty of making my personal problems worse and I don't know how to overcome those issues.  That is why I ask You for patience, wisdom, and guidance.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Friday, December 18, 2015

Putting You First

Lord,

I confess.  I feel kind of "dirty" and ashamed at times at some of my behavior over the years.  Forgive me, Lord, of those behaviors.  They include watching movies and television shows that don't honor You.  I need to ask myself if they honor God.  I need to consult You whether or not it could be soaps, sports, movies, or even reality shows.  I avoid most prime time shows not because of You, but because I get scared of the obsessive thoughts and what each show contains.  Forgive me, Father, for my sins.  You want me to be pure in heart, enduring, and obedient.  I don't think it is possible if all I focus on are works of fiction or sports based on what the obsessive thoughts say.  Thoughts will always come, and do they arrive suddenly.  I had to think about that today as I was watching clips and reading up on gossip.  I wish I had the mindset of not caring about the content or if I can tell the difference between what is fiction and what is real.  I don't however, but I would like to change that, Lord.  I ask that You would not only forgive me, but that You would change my mindset.  Change me, Lord.  I cannot follow You if I am stuck on what to watch or read or listen to something.  I thank You for forgiving me of my sins and of hearing my prayers.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Thursday, December 17, 2015

Help me become a strong person.

Father,

I am thankful for all that I have.  However, to whom much is given, much is required.  I have no idea what I have done.  Well, I do but I should not have said yes.  Maybe it is because I admit to being a "Yes" person.  I wish I had the courage to say, "no", but I don't.  Lord, grant me the strength to say no.  I desire to respect not just myself, but to be truthful to others.  I don't say no often because I don't wish to hurt anyone.  I wonder if they would feel the same way about me.  I have wondered this for a long time now.  I want me to be an honest person and learn to say no sometimes.  I want to be respected, even if I am not liked.  I want to be helpful and kind, but there are times when I feel like a total doormat.  I don't ask for much, but I wonder if I am being taken advantage of.  I would like to change that.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  I don't know if being a yes person is a sin, but I know that there is a difference between the subject of my prayer and being humble and kind.  Help me to live as Jesus lived.  Jesus was no doormat.  He was angry with money changers who were profiting off of merchandise in the temple.  He also stood up to and admonished the Pharisees.  He also stood up to Satan. He was Brave and was no pushover.  I want to be like Jesus.  Jesus was Perfect, but I am not.  Help me to see that not only is He my Example, but He is God and will be Judge one day.  I am not the strongest or bravest person, but I would like to be.  Thank You for my Savior is a God who was full of strength, wisdom, and character.  Thank You, Jesus for saving me and for forgiving me of all of my sins.

In His name,

Amen

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

There is nothing good about gossip..

Lord Jesus,

I ask for forgiveness of my sins.  I have been engaging in compulsions.  I want to know the answers to questions that I "seek". I know that they are not easy to overcome.  Jesus, I ask that You would give me the will to not engage in compulsions.  Last night, I have written in my homework assignment on my thoughts.  I have examined my thoughts.  I ask You for Your permission because it glorifies You.  When I think of eternity, I think of forever.  Right now it is temporary.  Open my eyes so that I can see that this world is a world that is temporal.  Therefore, what I am going through is temporary compared to eternity.  It is forever and that will not change,  That should scare the unbeliever and those who claim to be believers, but are not.  I ask for forgiveness for all of my sins and I repent of engaging in gossip or anything similar in any way, shape, or form.  Minutes ago, I have "searched" and performed compulsions on what was a nasty custody battle.  I want nothing to do with gossip but I will pray for those who engage in gossip so that they would repent. I will also pray for those who profit or feed off of gossip for they too need to repent.  There is nothing good about gossip especially with malicious intent.  It is a propagator of falsehood and damaged reputations.  Search me and try me, for Your word says, to abstain from all appearance of evil. Gossip in my opinion qualifies as something that not only appears as having an appearance of evil, but it is evil, whether watching it on TV, reading about it in print or online, or listening to other people talk is wrong.  There is nothing good about gossip, none.  Thank You, Jesus, for opening my eyes and see this.  Like the fight videos I hope to be and remain convicted of this.

In Your name, Jesus,


Amen

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Remind me ...

Lord,

I ask that You would remind me of what is most important.  Help me to see who my first Priority should be.  Forgive me of my sins, for I am grateful for much.  I should remain grateful.  I realize that avoidance is not how I should live my life.  I love that I live.  There is so much that I seem to have missed.  The world has passed me by.  I don't want it anymore, but I don't know where else I could bide my time.  I ask that You would change my mindset so that it could be pleasing in Your sight and that all things pertaining to me could be pleasing in Your site.  I ask for a change in me and in my life. I would like to just live life.  Now I don't want to live my life without You.  I want to live my life with You as my first Priority.  I ask that You would remind me to be thankful for who I am in Christ Jesus and for what I have in my life.  Show me how to pull down strongholds and take captive every imagination that exalts itself to the obedience of Jesus Christ.  For the first time, I am free.  I would like to take the time to thank You for this freedom that I have. Freedom that comes from You is what true freedom is about.  I also ask to be reminded of not just those many blesses that I have, and those I will have, but also to be mindful of Who and what are important despite whatever roadblocks are in my way.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Monday, December 14, 2015

I can do this

Lord,

I thank You for the day I had.  I feel like I can conquer these obsessive thoughts. Some of them are quite scary, but some day, I have to learn how to face them.  Things so far have improved but not fully.  It is easy to venture that I am not 100% yet.  However, it does seem to feel that way.  Remind me to put You first and to be grateful on a regular if not, daily basis.  I admit and ask for forgiveness, that I am not grateful enough.  I also need help in presenting my requests and make petitions that are not amiss.  I am learning not to ask amiss.  You strengthen my faith and have answered my prayers. I thank You.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Sunday, December 13, 2015

Personal matter

Heavenly Father,

Thank You for answering my prayers. I have issues on a personal matter and I have no idea how to express myself on this matter.  Teach me how to pray without asking amiss.  Teach me how to pray for this personal and all matters.  I need help and guidance in all personal matters without doubting coming from the enemy and without wrath.  I am not good in dealing with this personal matter and I need Your help.  I also ask for wisdom and clarity on this said matter.  I have been anxious about this personal matter because it is a big matter to me.  I try to say the right words and I try to pray in faith about this issue.  I believe that You are greater than any personal issue I may have but my faith has been shaken in this matter.  I just don't know how to deal with this or how to pray about this.  Show me, Lord, what I need to do without asking amiss.  Your answer will be appreciated for I give thanks in advance for Your answers.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Saturday, December 12, 2015

Pure motives and a pure heart

Heavenly Father,

Who am I?  Why am I here?  I wonder about that sometimes.  I also wonder what is Your will for my life.  I have no clue still however.  So, what is my purpose on this planet?  My desire is to live for You, serve You out of love, and to be a pure-hearted Christian with pure motives.  I trust in You, but I don't trust myself or my motives.  Father, forgive me for not always living or thinking with pure motives.  Impure and selfish motives scare me and I thank You that You answer prayers, mine included.  I thank Jesus Christ for making me a new, saved and changed Christian in Him.  I also ask for the wisdom to carry whatever knowledge that I have.  Lord, I am still worried about things.  Lord, I ask for peace of mind since I am not supposed to be anxious, but wise and thankful whenever I pray.  I am ever most thankful.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Friday, December 11, 2015

Prayer of healing

Lord Jesus,

I look forward to Your return.  In the meantime, I ask that You would help me to draw closer to You. There are times when I don't feel very close to You at all.  I sometimes feel a disconnect.  I often don't know what to say or how to say it.  I at times feel like I say the wrong thing.  Perhaps it was past doubt or lack of faith.  I have overcome that.  Jesus, I ask for forgiveness of all of my sins.  I thank You for salvation, forgiveness, and for miracles.  In fact, I ask for a miracle of my own.  I have an issue that has been bothering me for many years.  I am inspired by the story of the woman with the issue of blood.  She touched the hem of your garment and she was made whole.  From the cartoon I have seen she had pressed through the crowd yet You were her only hope.  You healed her and I ask that for healing for myself.  Jesus, heal me of the thoughts and all of my illnesses.  I tire sometimes of taking medications and of having obsessive thoughts.  I too want to be made whole.  That is all I ask. I need Your help.  I need to understand that not only do You heal but that You give hope.  I ask for that hope and I ask for that healing, Jesus.  Heal me like You healed the lady with the issue of blood. I have questions about my thoughts.  I even prayed about them.  Sometimes I felt alone.  Even some of the thoughts and stories I had were disturbing I still have questions but I don't wish to feel like my desire is to feed those thoughts.  As You know, I am not in a relationship.  I have never cheated, nor have I been cheated on.  I guess I will never know why I have those thoughts.  I ask for this in faith just like the woman with the issue of blood, in Jesus' name.  Amen.

Thursday, December 10, 2015

Expressing myself

Lord,

There are times when I have difficulty expressing myself to You.  This is one of those times. Give me the words that I need to express to You.  Give me the wisdom to make my requests known.  Most of all, I ask for understanding and to be grateful for all that You have done for me.  I have faith that prayers have already been answered.  No matter what You answer is, I know that You have my best interest at heart.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Hem of Jesus' Garment

Lord,

I ask that You would erase my obsessive thoughts.  I touch the hem of Your garment.  I shall be made whole.  Thank You, Lord.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Tuesday, December 8, 2015

Putting God and not fiction first

Lord,

Help me to see that I need to put You first in all things.  I admit that I have not always done so; forgive me, Father, for my sins.  I do know that there have been and are some things that I have placed too much priority on television and other things.  I realize and know that these priorities do not honor You.  They are demeaning to me because I have not put You first.  I am sorry for I have been focused on fictional characters and I cannot get over it.  I need help from You.  Most of all, I need healing.  I need You.  I am a bit stressed over this.  Right now I wish to look up information about fictional characters, which in hindsight make no sense.  How do I overcome my compulsions? Help me, Lord.  Give me the wisdom and faith that I need to overcome these compulsions, much less my obsessions.  I thank You that You are greater than these and all of my problems.  I thank You for answering this prayer.

In Jesus' name,  Amen

Monday, December 7, 2015

Remind me

Lord,

Remind me that there are those who are being persecuted for their faith.  I personally have not been persecuted for my faith.  I also don't know anyone who has been persecuted for their faith.  I cannot imagine facing violence because of my faith.  Hebrews 1 is about faith and persecution.  I ask for the faith and strength to withstand any persecution that comes and will come my way.  Remind me that those who are being persecuted are also my brothers and sisters in Christ.  Remind me also that there are those who are persecutors who need to know the Lord and that there are millions around the world who are being deceived.  Remind me to also pray for them and to never forget those who are also being persecuted for their own religious faith, despite the fact that they may be Jews, or Muslims, or animists, or Buddhists.  May they also be led to the Lord and convicted by the Holy Spirit.

I ask this, In Jesus' name,  Amen.

Sunday, December 6, 2015

Being thankful and grateful

Lord,

I thank You for answering all of my prayers.  I believe in answered prayers.  I believe that You listen. You know all about what we are going to ask before we even ask.  I take great comfort in knowing that truth.  I feel like a burden has been lifted off of me since I have prayed.  You have done so much for me over the years.  For that, I thank You.  I am forever grateful.  Thank You.

In Your name, Lord,


Amen

Saturday, December 5, 2015

Importance of Stewardship

Lord God,

Teach me Your ways.  Help me be a good steward.  Your word say for whom much is given, much is required.  What is required of me?  How much has been given to me?  I have a feeling that I have much work to do on a personal level, but still I don't know the answer.  Lord, what do You have me to do?  I now have a feeling that I have been asking the wrong questions all along.  What was missing?  The truth is, how do I utilize the Holy Spirit and all else that has been given to me?  What are the Parables of the Minas and the Talents about?  Are they about stewardship?  I ask for wisdom and understanding, for I am in need and I have no confidence in my own deeds.  Forgive me of all of my sins.  Thank You for answering this prayer and for giving me peace of mind.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Friday, December 4, 2015

Discernment of truth from falsehood

Lord,

Help me to discern truth from error in this world.  Allow me to not just read the scriptures, but to search them out for myself.  I have an issue with this area and I ask for wisdom for discernment. There is so much falsehood and all that is wrong in the world that it can be easy to be deceived by seducing spirits. I have had this issues for years and I thank You for giving me this wisdom liberally as Your word states.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

I am superior to negative thoughts and low actions.

Lord,

I ask that You would give me a fresh perspective on me.  Who am I as a person and who am I in Christ Jesus?  I don't know all about me as it seems.  Sadly, what I do know about me, physically, I don't like.  I don't like my body with its shorter, heavier body frame.  I see myself as fat and out of shape.  I wondered why I have allowed myself to get to be this fat and out of shape.  I don't like the way I look mostly in the mirror.  I also don't like the way I look in photos, including selfies.  Wow.
I don't just want to like myself.  I want to respect myself.  I need help in loving and respecting myself, no matter if I am over 300 lbs, or at 180-200 lbs. or at 120-130 lbs.  I need help in seeing myself and my life in a positive way.  In just need help with me.  My self worth is somewhat based on a number on a scale and on my measurements.  I sometimes have difficulty being kind to myself and positive thoughts about myself.  Change is hard for me, Lord.  I know it doesn't honor me. I cannot say that it honors You either.  I also ask that You would open my eyes and my ears so that I will gain wisdom from trustworthy council.  I ask that You would open my mind so that I can remember that You see me differently than I see myself.  I want to see myself as beautiful at over 300 lbs. with glasses and polycystic ovarian syndrome.  Confidence is supposed to be a beautiful thing, and I want to be confident.  I ask for forgiveness of my sins and I also ask for understanding that a challenge is an opportunity for change and success, not another opportunity to fail.  I want to be able to learn to do this and take the initiative.  No one else can do this for me.  It took me today and a long list of meds to see that.  I see and have seen that I need to take my health seriously and have a healthy relationship with You, food, myself, and with others.  I thank You that You answer prayer and I thank You that You are greater than all of these above issues.

In Jesus' name,


Amen