Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Jesus is the Blessing

Father,

Right now, I am listening to music about a blessing in the storm.  I know that it is about You and only You.  I can relate to the truth that You are the Blessing.  You have done much for me and I thank You.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

God SHALL and He HAS.

Father,

I thank You that You have supplied all of my needs.  You have listened to me and I thank You.  I have learned much from my prayers, though I have not and will not take any credit.  There are no secrets with You, only answers.  You have answered my prayers because You promised that You shall answer my prayers as long as they are prayers that are not amiss in motive.  Thank You for improving my prayer life.  Thank You that I finally understand about living on Your own timing.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Monday, July 18, 2016

Being thankful and grateful

Father,

I realize that talking to You is about honesty.  I can be honest with You, because You are the Lord. You love me, for You are Love.  Thank You for loving me, a person from the human race.  None of us are good, not one.  I am asking for forgiveness for not always being grateful.  I ask that You would also give me a fresh perspective on basically everything.  I have a lot to be grateful for, but I often ask not amiss.  I also ask for open eyes, for I know that there are those who are truly in need.  There are many who are even thankful for what they do have.  I have heard the words about needing shoes, yet there was a man with no feet.  I believe it was more or less a song about those who have crosses to bear.  Sometimes I feel like a selfish person because I am unable to see my pain.  I feel guilt about that.  My desire is to be more thankful and more grateful, for I have much to be thankful and grateful for.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Sunday, July 10, 2016

Acceptance has been a challenge

Heavenly Father,

I am starting to understand about acceptance.  It does not come easy.  However, I can say that You do answer prayer and the challenge to acceptance has gotten easier.  I received comments online about acceptance.  Needless to say that accepting that I have obsessive thoughts can still be bothersome but at least it has been easier to let the thoughts pass.  I thank You that I can find acceptance and not just a cure.  Having obsessive thoughts have been about having to no longer fight those thoughts. However, overcoming compulsions and asking for reassurance have been even more difficult.  I wish they weren't.  I tried before, but I wish that I could just stop them.  I ask for help in time of need, for I am in need.  Thank You for Your answer.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Thursday, July 7, 2016

OCD Acceptance

Lord,

I know that acceptance is something that is quite difficult for me, if not impossible.  I am asking that You would help me find acceptance with having what I have.  It was easy when I found out I had bipolar disorder and also pcos.  How come I cannot do this with ocd?  I now wonder as I am typing this if acceptance is even a part of Your plan.  Maybe there isn't a plan but there is something that I need to know what to do.  Maybe I don't have to do anything but ask to be made free and to be whole. I guess that is because with the other two conditions, they are issues that I can face head on.  OCD on the other hand is scary.  I am afraid that because the thoughts are so worrisome and so in my face that I will never overcome them.  Some things have been comforting to me such as mindfulness and acceptance.  I am mindful that things may or may not be as they seem.  However, I have no clue how to be set free using acceptance.  When if I end up free from infidelity and scrupulosity only to have obsessive thoughts about something else?  I am thankful however to have survived many years having this.  Give me grace to help in time of need. Lord, I need help and I ask You for this help.

Thankfully,

In the name of Jesus,

Amen

Wednesday, July 6, 2016

Grant, forgive, strengthen, and making me wise

Heavenly Father,

Thank You for granting patience and for giving me great advice and leaning.  Forgive me of my sins and may You fill me with the Holy Spirit.  I also ask that You would further strengthen my faith. Teach me Your ways and show me what Your will is when it comes to every area of my life. Yesterday, You have shown and revealed to me what I needed to be revealed.  I also ask today, for clarity and wisdom.  Help me to pray to You from my heart and not just words of pleas that will more than likely turn You off.  I am here.  I arrive as I am.  Thank You for giving me this revelation.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

God's grace, healing, and timing

Dear Heavenly Father,

I am sorry that I have not taken much time to actually spend it with You.  I realize that prayer, reading, and studying Your Word is essential to growing my faith.  I ask that You would instill those values that will make me obedient to You.  I sometimes have a hard time expressing myself, which is why some of my blog posts tend to be out there to putting it mildly.  For instance, that last sentence is a classic example.  I sometimes wish I could communicate better than I do.  I talk fast, change subjects often, and get tongue tied.  I get too many words crossed to the point when I get my letters wrong or say the wrong words at the time.  I wish sometimes I could change that.  I don't know why, but like with my obsessive thoughts, I guess I will never truly know.  However, as I am writing this, maybe I do have the answer.  I prayed that I could be healed and freed from illness, but it hasn't happened yet.  Why?  I admit that at one time it would have been considered blasphemous to ask You why, but I just don't know.  Is it to draw me closer to You, for I don't know why else why I am not healed of my illnesses?  I find myself inspired by the woman with the issue of blood, whose faith made her whole.  She had to suffer through a lot.  I can only imagine what she went through with little to no success.  However, I now realize that she did things her way instead of Yours.  Was that the message You were trying to send me all along?  I wish it took a while to get to that point sooner, but as I am writing this, it becomes clearer now.  I finally see that what I thought was my issues is truly about Your timing and Your grace.  Thank You for revealing those things to me and thank You for Your forgiveness and for Your healing.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, July 4, 2016

My life

Father,

Thank you, for my life is in Your hands.

In Your name,  Lord,

Amen

Friday, July 1, 2016

My thanks to the Trinity

Jesus,

Thank You for answering my prayers.  Heavenly Father, thank You for listening to me and hearing my prayers.  Holy Spirit, I thank You for Your conviction and Your guidance.  I know that You are the Trinity, three in one.  I thank You for all, God.

In Jesus' name,

Amen