Lord,
As You know, I have obsessive compulsive disorder and I am here to say that it has made my doubting worse. For years I have had doubts about being saved. I am scared. I am fearful that I am not saved. I even had a thought today that I will end up in Hell when I die. I am fearful sometimes of dying. There are things that I have not asked for forgiveness for.
I fear that I may also be a racist. I wince whenever I see a picture of an interracial couple. It is because I have thoughts of what other people think and that is a problem. I believe that it is a trigger to why I have some of these racist thoughts. Interracial couplings never bothered me before so why now? Deep down I have no problem with interracial relationships so why now? Is there some hidden prejudice or racist thoughts inside of me? Am I truly a saved free from racist feelings?
Maybe I am saved or I wouldn't have thoughts and doubts about it, and the racism thing. Whenever I see a white person, sometimes I have racist or prejudiced thoughts, especially if I am going somewhere. I even repeat prejudiced thoughts. I know that I have a problem with obsessive thoughts as I tend to be obsessed about race and racism. I realize that I am not totally over it and that bothers me. I really need help with these topics of obsessive thoughts, Lord.
I don't know what else to do, but I am glad that I have confessed these issues to You. I feel like I have sinned over and over again whenever I have doubts. I know that it is the doubting disease but I ask to be cured. I get tired of just managing this disorder and sometimes I have thoughts that bother me greatly and also the images as well. I realize that they are exaggerated, at times, but there are times when I don't always see that. I don't like having obsessive compulsive disorder, but at least it has drawn me closer to You.
I thank You that it has drawn me closer to You. I do believe this and for that, I thank You. Anything can be a trigger to an obsessive thought, and that has me afraid. Show me and teach me Your will and Your words. I want to be connected to You in every way, shape, and form. Draw me to You. I ask for a closer walk with You. I am tired of having these doubts and these thoughts. I feel like sometimes the reason why things have been the way they have been is because I have these doubts. I realize that I have issues, and they are deep seated, but I have to see that You are greater. Help me to see that and help me to live according to Your Word. Help me to endure, and I thank You for Your leading and Your guidance, which I ask for. Thank You for answering my prayer tonight.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
As You know, I have obsessive compulsive disorder and I am here to say that it has made my doubting worse. For years I have had doubts about being saved. I am scared. I am fearful that I am not saved. I even had a thought today that I will end up in Hell when I die. I am fearful sometimes of dying. There are things that I have not asked for forgiveness for.
I fear that I may also be a racist. I wince whenever I see a picture of an interracial couple. It is because I have thoughts of what other people think and that is a problem. I believe that it is a trigger to why I have some of these racist thoughts. Interracial couplings never bothered me before so why now? Deep down I have no problem with interracial relationships so why now? Is there some hidden prejudice or racist thoughts inside of me? Am I truly a saved free from racist feelings?
Maybe I am saved or I wouldn't have thoughts and doubts about it, and the racism thing. Whenever I see a white person, sometimes I have racist or prejudiced thoughts, especially if I am going somewhere. I even repeat prejudiced thoughts. I know that I have a problem with obsessive thoughts as I tend to be obsessed about race and racism. I realize that I am not totally over it and that bothers me. I really need help with these topics of obsessive thoughts, Lord.
I don't know what else to do, but I am glad that I have confessed these issues to You. I feel like I have sinned over and over again whenever I have doubts. I know that it is the doubting disease but I ask to be cured. I get tired of just managing this disorder and sometimes I have thoughts that bother me greatly and also the images as well. I realize that they are exaggerated, at times, but there are times when I don't always see that. I don't like having obsessive compulsive disorder, but at least it has drawn me closer to You.
I thank You that it has drawn me closer to You. I do believe this and for that, I thank You. Anything can be a trigger to an obsessive thought, and that has me afraid. Show me and teach me Your will and Your words. I want to be connected to You in every way, shape, and form. Draw me to You. I ask for a closer walk with You. I am tired of having these doubts and these thoughts. I feel like sometimes the reason why things have been the way they have been is because I have these doubts. I realize that I have issues, and they are deep seated, but I have to see that You are greater. Help me to see that and help me to live according to Your Word. Help me to endure, and I thank You for Your leading and Your guidance, which I ask for. Thank You for answering my prayer tonight.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
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