Lord,
I ask that You would give me a fresh perspective on me. Who am I as a person and who am I in Christ Jesus? I don't know all about me as it seems. Sadly, what I do know about me, physically, I don't like. I don't like my body with its shorter, heavier body frame. I see myself as fat and out of shape. I wondered why I have allowed myself to get to be this fat and out of shape. I don't like the way I look mostly in the mirror. I also don't like the way I look in photos, including selfies. Wow.
I don't just want to like myself. I want to respect myself. I need help in loving and respecting myself, no matter if I am over 300 lbs, or at 180-200 lbs. or at 120-130 lbs. I need help in seeing myself and my life in a positive way. In just need help with me. My self worth is somewhat based on a number on a scale and on my measurements. I sometimes have difficulty being kind to myself and positive thoughts about myself. Change is hard for me, Lord. I know it doesn't honor me. I cannot say that it honors You either. I also ask that You would open my eyes and my ears so that I will gain wisdom from trustworthy council. I ask that You would open my mind so that I can remember that You see me differently than I see myself. I want to see myself as beautiful at over 300 lbs. with glasses and polycystic ovarian syndrome. Confidence is supposed to be a beautiful thing, and I want to be confident. I ask for forgiveness of my sins and I also ask for understanding that a challenge is an opportunity for change and success, not another opportunity to fail. I want to be able to learn to do this and take the initiative. No one else can do this for me. It took me today and a long list of meds to see that. I see and have seen that I need to take my health seriously and have a healthy relationship with You, food, myself, and with others. I thank You that You answer prayer and I thank You that You are greater than all of these above issues.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
I ask that You would give me a fresh perspective on me. Who am I as a person and who am I in Christ Jesus? I don't know all about me as it seems. Sadly, what I do know about me, physically, I don't like. I don't like my body with its shorter, heavier body frame. I see myself as fat and out of shape. I wondered why I have allowed myself to get to be this fat and out of shape. I don't like the way I look mostly in the mirror. I also don't like the way I look in photos, including selfies. Wow.
I don't just want to like myself. I want to respect myself. I need help in loving and respecting myself, no matter if I am over 300 lbs, or at 180-200 lbs. or at 120-130 lbs. I need help in seeing myself and my life in a positive way. In just need help with me. My self worth is somewhat based on a number on a scale and on my measurements. I sometimes have difficulty being kind to myself and positive thoughts about myself. Change is hard for me, Lord. I know it doesn't honor me. I cannot say that it honors You either. I also ask that You would open my eyes and my ears so that I will gain wisdom from trustworthy council. I ask that You would open my mind so that I can remember that You see me differently than I see myself. I want to see myself as beautiful at over 300 lbs. with glasses and polycystic ovarian syndrome. Confidence is supposed to be a beautiful thing, and I want to be confident. I ask for forgiveness of my sins and I also ask for understanding that a challenge is an opportunity for change and success, not another opportunity to fail. I want to be able to learn to do this and take the initiative. No one else can do this for me. It took me today and a long list of meds to see that. I see and have seen that I need to take my health seriously and have a healthy relationship with You, food, myself, and with others. I thank You that You answer prayer and I thank You that You are greater than all of these above issues.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
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