Monday, February 8, 2016

Identity of my own

Jesus,

I look unto You for salvation.  I am scared.  I don't know who I am in Christ.  I can pray all I want and read the Bible as much as I can.  I still have no idea what to do or say.  It was as if I really didn't mean it.  I have had this problem for a long time and I am asking for an answer from You.  I need help, Lord.  I wish I could just say with confidence that I am not lost.  I ask that I will be assured that I am saved and not lost.  I don't like feeling this way.  It isn't based on what I watch on tv or what I see in movies.  I have no real dilemmas about nor does it usually wake me up.  However, it is based on reality so I know that I have an issue.  I wonder if I were not saved would I have this problem.  I also wonder if I had faith to begin with.  If I did why do I keep asking for You to save me and give me the assurance of my salvation.  I am not assured of my salvation.  I strongly believe that Your word is true.  All things were created by the Lord through You, Lord.

I may have said it wrong and I apologize.  I hate my sins because I don't revel in them.  I know that I am not perfected, but I often focus not just on being perfected, but I also focus on a ticket to Heaven.  I don't want to focus on salvation being a ticket to Heaven.  Yes, I want to go to Heaven, no doubt.  I do want to spend time with You, but I want to be assured that I am the real deal because I was saved by the True God and that is You.  I have been reading Your word online.  Where does repentance fit into salvation? Where does baptism also fall into salvation?  Where can I find information on things that are true and things that are not written in Your word?  I admit that I have a lot to learn, but I also want to know for myself.  I don't want to be deceived anymore than I don't want to have any mind of my own.  You created us all to have our own opinions and to stand on our two feet.  Lord, I need help in that area as well.  My main problem to all of this is a lack of identity.  Who am I in Christ Jesus?  Who am I, period?

I ask this in Your name,


Amen

Sunday, February 7, 2016

Putting things in proper perspective

Lord Jesus,

Help me to put things in proper perspective.  I mean this in all things.  Lord, You have been good to me.  I look unto You for salvation.  I often focus on the right words when it comes to being saved.  It is as if I pray words hoping that I will get saved.  I am scared that I don't have enough faith in You.  It is maddening that I don't know if I am truly saved or if I am lost.  Am I saved?  Lord, did You save me?  How do I become saved?  Help me, Jesus.  I thank You in advanced for answering my prayer.

In Your name,


Amen

Saturday, February 6, 2016

God's blessings

Lord Jesus,

Thank You for saving me.  You have bestowed many blessings upon me.  Forgive me for taking those blessings for granted.  Forgive me for all of my sins.

In Your name,


Amen

Friday, February 5, 2016

The proper focus

Lord,

Teach me Your ways.  Forgive me of my sins.  The fact that I am overweight is something that has taken its toll, and not just physically.  It has not been easy being an overweight person.  It hurts to be made fun of and teased.  It doesn't help that I am the object of ridicule when it comes to boys.  I never had a date so I had no idea what it is like to be kissed much less married.  One day, I would like to be married and have kids.  I know that my biological clock is ticking but maybe adoption would be a good option.  I have so many ideas for myself but I never get around to finishing them.  Help me to focus on myself first.  Help me to see that with You, everything will fall into place.  I thank You in advance for listening to me and for answering this prayer.


Sincerely,


Letters to God

Thursday, February 4, 2016

OCD prayer

Lord,

I thank You, for I am feeling better.  I just couldn't take it anymore.  The truth is, I don't like OCD.  I don't like the obsessive thoughts nor do I like the compulsion.  I have gotten used to them however. Help me to accept the fact that I have them.  I am so sad because of the guilt that I feel.  I find it strange to have thoughts about things that have nothing to do with me.  OCD can latch on to anything.  I really wish to just accept these thoughts but I just don't know how.  Show me, Lord. I want to cope with having them, to embrace them.  It hasn't been easy and I realize that I have got to not allow them to overtake me.  Help me to see that You are the Lord and that greater than all that is in the world.  Thank You in advance for answering this prayer as I ask for forgiveness of all of my sins.  Again, I thank You.


In Jesus' name,

Amen