Friday, August 5, 2016

The Holy Spirit's conviction

Father,

My desire is not just for Your return, but to be martyred for Christ.  I had doubts about being martyred.  To my great shame, I was afraid.  What if I became afraid?  Then I was reminded of Peter, who rejected Your Son three times.  Peter was in shame for his fear.  It was so sad that Peter denied Him.  Jesus however, forgave Him.  My prayer is that You would forgive me for my fear as well.  I ask for the power of the Holy Spirit to strengthen me and to convict me in times of trouble and fear. I also ask for the wisdom to understand what will happen in the future and for what is going on now.

In Jesus' name,

I thank You,  Amen

Thursday, August 4, 2016

Having ocd

Father,

Help me to deal with fear, whether it is of the unknown or the known.  I hate uncertainty.  I wish that I was more certain about things but I am haven't been sure if it is the ocd or just a personal trait.  It is as if I have allowed the ocd to take over what I need to do.  It is the one that gives me direction to do things.  I have a hard time realizing that fiction is fiction.  It does seem to reflect badly on me. I want to change, with Your help, of course.  It is appreciated and I thank You for doing so.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Wednesday, August 3, 2016

Growing relationship

Lord,

It is as if my relationship with You has grown.  I am so thankful and my thing is to be more thankful and more grateful more and more as time passes.  I do thank You that You saved me and forgiven me. You have cleansed me from my unrighteousness.  I thank You for the new day that I am living.  I also feel renewed from the break that I have had in creating blog pages.  It has been hard at times to...like right now.  I have the words in my mind, but I have difficulty expressing myself.  That is what I have been trying to say, or rather write.  I have been expressing myself in prayer, thanks, and through communication with others.  Thank You for giving me wise counsel and just for wisdom in general.

In Jesus' name,

Amen