Lord,
Even so, come, Lord Jesus. I live in a sinful, dying world that does not care about me, much less anyone else. Help me to keep that in mind daily. I get fearful and anxious when I try to put my mind into something, such as living holy and losing weight. Regardless, I realize that I need to not stress out so much on my weight. I do have an issue with body image and I do focus more on my appearance than on being healthy and living a healthy lifestyle. I now know what living a healthy lifestyle entails. I am scared. I lose losing weight is a big undertaking as I want to lose exactly 125 pounds. I sometimes feel guilty about allowing myself to become a 300+ pound woman. I have become more self-conscious than ever. How do I recognize what You and Your word says with my weight struggles and being self-conscious about my body? I am not ashamed to be fat, but I would like to know about living a healthy lifestyle due to having PCOS. I do not wish or want to use PCOS as an excuse, but it is a condition that I have. I am relieved that I was diagnosed as such. I can do something about it, and now I know where to begin. I have made so many mistakes with my weight that I became anxious and frustrated. I would like to change that even if it takes a long time.
However, I am careful of what I say, think, or write because of my fear and anxiety. Maybe I have approached things all wrong. I jump into something only to falter or give up. I don't want to live this way anymore. I don't want to live. I am anxious and frustrated because my weight goes up and down. Part of this is because I give up on myself and I am lazy and just don't care. I rather eat chocolate bars than eat an orange or broccoli sometimes. In other words, healthy foods tend to at times be an acquired taste. I am still anxious and scared as I write this and I have no idea how to overcome fear and anxiety. I just want to change all of this because it seems that I am at the end of my rope. I love the taste of food because it represents fun, party, and I enjoy the taste of food. I realize that unhealthy food doesn't love me back anymore. My desire and need is to see food in a healthy way. Lord, I know Your word says that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Tonight, I ask for help and wisdom so that I can overcome my fear and anxiety. I leave them in Your hands. I need strength and help in this time because I want to be set free from them. Help me to see my situation as You and Your Word see it. I have prayed for years and years about this and I just no longer know how to overcome all of these things so that I can be healthy and reach my goals.
I have PCOS which may have been a cause of my having to deal with diabetes, high blood pressure, AND high cholesterol. Right now, I am doing better and I think I am doing a better job of managing my diabetes. My other real problem is that the consequences of unhealthy eating habits, poor body image, and a lack of exercise is that I have a hard time allowing things to sink in. I don't really want to wait another few years in order to finally "get it". That is what is going on. I admit that I want for things to sink in immediately so that I can lose the weight and keep it off. I want to have a better self image so that I want to be less self-conscious. I often feel like I am too dumb to know what I am doing despite the fact that I have been given good advice. The truth is, I have no idea how to follow even the simplest advice. Sadly, I tend to make what is easy hard. It was like this in college and it is like this now. I have been advised to keep it simple. That to me seems so easy, but it is hard. I realize that I need a change of mindset so that it will finally sink in. Help me and remind me to take better care of and have more respect for myself.
I don't want to diet and exercise, but I want to live a healthy lifestyle. I am inspired to exercise and keep moving forward. I don't feel so great about not exercising because of the motivation that I have to walk or do other exercises. I wish that exercise doesn't have to be a chore. Instead I want to know how to see exercise as not a chore. Mentally I know the benefits of exercise but I admit to not taking the time to actually do it. I just wish I could keep it simple. I can not stay away from exercise and eating a large quantity of food and call it living a healthy lifestyle. Help me to see, Father, that I am worth it, and have always been. Help me to see that I sometimes have an unhealthy view of my body and of what is beautiful. You see me as beautiful no matter if I see mostly "flaws". Remind me. Father, that I can overcome any and everything if I leave things in Your hands. I ask for forgiveness of my sins. Make me a new creation in Jesus Christ and I ask You to further strengthen my faith and to remove all of those things that are stumbling blocks. I wish change could be easy. I wish I could ask You to make things easier, but is that something that You can answer? Help me to allow advice to sink in. I ask for a renewal of my mindset.
Thank You for answering my prayers and I ask for peace of mind.
In Jesus' name, Amen.
Even so, come, Lord Jesus. I live in a sinful, dying world that does not care about me, much less anyone else. Help me to keep that in mind daily. I get fearful and anxious when I try to put my mind into something, such as living holy and losing weight. Regardless, I realize that I need to not stress out so much on my weight. I do have an issue with body image and I do focus more on my appearance than on being healthy and living a healthy lifestyle. I now know what living a healthy lifestyle entails. I am scared. I lose losing weight is a big undertaking as I want to lose exactly 125 pounds. I sometimes feel guilty about allowing myself to become a 300+ pound woman. I have become more self-conscious than ever. How do I recognize what You and Your word says with my weight struggles and being self-conscious about my body? I am not ashamed to be fat, but I would like to know about living a healthy lifestyle due to having PCOS. I do not wish or want to use PCOS as an excuse, but it is a condition that I have. I am relieved that I was diagnosed as such. I can do something about it, and now I know where to begin. I have made so many mistakes with my weight that I became anxious and frustrated. I would like to change that even if it takes a long time.
However, I am careful of what I say, think, or write because of my fear and anxiety. Maybe I have approached things all wrong. I jump into something only to falter or give up. I don't want to live this way anymore. I don't want to live. I am anxious and frustrated because my weight goes up and down. Part of this is because I give up on myself and I am lazy and just don't care. I rather eat chocolate bars than eat an orange or broccoli sometimes. In other words, healthy foods tend to at times be an acquired taste. I am still anxious and scared as I write this and I have no idea how to overcome fear and anxiety. I just want to change all of this because it seems that I am at the end of my rope. I love the taste of food because it represents fun, party, and I enjoy the taste of food. I realize that unhealthy food doesn't love me back anymore. My desire and need is to see food in a healthy way. Lord, I know Your word says that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Tonight, I ask for help and wisdom so that I can overcome my fear and anxiety. I leave them in Your hands. I need strength and help in this time because I want to be set free from them. Help me to see my situation as You and Your Word see it. I have prayed for years and years about this and I just no longer know how to overcome all of these things so that I can be healthy and reach my goals.
I have PCOS which may have been a cause of my having to deal with diabetes, high blood pressure, AND high cholesterol. Right now, I am doing better and I think I am doing a better job of managing my diabetes. My other real problem is that the consequences of unhealthy eating habits, poor body image, and a lack of exercise is that I have a hard time allowing things to sink in. I don't really want to wait another few years in order to finally "get it". That is what is going on. I admit that I want for things to sink in immediately so that I can lose the weight and keep it off. I want to have a better self image so that I want to be less self-conscious. I often feel like I am too dumb to know what I am doing despite the fact that I have been given good advice. The truth is, I have no idea how to follow even the simplest advice. Sadly, I tend to make what is easy hard. It was like this in college and it is like this now. I have been advised to keep it simple. That to me seems so easy, but it is hard. I realize that I need a change of mindset so that it will finally sink in. Help me and remind me to take better care of and have more respect for myself.
I don't want to diet and exercise, but I want to live a healthy lifestyle. I am inspired to exercise and keep moving forward. I don't feel so great about not exercising because of the motivation that I have to walk or do other exercises. I wish that exercise doesn't have to be a chore. Instead I want to know how to see exercise as not a chore. Mentally I know the benefits of exercise but I admit to not taking the time to actually do it. I just wish I could keep it simple. I can not stay away from exercise and eating a large quantity of food and call it living a healthy lifestyle. Help me to see, Father, that I am worth it, and have always been. Help me to see that I sometimes have an unhealthy view of my body and of what is beautiful. You see me as beautiful no matter if I see mostly "flaws". Remind me. Father, that I can overcome any and everything if I leave things in Your hands. I ask for forgiveness of my sins. Make me a new creation in Jesus Christ and I ask You to further strengthen my faith and to remove all of those things that are stumbling blocks. I wish change could be easy. I wish I could ask You to make things easier, but is that something that You can answer? Help me to allow advice to sink in. I ask for a renewal of my mindset.
Thank You for answering my prayers and I ask for peace of mind.
In Jesus' name, Amen.
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