Monday, June 30, 2014

Psalm 18

Dear Heavenly Father in the name of Jesus,

I love you, O LORD, my strength. 2 The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. 3 I call to the LORD, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies. 4 The cords of death entangled me; the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me. 5 The cords of the grave coiled around me; the snares of death confronted me. 6 In my distress I called to the LORD; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears. 7 The earth trembled and quaked, and the foundations of the mountains shook; they trembled because he was angry. 8 Smoke rose from his nostrils; consuming fire came from his mouth, burning coals blazed out of it. 9 He parted the heavens and came down; dark clouds were under his feet. 10 He mounted the cherubim and flew; he soared on the wings of the wind. 11 He made darkness his covering, his canopy around him-- the dark rain clouds of the sky. 12 Out of the brightness of his presence clouds advanced, with hailstones and bolts of lightning. 13 The LORD thundered from heaven; the voice of the Most High resounded. 14 He shot his arrows and scattered [the enemies], great bolts of lightning and routed them. 15 The valleys of the sea were exposed and the foundations of the earth laid bare at your rebuke, O LORD, at the blast of breath from your nostrils. 16 He reached down from on high and took hold of me; he drew me out of deep waters. 17 He rescued me from my powerful enemy, from my foes, who were too strong for me. 18 They confronted me in the day of my disaster, but the LORD was my support. 19 He brought me out into a spacious place; he rescued me because he delighted in me.

20 The LORD has dealt with me according to my righteousness; according to the cleanness of my hands he has rewarded me. 21 For I have kept the ways of the LORD; I have not done evil by turning from my God. 22 All his laws are before me; I have not turned away from his decrees. 23 I have been blameless before him and have kept myself from sin. 24 The LORD has rewarded me according to my righteousness, according to the cleanness of my hands in his sight. 25 To the faithful you show yourself faithful, to the blameless you show yourself blameless, 26 to the pure you show yourself pure, but to the crooked you show yourself shrewd. 27 You save the humble but bring low those whose eyes are haughty. 28 You, O LORD, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light. 29 With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall. 30 As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the LORD is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in him. 31 For who is God besides the LORD? And who is the Rock except our God? 32 It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.

33 He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he enables me to stand on the heights. 34 He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze. 35 You give me your shield of victory, and your right hand sustains me; you stoop down to make me great. 36 You broaden the path beneath me, so that my ankles do not turn. 37 I pursued my enemies and overtook them; I did not turn back till they were destroyed. 38 I crushed them so that they could not rise; they fell beneath my feet. 39 You armed me with strength for battle; you made my adversaries bow at my feet. 40 You made my enemies turn their backs in flight, and I destroyed my foes. 41 They cried for help, but there was no one to save them-- to the LORD, but he did not answer. 42 I beat them as fine as dust borne on the wind; I poured them out like mud in the streets. 43 You have delivered me from the attacks of the people; you have made me the head of nations; people I did not know are subject to me. 44 As soon as they hear me, they obey me; foreigners cringe before me. 45 They all lose heart; they come trembling from their strongholds. 46 The LORD lives! Praise be to my Rock! Exalted be God my Savior! 47 He is the God who avenges me, who subdues nations under me, 48 who saves me from my enemies. You exalted me above my foes; from violent men you rescued me. 49 Therefore I will praise you among the nations, O LORD; I will sing praises to your name. 50 He gives his king great victories; he shows unfailing kindness to his anointed, to David and his descendants forever.

Amen

Sunday, June 29, 2014

Praise

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank You.  I prayed to You and I know that You answered.  I stand on Your word tonight and I give You all of the praise.  To You, oh wise God, My Savior, be glory, majesty, dominion, and power, both now and forever.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Saturday, June 28, 2014

Letter of apology and forgiveness

Lord,

I am sorry that I neglected to spend time with You today.  I had all of the time in the world to do so and I didn't take that time.  Again, I apologize.  I hope that You would accept my apology.  Forgive me for all of my sins and renew and restore me, Lord.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Friday, June 27, 2014

Health scares

Lord,

Give me the strength, energy, and wisdom to lose weight.  I would like to confront my fears but I don't know how.  I have many fears judging from the obsessive compulsive disorder.  I wonder if it is a spiritual problem as well.  The exercise has done me some good and I would like to keep it up.  I know that life is a journey of choices.  I am afraid that I will make the wrong choices when it comes to my health.  Like I mentioned earlier, I would like to lose 100 pounds and this is something that is of great concern.  I surrender what is ailing me over to You.

I am filled with anxiety over this issue and I want more than anything to be a Christian.  I also would like to lose weight.  I am not just learning or trying anymore.  I am actually doing it and that makes me smile.  I am just so worried that I will fail on my end because I failed many times before.  I am more than motivated to lose weight and keep it off.  One hundred pounds is such a hard undertaking and I know it will take a while. I am nervous about this issue.

I know that there are other things that I should be worried about like hunger, starvation, budgeting, and what else is going on in the world.  However, it is hard to overcome fear and I am scared that I will never lose weight.  What I am afraid of is that I will be comfortable with my weight only in another few years to gain even more weight only it will be even harder to lose.  I am approaching 40 and I would like to know why it is harder for a woman to gain weight only to have an even harder time to make things harder.

I feel like it is my own fault.  I guess it is.  I don't like being overweight because I am no longer comfortable with myself.  There are things I cannot do that others take for granted.  I feel like a failure because I have allowed myself to gain weight and not take care of myself.  I fear what lies ahead down the road such as early death, amputation, and even insulin.  It is not easy having diabetes, though it is manageable.  I am just fearful all the way around.  I feel like sometimes I don't know what to do.  I need guidance in this area.  I ask You to guide me with Your Eye.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Thursday, June 26, 2014

Dealing with fear

Heavenly Father,

I know that fear is False Evidence Appearing Real.  I know this only in my head, but not in my heart.  I know that I am one of Yours but I struggle with fear everyday.  I admit that I am tormented by fear and I have not been made perfected in love.  I have quite a few fears which involve my health and my weight. How do I overcome those fears that I have about losing weight and getting in good health?  The root of my problem is fear of failure.  I have done well for a while only to go back to my old routines.  I am afraid that I will go back and binge and quit exercising.  So far, things have been great but I fear that things won't always be this way.  I am not sure if I have issues with commitment, but my issue is my health and I would like to lose 100 pounds.  I need to have my mind renewed.  How do I have my mind renewed according to Your word and how do I apply it to my daily life and my spiritual walk?  I need wisdom in this area.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Assurance of salvation

Dear Heavenly Father,

I feel very well today.  I am a little sore, but I feel energized.  Help me to shift the focus on You.  I want to make a decision according to Your rules not according to my obsessive thoughts or the "Persona".  I am here to write that I need help in overcoming fear.

I want to be one of Your sheep and be assured of it.  I am sorry for what I have done wrong and for what I have failed to do right.  I am a sinner in need of Jesus.  I call on His name, for He died on the cross for me.  I believe and know that You raised Him from the dead.  I ask that You would make me one of Your sheep, for You are the Shepherd and that Jesus is the only Way to the Father.  I also ask that You would make me a new creation in Jesus Christ and I ask for the old things to become new.  Change me, Lord Jesus.  Give me the assurance that I am truly saved.  Thank You for saving me and giving me the assurance.  In Your name, Amen.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Shifting my focus onto God

I know that I am concerned about myself and my problems, specifically my health, my eating habits, my exercise regimen, and my thought life.  Help me to concentrate not on just matters that are important to me, but on more spiritual things.  The problem is, I often focus on the wrong things.  What do You have me to focus on?  What is Your will for those issues in my life?  Those are challenges that I have to face, yet I wonder about this.  I wonder what Your will for my life is.  I also wonder why I am here.  Is it to face my challenges?  Is it rather, to face these specific challenges, or is it something else?  I feel like a broken record but I realize that You care about every detail of my life.

I admit that I spend more time watching TV or movies than I should.  A lot of my praying is about entertainment instead of prayer.  How do I pray for You for an invitation into all of my life?  How do I surrender all of myself to You?  Those are more important than what I watch on TV or what movie to watch.  The truth is, I place too much importance on those things and not enough on spiritual matters.  Repentance and holiness are far more important than a TV show.  I can live without watching a TV show.  I am commanded to repent and be holy.  Watching a movie is not a command.  I need to entertain what is in the Word instead of what I need to entertain myself 24/7.  I often find myself getting up and leave for fear of a trigger or find myself drawn to that movie for whatever reason.

I admit that I don't always practice avoidance because of abstaining from the appearance of evil and for that, I apologize, Lord.  I avoid because of fear of another trigger.  I don't like avoidance as far as having obsessive thoughts because I feel that the obsessions and compulsions have bothered me and ruled me.  I embrace having a crush on someone, I embrace having bipolar.  How do I embrace having obsessive compulsive disorder?  How do I embrace having obsessive thoughts that are now bothersome?  How do I keep them from being too much of a focus in my life?  Lord, I ask that You would show me how.

I hate having obsessive compulsive disorder.  I am told that I have been making a lot of progress which is good.  I just wanted to know why despite all of the progress, I still feel that there is a lot of work.  I have difficulties yet still.  Lord, what do I need to do?  How do I focus on the more important spiritual matters? How do I focus on things that are true, lovely, just, fair, and of good report, as well as pure?  It would be nice if I were to focus on those things and do so on a consistent basis.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, June 23, 2014

Burdened and heavy laden

Lord,

Give me the confidence that I so need to not give up.  I also ask for the strength and motivation to lose weight and to stay with my weight loss.  I need to be wise, so I ask You for wisdom.  The wisdom is for application and consistency.  That was all I had to do.  The last thing I want to do is give up.  I am so tired of being unhealthy and always worrying.  It felt good mentally and physically that I actually worked out.  I actually learned about applying what I have learned to my life.  Thank You for helping me and giving me guidance.

Help me to also think on the things as written in Philippians 4:8.  Help me to think on what is true.  Your Word is truth and You are love and truth.  I have had difficulty thinking on what is true because I felt like I was being ruled by the so-called OCD Persona.  I have grown tired of fighting her or dealing with the thoughts on my own.  I have a hard time reconciling between not being anxious for anything and then letting the anxiety pass because I am to feel the anxiety, thereby letting it pass so that I won't have to deal with it anymore.  Help me to realize that I am not my thoughts and what other people do is none of my business.  I pray for them just like I would pray for myself.

I will have to give an account of my life, good and bad.  I sometimes feel like a failure because of bad decisions that I have made.  I don't just want You to work on me because of a sin, but I want to overcome it, to be truly forgiven for that sin, and for true repentance.  I have done things that I am guilty of and feel guilty for.  I don't wish to have those guilty feelings anymore and I want to treat the present as a gift.  I have trouble with relying on the past and fretting about the future to the point where the here and now is not being focused on enough.  That is what is causing all of the stress in my life.

How do I overcome stress?  Jesus, help me to overcome.  I cast all of my cares over to You.  Thank You for caring for me.  I need help.  I need help in every area of my life.  I want to know how to truly repent of all of my sins and cast all of my cares over to You.  I want and need to be assured of my salvation, or rather, Yours.  I am not doing well like I think, or like You think.  I realize that I have a long way to go.  I can't always consume unhealthy foods and expect to lose weight for example.  I can't live my life caring what the world thinks of me, including my appearance.  Those things have also caused me a lot of stress.  How do I just "let it go" and walk in the newness of God?

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Saturday, June 21, 2014

I shall overcome

Dear Heavenly Father,

I still have those nagging doubts and I have fears to face.  I need help in dealing with those doubts and fears. How do I reconcile confronting fears with casting out fear?  I need the wisdom to know what to do and how to apply things to my daily life.

How do I also reconcile between guilty feelings and also concern for others?  Every time I complain about my situation, I think about the situation of others.  I guess it is because I never wanted to be a selfish person, but I do.  I feel like my problems are not important sometimes.  I guess because because I need to be grateful more.

How do I embrace that I have obsessive compulsive disorder?  How do I overcome these obsessions? How do I overcome performing compulsions?  In short, how do I end the ocd cycle of endless obsessions and compulsions?  Why is it so hard for me to accept?

I know that I am going from topic to topic, but that is how I am feeling at the moment.  I want to stand up to the stress that has occurred in my life.  I realize that I have to do one thing at a time and that following a schedule is very important.  I need help in following a schedule, meditating, and finding time to read Your word and applying it to my life.

Thank You for all that You have done for me.  I am grateful for everything You have done for me from salvation to living.  You have given me the opportunity to create this letter that I so needed.  I needed to express myself and this is my outlet.

Thank You.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Friday, June 20, 2014

Lonely feelings and nagging doubts

Dear Heavenly Father,

I felt alone and I feel like that I will never be set free from the infidelity.  I wonder if there is a way out.  Of course, there is You.  I don't know what to say or how to say it.  I feel like life is passing me by right now, or that is how it seems.

I know that I do complaints but my supplications are sad in nature.  I am thankful that You have given me this opportunity to pour out my complaints to You with thanksgiving.  What do You have me to do for You?  I want to have my prayers answered, but only in faith.

I want to lose weight and eat healthy,but I know that it would take a lot of diligence on my part.  I still have the same nagging doubts and lack of knowledge that I have had even in the recent past.  I lost almost 30 pounds and I blew it.  I would like to lose 100 lbs, which is my ultimate goal.  I am not sure about my highest weight so I have put it at or approximately this said number.

Having polycystic ovarian syndrome would make it even harder to lose weight.  Those nagging doubts have caused me to slip and slide and now it is effecting my health.  I have been, and still am, having doubts due to my weight and my age.  I know that it will be even harder to lose weight, so I guess strength exercises are required.  There is so much I need to do it seems.  All I know is that I don't wish to procrastinate anymore.

Even though I am sore, it felt good to actually exercise.  I would like to continue to do so.  I would like to purchase a pedometer and some more exercise equipment for myself.  I want to enjoy a healthy lifestyle and keep it off.  Also what is wrong with me is that I have unrealistic goals.  I set up these lofty goals that are too high for me to attain.  Meanwhile, I have made plans to fail due to the fact that I still have these doubts.

I ask for a renewal of my mindset as there are times when I wonder what would happen if I had lost all of the weight that I have gained in a long time.  How do I reconcile Your word with what I am going through now?  How can You help me to not only lose weight and keep it off, but not to focus on my outer man so much that I neglect other things?  Lord, I ask for wisdom in this situation.  Help me to face my fears and cast these cares over to You.  I no longer wish to say that without really applying it.  I ask therefore, for peace of mind.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Having OCD and a rough night

Dear God,
How do I overcome my obsessions with infidelity? I read up on stories and I do a lot of checking up on infidelity. The infidelity is about wives committing infidelity. Sometimes I go into fiancees and girlfriends committing infidelity, but it is mainly about wives. I feel alone and I had a rough night due to the obsessions. I sometimes get at my wits end. How do I break the OCD cycle?

I felt guilty about reading up on things concerning a movie that I have not watched.  I am not sure I wish to see the movie.  It is about a bipolar man who lives with his parents after he catches his wife in the shower with another man.  Because of the violence he afflicted upon the other man, he could have been arrested and he goes to live with his parents. He meets this girl who is also mentally ill but later falls in love with. The father does not like the wife it seems, which is also a bone of contention for me.

I live in a fantasy world which means that reality may be too harsh for me, so what I do is stay safe.  I wish it wasn't like that.  I wish that I could do more for myself and not having to worry about something that is a trigger.  I feel alone in all of this, even when the thought goes away.  The thoughts come back but they are not as intense, but they are still annoying.  I don't know why I have thoughts about infidelity committed by wives.  It doesn't make sense and I know this.  Is avoidance a good thing or a bad thing?  I wondered that.

I need help in breaking the OCD cycle.  It is nothing but the obsession, the anxiety, the compulsion/checking, and relief only to have those start over again.  I am tired.  I cannot expose myself to infidelity committed by wives.  I just wish the thoughts could just pass and the OCD just "leave me alone".  It is like a bully that has given me a hard time and I feel like I cannot take it anymore.  I no longer know what to do and I cast all of my cares upon You.  I believe and know that You care for me.

Help me to overcome seeing negative, ungodly images that appear in my mind.  I need healing and I ask for guidance and healing.  I ask also for the wisdom to know the difference between me and the thoughts.  Last night the OCD was so intense.  I don't know what has happened.  I don't know if it is the enemy or not.  I have no idea.  All I know is that I need help and I cannot take it anymore.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

I pray we'll all be ready

Dear God,

I had a pretty good day.  I am listening to this song called "I pray we'll all be ready" and I can relate.  I don't want to be the only one in my family who will be ready.  I am also concerned that I won't be ready.  Show me what I need to do.  Help me to see always that my body is Your temple and that I need to honor and take care of it.  I wonder if it is the case with me.   Am I taking care of myself?  Have I fully honored You and my body?

I can also relate to the fact that there is so much I want to do when I am still here.  I want nothing more than to be ready for Your return.  I want and desire holiness.  I want to focus on the eternal.  I ask for the assurance that I am born again.  I don't want to pray words that sound good enough to hopefully get my prayers answered.  I want to have my prayers answered because of faith in You.

I have had issues with that for years and I have no clue about what else to do.  Life is just too short and I feel like I haven't accomplished much.  I am too careful or not careful enough.  I would like to be modest, eat in moderation, not to mention live life at a happy medium.  The truth is, I wonder about things like have I tried to gain the whole world at the cost of my soul?

I have a lot of questions about that.  Am I really ready?  How do I prepare myself for Your return, Jesus? Am I being one of the five wise or one of the five foolish virgins?  I have had doubts about being saved for years now and it seems like I shouldn't have these doubts, but the fact of the matter is, I do.  It is scary because it is reality based unlike the ones about infidelity or nude pictures being sent.  I have had thoughts based on ungodly things for years and I need to help and continue thinking on what is true, fair-minded, lovely, just, and of good report.  I realize that what I am thinking has a lot to do with my eternal destiny because of the obvious connection between thinking and doing.  But what I am doing and what is in my heart is just as important if not more so.  Sometimes I have difficulty expressing myself but what I am trying to point out is that holiness is required for a believer.

May I grow in You.  I am Yours.  Help me to be still and know that You are God.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, June 16, 2014

Expression

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank You for the day that I had.  I am sorry that I didn't write to You earlier.  Sometimes it is hard to express myself sometimes.  My prayers at times tend to be rather short.  Personally I prefer the longer letters and prayers.  At least I get to express myself like I did yesterday.  You have given me the answer yesterday and for that, I am thankful.  Your decision making and Your wisdom giving are impeccable, to say the least. Again, I thank You.

On the subject, having PCOS is no easy walk in the park.  I am trying to eat according to the PCOS in which diabetes is one of the complications.  I also have high blood pressure and high blood sugar.  The best and most important reason why I wanted to lose weight was because I wanted to be healthy.  It didn't really sink in until recent years.

I had other reasons too, but my health sometimes I feel is declining.  I may exaggerate but I am still scared.  I don't like what my future holds if I don't do something about it.  I don't want amputated limbs or even an early death from something that I could have prevented.  I don't want to live in regret.  I am grateful for what I have.  I don't wish to take those things for granted.  I am learning not to take it for granted and I want to continue to do so.

Help me to see that all will be well or at least things will get better. However with Your guidance I have come to see that with You, all things are possible.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Sunday, June 15, 2014

Having PCOS

Dear Heavenly Father,

I have PCOS.  I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.  It is reeking havoc on my mind and body.  I am thankful that my spirit is still intact.  Help me to cope with having this issue.  I am now suffering the complications of this condition including diabetes, high blood pressure, and not to mention, high cholesterol. I have become self-conscious as a result.

I am short and very overweight and I became even more overweight since I realize years ago that I have this condition.  I am relieved that I have knowledge about this condition.  Now I can do something about it.  I feel like You are guiding me with this letter.  I am thankful for that.  I appreciate it.  I really do.

I have been feeling self-conscious for a long time and I feel guilty that I feel bad with having this condition when there are those who have cancer, MS, Aids, and suffer diabetes complications.  I pray for their healing and I ask that You would remind me of them daily.  You have given me a heart and a mind.  I thank You for answering my prayer with this letter.

Having PCOS is something that I have gotten used to.  I have accepted that fact.  What I haven't accepted is that I have to lose weight and change my diet whereas I wish I could just heal myself.  However, I don't have that kind of power.  I ask that Jesus Christ would heal me and that in the meantime, He would help me to manage my condition whatever is in His will.

Life is too short to be overly anxious and worried, but I am concerned, especially about the diabetes, which is one of the complications.  Help me to set up a strategy so that I can lose weight and keep it off.  I know it is going to be a while, but I have my fears and doubts since I have lost and gained weight over the years. Help me to overcome those fears and doubts.  I put You first in my life and I put You first in my mind and body.  Give me the tools that I need to manage this condition.

What does Your word say about my condition?  What does it say about managing my condition?  I ask You for wisdom and guidance.  I ask You for help, Lord, and I greatly appreciate it.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Saturday, June 14, 2014

Short prayer of discernment

Dear Heavenly Father,

Help me to discern what is right and what is wrong.

Thank You.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Friday, June 13, 2014

Focusing on what is eternal

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank You for the many blessings You have bestowed upon me.  I didn't realize how good it is to gather with my brethren in Christ.  Lord, I have a lot of work to do.  I call on Your name, Jesus.  I pray for wisdom and focus.  Lord, give me those things so that I may open my eyes and see that my thoughts are based on the temporal and not on the eternal.  I didn't actually realize that until yesterday.  Help me to continue to see that and I thank You for doing so.


In Jesus' name,


Amen

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Focus on the eternal

Dear God,

Help me to focus on You and not on the world.  Forgive me of my sins.  I trust You.  I will keep my mind in perfect peace, for my mind is stayed on You.  In other words, cleaving to You is submitting myself to You.  I submit myself to You.  I am beginning to understand what it things to think on You, to not be anxious, to be thankful, and to focus on You, because You are eternal.

Help me to focus to focus on the eternal, for what bothers me is only temporary.  I also ask that You would change me and that You would renew my mind, that I may be transformed.  I feel so much better since I have prayed to You this morning.  Thank You for forgiving me of all of my sins.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Decisions to make

Dear Lord,

I feel like I have so many decisions to make.  Why can't others be friends?  How do I get over the fear? What is all wrong with me?  I have been living in a cycle for many years and while much of them have gone away, the obsessive thoughts that remain annoy me and the compulsions I have difficulty controlling.  My thoughts are similar but I fear that I will become like the OCD Persona.  I will become what I don't like.  The OCD Persona is either a busybody, judgmental, or anxiety-ridden.  I have no idea how to break the cycle of obsessive thoughts and compulsions though I am learning.  What do I need to do?

I also have PCOS but should I try to lose weight according to the PCOS since diabetes is one of the main complications to having PCOS?  Should I lose weight according to the diabetes which has its own complications?  It seems like a chicken and egg philosophy, but is it?  My strategy to lose weight is flawed. Should I even have a strategy?  What should I do?

I am just in a cycle of endless, bothersome thoughts, even more compulsions, and health issues.  Should I be overly concerned about my age and the amount of medications that I take for my age?  I am just tired of always struggling.  I am tired of the mindless eating.  I am just tired of the thoughts and the compulsions.  I just need Your wisdom and guidance.  I ask You also for peace of mind, something that I need right now.  I am having thoughts about a possible celebrity feud and while I don't care, the OCD Persona does.  I, Letters to God, don't care, but the OCD Persona is strong and wants me to care.  God, what should I do?

I don't want to give in to what the OCD Persona has in store for me.  Like I said, I don't like her, but I cannot seem to live without her.  I also have unrepentant sin in my life.  How do I repent of that sin and just not do it again?  I don't want to live this way.  I am not depressed but I just am tired.  I am a bit weary and my whole life is a cycle.  Lord, what should I do?

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Saturday, June 7, 2014

Not much to say

Dear God,

There isn't too much for me to say except to say, Thank You.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Friday, June 6, 2014

My spiritual "goals" and the persecuted church

Dear Heavenly Father,

In the name of Jesus, I thank You for saving me.  You have given me grace and help in a time of need.  I wish to be an obedient believer.  Help me to abstain from all appearance of evil.  I have got a lot of things to tell You about.  I have allowed myself to get caught up in the things of this world.

What is so evil about entertainment?  Anything that keeps me from glorifying You and causes me to err or rather concentrate on this world is evil in my eyes.  I am supposed to live holy and thus be holy.  I am supposed to be wise and be set apart from the world.  I have come to realize that this is easier said than done.

Being a believer has not been easy.  But like exercise there is no pain, no gain.  It is something I have to realize since there are so many in the world who are believers who are having it harder.  I pray that we as believers in America will remember them and pray for them.  Many of them have already been martyred for their faith.  I believe that I as an American, have no idea what is going on in the rest of the world.

It is so sad that too many hypocrites and other unrepentant people are in the church.  Too many Americans are "playing church".  It is a place for parties, fashion shows, and dinners to honor the pastor.  I understand that people gather in church and it is an institution in some areas, but the call to be salt and light should be our first priority.  There is just so much wrong in our churches here.

I cannot imagine having to be martyred for my faith.  I may be called old-fashioned, narrow-minded, and bigoted, but I cannot imagine being kidnapped, raped, burned, or killed for my faith.  Your Word gives a testimony of people who have had that happen to them.  I pray for those believers who are being persecuted and oppressed for they will one day be free and they will receive their reward.  I pray for unbelievers that they see these salts and lights of the earth and that the Holy Spirit will lead them to salvation and repentance.

May I remember them daily and keep my mind on the eternal.  I can only imagine that that is what the persecuted church sees and that is they not have it hard but they are trying to keep their minds stayed on You.  Help me to remember all of them, including the leaders in the nations where believers and those who do not know the Lord lack the freedom to worship You.  Help me to see that there are caring people in the world who are not exploiting them, but are remembering them and are praying for them.  May I be one of these people who pray without ceasing.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Thursday, June 5, 2014

Wisdom of God

Dear Heavenly Father,


Thou hast showed great mercy unto David my father, and hast made me to reign in his stead.
9 Now, O LORD God, let thy promise unto David my father be established: for thou hast made me king over a people like the dust of the earth in multitude. Gen. 13.16 ; 28.14
10 Give me now wisdom and knowledge, that I may go out and come in before this people: for who can judge this thy people, that is so great?


"Lord, give me wisdom that I may give You my all.  Forgive me of all of my sins.  You are worthy of praise.  Thank You, Lord Jesus.  In Your name, Amen."

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Thank You, Father

Dear Heavenly Father,

There isn't much that I can say but I thank You anyways.

Love,


Letters to God

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Loving and being kind to myself

Dear God,

Help me see that the affirmations that I tweet are accurate and that with confidence I can apply them to my life.  I feel so much better about myself since I have been writing these affirmations.  Granted, I still have a self-esteem problem.  The root is that I care what others think.  What is most important is what You think.  I have allowed myself to get caught up in the things of the world.  I realized that getting out of that mindset is a struggle.  However, it means that I wish to change.

I am making plans to include You though maybe I should not have written that.  Of course I am supposed to include You.  What I mean is in short, it is not good to get caught up in the things of the world and so stressed out.  I ask for peace of mind and clarity.  Lord, help me to see that little miracles do indeed happen everyday, especially with all of the light-bulb moments that I have had.  Reveal more to me and I ask for a renewal of not just my mind but of my heart. 

I have issues with my health and it seems everything else.  I feel that if I keep my "eye" on You, then things will go well.  I realize that things will not be easy but You are all I have.  Lord, thank You for always guiding me with Your Eye.  I ask for continued guidance for I am in need of wisdom.  I need a sense of direction in my life.  I give all that I have and all that I am to You. 

Thank you,

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, June 2, 2014

My thank you letter

Dear God,

Thank You for the day I had.  Thank You for the many blessings in my life.  Thank You for supplying all my needs according to Your riches and glory.  Thank You and I give You the glory and honor, for You are worthy of it.  Thank You, Lord.  Thank You.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Sunday, June 1, 2014

What I need for today

Lord,

Give me the wisdom and strength to make it through the day.

In Jesus' name,

Amen