Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Thank You-End of 2013

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank You first and foremost for saving me and giving me the assurance of my salvation.  Thank You for an interesting 2013.  I am thankful that I have survived a crazy, crazy year.  So much can happen in a year.  Do not let me stray and draw me closer to You in 2014.  Help me not to worry so much about the little things. Help me to continue to seek You first Your Kingdom and Your Righteousness.  Thank You for giving me wisdom and faith.  You are, and have been, providing miracles for me and my family.  I have not always done right, but You are faithful.  You have given me the strength I need to carry me through.  For all of those things, I thank You.

Sincerely,


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Monday, December 30, 2013

Mundane Needs to God

Father,

I ask for Your forgiveness of all of my sins.  I am a sinner who lacks wisdom and is in need of guidance. Tomorrow I have an undertaking.  It seems rather silly, but I have to go to the store tomorrow and I don't know what to do.  I give You complete and total control over this situation.  I give You my all.  I need You for even the most mundane of things.  But I do know that You want all of us.  You rather that we would be hot or cold, but not lukewarm.  You don't want for me to straddle the fence on anything.  That is what being holy and righteous are all about.

I plan to spend within a credit limit and I am not sure that I can go under that limit.  The tax is an even bigger concern.  I have a small income and I don't wish to spend over the limit minus the tax.  I just feel like giving up.  We have so many needs and are running out of things and so I have to spend some of it.  I plan to divide up two lists.  I am thankful for my income but I am also thankful that You are God and that You care not only for me, but for all of my needs as well.

I turn them over to You for You, and I thank You, give me wisdom and guidance.  I really need Your help in this.  

Sincerely,


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Sunday, December 29, 2013

Desire to lose weight

Dear Lord,

I ask for Your forgiveness.  I have a motivation to lose weight.  I need to lose weight, but I want to do it for me and me alone.  Help me to continue motive myself.  I put my trust in You.  I give You complete and total control over this situation.  I need Your help.  I am almost 5'2" and weigh about 300 lbs.  I have become self-conscious over my weight.  I have a hard time fitting through a door, to fit into clothes that I desire to fit in, and also to fit into a chair in the living room.  There are things that are hard for me to do since I gained weight.  I have also eaten unhealthy and gained most of my weight back.  I am not proud of that at all.  I have no set goals and that is the problem.  Help me to set realistic goals in this weight loss journey.  I am an overweight diabetic who is out of shape.  I want to feel better about myself.  I want to be more confident and healthier.  I would like to learn to eat healthier and lose weight.  I have PCOS which has been a problem for me, but I have to learn that PCOS is just a medical condition that I have to take care of.  I need to take better care of myself as You show me how.  By the way, what does Your word say about my weighty situation?

Sincerely,

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Saturday, December 28, 2013

Weight loss confusion

Dear God,

I know that I need to lose weight, but I don't have the desire to do so.  I live in a society where fat is bad and thin is in.  I don't fit a standard of beauty no matter how narrow.  I have lived for society but I am also self-conscious.  Why do I need to lose weight?  The truth is, I don't really know.  I have theories and only that: theories.  I am making no sense, but I am being honest.  I know I need to, but I am scared that I won't be able to lose weight.  I need to take stock of my health and exercise regimen.  But I have not examined myself and I have not motivated myself.  I have been so stressed out about my weight that I realized that I only wanted to lose weight for unknown reasons. I just don't know.  I am lost and confused about my weight issues.  That is the truth.  I know that I need to but I have not set any goals for myself and I don't know where to begin.  Help me, Lord.  What do I need to do?  I know that I need to change my mindset, but I am not wise about my own body.  What shall I do?

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Friday, December 27, 2013

Inventory

Dear Father,

Forgive me for all of my sins, including apathy and not spending enough time with You.  Prayer, or rather You, have been so good to me.  Help me take stock of my life and take control. I feel so out of control and I am so ignorant of Your devices.  Fill me with the Holy Spirit.  Take the weight of the world off of my shoulders for I have been stressed out.  I will take Your yolk upon me and learn of You, for I am burdened and heavy laden.  I need wisdom, guidance, peace of mind, and a sense of wisdom.  My life is good, but it could be better.  Give me the assurance that with You, I can be strong and wise and exhibit self-control.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Thursday, December 26, 2013

Thank You, Lord

Dear God,

MR and CO don't bother me much anymore, but I occasionally have thoughts about them.  You see, CO has written a book about her life which includes MR.  I think that she has the right to write whatever she wants.  I just hope it is true.  In the grand scheme of things, she is not writing about my life but her own. Life for the most part is vanity.  I pray that they both get the help they need.  They need You, Jesus.  Save them and love them.  Send a true Christian their way so that they know about You.  MR is Catholic and CO is Buddhist.  They need You.  I will pray for them.  Now it is time for me to move on with my life.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Happy Birthday, Jesus!

Dear Jesus,

Thank You for dying on the cross for me.  I believe that You rose from the dead.  Oh holy Savior, I wish You a Happy Birthday.  Thank You for all.

Love,


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Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Intercession

Dear God,

May I not forget why many of us down here on Earth celebrate Christmas.  I know that there are some materialistic people out there and all they care about are gifts.  Forgive me if I have been materialistic.  I pray that tomorrow would be a good Christmas for my family and myself.  However, I also pray for the young girl who is on life support.  Please, Lord, let her live.  Give her family a miracle that they desperately need.  I recall that You raised a young girl from the dead.  Will You please do that for that young girl and provide her family with peace of mind and comfort?  Your answer will be greatly appreciated.

Sincerely,


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Sunday, December 22, 2013

I am doing so much better

Dear God,

Thank You.  I feel better than I did this morning.  I am glad that things went well today.  I feel like I have been addicted to MR.  I was obsessed.  I had to do well.  I was afraid of anything triggering another thought. I know that the thoughts are not supposed to hurt me.  However, I am afraid of them hurting me.  I get nervous and anxious and scared at the very same time something triggers a thought.  I have had thoughts this morning about MR. I didn't know what else to do but to ruminate over them.  Show me how to not be anxious, yet embrace the fact that I have thoughts.  I guess thoughts will always arrive.  I am here to write that I have drawn closer to You.  Help me to live a holy and righteous life.

Thank You also for taking away my thoughts.  It was quite lonely and flat.  It was dreadful and I hope to never doubt You again.  Forgive me, Father.  I am happier now.  Help me to be patient and kind.  Help me live a holy and righteous life that I so need.  Help me to make the right choices because of my love and reverence for You and Your commands. My thoughts and my fear of triggers have controlled my life and have made my world smaller.  I want to expand my world and experience new things.  I want to do wholesome things like gardening and writing again.  I want to watch wholesome shows and movies.  I just feel like the world is anything but a wholesome place and I look forward to Your return.  Even so, come Lord Jesus.  May Your grace be with us all.

Sincerely,


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Saturday, December 21, 2013

Being real with God

Dear God,

Help me draw nearer to You.  Help me to overcome doubt.  Help me to tell You how I really feel.  I am doubting You and all others.  I have been fearful and doubtful.  That is not a pretty combination.  Restore me to newness and to wholeness.  I thank You for doing so.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Friday, December 20, 2013

Flatness of feeling

Dear Heavenly Father,

I am a literal blank slate.  I have all of these things I want to say but I am afraid that they might come out wrong.  Draw me closer to You.  You seem so distant to me right now.  My needs become wants and I don't know what to do or how to ask you.  I am just so tired of this.  I have nothing to muse on nor do I have anything to talk to You about.  I just feel empty inside.  I don't feel numb, just empty.  It is worse than being manic but it is better to be depressed.  Maybe I should be thankful and blessed that I am in this state.   I realize now that I am.  Protect me from all harm, provide my financial needs. set me free from the burden of debt, and give me spiritual rest.  Those are things that I pray for and need to continually pray for.  Lord, Jesus, in Your name, teach me how to pray.

Amen

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Unanswered prayer

Father,

I got embarrassed at the store today and I have virtually have no money.  I need money for provision for my needs.  I didn't do a great job shopping today.  I don't know how much money I needed.  I just know that at this time there are things that I did not get that I wished that I had gotten. I am sure my mother is disappointed.  I am disappointed at myself.

I need You to come through for me financially and otherwise.  I know You are doing what is best for me, but help me to approach things from Your perspective.  Help me to understand why some prayers get answered and why others don't.  What have said or done?  Is there anything that I should have truly repented of? What went wrong?

I wish that I knew.  I really wish a lot of things today.  God, help me, please.  Help me.

Sincerely,


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Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Prayer of Thanksgiving

God of all blessings,
source of all life,
giver of all grace:

We thank you for the gift of life:
for the breath
that sustains life,
for the food of this earth
that nurtures life,
for the love of family and friends
without which there would be no life.

We thank you for the mystery of creation:
for the beauty
that the eye can see,
for the joy
that the ear may hear,
for the unknown
that we cannot behold filling the universe with wonder,
for the expanse of space
that draws us beyond the definitions of our selves.

We thank you for setting us in communities:
for families
who nurture our becoming,
for friends
who love us by choice,
for companions at work,
who share our burdens and daily tasks,
for strangers
who welcome us into their midst,
for people from other lands
who call us to grow in understanding,
for children
who lighten our moments with delight,
for the unborn,
who offer us hope for the future.

We thank you for this day:
for life
and one more day to love,
for opportunity
and one more day to work for justice and peace,
for neighbors
and one more person to love
and by whom be loved,
for your grace
and one more experience of your presence,
for your promise:
to be with us,
to be our God,
and to give salvation.

For these, and all blessings,
we give you thanks, eternal, loving God,
through Jesus Christ we pray. Amen.

Monday, December 16, 2013

Teach me

Dear God,

Help me to be a more honest person whenever I pray.  Teach me, Lord, how to pray.  You know all of my needs before I even ask of them.  I give of myself to You.  Teach me how to be grateful for I have my reasons.  Teach me Your ways, for I am Yours.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Sunday, December 15, 2013

I messed up

Dear God,

Help me to know You better.  I have done something wrong and I am worried that my prayer won't be answered.  I guess that all I have to do is how I really feel.  I am thankful that You are here to answer my prayer.  I messed up and I don't know what to do.  Help me, Lord.  Help me.

Sincerely,


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Saturday, December 14, 2013

Help me to pray...

Dear Heavenly Father,

Grant me the serenity to accept change when it is needed.  Grant me patience also.  I am 10 days away from Christmas Eve and 11 days from Christmas.  I am looking forward to those days.  This is my favorite time of the year.  I am taking a holiday from my obsessions so to speak.  Thank You for setting me free from being obsessed with MR and his ex-wife CO.  There is just so much that I wish to thank You for.  You have supplied my needs when I didn't realize it.  I wonder what happens today.  I admit that I do not glorify You in all of my ways, and I ask for Your forgiveness.  Help me to exhibit the fruits of the Spirit.  Also, help me to be mindful of all who are less fortunate.  Help me to acknowledge You in all of my ways.  Lord, I ask that You would direct my paths as You have promised.

Life is something that I often reflect on and I am happy with most decisions that I have made.  I have had obsessive thoughts for years and years and years it seems.  I realize that I am needy and lazy.  I am sorry for having grown lazy over the last few days.  I admit that I get too caught up in the things of the world and have done not enough to set myself apart from all things worldly.  What sins have I not repented of?  Cleanse me from all of my faults.  More than anything, I want to live a righteous and holy life.  I am trying, but not the best that I can.  I am sorry for that.

Thank You that no matter what, You are a loving and forgiving God.  But I also know that You don't want for us to play around with sin and be a friend of the world.  There are things about me that are still worldly like how I see Christmas.  You see, I love Christmas and I also love giving.  I want to be patient and at the same time expectant.  That is I guess how it is with prayer.  I am expectant of an answer to my petition yet I realize that I have to be patient.  I do believe that You are an on-time God, but because of my impatience and my lack of knowledge, I often fail to realize that You are above me and I am made a little lower than the angels.

I admit that patience is not a virtue of mine.  I also admit that I want to be financially free.  I need enough money to pay bills and restore my credit, help my Mom out, and to buy more for Christmas.  That is quite a bit of money for me, but that is enough for You.  Help me to keep that in mind.  Forgive me for my doubt and lack of patience.  Help me to overcome the fears that You don't answer prayers about even the "pettiest" of matters.  I have to learn and realize that nothing is petty to You.  All I have to do is to tell You how I really feel.

I thank You that You want the best for me.

Sincerely,


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Friday, December 13, 2013

Questions

Dear God,

There are things that I don't know what to pray for.  I am worried that I would be asking amiss.  How do I overcome that?  How do I ask You for help for instance?  Is this an excuse of a lack of faith?

Sincerely,

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Thursday, December 12, 2013

Christmas Question

Dear God,

Thank You for supplying all of my needs.  I love Phillippians 4.  Help me to continue to apply that chapter to my daily life.  I have been through a trying time and I am just wondering if You would supply a particular need.  You know how I feel about the Christmas season and I would like to know how You feel about Christmas.  I never got an answer from You.  It is not in the Bible specifically but I believe that You have all the answers, so I would like to know.  How should a Christian celebrate it and should a believer even celebrate it at all?   Your answer will be greatly appreciated.

Sincerely,

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Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Little miracles

Dear God,

I thank You that little miracles happen everyday.

Sincerely,

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Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Dear God

Dear God,
I have often wondered things about You.  Did You create Yourself?  Who created You?  I know You were created through the Son who is my Savior.

Help me to examine myself to see if I am of the faith.  I have had doubts about being saved.  I have often gotten caught up in the things of the world. I have had obsessions about MR, CO, SS1, and SS2.  They are not productive and they are a waste of time.  I have just wasted minutes on MR.  I believe he needs help and guidance.  All of us do.  We need You.

I pray that He would pray for forgiveness.  He seems like a guy who needs help.  His case seems rather extreme.  But I don't wish to further my obsession to further write about him.  I just pray that he gets the help and intercession he needs.

I realize that my issues with lust are compulsive.  It is hard to overcome because I give in to temptation.  Provide a way for me to escape.  I have been caught up in my obsessions.  I feel like a crazy person.  Examine me or help me to examine why I have been obsessed and why I commit the sins that I have committed.  I hope that all will be well with me.  I ask that You would renew my mind.

Change me from the inside.  I want to live and be holy and righteous.  Give me the assurance of my salvation.  You are my strength and salvation.  No amount of height, width, or depth can stop us from loving each other.  Thank You for loving me first.  I need to know that You would always be there for me no matter what.  Help me to take joy in this trying time.

Be there for me, Lord.  Help me, Lord.  Help me.

Sincerely,


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Monday, December 9, 2013

I need help with a problem

Dear God,

I am here to tell You that I need help.  I am a glutton and I cannot stop eating.  I need help and I don't know who else to turn to except for You.  Your help would be greatly appreciated.

Sincerely,

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Sunday, December 8, 2013

Saturday, December 7, 2013

This Christmas

Dear God,

I believe that little miracles happen everyday.  You know of my needs before I even ask of them.  This year, I look forward to Christmas.  This is my favorite time of the year.  Life is so short to be miserable.  I love Christmas, but this year, I would like to celebrate Christmas the way it should be celebrated.  It should be celebrated with Jesus in mind.

Sincerely,

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Friday, December 6, 2013

Not enough thankfulness

Dear God,

Thank You today for answering my prayers.  I am so thankful.  However, I feel like being thankful is not enough. 

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Thursday, December 5, 2013

How does God feel?

Dear God,

Let me tell You how thankful I am.  I have been having issues as of late.  You never mentioned how You feel about Christmas.  How do You feel about things?  I ask for myself but I rarely ask about You.  I wish I could do a better job of doing so.  Are You angry with me or with the world at large?  I have wondered about You.  Who created You?  Did You create Yourself?  I know that with You all things are possible and they seem silly to the world, but I am sure they are meaningful to You.  I hope You will appreciate this letter.  I have been wondering lately about spiritual things and have weaned myself off of the things of the world.  Maybe that means that I am being perfected.  That cannot be done with those of the world, but can be done with true believers. 

Does it bother You that I have doubts sometimes because I am not sure that You will answer the kind of prayers that I ask?  You see, I need money.  I know I am a spendthrift who has an obsession with budgeting.  I can barely stop.  I have too many budgets and it seems too obsessive.  Maybe my brother is right.  I am too obsessed with grocery lists.  Maybe I am just bored.  Who knows but You.  Maybe there is an underlying cause behind it.  I want to have a good Christmas but I don't know how You feel about the holiday.  Does Christmas honor Jesus or does it offend Him?  Does it matter if we celebrate it or not?  Does the intention of the celebration matter?

I am concerned that I may be asking for the wrong reasons.  The truth is, I need financial help.  I would like for my bills to be paid.  I am also interceeding for my mom.  She too has bills to pay and now she is broke just like I am.  Money is a necessary thing that all of us are in need of.  How can I ask for financial help while keeping to Your will in prayer?   How shall I go about praying for financial help?  Give me the right words to say.  Your help will be greatly appreciated.

Sincerely,

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Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Financial help

Dear God,

Help me.  I need help.  I am in need of money to buy gifts and for provision to pay my bills.  I also need help with budgeting.  Send someone to hold me accountable for my financial mistakes that I hope to never make.  I want to please You with my finances and I give my financial concerns into You.  I leave them in Your hands.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

I'm sorry and I thank You

Dear God,

I am sorry for what I have done today.  There are times when I seem to have forgotten You and I am so sorry.  You speak to me and there are times when I should have listened.  You speak the truth because You cannot lie.  I am so happy for all that I have and all that I am, but that is only because of You.  I thank You, and I love You.  Help me to show You that I need to be holy and righteous so that I will be ready.

Sincerely,


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Sunday, December 1, 2013

blessed

Dear God,

All I can say is thank You.  Help me to be patient today.  Thank You for giving me another day.  I am just blessed to be alive to thank You.

Sincerely,

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