Wednesday, December 31, 2014

I have just started a program but I have to deal with a lot of issues..

Heavenly Father,

Take the confusion from me. What I am trying to say is that I have been confused and out of it.  I don't know if it is all of the meal plans, rules, and regulations.  I have been trying to lose weight for years.  I would like to be able to lose weight without trouble.  That is not realistic.  Help me to deal with the issues that have caused me to give up in the first place.  I know that I love food, but I realize that food doesn't love me back.  I need, want, and desire to lose weight.

I have been self-conscious for a long time and today was the day I have decided that no more will I remain self-conscious.  I have difficulty moving when I am active because I have been limited by my weight.  Help me to keep that in mind whenever I have something to deal with.  Right now, I am dealing with mental confusion.  Maybe that has been the problem.  I have been confused and tired for so long that maybe I have became fixated about my weight.

I have really wanted to lose weight but I have been thrown off course.  I don't wish to be a beginner any longer.  I ask that You would remove the stumbling blocks that will keep me from accomplishing my goal.  I have a set goal now and I am feeling better.  I would like to lose over 80 lbs.  I see it as a daunting task, but my mindset has got to change.  Help me to relax.  It is no use spending all of this money whenever I am so stressed out about this.

In fact, help me to deal with stress.  I have allowed stress to take over my life.  I tire of it.  The thing is, though, I don't want to just tire of things.  I want to do something about it.  I want to be committed and remain committed.  The thing that scare me the most is that I am afraid that I won't be committed but remain committed.  I have no idea how to deal with plateaus, eating the right kinds of foods, and dealing with frustration.  That is why I have signed up with Weight Watchers for the third time.

Help me to lose weight.  I weigh nearly 300 pounds and I have never weighed that before a few years ago.  I don't wish to stay 300 pounds for a while and then gain even more weight to a point where I will remain at that weight for a while.  I have noticed that my weight is a series of cycles.  It is a cycle that I have a hard time getting out of, but I realize that it is not impossible.   I am asking for a change of mindset and a way to stay committed.

My life is a testimony of confusion and giving up.  My eating habits have become emotional than ever before.  My poor eating habits have to do with stress.  Help me to deal with stress.  It scares me that losing weight will be a journey that one has to stick to and commit to.  I fear that I will not be up to the challenge.  Give me the strength and guidance that I need to be and remain up to the challenge. I ask that You would show me what I need to do.

I want more than anything to do something about it.  I have allowed myself to be thrown off course so many times I have to look back at what I did right and what I have done wrong.  Help me to deal with the cares of this life and not get so caught up in the things of the world.  Help me to see myself as You see me.  I know Your Word says that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, but I admit that I have a hard time believing it.  I don't really think I am beautiful or wonderfully made.  I have dealt with guilt over gaining weight, the stress of knowing that I will fail this time, comparing myself to others, the low self-esteem, and the fact that I hate to and I am afraid to fail.  Not only do I ask to take over my affairs, but to not be and feel like I am lazy and powerless.  Help me to change my mindset so that I will remain eating and thus being healthy.

I am now under the stress that I will fail and that I will remain confused.  I tire of it, but I don't wish to remain tired.  I want to and need to do something about it.  I know and realize that my health problems are due to having diabetes and other risk factors due to my weight gain.  Help me to see what my counselor says could happen to me if I don't commit myself to losing weight and having no real set goals.  I also ask that You will help me to conquer all of my fears.  I surrender all to You and I ask You for forgiveness and lack of faith.  Give me the faith and desire to not only commit myself but to overcome and deal with whatever confusion and challenge that I know will come my way such as fear, doubt, and not dealing with the stress in my life.  Help me to not do all of the work and do things that will cause further confusion which in turn will most likely cause me to quit.  Help me to make the right decisions and to not feel bad whenever I slip up.  I need to see that things won't be perfect as I am not perfect.  Help me to see reality as it truly is and not as I want it.

I have a perfectionist problem and I would like to be realistic and honest with myself.  How do I do that when I have anxiety, mental health problems, physical health problems, an unrealistic mindset, and having difficulty with application of what I know and what I have learned.  I further ask that You would give me the tools and the guidance that I need to not only lose weight but to be healthy and to keep it off.  Help me to further set more realistic goals and to not just see the difficulty in the details but also see the big picture and to not see it as a daunting task.  I ask for Your help in this matter and I ask that You would help me to take care of myself.  Thank You for giving the opportunity to present this request to You.  I also thank You that nothing is too hard for You.  I thank You for Your forgiveness and Your salvation.  Thank You and I praise You.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Salvation and also being assured of salvation

Lord Jesus,

I believe in my heart that The Father rose You from the dead and that You are the Son of God. Thank You for dying on the cross for me.  You have made the ultimate sacrifice so that I would be saved. I ask that You would save me and give me the assurance of my salvation.  I have had trouble being assured that I am saved.  I know that it sounds bad that I have been having doubts for we are saved by faith.  I realize that my faith is not very strong as it should be.  I ask that You would strengthen my faith and open my eyes that I may see that You are not only the Son of God, that You are Lord and Savior as well.  I want to be a born-again Christian.  I ask that You would fill me with the Holy Spirit.  Help me to live for You and serve You everyday of my life.  Help me to live daily as if it is my life for how I live in the temporal will determine how I will live for all eternity.  May I love You always and may You always guide me even in the midst of the darkest times.  I need, want, and desire to change, so I ask You to change me, and make me a new creation in Christ Jesus.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  I am a sinner who is in need of You, Lord, and Savior.

In Your name,


I thank You,


Amen

Monday, December 29, 2014

In need of a change

Father,

I am not a strong person.  I feel like I am so weak and powerless sometimes if not often.  I have difficulty applying even the simplest tasks sometimes.  For example, I have difficulty losing weight. Maybe I am not fully committed to losing weight.  Mentally everything seems to be okay but physically I have no real commitment though I have every reason to commit and commit totally. I am overweight, if not obese, I am diabetic, and high blood pressure and high cholesterol.  I even wheeze at times, I am growing out of clothes, and be able to do things that others take for granted.  For years I have been comparing myself to others, but I have become more self-conscious of my weight and my appearance.  I just wish that I wasn't so self-conscious.  The truth is, I have no real goals set though I have tried in the past.  Help me, Lord with this.

I haven't always been a good Christian.  I am a sinner yes, but I am not the most obedient salt and light that I could be.  I have been having doubts for years about being born again.  I still am not so sure if I am truly born again.  I have asked Jesus for salvation but it is as if I have to find the right words to say.  I realize that I am invoking something whenever I pray.  It is as if I pray words instead of in faith.  I am not so sure if I even call You Heavenly Father.  I pray to You for one thing and pray to Jesus for other things.  My faith is not as strong as it should be.  I need help, Lord.

I am also in need of not being scared of other people and what they are going to do to me.  I have been this way since my childhood.  I have been and still have been unable to stand up for myself. I can't do certain things because I have too little love and respect for myself.  I wonder if that makes me a friend of the world and one of Your enemies.  I am so caught up in the things of the world that I often fail to realize that all of this is temporary.  I wish I didn't feel this way and be this way.  That is why so many of my letters and prayers are so negative.  I would like to be positive every once in a while.  Help me, Lord, for I tire of all of the negativity in my life.  I hate that I have allowed this to happen.

I also need healing from having mental and emotional problems.  I realize that there are those who have AIDS, cancer, ebola, and other diseases that are far more deadly.  I will pray for them.  I am so saddened that diseases exist.  I wish that all of us could be healthy, including myself.  That is I believe I ask for healing.  The truth is, I cannot take it anymore.  I tire of the negative thoughts, the condemnation, the compulsions, the low self worth that goes with it.  I also tire of the obsessive thoughts and all of these issues.  I wonder too much about fictional characters and what kind of people they are.  I am afraid that those on television will be like those in my thoughts.  I have grown obsessed with television and movies.  Lord, please heal me.  I just am not strong enough to deal with it all.  This has become too much.  Help me, Lord.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Saturday, December 27, 2014

To be strong in Christ

Lord,

Help me to be a stronger believer in Christ.  I am sorry for all of my sins.  I am in need of wisdom.  I need help.  I need help being more committed to You and to my health.  Show me what I need to do. Thank You for doing so.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Friday, December 26, 2014

Honesty in prayer

Lord,

Help me to be more honest in my prayers.  Give me the assurance of my salvation.  May I not allow myself to be distracted in my prayers.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Happy Birthday, Jesus

Thank You, Jesus.  Happy Birthday.  I know that most likely You weren't born in December, but I thank You, O Lord and Savior.

Thank You, In Your name,

Amen

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Reminder for Christmas....and now

Dear Heavenly Father,

I have realized that my time for Jesus has been severely limited today.  I apologize.  I am sorry for not communicating with You.  Remind me that even today that Jesus Christ was born whatever the day and that He has done a lot of things.  He healed, ministered, and saves.  Remind me of Jesus Christ everyday.

Thank You,


Sincerely,


Letters to God

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

Lord, I thank You

Lord,

Thank You for saving me.  Thank You for this day and everyday.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Sunday, December 21, 2014

My Day Today

Dear Heavenly Father,

I am in such good spirits today.  I feel so much better and more relaxed than I have in a long time.  I have thought about making a pudding next.  Last night, I baked some oatmeal raisin cookies this morning.  They have turned out well.  I needed to relax today and now that is what I am doing.  I am typing so fast because I felt so lazy yesterday.  Cleaning up a room and a closet is so much work.  I am so happy just to be around to do even the most minor things.  I am lucky to be alive.  Thank You.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Friday, December 19, 2014

Praising God

Hallelujah!  Praise the Lord!  Bless You, oh Lord.  Hallelujah!

Thursday, December 18, 2014

A change in me

Dear Heavenly Father,

I believe that the best prayers are the most honest.  I feel like You care about me and that You love me.  Thank You for caring about me. I was feeling down today and now I realize that there are things that I need to do and that is changing myself.  I realize that that is the answer to my prayers, but I have no idea how to go about doing that.  I need wisdom and guidance in this manner.  I thank You that I can rely on You as You are the only One I can turn to for this.  I know that I need help.  I also ask for counsel.  I do have a counselor and she is very helpful.  However, I am also in need of spiritual counseling.  I thank You for answering prayers and I look forward to Your advice and Your help.


Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, December 15, 2014

A thank you letter to Jesus

Lord Jesus,

Thank You for giving me every opportunity to be honest with You.  I believe that You save and that You answer prayer.  I am thankful for Your remembrance and Your forgiveness.  I thank You for Your healing.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Sunday, December 14, 2014

Christmas Confusion

Father,

How do I become honest if I am unable to stop the confusion? The truth is, I am confused about how to celebrate Christmas.  I believe that You have given me the answer.  Yet it seems as if You haven't because I am more obsessed about making a budget than ever.  I am also more confused as to how to put Jesus into my plans.  Maybe there lies the problem.  If Jesus is the Reason for the season, then why am I so confused?  Help me with this confusion.  Lord, I need help and the money to buy all of those gifts soon and I also need to be reminded of Who and what are important.  How do I balance it all out?  I thank You that in Your word that You shall supply all of my needs according to Your riches and glory.  I strongly believe this and I will wait for You.  I promise that I will not limit You. I have no right to do since I am a flawed human and You are God.  I also believe that You know what I am going to say before I was thinking of saying it.  Christmas is my favorite holiday and I do admit that I do get caught up in the pomp and circumstance.  However, I am of the feeling that the more presents, the better the Christmas.  Open my eyes that I may see another point of view.  There is nothing where Christmas is mentioned,  There is also nothing that does says that outside the commercialism, it is sinful and idolatrous, but that is my two cents. How should I celebrate Christmas and I have wondered how You really feel about Christmas?  What does the Bible say about the money that I absolutely need to bake cakes, casseroles, and to buy presents?  I guess there is nothing wrong with giving and receiving gifts, but teach me what or Who is most important.  Thank You for answering my prayer.  I am waiting and anticipating Your answers.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Saturday, December 13, 2014

I am grateful.

Dear Heavenly Father,

I believe that the best prayer is to tell You the truth.  You are not a God who cannot lie.  After all, we as believers are to worship in Spirit and in truth.  You, the Holy Spirit of God, have convicted me for all of my sins.  Lord, You have given me wisdom and clarity, and I am ever grateful that my prayer has already been answered.  I feel so much more at peace since I have prayed to You.  I know that nothing is too hard for You.  I do wonder however, how my prayer will be answered.  However, because nothing is too hard I have no real place where I can go for an answer.  As a matter of fact, I have no right to limit You and how You will answer this prayer.  I am ever thankful that You have answered my prayer.  I strongly believe not only is an answer is on its way, but that I have nothing to be concerned about.  I believe that You have already answered my prayer.  I have faith that You already know what I am going to say before I ask.  I thank You that You have blessed me with so much and that my prayer has been answered.  I also ask that You will further take care of me. Reassure me that I have absolutely nothing to be worried, anxious, or concerned.  Thank You for taking care of me.  Thank You for answering this prayer.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Friday, December 12, 2014

Seeing things from a balanced, fair perspective

Dear Lord,

Help me to see things as You see them.  I pray for wisdom and clarity in all things.  I am still wondering how my prayers are going to get answered.  I just wish that I could be happier and more grateful than I am.  I wish I could see the good in the world and in myself.  I have difficulty seeing things from a fair perspective.  I think that I do.  However, my admissions tend to be negative.  There has got to be a positive to balance things out.  I have all of these needs and I tend to be overwhelmed. I have no idea how to deal with that.  What do I need to do?  What do I need to say?  Help me.

Thank you,

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Jesus is the Reason

Dear Jesus,

You are the Reason for the Season.  Thank You for dying on the cross for me.  Thank You that the Father rose You from the dead.  Thank You for saving me.  I had to see what this particular holiday was all about.  I thank You for all that You have done for me and for others.  Help me to see on Christmas day who You are.  It isn't, nor should it ever be, about presents and cakes.  There are times when I fail to see that because the commercialism is so prevalent here.  Forgive me, Jesus, for not only my sins, but for my failed insight into Christmas.  I love to give to others.  I thank You for a giving heart.  I love receiving too don't get my wrong.  I also love to see the joy in the faces of others. I also enjoy seeing reading the others from messages from You.  I ask that it woe not be too late, my messages and my tracts for You.  Help me to serve You not only on Christmas, but every day of the year.  Thank You.

In Your name,

Amen

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

My Christmas Prayer

Lord,

I know that I haven't written much to You recently.  I have been distracted yet grateful.  Help me to be mindful of what is really going on in the world.  Right now, I am thinking of Christmas and how I am going to come up with the money that I need for the celebration.  I am in need of enough money to celebrate Christmas.  I realize that I am not going to have enough.  There are things that I have yet to spend.  I am glad that You have already answered my prayers.  I am sorry for my sins.  I am sorry that I cannot think of You other than Christmas.  I look forward to the Christmas season.  In fact, it has become hard for me to wait. However, that is what I have been doing for the past few years now. However, if the wait is over, then I realize that the next day symbolizes the end of Christmas. December 26 is one of my least favorite days of the year for that very reason.  I am in need because well, I have no money.  You are the only one I can turn to and I know that with You, nothing is hard, not at all.  I have little idea which day exactly I am going to spend all of this, but I have even less of an idea what I will spend this money on.  I have written and compiled list after list and I don't have enough money to cover the expenses.  I ask You for financial help.  I have at least kept my promise to pay for the bill me later account, which is good.  However, I wish to make a promise to myself and to You that I will be wise with the money that I have received.  I am praying this out of faith and commitment.  Thank You, Lord, for answering my prayer.


In Jesus' name,

Amen

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Answered prayer

Father,

I thank You that You answer prayer.  You have given me wisdom, guidance, and a sense of direction. Lord, I thank You.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, December 8, 2014

My needs have already been met.

Father,

You know what I am in need of before I even ask for it.  I also thank You that You are an all-time God.  Thank You.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Sunday, December 7, 2014

The situation I am in

Dear Heavenly Father,

Help me.  Help me to get out of situation I am in.  I have grown too complacent.  I am a bored person who admittedly needs to get out more.  I need guidance from You.  I have no idea what to do.  I ask that You would give me spiritual rest and a sense of direction in my life.  There are barriers that hold me back, or at least seem to.  I also ask that You would remove those barriers.  Bless me with the wisdom that I so need in this situation.  I thank You that You give wisdom liberally.  I need to hear Your voice.  I will wait for You.  

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Saturday, December 6, 2014

Unhealthy situation

Dear Heavenly Father,

I am feeling better but I am in an emotionally and mentally unhealthy situation.  I wish that my brother and his wife would move out of the house.  The tension is subtle but it is still here.  I am not at peace.  I have grown tired of walking on eggshells and I am not always happy here.  I don't know what to do or what to say.  All I know is that things need to change, but it isn't just me.  It is all of us, but how do I go about changing?  I need help.  I need You, Lord.  Help me.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Friday, December 5, 2014

Patience, and waiting

Lord,

Thank You for the patience You have given me.  I will wait on You.  Thank You for the desires of my heart that You have given me.  Thank You for all, including the forgiveness of my sins.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Thursday, December 4, 2014

A Good Day

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank You for a good day.  You have ordered my steps.  My mind is clear and has been for maybe the first time in a long time.  I am thankful for the many blessings that I have.  You are the One and Only.  Thank You.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Monday, December 1, 2014

Forging ahead spiritually...Merry Christmas

Dear Heavenly Father,

Forgive me for not writing to You for the past few days.  I look forward to Christmas, but maybe I should slow down first.  Just like the rest of the year, it is a one time event where time goes by fast. I do wonder how You feel about us humans celebrate Christmas.  Right now I am in a period where I wish that some things would just go away.  Christmas is that time.  I feel like I have no cares in the world this season.  That has been the case every holiday season. I guess because I get distracted.  I still get interested or rather caught up in what really ails me.  I would like to mentally tell the difference between what is real and what is not.  I have gotten so caught up in the world that I feel so far from You at times.  Help me to think on what is real and forever.  This is temporary and will go away.  Heaven and Hell are realities.  That is what I need focusing on.  I ask for a closer walk with You.  I thank You that my prayer has been answered.

Sincerely,


In Jesus' name,


Amen