Monday, August 31, 2015

Light burdens

Lord,

I thank You that You have the ability to carry my burdens.  I also thank You for Your burdens are light.  I realize that I have been carrying those burdens for some time now.  I ask for forgiveness of all of my sins, especially those that I have not repented of.  My goal is to do Your will and live according to the Holy Spirit's teaching.  Give me this day my daily bread.  Lead me not into temptation.  Deliver me from all evil.  Strengthen me in these perilous days and times.  Lord, may I never lose heart.  I thank You for answering this prayer,

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Sunday, August 30, 2015

I'm sorry, Lord.

Lord Jesus,

I thank You for saving me.  You have given me the assurance that I am saved.  You have filled me with Your Holy Spirit, who shall teach me all things.  He has taught me quite a few things today.  I am doing so much better now because I have been forgiven.  I have thus repented of my sins.  I know that I am a person who will still sins, and that is so sad, but I have an Advocate who forgives sins. I also realize that I must not make it a habit to commit deliberate, habitual sin.  I believe sometimes, that is the issue with me.  I have done things that I know I have been forgiven for, but I still struggle with from time to time.  I realize that I cannot do it alone.  I ask that You, Lord Jesus, heal me and cleanse and forgive me of these sins for every time I have committed these sins.  I still have the images in my head and it can be hard to get rid of them.  Lord, I ask for a renewal of my mind, that I may be transformed by said renewal.  I am sorry for all of my sins.  I ask that You would remove my transgressions from me.  I know that You love me for You died on the cross for me and that the Father rose You from the dead.  I believe that with my whole heart and I love You and continue to, love You with my whole heart, mind, and strength.

In Your name,


Amen,

Saturday, August 29, 2015

The End times letter

Lord,

Thank You for helping me to understand the end times.  All I had to do was read and study for myself.  I am beginning to understand what is going on now.  I will be and am ready for Your return. I know that I have a long way to go, but I look forward to Your return.  I will live holy as You are holy.  I thank You for saving me and for setting me free.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Friday, August 28, 2015

Relationships

Lord,

I have come to realize that I need You now more than ever.  I do thank You that You are always there. Help me to understand relationships, because I could all of the help I can get.  The truth is, I am shy and I don't what to say sometimes.  I wish I had more of that ability.  Help me in this area.  Guide me with Your Eye. Your help is greatly appreciated.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Thursday, August 27, 2015

Letter of repentance

Lord,

I often ask for forgiveness yet I am not sure if You have forgiven me.  I have often committed the same sins twice over and it has been difficult to do so.  How do I repent?  Help me in this area.  I know that I need to repent.  I that I know is that godly sorrow leads to repentance but do I yet have that godly sorrow.  What words do I say in order to repent?  Your help is greatly appreciated.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Short, sincere prayer

Lord,

I'm sorry.  Help me, and I thank You for doing so.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Need something more to do

Dear Lord,

I spent much of the night on the computer.  That is the problem.  I spend too many nights on the computer. It is as if I have nothing better to do with my time.  I spend too much time on technology.  Maybe that is the time.  It does keep me safe, but it keeps me too sheltered.  Sometimes I am so lonely and I feel too boxed in.  I need at least a break and some time to do something different.  I live in moments of fear and anxiety throughout too much of the day.  I know it sounds crazy, but that is just no way to live.  It is just no way to carry one's life, period.  The computer is my security blanket.  I have gotten on the computer since I began to have my health problems come upon me at once.  It seems mysterious that all of that happen, but one thing is for sure.  I have gotten closer to You and for that, I count it all joy.  Thank You, Lord.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, August 24, 2015

Anxiety and mindfulness from a biblical viewpoint

Lord,

Is being mindful a sin?  Can a Christian be mindful?  How do I become aware of my surroundings?  How do I focus what is real?  Those are the questions that I ask.  I need an answer to because I had a hard time dealing with anxiety without a biblical understanding.  I have to not pay attention to the thoughts, but that is so hard.  Lord, I ask for peace.  I also ask that You would help me to do what is hard.  I no longer wish to fight them or anything like that.  In fact, I wish to not "find the answer that I so seek".  In fact, I no longer wish to waste time.  I have grown tired of being safe and living a rather safe life.  Lord, I just want to live and live for You and serve You all the days of my life.

Sincerely


Letters to God

Sunday, August 23, 2015

Wisdom and discernment...

Dear Lord,

I pray for discernment and wisdom.  I also ask for understanding.  How do I follow what the Father says? I want to know Him and for Him to know me.  The ultimate words, "I never knew you" scare me.  I believe that there are many that delude themselves into thinking that one is a Christian.  It is also true that not every one who says to You shall enter Heaven.  To me, that is quite sobering.  I don't want to profess Christianity. I want to live it.  I give You thanks for Your answer and that You give wisdom liberally.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Saturday, August 22, 2015

Being mindful

Heavenly Father,

Help me to be ever mindful of my surroundings.  I realize that being mindful is a key to help me with my anxiety.  As You well know, anxiety is something that I seem to fight against everyday.  I have grown accustomed to wasting my time doing "research" online trying to find the answers to questions that I have. I should feel guilty about that, but strangely enough, I don't.  I do feel like I wasted minutes, or at least hours, on end trying to find what I was looking for.  Sometimes I have the answer, and other times, it no longer matters.  I guess it doesn't matter.  I wish I could have either figured it out or at least been mindful how to live in the first place.  I had an "untamed mind" for so long that it was hard for me to connect the dots on anything and in any area of my life.  In those areas, it is as if things are coming together.  Things are getting easier.  I also realize that moving head should even be easier than I thought. I finally realize that I have my goals that I can now accomplish.  Thank You, for I believe You had much to do with it.


Sincerely,


Letters to God

Friday, August 21, 2015

Struggling it seems

Father,

I asks that You would supply wisdom for me.  I am just lost.  I ask that You would help me to do Your will. I would like to know what Your is for my life.  I ask You also to forgive me for not all of my thoughts are sinless.  I put my trust in You for all things. I need help I have been living as if everything is a struggle.  I just wish I didn't have to struggle.  All I ever wanted to do is to keep it simple.  I really feel like I have no clue and that I will never reach my goals.  I also ask me that You would guide me with Your Eye.  I need help from You and I have no idea what I am doing it seems.  I ask that You would help me.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

Temple of the Holy Spirit

Lord,

Help me to understand and see that my body is a temple, a temple of the Lord.  I don't always take care of myself.  I know that it is about holiness, in my humble opinion.  I have read about that very topic and no where do I find that statement to mean obesity.  I do, however, find it to mean keeping a person pure from sins, including fornication.  I have been struggling with a number of sins, including lying, gluttony, and other sins.  Forgive me, for I repent of my sins.  I know that I am a sinner who will eventually sin, but my fear is is that I will never overcome those sins.  I keep messing up and therefore I have made poor choices.  I commit myself to You and I realize that with the leading of the Holy Spirit, I believe that I don't have to struggle.  I realize that with me this is impossible.  I thank You that with You all things are possible.  I ask for Your strength in helping me overcome these sins in my life.  I have confessed these sins but I have a hard time stopping.  I need Your help, Lord in this manner.  Thank You for answering my prayer.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Monday, August 17, 2015

Holiness

Lord,

Help me to make the plans that You want me to have compared to the plans that I wish to set up for myself. My desire is to obey You and to live for You and serve You.  Forgive me for all of my sins.  Teach me Your ways.  I ask for help when it comes to holiness.  My desire is to also to live and be holy as You are holy.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Sunday, August 16, 2015

Thanks and praise

Father,

You are Lord and the Forgiver of all sins.  Thank You that my transgressions have been moved as far as the east is far from the west.  I give You praise for allowing me to let things go.  I also thank You for Your grace and Your mercy.  I praise You that You are the Lord of Hosts.  Thank You for reminding me that no matter what is really going on, I am not really alone, nor do I have a reason to feel lonely.  Thank You.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Saturday, August 15, 2015

Learning and exploration

Heavenly Father,

I am telling You how I feel.  It feels quite a bit lonely yet I seem to function well alone.  I am shy around others and I am not sure if I am a good judge of character.  I have had my feelings hurt in the past and maybe that is why I have this issue.  I realize that I need to move on.  I have, for the most part, but I wouldn't know what to say or what to do.  I am severely limited by circumstances that are no part of my own, I think. I find myself a bit too dependent on others and I want to be freer and more independent. It seems that the reason why I have a severely limited social life is because of the payoff of a secluded life.  To tell You the truth, I hate it, and I like it all at the same time.  It is confusing and I want to change that.  Forgive me, for I have decided to let it go.  I am letting go of the past.  I want to adventure into the future and live for the present for it is a gift.  I don't wish to wake up and feel depressed like I do quite often.  I want to change that, but with such limits I just have no idea where to begin.  I would like to explore and learn and keep on learning.  That is all I want to do.  Now all I have to do is to form a realistic plan.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Friday, August 14, 2015

God Answers Prayer

Father,

I thank You for answered prayer.  Rather, I thank You that You are the Answer or rather, Answerer, to my prayers.  You have always been there for me.  My eyes have been opened.  I believe that You have solved my problems.  I could use some help.  I am severely limited when it comes to how many friends I have and my social life.  I would love to go to church and go out into the community.  I realize that I need to network, but how do I get to the places where I want to go?  I would like to shop for myself for one.  I tire of being dependent on someone else.  I want to be free.  I want to be more independent.  I need help in learning how to deal with other people.  I ask for wisdom and guidance in that area.  It has been a while since I have had at least some semblance of a life, much less a social life.  I have however wanted to start a new chapter. After years of trials and tribulations, including illnesses and stress, I would like to do more and to accomplish more.  I feel like I have not accomplished anything in over a decade.  I would like to see that there is no payoff to this privacy that I so have.  I am just wondering about that.  I see that there is a payoff to having a social life.  I want someone else I can talk to.  That is something that I have dreamed about.  I hope to make it a reality.  Forgive me of all of my sins including harboring bad feelings and thoughts about others.  Teach me how to love and show me how to extend that love to those who I harbor those feelings and thoughts.  I ask for a change not just in my life, but in me as well.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Thursday, August 13, 2015

The Lord's prayer

Father,

I thank You for supplying my every need.  Give me this day our daily bread.  I ask You to forgive me of my sins for I have forgiven myself and others as well..  Lead me not into temptation, but deliver me from evil, for Yours is the Kingdom, and the power and the glory, forever.  I thank You and I praise You.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Trust in the Lord

Father,

I thank You.  I thank You that I can finally see things much more clearly.  I realize that all I had to do was trust You.  I had to surrender all to You.  I didn't understand that at first, but I believe that it means to trust You with everything I've got.  I ask that You would guide me into all things.  Guide me and show me things including plans that You have for me.  I thank You, Lord, for blessing me and for guiding me.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

I finally see things more clearly.

Father,

I wrote about prayer without ceasing yesterday.  My guess is that it means that I or anyone else should not give up on prayer, no matter how big the circumstances.  I realize that now.  I wish a lot of things, but I really should have realized this.  Today has been a day of peace and calm.  Help me to further take a deep look at myself.  I have my needs, wants, and desires.  I had no idea who I am.  I had so many setbacks over the years that I felt like at times giving up.  I am glad that I have remained hopeful, no matter what.  I am grateful that You have created me just the way that I am.  I was stressed out and frustrated.  I was burdened and heavy laden.  I thank You for giving me rest.  I thank You for the Trinity and Your word, for it keeps me grounded.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, August 10, 2015

Pray without ceasing

Father,

Help me to understand that praying without ceasing is something that I as a believer, is supposed to do.  I admit that I have not prayed without ceasing.  I also have not also spent as much time with You nor be as thankful as I should.  I have come to realize that complaining is much easier than being grateful.  Lord, I am sorry.  May I listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit.  May I not ignore Him.  May I not ignore prayer or the reading of Your Word.  I need help in all of those areas.  I also thank You that You are capable to do all of those things.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Sunday, August 9, 2015

Saturday, August 8, 2015

Jesus is my Center

Father,

I heard that all I have to do is pray to You in the name of Jesus.  You will supply my every need.  Right now, I need to concentrate and be more centered.  I am at a place where I want to give up.  I certainly wish to give up in terms of my weight.  I am lost and lack a center.  I need You be my Center.  Grant me the wisdom to accept the things that I cannot change.  Help me to know that the difference between acceptance and wisdom.  I have just come to realize that the serenity prayer is the story of my life.  There are things that I wish to remember and things that I wish to forget.  Right now, I just don't care anymore.  I am in a dangerous place and right now, I want to give up, but I know it is not a good thing.  I am not consistent when it comes to improving myself, but now I want to.  Give me the strength, wisdom, and motivation that I am in need of right now.  Remind me of who I am and why I am on this journey in the first.  I also ask for a renewal of my mind and a change of my mindset.  Help me to see that journeys equal lives.  Open my eyes, Lord,

In Jesus name,


Amen

Thursday, August 6, 2015

Pressure on me

Lord,

I just love this song.  It is called "Pressure" by Jonathan McReynolds.  This young man is quite good.  I was reminded that this is something that I can relate to. Lord, how do I stay consistent?  I am a person who is in constant need of guidance.  There is some pressure that I have been going through over the years and I am not sure if I can deal with that anymore. There are things that I want to do.  The things that I want the most are good health, independence, and last but certainly not least, Christian service.  I have made some poor decisions lately and it has gotten worse.  It is as if no matter what I say or do, nothing seems to work, no matter how consistent I get.  Lord, I have no clue what more to do or to pray.  Grant me the wisdom that I so need right now.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Light bulb moments

Lord,

Thank You for giving me the light bulb moments that I so need.  I ask that You would remind me that these moments are there for a reason. I admit that I see things from a perspective that makes the simple too hard. I am so detailed and my mind is so frazzled at times that I have a hard time it seems to have the know how when it comes to the simplest things.  I feel like I am all alone.  I was advised to be consistent, and that is what I am going to be.  Consistent is a good thing if not vital for me at least. I look forward to the rest of my days on this planet, especially with this consistency thing.

Thank You,

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, August 3, 2015

Honesty and sincerity

Lord,

I enjoy praying to You.  I feel that I can finally get things off of my chest.  I am not sure, but honesty is the best way to pray.  That is something that I have learned for a long time.  The more I pray, the greater my faith.  The more that I read Your word, the greater my understanding of the truth.  No matter I am going through at the moment, I know that You and Your word are the answer.  Thank You, Lord.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Sunday, August 2, 2015

Just something to express

Lord,

I wish I could just let it all go.  I can't.  I just can't.  I am not one of these people who has that strength and that "courage" I guess.  I am tired of the accusations, the yelling, and the hurt feelings.  It is as if at times, I don't count.  That was how I felt and still feel today.  I am not sure what to say about this or to handle the situation.  That is the problem.  I don't know how to handle a situation.  Today was just a bad day all the way around.  I thank You for hearing me.

In Your name, Amen.

Saturday, August 1, 2015

OCD and how I spend my time

Lord Jesus,

Today was a day that I am just bored.  I have realized that I am in need to agree to my obsessive thoughts.   I hate having to fight or agree with the OCD, even with fictional thoughts.  I know I feel better, but I also realize that it takes enough strength to overcome these thoughts.  If only I had enough strength to overcome these thoughts.  I don't like to have these thoughts.  I have overcome some of these thoughts.  Help me and give the strength and know how when it comes to facing my fears.  I need Your guidance when it also comes to avoidance.  How can I overcome avoidance in all situations?  That has even been more difficult.  I am now afraid and I don't know what to do.  I feel drawn to those movies or those television shows or that music video.  I am drawn to them like a moth to a flame and that makes me anxious.  It is as if I don't know what to do.  I feel this way because I thought that is the way to cope but is it?  Should I avoid it further? I am scared.  Help me for I am scared.  What do I need to do?  How do I overcome this?  I ask that You would give me clarity in this situation.  I need no one else but You.  Other people's opinions are only temporary help.  I need You.  Your word says be anxious for nothing but I cannot help but worry or being anxious. Give me the wisdom and peace of mind that I so desperately need right now.  Help me.  I need Your help.  I thank You that You are the Answer to my prayers.

In Your name, Jesus,


Amen