Dear Heavenly Father,
I am glad that I have been pouring my heart out for the past two days. I am also glad that I don't have to hide anymore. I finally had the courage to expose myself. Things have been so bad yesterday that I even thought about hospitalization. It seems as if I have no idea on how to remain uncertain and how to be less anxious. I also need help not to take things so seriously. Remind me that acceptance is another key to feeling better. I guess I will never know why I have this disorder, but it doesn't matter. I guess if I were to accept things, then I will really choose to not to be anxious. I want to laugh and love again. Being entertained is the least of my concerns right now. I look forward to all of those days again. I don't forward to any triggers mind you, but I do look forward to the day when I can accept this. I want to just embrace it. I want to say hi to it. Maybe even no longer see it as a problem but something that I no longer see as a bully. I don't just want to look forward to that day. I want today to be the day.
I thank You.
Sincerely,
Letters to God
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