I am anxious at the moment, I guess. I feel better than I did when I was anxious a long time ago. I was watching television which vexes me. In fact, movies begin to vex me too. My entertainment choices have been changed over the years. I used to watch wrestling all of the time, now I no longer watch it. I have just lost interest. I have grown out of it. It has been a few weeks since I started watching it.
I spent a lot of time entertaining myself when I could have done other things. I wish I had taken the time to spend more time with You. I wish I could just grow spiritually. I feel like I haven't grown spiritually or figuratively. It is as if I feel like I have to start life all over again. I have difficulty concentrating sometimes and that hasn't helped much so I wonder how patient You are with me whenever I am distracted when I pray to You.
I allow music and television to distract me. In fact, anything can be a distraction or better yet, a trigger to an obsessive thought. I am vulnerable to attacks, whether from the enemy or from an obsessive thought and there are times when I don't feel like fighting. I ask You for the strength to keep on fighting, to be patient, and to grow spiritually.
In Jesus' name,