I wish I could say "no" sometimes. My mother was right. I am too much of a "yes" person. No one respects a "yes" person. I feel like I am being used and walked on. I want to remove myself from all of that. I know that with You all things are possible, for if I were to do that all alone, even with counsel, it will not work. Things will not change, much. I have found myself anxious and down today because I am a "yes" person. I care what others think and I want to do the right thing. I felt incompetent today because of a "problem" it seems I could have solved. I am afraid. I am always afraid. I can pray all I want, but I have always heard that You help those who help themselves, but is that biblical? I really don't know. I feel like there is a weight upon me and as a result I ate food that I know that I had no business eating. I should have exercised today, but I did not. I should have consumed healthy foods, but I had no desire to. It is of no use to buy things and write out thoughts and not try to change. I have tried that and I feel like I have failed. It is as if my motivation to change or to exercise or to do what I planned to do has fallen by the wayside. I have finally learned to look fear face to face, for the most part. Why cannot I conquer this particular "yes" person fear? I need guidance. I have no idea what to do. Help me to be the conqueror Your word says that I am. I don't say "no" enough, nor do I stand up for myself as if I have no value. I know I have to no longer allow fear to take over. I know I am not being made perfect in love. I don't have that love or sound mind to conquer fear. I am tormented by fear I just want for things to change. I want for me to change. I have no idea how to change my situation. Your help would be greatly appreciated.
In Jesus' name,