Dear Heavenly Father,
I feel like quitting. I am so sorry for my sins. I really don't know what is wrong with me. Hopefully it is not an example of the beginning of a midlife crisis. I realize that time is short and I need to check myself and get ready, but I don't always think about that. It is so silly that I don't. I don't think that I am ready for Your return, Jesus. I don't think that I have prepared myself because of my recent actions. It is degrading to women especially. I don't understand how a woman or a man can allow themselves to be demeaned like that. On the other hand, why do I wish to degrade myself watching that? I need Your wisdom. I need time and a paying of attention to You. Forgive me for what I have done and for what I have failed to do. Right now, I am dealing with obsessive thoughts and the fear of what if I get healed only to wonder if I will stay healed. I want to be healed but I have my doubts and my concerns such as I mention earlier. What is really going on with me? These past few days have been adventurous to say the least. I realize that who I need is You. Help me to get through this. I don't want to live like this forever.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
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