Dear Heavenly Father,
Everything I do is based on an obsession. I finally told my mother about my thoughts and I feel better. I believe that I do way too much time wasting checking and not enough praying. I have trouble getting closer to You. I sometimes feel alone because I don't know how to accept or agree with these thoughts. They are bothersome and I feel like I cannot take these obsessive thoughts anymore. I have no clue what I am doing and I need Your forgiveness, increase in faith, and wisdom. I need Your help. How do I apply what I have learned, read, and obsessed about to my life? It has either had an effect on my emotions since I am here to write that that was before the Abilify. I even acted out the bothersome thought, but I wonder if it is really something I should be doing. Even someone's comments about the book or the movie bother me. I feel like I am losing it. I feel lonely sometimes because I cannot relate to anyone else who have these thoughts. Does it matter why someone cheats on their spouse? Does it even matter why I have these thoughts? The truth is, I will never know.
Sincerely,
Letters to God
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