You are worthy of praise. It is amazing what You have done for me. I want to be real. I want to be made whole. I want to live in the real world instead of a fantasy world. It is irritating me and so is my obsession. I feel much, much better about my obsession. I guess it means that I will have to be patient and let the thoughts about my obsession pass. He was beautiful as a young man and now that he is older he is rather interesting. That is really all I know about him. I have never met him and I never will get to meet him. I would be nervous and all giddy. I realize that I have an obsession and I ask You for Your forgiveness. I have spent more time within my mind than I have with You. Help me to change, Lord. I want and need to change, but for You and for me. Take care of me and heal my mind. I need You, Lord.
Letters to God