Dear Heavenly Father,
Give me wisdom and strength in the time of trouble. I would like to think that I will not fall away. There will be a falling away according to Your word. It is a sad thing to think about. I believe that there is a falling away as I type this. I don't understand how anyone could fall away. Maybe they weren't strong enough. Maybe they were naive. I don't know, but I ask to stay strong so that I won't be so discouraged that I will fall away. I will not be ashamed of You and I don't want to be shamed when judgement comes. I would like to be a witness and a servant unto others.
What is Your will for my life? Where in Your Word will I find Your will for my life? Do I preach? Teach? Pray? Show me how to also use my gifts and talents to glorify You and for Jesus to save others. I am troubled that I have not always lived such a holy, righteous life. I need to ask myself how this would glorify You. Holiness is required, daily living. I know that I cannot be doing wrong one minute and doing all the right things the next. I realize that being holy isn't going to be easy, but that is what You commanded us to be. I am to be set apart from the world. I ask for a sense of direction in my life.
Thank You for giving me that direction for my life. I just feel like I am lost and alone. This is true especially that I have a thought. Help me to calm my mind down whenever an obsessive thought arises. I have to realize that they are bothersome and I cannot let them bother me or upset me. I am afraid of anything, and I mean, anything, triggering another obsessive thought. I have grown tired of avoidance instead of holiness. Purify my motives and purify my heart. Renew my heart and my mind. Help me to grow in Your word, and I thank You for answering this year.
Letters to God