Lord Jesus Christ,
I thank You for saving me and giving me the assurance of my salvation. I thank You for redeeming me.
I ask You for a few things, however. I realized that losing weight is hard. I am not doing well. I am many points over the limit. I am now worried about the weight gain that I may have to deal with. I am disappointed and now I am also frustrated. I don't want to quit. I want to press toward the mark, whatever that may be.
I now wonder if I am losing weight for the right reasons. I should lose weight because I have no business taking my health for granted. I am not sure if that is the reason why I want to lose weight. I ask You for wisdom, guidance, and a sense of direction. Guide me into all things. I have a confession to make. Everytime I ask You for wisdom, guidance, and a sense of wisdom, it is I am stuck. I am having doubts about those things and I realize that that is a problem. Forgive me for having those doubts.
I can ask for certain things and not for others. I have doubts sometimes and at other times I don't know what to say. I am not as strong as I would like or should like. I know it is a spiritual issue. I also believe that my weight loss journey is also a spiritual issue. I have been frustrated lately. Give me the strength to overcome these issues that I have.
I have tried to plan things in advanced only to mess up. I don't know how to change those issues. I don't know to apply things to me and my situation. The situation is to lose weight through diet and exercise. I have given up in the past and I have decided to do something about it, but what? Where do I begin? What do I need to do?
I don't wish to grow tired. But the truth is I have. How do I change this mindset? I am not sure if what I am doing is the right thing for me. I have all of the desire in the world to lose weight but I am worried that I won't do it. I am self-conscious about my appearance and a change in my life would do the trick.
I can't even do the things or say things that I wish to do because of being made of and because of anxious thoughts that I have. This has added to having low self-esteem. I have no idea how to communicate with others. Meetings and a support system would be hard for me no matter how beneficial they are to me. I am in need of counsel and a support system but it requires transportation and learning how to communicate with others. Where do I begin? I have been told that other church members would be a good start, but would it be a good start for me?
I am not happy with myself and life hasn't been kind to me. I have dealt with anxiety, scary thoughts, mood swings, and other health issues to deal with. I realize that being non-compliant would not take me anywhere. Also, it was a wake up call, being a non-compliant person. I have been that way because I have procrastinating for a long time. How do I change from someone who may been considered non-compliant to someone who is actually compliant? My weight has gone up and down. I have had the same issues that I have dealt with for years and starting over or rather breaking a habit has been hard for me. It doesn't help that I am not sure what I need to do and that I see myself as a lazy person who needs guidance. I just need help. I need Your help. I ask further that You would strengthen my faith. Help me, Jesus. I ask that You would make me whole and wise. I am filled with knowledge, but how do I apply that knowledge? Where do I go from here?
In Jesus' name,