Dear Heavenly Father,
I still have those nagging doubts and I have fears to face. I need help in dealing with those doubts and fears. How do I reconcile confronting fears with casting out fear? I need the wisdom to know what to do and how to apply things to my daily life.
How do I also reconcile between guilty feelings and also concern for others? Every time I complain about my situation, I think about the situation of others. I guess it is because I never wanted to be a selfish person, but I do. I feel like my problems are not important sometimes. I guess because because I need to be grateful more.
How do I embrace that I have obsessive compulsive disorder? How do I overcome these obsessions? How do I overcome performing compulsions? In short, how do I end the ocd cycle of endless obsessions and compulsions? Why is it so hard for me to accept?
I know that I am going from topic to topic, but that is how I am feeling at the moment. I want to stand up to the stress that has occurred in my life. I realize that I have to do one thing at a time and that following a schedule is very important. I need help in following a schedule, meditating, and finding time to read Your word and applying it to my life.
Thank You for all that You have done for me. I am grateful for everything You have done for me from salvation to living. You have given me the opportunity to create this letter that I so needed. I needed to express myself and this is my outlet.
In Jesus' name,