Give me the strength, energy, and wisdom to lose weight. I would like to confront my fears but I don't know how. I have many fears judging from the obsessive compulsive disorder. I wonder if it is a spiritual problem as well. The exercise has done me some good and I would like to keep it up. I know that life is a journey of choices. I am afraid that I will make the wrong choices when it comes to my health. Like I mentioned earlier, I would like to lose 100 pounds and this is something that is of great concern. I surrender what is ailing me over to You.
I am filled with anxiety over this issue and I want more than anything to be a Christian. I also would like to lose weight. I am not just learning or trying anymore. I am actually doing it and that makes me smile. I am just so worried that I will fail on my end because I failed many times before. I am more than motivated to lose weight and keep it off. One hundred pounds is such a hard undertaking and I know it will take a while. I am nervous about this issue.
I know that there are other things that I should be worried about like hunger, starvation, budgeting, and what else is going on in the world. However, it is hard to overcome fear and I am scared that I will never lose weight. What I am afraid of is that I will be comfortable with my weight only in another few years to gain even more weight only it will be even harder to lose. I am approaching 40 and I would like to know why it is harder for a woman to gain weight only to have an even harder time to make things harder.
I feel like it is my own fault. I guess it is. I don't like being overweight because I am no longer comfortable with myself. There are things I cannot do that others take for granted. I feel like a failure because I have allowed myself to gain weight and not take care of myself. I fear what lies ahead down the road such as early death, amputation, and even insulin. It is not easy having diabetes, though it is manageable. I am just fearful all the way around. I feel like sometimes I don't know what to do. I need guidance in this area. I ask You to guide me with Your Eye.
In Jesus' name,