I had a pretty good day. I am listening to this song called "I pray we'll all be ready" and I can relate. I don't want to be the only one in my family who will be ready. I am also concerned that I won't be ready. Show me what I need to do. Help me to see always that my body is Your temple and that I need to honor and take care of it. I wonder if it is the case with me. Am I taking care of myself? Have I fully honored You and my body?
I can also relate to the fact that there is so much I want to do when I am still here. I want nothing more than to be ready for Your return. I want and desire holiness. I want to focus on the eternal. I ask for the assurance that I am born again. I don't want to pray words that sound good enough to hopefully get my prayers answered. I want to have my prayers answered because of faith in You.
I have had issues with that for years and I have no clue about what else to do. Life is just too short and I feel like I haven't accomplished much. I am too careful or not careful enough. I would like to be modest, eat in moderation, not to mention live life at a happy medium. The truth is, I wonder about things like have I tried to gain the whole world at the cost of my soul?
I have a lot of questions about that. Am I really ready? How do I prepare myself for Your return, Jesus? Am I being one of the five wise or one of the five foolish virgins? I have had doubts about being saved for years now and it seems like I shouldn't have these doubts, but the fact of the matter is, I do. It is scary because it is reality based unlike the ones about infidelity or nude pictures being sent. I have had thoughts based on ungodly things for years and I need to help and continue thinking on what is true, fair-minded, lovely, just, and of good report. I realize that what I am thinking has a lot to do with my eternal destiny because of the obvious connection between thinking and doing. But what I am doing and what is in my heart is just as important if not more so. Sometimes I have difficulty expressing myself but what I am trying to point out is that holiness is required for a believer.
May I grow in You. I am Yours. Help me to be still and know that You are God.
Letters to God