I was down. Now I felt like I am out. I am not suicidal or anything like that, but I am depressed in the way that I am blue. Is this what my life has amounted to? I am often medicated and fatigued. Today I was down and depressed. I can't take my life and surroundings anymore. I want to move. I want to be independent. I want to leave but I feel like something is holding me back. For years, nothing has changed. Even if I say or do something, will things change? I am not holding my breath. I feel like I am being controlled and so is everyone else in the house. There is a presence that is holding us all back. I need clarity and guidance in this situation. I need Your help, for I am pouring my heart out. I need to pour my heart out. Lord, I need wisdom in this matter. I know that I will receive wisdom and for that I am thankful. I would like for this presence to just go away and never come back. There is no peace in this home. I am just not happy. I need You.
In Your name,