Dear Heavenly Father,
Give me the strength to never give up. Today's theme is to never give up. Right now I feel like giving up. I realize that it has never registered. That is why losing weight is so hard for me. I don't want to give up, but that is what I feel like doing. I have overeaten in the past and I realize that I don't want to do that anymore. I pray about this, but it is like I have never been as honest as I hope to be now. I weigh over 300 pounds and I have gotten used to weighing over 300 pounds. The truth of the matter is, that is the least of my concerns. I have gotten happy with my weight and that is a problem. I want to quit Weight Watchers, but I know I need help. I cannot make it on my own when it comes to losing weight. I have difficulty applying what I have learned. Applying with I have learned worked for a while but I went back to my old habits. The truth is, while the chocolate bars and the cupcakes and cookies were good, they are not helping me. I am not doing a good job on trying to lose weight. Well, the truth is, I have not tried. Failure is my fault. I know I need to lose weight and I know I need the support, but the real story is, I wonder if my heart is really in it. There are periods when I have the desire to lose weight and there are other times when I just don't care any more. I'd rather care. I am spending money on a program that hasn't worked for me and the truth is, I want to quit. I don't know what I am doing. All I am really doing is playing the numbers game. I don't know if I should stay on this program. I have made a promise to stay on the program for a year. Half the year is not over yet and I wish to give up. If I were to give up, this would be my third time quitting and this would be the third time I would be wasting money. I can't do that and I don't wish to do that anymore. I realize that this is a decision I need to make for myself. However, I ask for Your guidance. I ask You to show me what I need to do. I want to exercise and eat a healthy diet, but I don't know how to do those things. I need immediate assistance in this manner. Lord, I realize that I need a miracle. I thank You for answering this prayer and I praise You that this prayer will be answered if it hasn't already.
In Jesus' name,