Help me to find a balance. My hormones are the reason why things are so out of whack. It finally dawned on me to actually let it register. I need and want to lose weight through diet and exercise, but I don't know where to begin. I have been waiting for others even You to give me that push so that I can lose weight through diet and exercise. My hormones are out of balance and I feel like I have to do it by myself. Give me the guidance that I need to make the right decision whether or not I should quit Weight Watchers. I have my reasons for wanting to quit and reasons for wanting to stay. I want to stay on the program, but the problem is, I have been so frustrated because I have given up on myself. Today's session has taught me that. For the first time I have realized that yes, I do need a push, but no, I can't wait for others to do it for me. I realize that I need to start over myself. I want to make exercise a habit. I want to eat healthy. The truth is, I am not so sure where to begin, especially when it comes to exercise. I find myself inspired by others but it is hard to just go out there and just start. I am afraid that I will fail. I am scared of making even making the littlest mistakes that I have ended up procrastinating and making excuses.
I need to change because of my desire to lose weight. I have my goals and the sad truth is that I have gotten lazy because I have gotten used to be the way that I am. I don't like how I look. I don't like having difficulty doing things that others take for granted. I have a hard time going through smaller spaces. I don't wish to any longer find comfort in that. I feel like I am fat, lazy, and motivated. I could have been a thinner person who has been happier and more fit all along. I am not happy because of what I have become. I know that I have a hormonal condition that is no joke. I have gained a lot of weight in a short period of time and I feel like "I have never recovered" from that weight gain. I am taking a lot of medications and supplements. I am young, but arthritic.
I don't find myself attractive or even pretty. I am one of those overweight people who finds herself having a pretty face, but not such a pretty body. You know how I look. I know how I look. To You, I am beautiful, but I have failed to see myself in that light. I have struggled with my weight realizing it has been my fault all along. I don't wish to hide or stay in a shell any longer. I wish I could go back and change it. I have decided to make that change today. I will not be scared to eat breakfast for fear of making a mistake by eating unhealthy. It is true that I am not hungry, but I am naive about a lot of things and I want, need, and desire to learn. I am willing to learn. I definitely want to change the course of my life. I need to do more for myself. It is like I know what to do, but I struggle to even do that. I need to learn to say no and eat in moderation. I have all of the rules, regulations, and meal plans, but I need Your help in following them. Even the simplest thing is very hard for me to do.
I feel like I am not smart enough to even follow that. What is wrong with me? How could I not know how to do that? I am just not a person who can do something for the long haul, but I would like to change that, Lord. Forgive me, for I am a sinner who is in need of You. I am in need of immediate assistance at this time. I need help in balancing my hormones and that is the only way that I need to lose weight and be healthy. Maybe if I could balance my hormones, then I could balance everything else. I also ask that You would continue to love me and take care as You always have. I could use a miracle right now when it comes to this issue. I know exactly what to do, but trying to put it together and taking action is just hard. I also need all of the support and encouragement I can get. I thank You for giving me that encouragement and for giving me that love and support. I give You further thanks and praise. Thank You, Lord. Thank You for Your help.
In Jesus' name,