Help me to see what beauty is all about. I want to be a beautiful person inside and out, or so it seems. Inner beauty I have learned is far more important than outer beauty. Outer beauty is subjective while inner beauty is not. It is fixed. Inner beauty is about a person's heart and their character. I have been told that I have a beautiful personality and I am a nice person. Yet others see me as ugly or don't really talk about how I look.
It is hard to see myself as beautiful sometimes as my self-esteem is low. Help me to see myself as beautiful on the outside as well as the inside. I never really thought of myself deep down as beautiful. If someone were to tell me that, then I would have a hard time believing that. I am overweight, short, and wear glasses because I am nearsighted. That is what I see as well as the huge stomach that I have.
It is frustrating to be me sometimes. I want to lose weight. I diet and exercise yet I am still doing something wrong. Okay, I need to learn to eat better than I have been. I need to be mindful. I pray for a direction of my paths, guidance, and wisdom. Help me to be wise to the world and how I see people. I am fighting a battle that I sometimes believe I could win. Help me to see myself in a more positive light. May I resist the devil and he will flee from me. Help me to be a confident woman who stands on her own two feet. Help me to see that I too am smart, beautiful, and not just someone who has to hide or feel sorry for herself.
I want to be humble and kind yet gracious and not a pushover. Give me the courage to say no sometimes. I need wisdom, guidance, and direction in my life. God, help me, and thank You.
In Jesus' name,