I would like to make progress but I don't know how. I am going at it alone and I have little support. However, the few support that I have reminds me in one way in another that I am either progressing little or not at all. I am overwhelmed and tired of the same thing over and over. I have a perfectionist complex where if I can't do it right then I give up easily. Deep down, I may actually a self-saboteur with low self esteem. I know that for sure that I am conscious of my appearance. My health is a main concern of mine and I ask for clarity. Give me clarity and peace of mind. I so need them both. I have been overwhelmed. I have many issues that I have to overcome. Because of my age, I am concerned that my metabolism may slow down. I am not sure if that is the case, but I care what others think to the point where I have so little knowledge of myself. I felt like giving up and I believe that it is due to the low self esteem. I just sometimes believe that I could do it because it is so hard.
Everything I see is so negative. One minute I think it is easy then the next minute I feel unproductive. I have little to no faith in myself. I have faith, however, in You. I need wisdom and guidance. Help me to be more productive. Show me how to apply what I have learned to my own situation. I don't like the idea of being told the same thing over and over again, anywhere I go. I love food, but that isn't the problem. My issues are psychological and emotional. I didn't realize that they would be emotional, but they are. I do have psychological and emotional issues and I have not done as good a job of taking better care of my health as I should. I don't know what to do. I am frustrated. That is why I turn to You. Help me get better. Help me to progress. Help me to make a mistake for I am human. I don't like the idea of making a mistake or failure, but all of us do. None of us are immune. I would like to have a fresh perspective on my health issues and how I live my life in general. Lord, I need Your help.
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