I still have these thoughts and the mechanism won't go away. I have a chemical imbalance in my brain and I wish these thoughts would go away. I wish I never had these thoughts.
I had thoughts about infidelity committed by wives. Why I never had these thoughts committed by husbands, I will never know. I believe that a woman like a man should be faithful and respectful to her husband. I don't like it when women step out on their husbands, especially if they are good, faithful, caring men. It is disgusting. It shows a lack of love, loyalty, and lack of character. I have such strong views on this and I guess that is why I have these thoughts about cheating. I realize how hypocritical they are because deep down, I have once believed that men are the main cheaters against women and that is all I remember seeing on mass media and reading about. So with the shortage of good men, why the women who cheat? That doesn't make sense to me.
I now believe that men and women who cheat are people who need Jesus. What they are doing is wrong. They know what they are doing is wrong. I don't know how adulterers truly feel about their spouses, but they are disrespecting them, their selves, and their marriages. It is a selfish, dishonest, and a cowardly act. I know why You, Lord, are against infidelity. I believe that it is why I have those thoughts about infidelity.
I think it is high time that they be exposed. I also ask for healing from these thoughts. I don't wish to feel that way anymore. I want for adulterers to find Jesus Christ. It is a sin, yes, but You died, Jesus, for adulterers and adulteresses. I don't want to know if a person cheated or not. I don't want to know if a cheater gets hurt because of their cheating. I am tired of the obsessions and the compulsions. I want the uncertainty. No one should get harmed or killed because of infidelity. It is not worth it. Forgive me, Lord Jesus, for the sin of infidelity against You that I have committed with the world. Heal me, Lord Jesus, of this sickness that I have. I want to just move on and move forward. I want to be healed and made whole. I thank You for healing me.
In Jesus' name,