I spent much of the night on the computer. That is the problem. I spend too many nights on the computer. It is as if I have nothing better to do with my time. I spend too much time on technology. Maybe that is the time. It does keep me safe, but it keeps me too sheltered. Sometimes I am so lonely and I feel too boxed in. I need at least a break and some time to do something different. I live in moments of fear and anxiety throughout too much of the day. I know it sounds crazy, but that is just no way to live. It is just no way to carry one's life, period. The computer is my security blanket. I have gotten on the computer since I began to have my health problems come upon me at once. It seems mysterious that all of that happen, but one thing is for sure. I have gotten closer to You and for that, I count it all joy. Thank You, Lord.
Letters to God