I am telling You how I feel. It feels quite a bit lonely yet I seem to function well alone. I am shy around others and I am not sure if I am a good judge of character. I have had my feelings hurt in the past and maybe that is why I have this issue. I realize that I need to move on. I have, for the most part, but I wouldn't know what to say or what to do. I am severely limited by circumstances that are no part of my own, I think. I find myself a bit too dependent on others and I want to be freer and more independent. It seems that the reason why I have a severely limited social life is because of the payoff of a secluded life. To tell You the truth, I hate it, and I like it all at the same time. It is confusing and I want to change that. Forgive me, for I have decided to let it go. I am letting go of the past. I want to adventure into the future and live for the present for it is a gift. I don't wish to wake up and feel depressed like I do quite often. I want to change that, but with such limits I just have no idea where to begin. I would like to explore and learn and keep on learning. That is all I want to do. Now all I have to do is to form a realistic plan.
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