Mickey Rourke has become much less of a focus than he has been in a while. I committed idolatry and for that I am sorry. I was bummed out and a little depressed this past week. I am so sorry for all of my sins. Forgive me, Lord.
Thank You for all that You have done for me. My mind is clear and I am no longer depressed. I give You complete and total control. I want to be healthier and happier. I want to be certain and not have my mind clouded by doubts.
Help me overcome those doubts for there are quite a few. I have doubted my salvation for years and it has been hard. I need to also talk to my counselor about this. I have made some wise decisions, yet following through has been hard.
I admit that none of us humans can afford to procrastinate, but many of us do. I am one of these people and I would like to change that. Renew my mind and change my mindset. I need help in that area. Following through has mentally been easy but putting it into practice is what is hard.
I have noticed certain things about me this past week that I need to learn for the rest of my life. I don't wish to jinx myself by my words and by my thoughts and I feel like I tend to do that. I want to be real and to be honest without jinxing myself. Help me and instill confidence in me, Lord. I need those things and I believe that help is on the way and in great supply. Help me to be wise and knowledgeable enough to do what You call me to do.
I believe that once I call on You, You will answer my prayers in a way that I will not understand. I am glad that You have answered. I do expect a miracle in my life. I am afraid that I will do badly and that I will fail. I want to keep moving forward and not give up. I have felt like giving up this past week. But because of You, I have not. I am on my way back.
I have an appointment tomorrow to see a nutritionist and maybe with the questions that I have I wonder how many calories I should eat per day. Maybe I should give her or whoever the motivations sheet. I am tired of the confusion and all of the craziness called my life. You are the Calm in the midst of the storm. Thank You.
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