Life is decent. However, I wonder how decent life is. My obsession is weakening which is good. However, I need Your help. You see, I need a social life. I need help with overcoming my obsessions and staying strong while I am still in the world. My obsessions signify a need for a social life and that is one thing I lack. What else do I lack? I lack a sense of self-worth and an identity. How do I go about overcoming this lack of self-worth and identity? I have no clue who I really am. Where in this world do I stand out?
I need help in wondering where I am headed and how I am living my life. I have not exercised myself physically and spiritually as of late and I would like to begin. I have to just go ahead and do so. I have gotten lazy over the past 2 weeks and I was doing well. I don't wish to go back as I have lost a few pounds. However, I hope to lose a few more to get to a certain point. I plan to lose a few pounds and fewer calories at a time.
I have focused so much on the things of the world I believe. I rarely if ever focused on You. I am sorry for my lack of focus. I need to fellowship more often and to worship and share Your love and Your life with others. I have not been as diligent as I should as well. Where do I begin?
How do I surrender all of this over to You? How I have been living and what I have been doing have not been pleasing or respectful to You. Father, forgive me.
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