Lord,
I thank You that things have improved for me. Your Word gives me great comfort. Talking to You also gives me great comfort. There is still some ways to go, but as of right now, I am feeling better. I am sorry if I have allowed television to become a form of idolatry. I have obsessive thoughts about television and that I admit has me worried. I am concerned that my thoughts will worsen. I cannot take what will happen Tuesday. Maybe I need to relax. I don't mean to be so disrespectful. I need help and I know I need help. Obsessive thoughts have become a burden to me. I ask that You would lift my burdens, lighten the load, so to speak. My desire is to never have those thoughts come back. I don't want to just manage my thoughts. My desire is to be healed like I have forgotten that I have these thoughts. Everything seems to be a dilemma. Help me to prioritize my life. I could use some help. As a matter of fact, forgive me for not making You my first Priority. I am sorry for not doing that and I am sorry because I am in such need. Lord, give me wisdom. May I not allow myself to reason things out and not to try to fight them. I am still bothered by these thoughts so neither have been of help. Also, may I not allow myself to get caught up in the things of the world. Help me to see that things will be alright and that this too shall pass. I have come to realize that there are things that don't have to be a so-called dilemma. I believe that all of this is a symptom of a much larger issue. I ask You for help and healing.
Sincerely,
Letters to God
Sunday, March 22, 2015
Saturday, March 21, 2015
I'm feeling down
Lord,
What is wrong with me? I know. I give up. At least I feel like giving up. There are things that are not of high priority that should be of high priority. Right now I am confused. I feel like I have spent my time regressing instead of progressing. I feel bummed about this. I feel like I am lazy and motivated. Am I really lazy and unmotivated or do I just not care anymore? The truth is. I really don't and it is depressing. I am depressing. My life is depressing. I am just not happy. Something is really wrong with me.
Sincerely,
Letters to God
What is wrong with me? I know. I give up. At least I feel like giving up. There are things that are not of high priority that should be of high priority. Right now I am confused. I feel like I have spent my time regressing instead of progressing. I feel bummed about this. I feel like I am lazy and motivated. Am I really lazy and unmotivated or do I just not care anymore? The truth is. I really don't and it is depressing. I am depressing. My life is depressing. I am just not happy. Something is really wrong with me.
Sincerely,
Letters to God
Friday, March 20, 2015
I need help
Dear Heavenly Father,
I am in need of help and health. I am in need of healing. My hip hurts, my sleep is disturbed, and other parts of my body hurt. I am afraid to exercise. I am afraid of continuing to be overwhelmed. I have been overwhelmed and I do so easily. I thought I was progressing and doing well, but I am not. Help me to get back on track. Maybe I am putting way too much pressure on myself. I need to take it easy, but I am concerned that I may end up lazy. I am also concerned that maybe I am lazy already. I do eat mindlessly and I sleep a lot. I feel like life is just boring. I sound selfish but that is how I feel right now. I have spent today and many days wasting time. I realize now that the only reason I feel this way is because my feelings got hurt. Maybe I do need to change. Maybe things need to change. I realize however I do need help with these hurt feelings. I hate it when things go wrong for me. However, there is hope for me, and I am hopeful. I am in need myself. Lord, heal, forgive, and continue to love me. Now I know that this sounds selfish but I have nowhere else to turn. I have tried other avenues but I want to try You. I am sorry if I come across as selfish and ungrateful. I realize and feel like something is wrong with me. I know what it is. There is something that is in my way. I would like to have that roadblock removed, but I don't know what to say or what to do. Give me the patience I need. I also ask for You to help me with my mindless eating. Help me get back on track. Help me, Lord, to get myself together. Help me to take charge of my life. Right now I feel like I am losing control. I feel guilty because of the things I have done today. They were a waste of precious time. I need help controlling my eating and managing my time wisely. I have failed to do that because I feel like a failure. I just don't know how to overcome that. Teach me and show me how to work on that. I ask You to strengthen me and increase my faith. Give me the wisdom that I so need so that I would gain an understanding of what You want me to do. Guide me with Your Eye. I need guidance so that I can be able to take charge of my health and all of the things I feel guilty about. Remind me of why I started all this in the first place and so that I can take the proper action as You show me how. I thank You for answering my prayer. I praise You because You answer prayers. I thank You, Lord.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
I am in need of help and health. I am in need of healing. My hip hurts, my sleep is disturbed, and other parts of my body hurt. I am afraid to exercise. I am afraid of continuing to be overwhelmed. I have been overwhelmed and I do so easily. I thought I was progressing and doing well, but I am not. Help me to get back on track. Maybe I am putting way too much pressure on myself. I need to take it easy, but I am concerned that I may end up lazy. I am also concerned that maybe I am lazy already. I do eat mindlessly and I sleep a lot. I feel like life is just boring. I sound selfish but that is how I feel right now. I have spent today and many days wasting time. I realize now that the only reason I feel this way is because my feelings got hurt. Maybe I do need to change. Maybe things need to change. I realize however I do need help with these hurt feelings. I hate it when things go wrong for me. However, there is hope for me, and I am hopeful. I am in need myself. Lord, heal, forgive, and continue to love me. Now I know that this sounds selfish but I have nowhere else to turn. I have tried other avenues but I want to try You. I am sorry if I come across as selfish and ungrateful. I realize and feel like something is wrong with me. I know what it is. There is something that is in my way. I would like to have that roadblock removed, but I don't know what to say or what to do. Give me the patience I need. I also ask for You to help me with my mindless eating. Help me get back on track. Help me, Lord, to get myself together. Help me to take charge of my life. Right now I feel like I am losing control. I feel guilty because of the things I have done today. They were a waste of precious time. I need help controlling my eating and managing my time wisely. I have failed to do that because I feel like a failure. I just don't know how to overcome that. Teach me and show me how to work on that. I ask You to strengthen me and increase my faith. Give me the wisdom that I so need so that I would gain an understanding of what You want me to do. Guide me with Your Eye. I need guidance so that I can be able to take charge of my health and all of the things I feel guilty about. Remind me of why I started all this in the first place and so that I can take the proper action as You show me how. I thank You for answering my prayer. I praise You because You answer prayers. I thank You, Lord.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
Thursday, March 19, 2015
Taking control of me
Dear Heavenly Father,
I have in fact finally made conscious choices. I have done much, in my opinion as of late. I am happy to have made the conscious choices that I have made. I realize that I have to calm my mind down. I have to pay attention to what I am doing. That way, I won't have to eat mindlessly. Teach me to do Your will. Show me how to put You first in this regard. I am still working on those thoughts, but I ask that You would help me to embrace the fact that I need to do better for myself. I need to take better care of myself. Life is too short not too. I don't know why really, but I allow myself to get myself to go back instead of move forward. I have come to realize that it is up to me and me alone to not only take care of me but to also put You first. I have finally come to realize that I need to take charge over things that I tend to find difficult. Help me to do what is hard. In this case, it is exercise. Lord, where do I begin? I ask for guidance in this situation. I am worried that I won't be able to use the equipment that I have and the equipment that I would like to buy. Specifically, how do and where do I begin? Help me to begin, Lord. Help me. I thank You that my prayers have been answered.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
I have in fact finally made conscious choices. I have done much, in my opinion as of late. I am happy to have made the conscious choices that I have made. I realize that I have to calm my mind down. I have to pay attention to what I am doing. That way, I won't have to eat mindlessly. Teach me to do Your will. Show me how to put You first in this regard. I am still working on those thoughts, but I ask that You would help me to embrace the fact that I need to do better for myself. I need to take better care of myself. Life is too short not too. I don't know why really, but I allow myself to get myself to go back instead of move forward. I have come to realize that it is up to me and me alone to not only take care of me but to also put You first. I have finally come to realize that I need to take charge over things that I tend to find difficult. Help me to do what is hard. In this case, it is exercise. Lord, where do I begin? I ask for guidance in this situation. I am worried that I won't be able to use the equipment that I have and the equipment that I would like to buy. Specifically, how do and where do I begin? Help me to begin, Lord. Help me. I thank You that my prayers have been answered.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
Conscious choices to be made
Lord,
Thank You for answering my prayers. I needed to know what to do and where I should go. I have focused too much on my age instead of what I can do now. I felt like that as a woman I have allowed life to pass me by. That is how I have felt for so long. It was as if I was comparing myself to others who were my age. I embrace my age and I embrace the fact that I have OCD. I have chosen to embrace all things that pertain to having OCD. Most of all, I also choose to not be anxious. It was time to calm my mind down and not to always take the safe route. That I think is what avoidance is all about. I believe I have made a few strides, but I hope to make more. Thank You for hearing me.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
Thank You for answering my prayers. I needed to know what to do and where I should go. I have focused too much on my age instead of what I can do now. I felt like that as a woman I have allowed life to pass me by. That is how I have felt for so long. It was as if I was comparing myself to others who were my age. I embrace my age and I embrace the fact that I have OCD. I have chosen to embrace all things that pertain to having OCD. Most of all, I also choose to not be anxious. It was time to calm my mind down and not to always take the safe route. That I think is what avoidance is all about. I believe I have made a few strides, but I hope to make more. Thank You for hearing me.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
Monday, March 16, 2015
First Priority
Dear Heavenly Father,
I have always believed that life is about choices. I have made the choice not to be anxious yesterday. Today I have chosen to prioritize my life, with You as my first Priority. I am sorry for not always putting You as my first Priority. You are my Savior and Lord. I have received You as Savior and Lord and I am to live accordingly. I am also here to write that I need to also make You my top Priority as far as my health goes. Help me to see that it does not have to be so complicated. Also, help me to see the progress that I have made in the past and the progress that I will make in the future. My goal is that my weight will continue to go down. Guide me with Your Eye. I ask for guidance because I overwhelm easily. It seems that I have been through much. Give me the wisdom that I so need to know how to eat properly and to exercise. I have made a promise that I will do this for a year. So far, so good. May I not give up.
Sincerely,
Letters to God
Sunday, March 15, 2015
A new view of things
Lord,
I thank You for saving me. I also thank You for granting me clemency so to speak. I realize that from reading Your word, I have a long way to go into being perfected. I hope to be made perfect in love because I am a repentant, obedient believer in Christ. I have to admit that I have spent a lot of time doing other things. I have been negative about my home life and I have been ungrateful at times. I read many of not most of my posts and they always talk about the same issues such as obsessive thoughts, my weight, and how I live my life. I guess I do have a boring life. I found myself wanting to escape my boring life. However, I choose to be grateful and living in kindness, graciousness, and choices to not be anxious but to embrace the life that I have. I am here to write that I am grateful and not doubtful. There must be a reason why I am here. I would like for things to change, but it has something to do with making choices and wise ones at that. It also has to do with overcoming those sins and anxieties that I have. I have come to realize that there are things that have bothered me for a long time that should have never bothered me. I choose not to be anxious. On the other hand, being tempted can make it difficult. I would like to know how to deal with the temptations, trials, and tribulations of this life. I also ask that You would forgive me, for I repent of my sins. I ask to be cleansed from unrighteousness. If there is anything that is keeping You from being forgiven or any answer such as adherence to false teaching, then I will remove it and remove myself from it. Thank You for answering my prayer.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
I thank You for saving me. I also thank You for granting me clemency so to speak. I realize that from reading Your word, I have a long way to go into being perfected. I hope to be made perfect in love because I am a repentant, obedient believer in Christ. I have to admit that I have spent a lot of time doing other things. I have been negative about my home life and I have been ungrateful at times. I read many of not most of my posts and they always talk about the same issues such as obsessive thoughts, my weight, and how I live my life. I guess I do have a boring life. I found myself wanting to escape my boring life. However, I choose to be grateful and living in kindness, graciousness, and choices to not be anxious but to embrace the life that I have. I am here to write that I am grateful and not doubtful. There must be a reason why I am here. I would like for things to change, but it has something to do with making choices and wise ones at that. It also has to do with overcoming those sins and anxieties that I have. I have come to realize that there are things that have bothered me for a long time that should have never bothered me. I choose not to be anxious. On the other hand, being tempted can make it difficult. I would like to know how to deal with the temptations, trials, and tribulations of this life. I also ask that You would forgive me, for I repent of my sins. I ask to be cleansed from unrighteousness. If there is anything that is keeping You from being forgiven or any answer such as adherence to false teaching, then I will remove it and remove myself from it. Thank You for answering my prayer.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
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