Thank You for Your healing touch. I feel as if despite what my doctor says, my diabetes problem has gotten worse. I know it is up to me to take charge, but how do I begin? Where do I begin? There are times when I have no desire to lose weight, but now I do. I have lost my way and now I don't understand or realize how serious this really is. I am in need of wisdom and guidance. I am not losing wealth because I need to put on a wedding dress, I am not losing those last 5 or 10 pounds, nor am I doing this to find a man or a job. I am doing this for my health and I have grown tired of the hurt feet, bad back, and the self-consciousness. I compare myself to others and I am not happy with my appearance. I have gotten used to being overweight. I am now realize that I am in denial. I am growing tired of the "status quo" so to speak.
There are times when I am inspired to lose weight only to feel helpless. Another reason why I wish to lose weight is that I have also grown tired of feeling like I have had made little to no progress, which is true. What happened at the diabetes center was a wake up call. I have been going in circles only to give up. It is a cycle that I wish to break. I cannot afford to stay in that cycle until something worse happens. I am not sure what to ask You. All I want is for the desire to lose weight.
Give me the strength and motivation to lose weight. What is a healthy lifestyle? What does that really mean? It is a great alternative from dieting because I have gone on diet after diet. I wonder now if weight loss surgery is a great idea since I am going to a seminar this upcoming month. Losing weight and trying to lose weight is hard work and I wish that I can make it easier, but I am not sure that is even possible. All I want is to lose weight and keep it off, whether it is by eating well and exercising, or surgery.
Show me which route I need to take for I am taking it seriously. Give me not only the motivation and strength, but the skills I need to lose weight. Should I have the lapband surgery and go through everything that goes with the lapband surgery such as the diet and seminars and the consultation before the surgery.? Should I continue to go at it alone?Should I save money to buy food that is packaged? Where should the support come from as I need all of the support that I can get? I am fat and it is not the worst thing in the world. I am also frustrated at 40. While I have embraced my age, I am still frustrated because of my failures. Help me, Lord and give me wisdom. Thank You for Your answer or answers. What should I do?
In Jesus' name,