Dear Heavenly Father,
Help me. I need help and You are the only One I can turn to.I need help. I consume a poor diet and I don't know how to eat healthy or eat in moderation. I want to lose weight but sadly I no set goals in mind. I have an idea but I am not sure if I could set my mind to it. That is the problem; I need help in setting my mind to it. As You know, I procrastinate and I believe that that is why. I am not sure if I can do this all by myself. I am not doing as well as I would like to have done. I need help with a lot of things as I am stressed out. I am not making much progress yet I am happy with even one pound of weight loss.
I take advantage of my weight loss and eat poorly. That is what I have done for the past few days. I would like to change but I don't know. I would like to be able to lose weight and I have become more stressed out. There are things that are hard for me to do. There are clothes that I would like to wear, and my health needs to improve. I know I need to lose weight. What is so sad is that I had no desire but now I do. I need Your wisdom and guidance. I have prayed over the years to lose weight but I only made some progress only to have my weight go up and down.
I am not sure if I sabotage myself, but I have given up on losing weight. I am living my fears and I wish sometimes that I was smaller now. I keep saying it is a lesson, but it doesn't help me. I wish I weighed much less than I am now and I feel guilty for gaining so much weight over the years. I really have no clue. I really, really need Your help. I am also self-conscious about my body and I have difficulty seeing myself as You see me. I don't wish and don't hide. I want to be healthy and just get out there but I know I am holding myself back and I take full responsibility of my actions, or lack thereof. I have grown tired of talking about my weight in my counseling session and I wish I could talk about something else.
I know I need to take better care of myself but to be honest, I don't know how or where to begin. I thank You that I am finally, finally unashamed to write or "tell" You how I feel. I want and desire to make progress. But am I doing this because of someone else or am I doing this for myself? I was told that I have not made the progress that I should have made over the years. It is true that I don't wish to be seen as non-compliant, so I called today to ask for help. I really need help and I really need counsel when it comes to diet and exercise. When it comes to these things, I have not taken care of myself I admit and I feel I am proving this someone right. I need to do this for me and me alone, not anyone else. I really need immediate assistance and immediate help in this manner. Help me, Lord. Help me.
In Jesus' name,