Help me find those problems that I truly have. Help me to be thankful for those problems that have been solved. What are the solutions to the issues that I actually have? I feel tired but I want to say that I feel sick and tired. I have compulsions that are bothering me. I have light-bulb moments that have helped me identify what the problems are. Help me to identify those things that I am thankful for. I need to know this partially for my peace of mind. I also need to know because I feel like a weak-willed person who is in constant need of guidance and reassurance. I don't feel like I can be a strong-minded person who knows what she is doing. I feel like I am lazy, unmotivated, and just plain stupid. I ask You to help me to do what is hard, but everything is hard to me. Everything is a struggle. How do I overcome that? How do I make sure that all is not a struggle that there is some understanding to do something that would make me feel accomplished? Why is it that I feel the way that I do? Why and how?
Letters to God