What it means to go outside the box

God,

Forgive me.  I feel like I have made no progress.  I have not been honest with You or myself.  I feel like doing something I know I have no business doing.  I know that sin feels good for a season, but I realize that after I commit this sin, I end up feeling guilty.  That only means that I have a conscious.  I realize that thinking outside the box as far as Christianity means to think of and think on things that are respectful of You.  I have not always been respectful of You and I am sorry.  Help me to think outside the box.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Peace of mind and wise counsel

Lord,

I just want to live for You.  I have asked that You would use me as a blank canvas.  I do need to think outside the box, but how do I do that?  I want to be and live as a holy, born again Christian.  I sometimes think that my life has been to please the world and even myself.  I want to please You and serve You all the days of my life.  I think that having the common sense that You have given me would be of great importance. For instance, I want to lose over 100 pounds.  I feel like a total failure.  I know that my health is also of great importance and that I need to lose weight.  There are many reasons why I need to lose weight.  However, I just don't have that desire to lose weight.  It seems rather stupid to the world, but how do You feel about it? Where in the world does it say about the desire to lose weight?  I have been and still am, on Weight Watchers.  Now I feel like it is total weight of time, energy, and money.  Yes, I want to stay because of a promise, yet I want to leave because I don't want to lose weight.  However I wish to follow Your word and Your will concerning my health. Show me and open my eyes to this truth.  Where do I begin?  I ask You for wise counsel, Lord, and I thank You for it.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Brand new creation

Lord,

I want You to be proud of me.  I want to have no more crushes on anyone.  I want to have a crush on You. I want to be obsessed with You.  I have been having them for years now..  I would like for things to change. You have changed me.  I know that being a believer is no easy ride.  It has it bumps in the road, but it is well worth the walk.  My walk has had its bumps, but like I mentioned earlier, it has had its difficulties.  I am not one who has been a martyr, so I wonder what my cross is.  Is it illness?  I have had obsessive thoughts for so long that I couldn't live without them.  They have been a large part of my life.  I realize that I had to fight. However, one good thing came out of this and that is I have drawn closer to You.  Thank You that I have gone closer.  I have to admit that these thoughts have been rough.  They have never been a joke and never will be.  I am scared that one more "round" or one more thought will be around the corner.  I want to live life as You have me see fit. 

I don't want to live for myself or anyone else.  I realize that it is time that I need to make changes in my life and in myself.  Where do I begin?  I ask for wise counsel and for guidance.  Forgive me of all of my sins.  I confess that I am a sinner and that You have saved me.  Thank You.  My goal is to live for You and serve You all the days of my life.  I have had crushes and have been obsessed with others for years even up til today.  I have to learn to embrace that fact.  I am good enough to live, and love.  That is what I believe that is part of what You created us for, to live and to love.  I ask for a change in me and my relationship with You.  I take full responsibility for my actions.  Use me, for I am a blank slate.  Take me as I am and change me.  I am sure that You want to change my life, but what does Your word say about a changed person and a changed life.  Help me and give me wise counsel on how to live for You as a saved person, a new creation in Christ.

I confess that I am not in a relationship.  I also confess that maybe that could be the reason for all of the crushes and obsessions.  I wasn't the popular kid.  I was the smart, yet weird kid.  I wish I had normal crushes all of the time.  I had obsessions at times.  I would act giddy around them.  I would follow them. It was not easy to live my life sometimes.  I centered my nights on them.  I centered my days on them.  I centered my hopes and dreams on them.  It was as if they were the center of my world.  It was as if I have committed idolatry since the men, living or dead, black or white, have been a center.  I have learned to accept that it is okay to learn to love, to have crushes every once in a while.  

However, do I know how to have a healthy crush?  This latest crush has not been healthy.  The man was handsome, very handsome. Was is the operative word because he is dead.  I see his grave and it is so sobering.  He had so much to live for.  It is apparently obvious that I he like all of us have to answer for how we lived our lives, saved or unsaved.  It was as if I couldn't make it without thinking of him.  It was taken too far.  I wasn't as familiar with his work until after his death.  Sadly, I will never get to meet him.  I thought it was because I was a fan, but it was not. I spent nights "falling in love".  I would spend days crying about him. There will never be a relationship between him and I, and the fact that he is dead is something I have to accept.  Yet I am no longer afraid to admit that I have these thoughts and feelings about him.  Thank You for giving me that opportunity.  Thank You for answering my prayers.

Sincerely,

Letters to God

Forgiveness and thanks

Lord Jesus,

Forgive me.  I don't feel like a good person.  I feel like that doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results and it is the height of insanity.  It is not like that with You at all.  I believe that insanity is the opposite of what Your word teaches.  Sin when it is conceived brings forth death.  I repent of that sin.  Sin degrades us and that is what has happened.  It is lawlessness.  Why am I saying this?  You are the Lord?  You know this.  You are the Creator and Lord, forgiver of all sins.  Thank You for dying on the cross for me.  For me of all people You sacrificed Your life.  Thank You for saving me, O Son of the Most High.  I give You praise.  I give You thanks.  I thank You for giving me the opportunity to repent and that You are the God of second or how many other chances.

In Your name,

Amen

My prayer to Jesus

Jesus,

Forgive me for not allowing myself just to even breathe.  I thank You for loving me and for saving me.  I am among those who live in a cruel, cold world.  All I watch on tv lately is about lies, betrayal, revenge, and violence.  Okay, sometimes.  I ask You for forgive me for anytime I have engaged in sinful activity and even reveled or okay'ed such activities.  My idea of priorities are based on what I watch on television and entertainment due to the fact that I live a rather sheltered life.  Jesus, I ask that You would help me overcome this sheltered world and all that comes with the isolation for I know it is not productive.  I would like to work out, shape up, and go out.  I used to do those things.  I want them to be more of a priority than what I watch on television.  This is what is going on with me.  Help me, Lord.  I'll follow You always. Use me, Lord.  I am still a blank canvas.  Thank You for answering this prayer,

In Your name,


Amen

Taking time with the Lord

Lord,

Forgive me.  I know that I have not written or taken the time to talk to You in the past couple of days.  I am sorry for being and coming across as so ungrateful.  I don't want to wait until something bad happens to be prayerful.  Remind me to always be thankful.  I have been blessed with much.  I don't want to be a professing Christian who just professes.  I want to be a professing Christian who isn't just professes to love Jesus, but is the real thing.  I have gone back on my word when it comes to a few things.  I have done wrong lately and I feel so ashamed.  I don't wish to promise You anything, but I do promise and repent.  I promise that I will not do those things again.  I have been tempted and I am not good at overcoming temptation, so I ask You for help in that area.  Give me strength and give me the guidance that I need to stay strong.  Give me the strength to say no.  Furthermore, I ask that You would strengthen my faith, for I realize that if my strength were strong, then I would not have done those things I have done.  I am sorry for my lack of faithfulness.  Again, Father, I ask of Your forgiveness.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Desire to live in the real world

Lord,

I have my fears, cares, and doubts.  I am afraid of what will happen next.  I have questions about those things everyday.  I worry that things won't go as planned or come to fruition.  I tend to have moral questions and obsessive thoughts.  I thank You that the obsessive thoughts are disappearing but I still have a "residue" of obsessions about infidelity and other moral issues left. For instance, I had a crush that bothered me.  I would think about it to the point where now I have become afraid that I will have that same crush again. I really need to go out more.  I have lived in a fantasy word for a long time and I believe that it is time to start living in the real world.  The real world is to me a very scary rough place.  I am a totally different person in the real world from the person in the fantasy world.  I am shy and often anxious in the real world whereas I am a different person in the fantasy world.  It has been that way since I could remember.  I would like to live in the world of reality and live in the world of make believe behind.  I also want to grow up and leave the crushes and obsessions and obsessive thoughts and fears behind.  I cast my fears upon You.  Forgive me.  I am sorry for all that I have done wrong and for the things that I have failed to do.  I just want this burden lifted off of me.  Help me and guide me.  My desire is to live for You and serve You all the days of my life and live in Your House, O Lord, forever.

In Jesus' name,


Amen