Lord,
Television I believe has become obsessive. I have had thoughts about what to watch and in my view, it is not healthy. I do wonder if television and what I watch has become a form of idolatry. I at times turn the television off because it is the safe thing to do, not because I believe it is the right thing to do. I have not allowed You into and put You first. What would Jesus watch and how would he handle this situation? Help me to abstain from all appearance of evil and I think that there is an abundance of evil in television. There are things I would avoid because of its content. There are others I would avoid because of the avoidance associated with OCD. I have difficulty with avoidance. I watch safe shows and listen to safe music. I like to watch safe movies. I don't like themes of female infidelity or even racism at times. There are times when I am drawn to them, not because I like these tv shows, but as a way to overcome fear. I don't watch because of the anxiety is produces. I am fearful of what would trigger a new set of thoughts. I don't wish to disobey You when it comes to tv watching or anything. Could it be a way that is not pleasing to You? Help me when it comes to putting You first in all things, even something as obsessive and mundane as television watching. Show me what I need to do in all things and show me who or what I need to focus on. I do like to watch religious programming but all of them are not truthful. I like to watch some sports but it is safe. I like to watch dramas and a few talk shows, but they are only safe for me to watch. I don't want to be safe. I want to be strong in my faith and I want to overcome my obsession or rather "idolatry" when it comes to television. I wonder if I have made television my God instead of You. If I have done so, then I am truly sorry. I wish I had the courage to overcome this obsession. Help me to turn this tv off. Give me wisdom in all things.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
Saturday, March 14, 2015
Friday, March 13, 2015
I have issues
Dear Heavenly Father,
I thank You that my thoughts are waning. I am doing so much better because I am learning to follow the weight loss plan that I am a part of. I am here to say that I need to eat healthier and exercise. All I need to do is to get out there and exercise. Working out is good for my psyche as well as my body. I am here to write that maybe most of weight loss is about food, but I need to learn about myself when it comes to getting physically fit.
I have another issue. Avoidance I realize now is not good for OCD. I have to expose myself to the issues in mind. I am scared of the issues that confront me such as infidelity. As You know, I have my fears. I wish that I could abstain from all appearance of evil when it comes to television and movies. I spend hours and hours watching and entertaining myself. I am even scared that being Christian is a good way of avoiding ways to entertaining myself. It isn't bad during the day but I tend to worry about TV and movie programming at night as long as the programming is safe for me to watch. Music doesn't really bother me because of my choices. Maybe that is what I need to focus on.
I realize that I need to focus on prayer, study, reading, and holiness. I don't always focus on those things and I am truly sorry. I am a Christian who hasn't always lived or behaved as a Christian. I tend to fall short on a lot of things and now I wonder how much. I could use Your wisdom and Your council, for You will provide wise counsel. I do isolate myself a lot and maybe it is time for me to go out there and not be so isolated. I see someone every week and she is quite helpful. She is to be blessed. She has given me advice on weight loss and also on the very issue that I wish I don't have.
I am not a candidate for a date, but one day I would like to be. I have no mode of transportation or to have a house of my own. My income is low and I don't have a job. I need help and an opening of opportunities and of making new friends. I realize that I am shy and I have self esteem issues, but I don't have a nasty personality and my confidence is growing. Going to a dating site is only the beginning. Going to church could help but I haven't gone in a long time. There are times when I don't know which church to go to. Maybe I am being too judgmental.
Father, I give my life over to You. Forgive me of all of my sins. I am so glad that Jesus Christ has saved me. I shall live by faith which saved me. You have given me the grace and mercy I did not earn. Thank You. I have this one thing. I have been having thoughts about a certain family member. He has said some pretty mean things to me and about me and I am hurt about them. If I were to confront him about this then I wouldn't know what to say. He may have forgotten about them but I have not. I have decided to forgive him and move on. I am afraid of a new set of confrontations as I never liked confrontation. I am not sure how he truly feels about me; however I feel that as a person, he has changed. Change both of our hearts and my minds. Help us, Lord. Give us guidance and the assurance that we are and his case, will be saved.
I have had thoughts about being bullied for a long while, off and on. It didn't help that others were talking about me and to me. I did nothing and I said nothing. I have admitted that I was bullied and that I was a pushover. I felt and sometimes still like I am weak. I want to forgive myself but I don't know how. I would like to move on with my life and grow stronger and wiser. Show me how to deal with the thoughts that I have and to an extent, still have. I also had these thoughts about being overweight or being fat. These thoughts have sometimes have made me feel inadequate. Change me and help me to forgive myself. Help me to overcome my fears so that I will be able to forgive myself as I have truly forgiven others. I just don't like the negative thoughts.
Thank You for allowing me to present my requests for You. Help me to see that You do love me as I love You. Thank You.
In Jesus' name,
Letters to God
I thank You that my thoughts are waning. I am doing so much better because I am learning to follow the weight loss plan that I am a part of. I am here to say that I need to eat healthier and exercise. All I need to do is to get out there and exercise. Working out is good for my psyche as well as my body. I am here to write that maybe most of weight loss is about food, but I need to learn about myself when it comes to getting physically fit.
I have another issue. Avoidance I realize now is not good for OCD. I have to expose myself to the issues in mind. I am scared of the issues that confront me such as infidelity. As You know, I have my fears. I wish that I could abstain from all appearance of evil when it comes to television and movies. I spend hours and hours watching and entertaining myself. I am even scared that being Christian is a good way of avoiding ways to entertaining myself. It isn't bad during the day but I tend to worry about TV and movie programming at night as long as the programming is safe for me to watch. Music doesn't really bother me because of my choices. Maybe that is what I need to focus on.
I realize that I need to focus on prayer, study, reading, and holiness. I don't always focus on those things and I am truly sorry. I am a Christian who hasn't always lived or behaved as a Christian. I tend to fall short on a lot of things and now I wonder how much. I could use Your wisdom and Your council, for You will provide wise counsel. I do isolate myself a lot and maybe it is time for me to go out there and not be so isolated. I see someone every week and she is quite helpful. She is to be blessed. She has given me advice on weight loss and also on the very issue that I wish I don't have.
I am not a candidate for a date, but one day I would like to be. I have no mode of transportation or to have a house of my own. My income is low and I don't have a job. I need help and an opening of opportunities and of making new friends. I realize that I am shy and I have self esteem issues, but I don't have a nasty personality and my confidence is growing. Going to a dating site is only the beginning. Going to church could help but I haven't gone in a long time. There are times when I don't know which church to go to. Maybe I am being too judgmental.
Father, I give my life over to You. Forgive me of all of my sins. I am so glad that Jesus Christ has saved me. I shall live by faith which saved me. You have given me the grace and mercy I did not earn. Thank You. I have this one thing. I have been having thoughts about a certain family member. He has said some pretty mean things to me and about me and I am hurt about them. If I were to confront him about this then I wouldn't know what to say. He may have forgotten about them but I have not. I have decided to forgive him and move on. I am afraid of a new set of confrontations as I never liked confrontation. I am not sure how he truly feels about me; however I feel that as a person, he has changed. Change both of our hearts and my minds. Help us, Lord. Give us guidance and the assurance that we are and his case, will be saved.
I have had thoughts about being bullied for a long while, off and on. It didn't help that others were talking about me and to me. I did nothing and I said nothing. I have admitted that I was bullied and that I was a pushover. I felt and sometimes still like I am weak. I want to forgive myself but I don't know how. I would like to move on with my life and grow stronger and wiser. Show me how to deal with the thoughts that I have and to an extent, still have. I also had these thoughts about being overweight or being fat. These thoughts have sometimes have made me feel inadequate. Change me and help me to forgive myself. Help me to overcome my fears so that I will be able to forgive myself as I have truly forgiven others. I just don't like the negative thoughts.
Thank You for allowing me to present my requests for You. Help me to see that You do love me as I love You. Thank You.
In Jesus' name,
Letters to God
Thursday, March 12, 2015
I need help
Heavenly Father,
I ask that You would help me to be more motivated than I am. I have done a better job today than I have yesterday. I would like for my weight to come down. To me, a plateau would be frustrating but at least I would be losing weight. It is a sign that I am doing something right. I ask You for Your wisdom and Your guidance. I had pain over my feet and my back. I realize that I am here because I want and need to lose weight. I am concerned about my health and I am afraid that will be suffering from the ill effects of going up and down in weight and not taking care of myself. I don't want that.
That is scary. Help me, Lord.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
I ask that You would help me to be more motivated than I am. I have done a better job today than I have yesterday. I would like for my weight to come down. To me, a plateau would be frustrating but at least I would be losing weight. It is a sign that I am doing something right. I ask You for Your wisdom and Your guidance. I had pain over my feet and my back. I realize that I am here because I want and need to lose weight. I am concerned about my health and I am afraid that will be suffering from the ill effects of going up and down in weight and not taking care of myself. I don't want that.
That is scary. Help me, Lord.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
Wednesday, March 11, 2015
Overeating
Dear Heavenly Father,
Help me. I still would like to change things but I have no idea how. Give me the patience I so need to make it through this day. I actually look forward to later this night. Right now, I am tired and I have been all day long. I need Your wisdom and I ask You for guidance. I need guidance so that I will live holy for You.
I also ask for help when it comes to my eating habits. Lately I feel like giving up, but that is what I won't do. I won't give up. I will stay. Help me to overcome this binge overeating. It has not been a good thing for me. I am not in the best of health. I woke up with arm and back pain this morning. I am doing better now, but I don't wish to be in this pain.
Waiting on dogs to do what they have to do seems like a total workout. I know that I need to exercise and eat healthy, but I have stopped exercising like I should and I am overeating like crazy. I ask You for help and guidance in this area. I do feel like giving up, but as I mentioned, I want to stay. I have healthy food but why am I triggered by unhealthy foods and sweet foods. Maybe I have triggers in my kitchen and that is why I have no idea how to eat healthy.
I need help and I don't know what to do. I lack self-control and I know that I need and want to change. I am only at the beginning. I admit that I have a problem, but I don't know what to do about it. I am proving my nutritionist right. Maybe I am not making progress. That is one of the reasons why my weight goes up and down. I'd rather my weight go down. I know that I need help. I tried harder than I ever tried, but this is a problem.
I am afraid to climb the stairs for fear that I would fall. I am also concerned that I might have bone problems. I know that my weight is the issue. I hope to never take things for granted ever again. I realize that is what I need to realize. I don't wish to gain any more weight. I don't want to just learn but I wanna do. I feel like a person who is lazy and lack motivation, but I am not sure if it is true however.
I ask that You would show me what to do. Forgive me for my lack of self-control and my gluttony. Forgive me for all of my sins. I don't desire to gain any weight. There are so many benefits to losing weight that I would like to have those benefits. I know that I promised You that I don't want to weigh that specific number, but if I were to continue, then that is what is going to happen. I think I am hungry but now my belly is full. Right now, I am regretting my decisions to overeat and I need Your help. Help me to control my hunger and my eating habits. Right now I am just lucky. I don't want to just be lucky. I want to live and be able to breathe and do the things that I am able to do. I have not tried hard enough I guess, but I have tried.
I don't wish to try. I want to do it. Right now, I am not feeling good about myself but I don't want to remain feeling bad about things and feeling bad about my weight gain. Empower me to do what I need to do and to not always be down whenever I eat too much. Today happens to be the day when I know that I can make a change. I am hopeful. Help me, Lord, to make that change.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
Help me. I still would like to change things but I have no idea how. Give me the patience I so need to make it through this day. I actually look forward to later this night. Right now, I am tired and I have been all day long. I need Your wisdom and I ask You for guidance. I need guidance so that I will live holy for You.
I also ask for help when it comes to my eating habits. Lately I feel like giving up, but that is what I won't do. I won't give up. I will stay. Help me to overcome this binge overeating. It has not been a good thing for me. I am not in the best of health. I woke up with arm and back pain this morning. I am doing better now, but I don't wish to be in this pain.
Waiting on dogs to do what they have to do seems like a total workout. I know that I need to exercise and eat healthy, but I have stopped exercising like I should and I am overeating like crazy. I ask You for help and guidance in this area. I do feel like giving up, but as I mentioned, I want to stay. I have healthy food but why am I triggered by unhealthy foods and sweet foods. Maybe I have triggers in my kitchen and that is why I have no idea how to eat healthy.
I need help and I don't know what to do. I lack self-control and I know that I need and want to change. I am only at the beginning. I admit that I have a problem, but I don't know what to do about it. I am proving my nutritionist right. Maybe I am not making progress. That is one of the reasons why my weight goes up and down. I'd rather my weight go down. I know that I need help. I tried harder than I ever tried, but this is a problem.
I am afraid to climb the stairs for fear that I would fall. I am also concerned that I might have bone problems. I know that my weight is the issue. I hope to never take things for granted ever again. I realize that is what I need to realize. I don't wish to gain any more weight. I don't want to just learn but I wanna do. I feel like a person who is lazy and lack motivation, but I am not sure if it is true however.
I ask that You would show me what to do. Forgive me for my lack of self-control and my gluttony. Forgive me for all of my sins. I don't desire to gain any weight. There are so many benefits to losing weight that I would like to have those benefits. I know that I promised You that I don't want to weigh that specific number, but if I were to continue, then that is what is going to happen. I think I am hungry but now my belly is full. Right now, I am regretting my decisions to overeat and I need Your help. Help me to control my hunger and my eating habits. Right now I am just lucky. I don't want to just be lucky. I want to live and be able to breathe and do the things that I am able to do. I have not tried hard enough I guess, but I have tried.
I don't wish to try. I want to do it. Right now, I am not feeling good about myself but I don't want to remain feeling bad about things and feeling bad about my weight gain. Empower me to do what I need to do and to not always be down whenever I eat too much. Today happens to be the day when I know that I can make a change. I am hopeful. Help me, Lord, to make that change.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
My health so far
Dear Heavenly Father,
My blood sugar is normal yet it wasn't before. I wonder if it would keep me from eating healthy food. I am a bit tired from the blood sugar lows. I wonder how to overcome that. Help me to overcome these issues. I am diabetic and I wish to improve my physical health. I couldn't walk well because they hurt. My desire is to continue losing weight but I finally realize how hard it will be but not terribly hard. Give me the wisdom and guidance that I need so that I will take better care of myself. I ask this in Jesus' name,
Amen
Monday, March 9, 2015
Living for the Lord
Dear Heavenly Father,
I was reading verses from Your word. I realize that I have not been holy. I have a long way to go. Thank You for Your wisdom and guidance. Your word says to be courageous and not be afraid. I ask You for wisdom that I may understand what Your will is for my life. I also ask for guidance for I am in need. I didn't realize that holiness is something that I lack. Help me and guidance so that will be holy and that I would demonstrate holiness in all I do. Your word says for me to be holy, for You are holy. Jesus Christ saved me, so I am to do Your will. I will be judged one day and I ask that You would help me be a good steward who shows love to You and to my fellow man or woman. I lack the understanding that I need to live righteously. I also ask that You would order my steps and may I no longer worry or be anxious. Give me the peace of mind that I so need. Also may I demonstrate the peace that surpasses all understand. Give me the wisdom that I would also delight in You. Thank You for answering this and all of my prayers.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
I was reading verses from Your word. I realize that I have not been holy. I have a long way to go. Thank You for Your wisdom and guidance. Your word says to be courageous and not be afraid. I ask You for wisdom that I may understand what Your will is for my life. I also ask for guidance for I am in need. I didn't realize that holiness is something that I lack. Help me and guidance so that will be holy and that I would demonstrate holiness in all I do. Your word says for me to be holy, for You are holy. Jesus Christ saved me, so I am to do Your will. I will be judged one day and I ask that You would help me be a good steward who shows love to You and to my fellow man or woman. I lack the understanding that I need to live righteously. I also ask that You would order my steps and may I no longer worry or be anxious. Give me the peace of mind that I so need. Also may I demonstrate the peace that surpasses all understand. Give me the wisdom that I would also delight in You. Thank You for answering this and all of my prayers.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
Sunday, March 8, 2015
I am doing so much better and I am so hopeful.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I would like to be an obedient Christian who is a light to the world. I realize that I haven't done my part. Forgive me, Father for this sin. I want to thank You that Jesus Christ saved me. It was a scary time beforehand. You have answered my prayers. Scrupulosity is no joke. I was incredibly anxious. I have done something horrible and I wish that I could make restitution. I was reminded of it during the week, but I know that I have been forgiven. I am doing so much better today than I was yesterday. Thank You.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
I would like to be an obedient Christian who is a light to the world. I realize that I haven't done my part. Forgive me, Father for this sin. I want to thank You that Jesus Christ saved me. It was a scary time beforehand. You have answered my prayers. Scrupulosity is no joke. I was incredibly anxious. I have done something horrible and I wish that I could make restitution. I was reminded of it during the week, but I know that I have been forgiven. I am doing so much better today than I was yesterday. Thank You.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
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