I am up right now because I went to bed early. I still like my crush so I guess I will have to be patient and weigh it out. But is that your will concerning my obsession? I admit that it is an obsession and I don't want to obsess over anyone else....again. It can be difficult because my life is like a series of vicious cycles. Have I leaned on my own understanding when it comes to this situation? Lord, I just have so many questions that I want to ask concerning this particular topic. The actor is too old for me if I were to be asked out by him but there is a sexiness and a magnetism to this guy. He was beautiful when he was young. I loved his voice, his smile, his looks, and most of all, his talent. He was and still is a talented actor. I have been a fan for only a short while but my obsession has bothered me ever since the near beginning, Lord. I need help in overcoming this obsession and not just put it to bed, but put it out of my mind. I am writing this letter to you because I want to know you better and to spend time with you. I have learned that I have no reason to trust myself but I need and desire and know to put my trust in You for all things. I wonder if this situation is drawing me closer to You and if so, how? I know it seems strange to say that, but it has drawn me closer to You and for that, I am most thankful.
Letters to God