Thankfully Yours

Heavenly Father,

I thank You.  You have answered my prayers.  Today was a decent day because I realize that I can take action and that You do love me.  I can learn to respect and love myself.  It took long enough but it is not too late.  I was concerned about that.  I realize that all I had to do is to take action, even if it is the simplest action.  Thank You.  Thank You.  I give You the highest praise for You are worthy and deserving.  All I had to do was to tell You what was hard for me to tell You.  I like certain things about my life but not all of it.  The problem was me and only me.  I spend so much time on the computer that I have neglected other things and slowed down on accomplishing tasks.  My internet usage is not healthy and I don't know what to do about it since I have place my whole life on the computer.  I am not sure or not if I am addicted to the internet but I find it to be a safe place in the midst of troubling obsessive thoughts.  They were a shield.  They were a way to keep me busy when there was so much else to do around here and elsewhere.  I am no longer overwhelmed and I give You all praise.  I am so sorry for my lack of faith and I thank You for forgiving me of all of my sins.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Order my steps

Lord,

I ask that You would order my steps.  Today is a day of where do I begin.  I have been lazy today.  I am tired of my life.  Lord, just help me.  I wish all of this was over.  Help me.

Sincerely,



Letters to God

In need of peace

Lord,

I cannot take the anxieties anymore.  I cannot take the obsessive thoughts and the fears anymore. What is wrong with me?  Why do I allow these things to happen?  I have urges that I don't want.  I often feel alone because I don't know anyone in my immediate family who has these issues.  It was like that when I was first diagnosed.  It was quite difficult for me.  My prayer to You is that I don't have these same issues for the rest of my days and that I don't have to react to them.  I have such great insight into these thoughts so why do I still have them?  I also have these images in my mind that just won't go away.  They are often scary sometimes.  Maybe I should leave some books and the fiction alone.  My life has gotten shorter and my world has gotten smaller.  I hate having the avoidance issue and I don't know how to deal with it.  Forgive me of my sins.  Draw me back to You. Help me to grow and to focus on You.  Help me to see that there are bigger issues and more important things than what seems to be important in the moment.  Lord, give me peace of mind and give me spiritual rest for I am overwhelmed.  Thank You for Your peace and Your focus and Your rest.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Gift of life

Lord Jesus,

Give me strength.  Help me to overcome my fears.  I have come to realize that except for a couple of things, they really are anxieties.  I am no longer afraid.  Thank You for helping me to see the light.  I also thank You that I am alive and well.  I feel like for myself I have a purpose.  I don't know all of the answers but little by little You have been guiding me along the way.  Thank You for giving me life through my mother.  Thank You.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Help and remind me

Heavenly Father,

Help me to not be so lazy and neglectful.  I admit that I have been.  I am sorry.  I am in need of daily reminders to do what I am supposed to do.  Reminders help keep me going..  I have to do so much it seems. The truth is, I am so overwhelmed.  Lord, I ask that You would take away my burdens.  I lift them up to You.  Thank You for taking away those burdens.  I know that You are greater than those burdens.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Neglecting my praying

Heavenly Father,

I miss praying and communicating to You.  I ask for forgiveness of my sins.  I am sorry that I often postpone or neglect my prayer time with You. Again, I am sorry.  I have been neglectful for a while now.  I don't want to complain to You every time I pray.  This time, I say, thank You.  Thank You for Your forgiveness and for the many blessings You have given to me.  Thank You that I have a purpose.  Thank You for Your will for my life.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

My own soul and my own life

Lord,

So I was watching this movie called "Sunday Morning Rapture" and it got me to thinking about my own soul and my own life.  How do I examine myself to see if I am of the faith?  How do I not worry and be so anxious all of the time?  What does it also mean to work out our salvation with fear and with trembling? I know for now that at the end of the movie, those who were left behind were wailing and crying, realizing their fate.  I realize that there will be many who will be like the people in the church in that movie.  I don't want to be left behind.  I do realize that I have not always done Your will.  Lord, I am afraid that I won't be ready. I have finally realized that there is much work to be done.  You have given all of us a job to do and much is required of us.  Unfortunately, I am failing and I have failed to do so, Lord.  Forgive me of this and all of my sins.  The truth is, how do I do what is required of me?  I know that I am supposed to do Your will, but I have no clue what Your will is.  I don't want to be saved just because I want to go to Heaven, but to also love, cherish, and serve You.  I remember once I had no real knowledge of You back in the day.  I also recall believing in You and being saved from that moment on.  I didn't always act like a saved person and I have done things that I know were and still are wrong.  Lord, forgive me of those sins.  I want to be a changed person.  I want to be a new person in Christ.  I want to be a saved, obedient believer in the Lord Jesus Christ who is enduring and remained faithful to You.  I ask for these things, because I want my life to be a story of a person who lived according to Your will because of obedience.

Thank You for answering this, and every other prayer.  In Jesus' name,  Amen.