The Holy Spirit's conviction

Father,

My desire is not just for Your return, but to be martyred for Christ.  I had doubts about being martyred.  To my great shame, I was afraid.  What if I became afraid?  Then I was reminded of Peter, who rejected Your Son three times.  Peter was in shame for his fear.  It was so sad that Peter denied Him.  Jesus however, forgave Him.  My prayer is that You would forgive me for my fear as well.  I ask for the power of the Holy Spirit to strengthen me and to convict me in times of trouble and fear. I also ask for the wisdom to understand what will happen in the future and for what is going on now.

In Jesus' name,

I thank You,  Amen

Having ocd

Father,

Help me to deal with fear, whether it is of the unknown or the known.  I hate uncertainty.  I wish that I was more certain about things but I am haven't been sure if it is the ocd or just a personal trait.  It is as if I have allowed the ocd to take over what I need to do.  It is the one that gives me direction to do things.  I have a hard time realizing that fiction is fiction.  It does seem to reflect badly on me. I want to change, with Your help, of course.  It is appreciated and I thank You for doing so.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Growing relationship

Lord,

It is as if my relationship with You has grown.  I am so thankful and my thing is to be more thankful and more grateful more and more as time passes.  I do thank You that You saved me and forgiven me. You have cleansed me from my unrighteousness.  I thank You for the new day that I am living.  I also feel renewed from the break that I have had in creating blog pages.  It has been hard at times to...like right now.  I have the words in my mind, but I have difficulty expressing myself.  That is what I have been trying to say, or rather write.  I have been expressing myself in prayer, thanks, and through communication with others.  Thank You for giving me wise counsel and just for wisdom in general.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

Jesus is the Blessing

Father,

Right now, I am listening to music about a blessing in the storm.  I know that it is about You and only You.  I can relate to the truth that You are the Blessing.  You have done much for me and I thank You.

In Jesus' name,

Amen

God SHALL and He HAS.

Father,

I thank You that You have supplied all of my needs.  You have listened to me and I thank You.  I have learned much from my prayers, though I have not and will not take any credit.  There are no secrets with You, only answers.  You have answered my prayers because You promised that You shall answer my prayers as long as they are prayers that are not amiss in motive.  Thank You for improving my prayer life.  Thank You that I finally understand about living on Your own timing.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Being thankful and grateful

Father,

I realize that talking to You is about honesty.  I can be honest with You, because You are the Lord. You love me, for You are Love.  Thank You for loving me, a person from the human race.  None of us are good, not one.  I am asking for forgiveness for not always being grateful.  I ask that You would also give me a fresh perspective on basically everything.  I have a lot to be grateful for, but I often ask not amiss.  I also ask for open eyes, for I know that there are those who are truly in need.  There are many who are even thankful for what they do have.  I have heard the words about needing shoes, yet there was a man with no feet.  I believe it was more or less a song about those who have crosses to bear.  Sometimes I feel like a selfish person because I am unable to see my pain.  I feel guilt about that.  My desire is to be more thankful and more grateful, for I have much to be thankful and grateful for.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Acceptance has been a challenge

Heavenly Father,

I am starting to understand about acceptance.  It does not come easy.  However, I can say that You do answer prayer and the challenge to acceptance has gotten easier.  I received comments online about acceptance.  Needless to say that accepting that I have obsessive thoughts can still be bothersome but at least it has been easier to let the thoughts pass.  I thank You that I can find acceptance and not just a cure.  Having obsessive thoughts have been about having to no longer fight those thoughts. However, overcoming compulsions and asking for reassurance have been even more difficult.  I wish they weren't.  I tried before, but I wish that I could just stop them.  I ask for help in time of need, for I am in need.  Thank You for Your answer.

In Jesus' name,


Amen